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The sun shines out its one last chance, as the world spins turning its back. Now the shadows take on the world and challenges the human race into a trance of sleep. I could feel my blood boil, even though the rain soaked my skin. I take a step, a step towards home, wrapping my jacket tighter around my body as I feel the chill. I could somehow feel her, alone and unwanted - unwanted by everybody and me.

'Please understand', I say to myself. I feel sorrow and pity as I walk further and further away from her life. I don't know where I'm going, but I think it's for the best. I can't explain why I'm doing this, but I think I need it.

I could hear the ocean crash onto the sand softy, as it washes my feet. The houses across the beach ready for sleep - while I ready for my journey. I take a vow to find my way - and if it's back to her, then it's back to her. But now, I think I need her to fade from me.

I feel betrayed, sorrow, pitied, lonely, angered, lost, passive, tortured, and whatever it is humanly possible to feel once you've done something that destroys your very soul. I gripped my redden hands, as they drip their insignificance on the ground, leading a pathway to whoever wanted justice. I couldn't bear to look at them, not after what they've condemned me with. The red liquid engulfs my palm, signifying my sacrifice - my soul has gone down to the devil and I'm determined to get it back, along with my own sanity.

I could feel her lying there, pooled in red warmth and sorrow, holding the silver that left her in death?s hands. I feel that she understands, but only so slightly, that she won't cry. I think she's waiting. I think she truly is waiting.

I feel a slight pain in my chest - did it ever feel good. It made me feel alive and well. Maybe I do need this. This need to fight my demons and my makers. I needed to find my place in life and follow the light.

I needed to find myself - my grave, my mark. I needed to find my soul....

Only then, will I ever feel alive.

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?This isn't goodbye, this is ?I can't stand you?.?

?Woodson,? My voice trembles, ?Why are you holding that ??

?Stop it,? He erupted, ?I can?t stand your melodic voice. A soothing sound that can calm the loudest baby. A sound that can cure a man?s heart??

?Woodson, why do you sound so??

?A sound that loves a hated man,? he kept on going, ?It sends a man crazy ? especially, when he?s the one trying to run away, but it keeps bringing him back.?

?Woodson, we need to talk,? I tried reasoning with his confusion.

?I need to stop you,? He said flatly.

?Stop?me?? I was confused. His eyes grew colder and colder, ?Stop me from what??

?Stop loving me, Alice.?

?Woodson, why do you hate me so much?? I cried. I cried so hard deep inside.

I couldn?t understand why he was trying to rid of me. I don?t know what he saw in me that just made him resent me in everyway.

?I?m sorry,? He whispered into my ear, ?Please understand.?

I couldn?t stop this pain erupting inside of me, and spreading it?s infection through my heart. I couldn?t help but grieve ? I could feel what he felt inside. I think I understood. I think I wanted him to do what was needed.

I couldn?t stop crying ? I couldn?t stop these acid tears from burning through me. I felt desperate for something?

He held me. His arms broad and strong, keeping me in place ? but that warmth he sent through me would not replace the pain inside.

My world started to spin and I started to ache ? my head was about to split and my heart was about implode?

Then?

Pain?

Release?

I felt him shake from holding back his own tears. He pressed the silver deeper inside and I finally felt weak?

I dropped on the ground, breathing light ? breathing freely, like never before. He stood there, his face shadowed, but his emotions real. I smiled, holding onto my desperation that left me overjoyed.

Then the sirens?they came. Did I want them to come?

Yes. I felt I that I needed to be redone. Remade. For him.

Only then, will I ever feel alive.

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