AN: Alright so it's been a while since I've been able to post [it's medication related] but I think I'm getting past it. This chapter isn't nearly as long as I wanted it to be but I'm going to post it all the same, just because it's been so long I hope you enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters from Gundam Wing
Quiet Celebration 3
?What?? Relena gasped sitting on the edge of the hospital bed. But Sally didn?t immediately respond instead she stood there patiently giving Relena a chance to process the news. Heero was in total kidney failure, from one second to the next everything changed. She?d been there with him just eight hours ago, when he?d woke up, ?How could this happen so suddenly?? she voiced aloud eyes searching Sally?s face.
?Relena I didn?t tell you any of this because I didn?t want you to worry,? Sally began.
But the princess was instantly shaking her head, ?I was already worried about him! We were in a car crash!? she fumed angrily, ?I watched him nearly die! How am I not supposed to be worried about him?!?
Sally raised her hands in a placating gesture, ?Right, but you were also hurt. You needed to rest; I knew you wouldn?t leave Heero?s side if I told you everything.?
?You had no right to keep it from me,? Relena said tears springing to the edge of her eyes as she thought about the man she loved lying in the next room.
?Be angry at me all you want Relena, I?ve got more important things to deal with,? Sally said bluntly folding her arms across her chest.
?He needs a kidney?? she breathed softly, thoughts spinning a mile a minute, ?I could donate one of mine!? Relena?s head came up suddenly. ?We?re the same blood type,? she added as an after thought. But blushed in embarrassment when she realized that?s something Sally would have known from the beginning.
The doctor drew in a breath, in her heart Relena knew the news to come wouldn?t be good. ?Heero already thought of that, and he?d refused to accept a kidney from you.?
Relena?s mouth hung open slightly, ?What?? she shook her head, convinced she hadn?t heard right. ?That can?t be, why would he do that??
?I don?t know, this is just what Trowa told me,? Sally confessed.
?Trowa?? her head came up in surprise, ?What?s he doing here?? she was happy that he was here to support Heero, perhaps he could try and convince Heero to accept a kidney from Relena.
?I called him in,? Sally began head turning towards the door, ?Heero named Trowa his health care proxy.?
Relena blinked once, before her eyes went wide, ?Why would he name Trowa and not me?? she asked not wanting to keep the hurt from her voice.
?Heero didn?t want to put you in that position, if things were to go bad,? she raised a hand immediately, ?I?m not saying they are,? Sally forestalled Relena?s worry. ?But should they ever, someone would have to make that tough decision. He didn?t want to make you have to choose.?
At the thought of that decision Relena began to cry, but she couldn?t decide which would be worse having to make it; or having no part in it at all. Mind unable to truly understand Relena went with what felt right, she loved him! Would willingly give up any part of herself if it would help him, she desperately wanted to be the one to make the decision. ?He should have spoke to me first,? she wiped at her eyes with frustration.
Sally reached out a hand and rested it on Relena?s shoulder, it was supposed to be supportive, but Relena shrugged it off. ?I want to talk to him,? she stated adamantly.
?It?ll have to wait, he?s resting right now.?
Relena drew in what she hoped would be a calming breath, but in the end, she was unable to hold herself back from that edge, and broke down into silent sobs. It was too much for her to take in at the moment. She thought that she could handle it that she was fully in control. But it was all a lie; she had faced impossible odds before, men far older and wiser than her, but she?s brought them to heel, they?d listened to her followed her advice. They saw an impossible strength in her, but it was a shade, she didn?t really possess it, she took her strength from Heero. Knowing that he continue to fight for the peace would always keep her going.
Now she was facing a world were that strength may no longer exist. She didn?t care if that was jumping to the worst case scenario. Relena tried desperately to remember what she had been like before meeting Heero. Could she find enough strength within herself to make it through this nightmare? She?d have too, because right now Heero might not have any strength left to give. Could she ever allow him to fortify her again? Must she always accept from him, and never return the favor? She prayed that wouldn?t be the case.
Vaguely she was aware of Sally wrapping her arms around her, rocking her gently, ?He?s on the list,? she whispered into Relena?s ear, a reminder of what she already knew but couldn?t process. ?It?ll be alright,? Sally sounded so sure, Relena desperately wanted to believe.
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Whether he wanted to admit it to himself or not, the news he had received, it had been had to take. A lot was going to change no matter what happened, and he wasn?t sure he really wanted to think about it. During the war death had been a constant shadow just at the edge of his vision, and on more than one occasion he had been ready to accept it. It had been an all or nothing life; either he was going to live and continue to fight or he?d die in battle.
The thought of being left alive but permanently wounded hadn?t crossed his mind, but then getting into car accidents had been the least of his worries back then. Besides a Gundam tended to go up with a bigger explosion, partly surviving it didn?t tend to be much of a worry.
Heero reached across his chest with his now freed right arm for the controls to the bed, and slowly to a sitting position. He had been grateful to find his room empty when he?d awoke, even more pleased to see the laptop had been left untouched. Despite his sleep Heero?s body still felt drained, but he was determined to find out all he could about his situation and who he?s jumped ahead of. His arms felt like lead as he reached for the table and pulled it closer.
It took little effort to hack the hospital?s private records and only a little longer for Heero to find the list of donors. It was no surprise to see his name at the top of the list, but he quickly focused in on the one below, Anaya Strom. He didn?t think there could be a more perfect example of everything that had been wrong with the war. Anaya had been left orphaned in a battle that had come too close to her home. Heero pulled up all the details he could find.
Although Anaya had survived the attack she had been badly injured in the collapse of her apartment building. Which among other problems had lead to kidney failure, Anaya had been in and out of hospitals ever since. It was until after the war that her story had finally caught the attention of the exhausted public which was trying to recover and right some of those horrific events.
Heero read a little deeper into her medical records, finding that her need for a transplant was on par with his own; and more to the point they had the same blood type. Heero?s eyes narrowed, he should never have been moved up the list, he didn?t know or care where his name actually belonged, but his life was no more valuable than this girl. In fact in Heero?s eyes there was no question that she deserved to live more. She was a victim of the war, not a soldier who had killed more innocent victims than could ever be forgiven.
Without a second thought Heero removed his name from the list.
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Morganeth Taren'drel
Quiet Celebration 3
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Quiet Celebration 3
You watched it! You can't un-watch it!
"Ever try to count hyperactive schoolchildren while someone shouts random numbers in your ear? It's like that"
"Ever try to count hyperactive schoolchildren while someone shouts random numbers in your ear? It's like that"
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Morganeth
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sokay! I'm sure a friend of mine has explained that one to me before, the memory just didn't stick ^_~
I'll agree with you I tend to like happy endings, so I'd say it's a pretty safe bet this one will have one ^_~
I'll agree with you I tend to like happy endings, so I'd say it's a pretty safe bet this one will have one ^_~
You watched it! You can't un-watch it!
"Ever try to count hyperactive schoolchildren while someone shouts random numbers in your ear? It's like that"
"Ever try to count hyperactive schoolchildren while someone shouts random numbers in your ear? It's like that"