All I Can't Have Ch.7

[fallen dove]

<b>All I Can?t Have
Chapter 7</b>

Usually one to rise before the sun, Heero?s eyes cringed as light poured in from his window. He did not know why, but he didn?t feel like getting up at all. Wait, didn?t <I>feel</I> like it? Heero, knowing himself to well to allow himself such thoughts, opened his eyes. Visions and memory flooded into him as his eyes took in the sleeping angel on his arm.
Relena lay facing him, the morning light dancing upon her smooth, pale skin. The halo of gold rested between her head and his arm, a soft, shining pillow. She seemed to glow from within, her beauty causing his breath to catch at the back of his throat. How could she be so <I>perfect?</I>
Heero guiltily closed his eyes as more not only images from the night before returned to him, but sounds and feeling as well. The feel of her softness beneath him? the sound of her voice screaming his name?
Heero shook his head with enough force to shake the memory from his mind, but not enough to awaken Relena. How could he do such a thing to her? He should have sent her back to her room, called her a fool, an idiot. Heero reached out a hand to stroke her cheek; she was smiling in her sleep. Just a little smile, the one that always appeared whenever Heero believed she found happiness. It was the smile she once gave him through an airplane window.
<I>?Heero, next time hand it to me in person?</I>
Heero moved as silently and gently as he could, replacing his arm beneath her head with a bundle of unused blankets. His pillows had somehow made their way across the room during the night.
Once free and standing, Heero stood back to look at her laying upon his bed, for he knew this was the last time he would see her like this. It <I>had</I> to be. He couldn?t afford to be?distracted. Or, at least, that?s what he kept telling himself as he began rummaging through his closet for clothing. Taking one last glance at her, Heero left the angel resting in the morning light.

Relena?s became conscious when she felt cold playing upon her body. Reaching out to Heero for warmth, her eyes fell open when she touched nothing but an empty bed. He had left her.
Relena sat up, her hair sticking out to one side of her head, and looked absentmindedly at the empty space beside her for a moment. Finally she repeated the thought to herself again, <I>He left me?</I> so that her just now waking mind would get it. Relena closed her eyes and pressed her face into her hands. He had left without even telling her bye, without explaining his situation with Cass, without even saying?
She nearly jumped of the bed, refusing to think such things. ?If he thinks he can just run away from this?? she told herself aloud. But although it wasn?t exactly 6 am, she still could not process her thoughts accurately upon just rising from a rather deep sleep. So, glancing towards his bathroom door, Relena decided to take a shower. She would not let Heero run from her, she couldn?t. The thought of going back to the way things were?hurt. She would wait him out, for he never had been able to stay clear of her for very long.

Heero had planned on not returning, he had planned on forcing her to leave his room by neglect, but before he could even think twice he had went down to grab a box of donuts left for the staff and was already trudging back up to his room. He wasn?t a big fan of the unhealthy little demons himself but he had seen Relena scarf down a few?or seven?
But at the sound of her name ringing in his mind, images of her above him?below him flashed across his mind again. ?Damn it!? Heero growled quietly to himself. Praying that she had left, and then praying again that she had not, Heero opened his door.
An empty bed and the sound of his shower running was all that greeted him. Sitting the donuts on his desk and taking his chair, Heero crossed his arms over his chest and closed his eyes. <I>I have to tell her that we can?t do this. I have to, there is no other choice. Last night was a mista-</I>
?Heero?? Relena called, leaning her head out of the bathroom door, her wet hair hanging limply in the air. Heero?s eyes shot open, but all he could muster was a
?Hn??
?Do you have something I can wear? That nightgown that?s now become part of your floor isn?t exactly?um??
Heero was already up and looking through his closet for something small enough for her. Relena was thin, even by a woman?s standards, and he was not sure anything he had would fit her properly. But, of course, these being his clothes he shouldn?t have been surprised. He finally pulled out his smallest pair of pants, cameo-jeans that he had only worn once, and a green tank top, and tossed them on the bed.
Heero returned to his seat just as Relena exited his bathroom. Wet, glowing, and completely naked. Relena picked up the pants first, a blush coming to her face. Heero looked up at her, realization dawning on his own features.
?Relena, I can?t just go and grab your?undergarments from your room. Someone might see me, and I would be attacked by my own security detail,? Heero informed her, smiling. At the sight of his amusement, Relena began laughing herself, unable to believe her embarrassment to go commando in his clothes was the key to bring a smile to that otherwise stone-cold face.
Relena wrinkled her nose at him, ?Fine, I?ve just never gone without- never mind,? Relena finished, slipping them on. Heero had to close his eyes when she put on his clothes commando. Despite his attempts, however, Heero knew he would never be able to shake the sight of her slipping into his pants and shirt completely nude. How the hell did she make him feel this way? Why was everything she did so?<I>Damn it! </I>.
Relena sat back against Heero?s bed, her hands beneath her. She looked like a lost child in his oversized clothes; her wet hair thrown up into a sloppy ponytail. Heero inwardly groaned, how could she be beautiful in <I>everything?</I>. It was taking every ounce of strength he had not to take her up in his arms. He just wanted to touch her. He noticed her watching him, biting her lip. She wanted to tell him something.
Heero, rarely one to start a conversation, couldn?t help himself. ?What is it, Relena??
Taking a breath, Relena?s eyes fell from his face. Then, changing her mind, she brought them back up to lock onto his Prussian blues. ?I want to ask you about Cass,?
Heero was silent, his characteristically vacant face looked, if anything, as if he were brooding. Relena didn?t like this silence.
?What? I know it?s none of my business but I think that I? have a right to know! Wait, that didn?t make since. But after what we did-damn it Heero, just tell me!? Relena found herself shouting. Heero still said nothing. Relena stood and practically pounded over where Heero sat, raising a hand to slap him. He caught it, as he always did, in midair. He looked up at her.
?You?re right, it is none of your business. Tonight wasn?t supposed to happen, it was a mistake. A mistake I should not have made??
?There were two of us in that bed!?
?It doesn?t matter! I should not have let it happen! Of course there were two of us, but only one of us who isn?t na?ve and emotional and-?
<I>Smack!</I>
Relena moved back from him, rubbing her hand, the hand that had just slapped him across the face. Surprised, Heero had stopped talking immediately; the damn slap had actually stung!
Relena?s face was turned down, her hair closing like curtains to hide her expression. He could barely make out her face in the shadow.
?I?m sorry to have caused so much trouble.? She said darkly, in a voice that Heero did not recognize. ?It truly was my mistake, please do not trouble yourself over it,?
A teardrop hit the floor. Instantly Heero wanted to take everything back, he wanted to grab her and hold her and- <I>I made her cry?!</I> But even as he stood to apologize Relena had turned and torn from the room, her head bent down, hidden, behind the crook of her arm. His door slammed shut, leaving him stunned. He turned and punched his wall, a small crack appearing under his curled fingers.
?Damn it!?

Relena had already left the mansion, demanding the limo driver to take her as fast as he could to the President?s house. Relena sat in the back with the sound/see-proof middle window rolled up, her knees pulled to her chest with arms around them, and her face buried as low as she could get it into them. <I>How can I have been so stupid? Of course he didn?t want me, he would have come to me himself! </I>
Relena curled her fingers, accidentally cutting into her own leg. <I>Bastard! </I>
The limo screeched to a stop and Relena, once again, found herself flying across it. Unfortunately, this time there was no Heero to cushion her fall. Hitting her head against the glass, Relena swore in a way that she had always condemned, and hit the window with her fist.
Grumbling and rubbing her head, Relena opened her door and stepped out. She had no idea where she was.
She was in an alleyway, the limo taking up about 90% of the lateral room. Moving around the limo, she went up to the driver?s seat to ask him what the hell he was thinking. Relena froze as the shattered glass came into view. The driver was slumped forward, his head against the wheel, and a small bullet hole perfectly cut into his temple. Before Relena could open her mouth to scream a hand reached around to cover her mouth. Relena kicked and bit at her attacker, but it was no use. Something hard hit the base of her neck; everything went black.

[Aeris_Eithne]

Ohhh, you do love those cliffhangers, don't you? It's too bad, because I would love to read longer chapters of this story. Seriously, I ate this chapter up, and now I'm hungry for more! Rawrrr! Sorry, I'm a little psycho here... but please post more ASAP, before I eat my own hand!

[HiFreak]

What the hell is wrong with Heero!!!!!!!!!!!! :evil:
He better get himself out of his relationship with Cass. Go save Relena's life (again). And live happily ever after. If he doesn't I will kill him myself!!! :evil:

[Aeris_Eithne]

Awww, HiFreak, don't do anything so drastic! Heero's being a prick right now, but I'm sure he'll snap out of it! He just needs to be imbedded with a sensitivity chip! ^_^

Well, I, too, am anxious to see what happens... Please, Fallen Dove, make it all better! Pwease?

[Aristale Wolf]

very cruel once again....i can tell that you like cliff-hangers, dont you??? gggrrr....well...cant wait for the next part and hopefully its soon....

[fallen dove]

I did try my hardest to make this 'cliffhanger' not as bad, but one does have to end somewhere. ^_^ I had hoped that by making the chapters shorter I could put them up more quickly, or, at least, that was the idea. The chapters began at 4 pages, spiked once at 5, and now have become only 3! I hope to get the next one up soon, thank you all for all the support and ego-building comments! ^_~

[amulak]

Yay! Another chapter!!!! Ugh- things are so messy between Heero and Relena and that cliffhanger is... *dies* awful!!
I really love how fast you update this fic- it makes me dance inside for joy!!!
Update again soon!! I love it and I want to know what will happen! *Insert more ego-building comments here* (You deserve them)

[samta22]

ok... he's, no doubt, the biggest idiot...

well, keep writting, and if you can make suffer a little, just a little revenge thing, you now!

Great fic, really, keep writting or we (at least me) are going to die...

[SerenityDeath]

i loved it. i just don't like what happened between heero and relena but maybe that'll change. Maybe? I can't wait for the next chapter.

[takisha16]

Heero is seriously as idiot! :x
What normal red blooded human male would turn down a girl after having obviously
mind blowing sex to leave live remakes of what happened in his head?!
Oh welll.....we are talking about Heero!
I really do hope he gets his act together!
I seriously doubt he wants to go out with Cass.
He is stubbornly in denial.
I fear for Relena!
This is the best cliffy ever!!!
Heero is gonna want to shoot himself when he finds out!