Past Mistakes - Chapter 10 (part2)

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Past Mistakes
Chapter 10
(Part 2)

(Last Time)

I made my way back to the bed pulling the covers back. I turned to face the night stand to see a picture of my brother Millardo and myself when we were little. I made a mental note to myself to give him a call tomorrow.

I was about to slide into bed when the phone rang.

Picking the cordless from the nightstand I proceeded to answer it, ?Hello.?

?Hello Relena,? a voice responded on the other line. My whole body froze where it was.

?It has been awhile since we last talked,? the voice continued.

It seemed like centuries later when I finally had the courage to respond back, ?Jeremy.?

?Ah, I see you still remembered me then?? the voice responded.

It was at that point when I could feel my anger rising and my self-esteem rise.

?To make this short and simple,? he started to say,? I would like to see you. Maybe we could go out to dinner or go out for a cup of coffee. Whatever you prefer would be my treat.?

?May I ask you why would I like to do that?? I asked calmly.

?To catch up on each others lives I suppose. Then again, I suppose I have been a tad bit curious on how April been doing.?

?A?Apr?April?? I asked nervously.

?Yes April, remember the child we shared through our passionate love, Relena?? the voice continued.

It was at the point my anger had risen to my boiling point.

?Passionate love, haha what a laugh,? I replied sarcastically, ?Now seriously, we both know logically that night was a mistake. We were both drunk and upset.?

?Ouch harsh,? Jeremy responded.

?Face it, it?s reality and you know it,? I continued gaining much needed strength.
?I suppose, however if you really want to talk about reality of the situation then lets. ? Jeremy said.

?What do you mean by that?? I ask quietly and slowly.

?In reality, April is my daughter.? Jeremy said.

?But..,? however, Jeremy continued with his reasoning.

?But it doesn?t matter how she war created either. It doesn?t matter if she was a mistake. The truth of the matter is I got you pregnant and I didn?t take any responsibilities before.?

?So about five years later you decide to take on the responsibility of fatherhood?? I asked sarcastically.

?Okay I know I?m late, but it?s better than nothing right?? Jeremy asked.

?I got so many questions to ask you, especially why now? Why now of all times do you decide to do this on me?? I asked my anger rising once again.

?Guilt I suppose,? Jeremy responded then continued, ?This is the reason why I would appreciate if you would take my offer of grabbing something to eat or drink. So we can speak to each other directly. What do you say Relena??

?Fine I agree. Do you know where Webster?s Caf? is located?? I asked.

?Yes I do,?

?Tomorrow morning at 8:00 sharp. Not a minute later, or I?m leaving.? I responded firmly.

?Alright Webster?s Caf? at 8:00 sharp, got it. See you then Relena,? Jeremy said.

?Good night Jeremy,? I said.

?Good night,? and then I heard a click and the phone turn off.

I replaced the phone back on the nightstand thinking about the conversation. Laying back on my bed, I started to think about Jeremy.
I couldn?t believe he had enough guts to call me up after all this time.

Then I thought about that night.

I laughed to myself a little, realizing the risks we took that night and results of it also. I had always considered myself to be a risk taking person. So I suppose it was my fault as well as it was Jeremy?s.

I turned over to face my clock and turn on the radio that was attached to it. The song ?My Immortal?, by Evanescence was playing.

?My Immortal,? I whispered.


I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase

?Jeremy,? I whispered again. I turned to face the ceiling. I could remember the first time we met. I was playing Tennis alone against the wall, when he walked up to me and asked if I minded that he joined me. I responded no.

Then came our first date. I could remember that like it was just yesterday. The rose and chocolates, then the French restaurant, the walk through the park. It was so romantic.

When you cried I?d wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

Why is it I still have this lingering feeling, even after all these years and heart aches.

I could remember my first kiss with Jeremy. We had gone to the carnival as our third date and we were riding the Ferris wheel. We were on top, enjoying the view, when we saw a shooting star. We both made a wish and turned to face each other.

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
but now I?m bound by the life
You left behind your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase

We become a cute couple and dated for about two years. Both of us were in love and we both were also in love with the game of Tennis. We would practice every morning till midday.

Everything was going perfect.
Everyone thought we were going to get marry.

My life was perfect.

When you cried I?d wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

It wasn?t until we both lost the championships that we had become so depressed that night. He had invited me over and we have a couple of drinks.

And one thing led to another and I suppose we didn?t even use protection that night either. I can?t even remember. I defiantly wasn?t on the pill either.

I?ve tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When I finally had enough courage to tell Jeremy about my pregnancy, it was the very night I found him cheating on me with a another girl.

We argued that whole week and it was until the very end when he yelled that he had been unfaithful for about a month. It was at the point when I wanted to kill myself.

My perfect life was running down the drain.

When you cried I?d wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

About two weeks later a friend of mine had enough courage to tell Jeremy about my pregnancy. His response was that it wasn?t his child and that he didn?t want nothing to do with the child.

It was at the point when my heart broke so much and my heart ache grew so much. I knew I was having a nervous breakdown.

And when the news about my pregnancy had gotten out to the public, it got even worse.

It was around that time I had joined to play in Europe for the European Tennis Championships. However, once the committee learned about my condition, I was immediately kicked out.

When you cried I?d wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

It wasn?t until a year later when I went back to school to get a profession in Physical Therapy. April was born and my mother generously helped me take care of her. Which till this day, I forever grateful.

Turning about around towards the radio, I turned it off and decided to get a couple of hours of sleep.

I was so anxious about meeting Jeremy tomorrow, that it was so unbelievable.
Was he going to apologize?
Did he want to meet April?
Did he want to become a father to April?
Did he miss me?

I was about to fall asleep when a thought raced past my mind. I jumped up from my laying position to a sitting position from the bed.

Only one word and only one person came to my mind.

?Heero,?

What was I going to tell him about this.
How would I explain this.

I looked out the window and prayed to God one thing.

?Don?t let me screw this up, please.?

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Author?s Notes:

Okay, chapter 10 is finally up. I?m so sorry it took me so long to get it up but I had exams to study for the last 2 weeks. Thank you for those who reviewed, I do appreciate it. And I?ll try to get chapter 11 up as soon as possible now that I?m on vacation and I?ll make it longer. I?ll promise you that.

Please do review and tell me what you think!!
Thank you.

[HeerosChick1842]

what will happen to heero?? k now i gotta read more...

[Eienvine]

Ooh, what does Jeremy want? That evil little prick . . . I guess we haven't met him in person yet, so maybe he's not an evil little prick, but it makes me feel better to call him one. Great chapter!