Nobody But Me

[AnShino]

Nobody But Me
PG-13
An Shino

+ + +Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I?m crying inside
And nobody knows it but me, yeah

?Nobody Knows It But Me? | Kevin Sharp



?Fine, I?m just fine,? I typed out for what seemed like the millionth time. A tendril of my dark brown hair fell to my face, curling near dark brown eyes and I swept it away with ever present patience. I kept the smile on my face, despite the fact that I was safe behind my laptop screen where no one could see me. I could be scowling or grimacing or glaring and no one would know. The perfect safeguard, as was the beauty of the Internet.

No one questioned my remark and for some reason I almost wish they would. I almost wished someone would try and beat the truth out of me. But no one did. And I offered nothing up.

No one knew of my pains, and I let nothing on. My burdens were nothing compared to the others?. I carry my weight on my own, and attempt to help everyone else with theirs. It?s the least I could do for being so insignificant.

'They won?t miss me,? I thought, bringing the cold blade to my wrist.

[Anime/Manga Fanatic]

HOLY CRAP DON't DO IT!
Manga: Shut up Anime/Manga Fanatic!
Anime: Don't be rude to the authoress!
Yeah don't be mean to me! *hits Manga*
Manga: *hits back* You're not sick anymore so I don't have to be nice
Anime: Um... *watches two get into fist fight* Shouldn't we comment or review on the drabble? *continues to watch them* Hey! *snaps completely and pulls out a warhead*
BOOOOOM!
Anime: Maybe I went to far... *sweatdrops*

[Perfect Soldier]

...Eh, i'll do the honors by giving a more sane reply. Yeah, I can understand the feeling in this piece but the last line is hard to fathom. "They won't miss me." Loneliness feels like an impossible void to ever fill. This was rather reflective, thanks for writing it.

Zero

...*blinks* i think that made sense. -__-;

[AnShino]

lol, yea you made sense. ^_^...no problem, it just wormed into my head one night... thanks for the *sane* review, hehe

A/MF...schizo but thanks for the amusing review ^_^

[Leia Avenrose]

I can so relate to this. -_-' Another reason that would push one to the use of the blade would be that they think they are a failure and don't come out with their thoughts or feelings.

"No one knew of my pains, and I let nothing on. My burdens were nothing compared to the others?. I carry my weight on my own, and attempt to help everyone else with theirs."

Is also what I do. I don't let onto anything, nor do I tell anyone the truth when they ask if something is... 'wrong'. I carry my own without sharing, yet I encourage others and my friends to open up, and I help them whilst ignoring myself and my own needs, feeling that there is no one there at all to help me.

Someone, smack me before I turn into a hardcore angst fic!!!

[Lady Casper]

I would smack you but I'm sure I'd get knocked unconcious.

^__^ Great lil number there Miss An. I think a lot ppl feel some sort of way like that. It doesn't necessarily mean they exactly think the same way. But still feel similar to it.


Once again you hit the Psychy, An.

[AnShino]

Heh, glad you guys liked it =)