The Violet Burning p5

[Shevey]

The Violet burning

Part Five

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Disclaimer: I don't own G/W.
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His lips tore mine. I felt the great black night settle in his hands- grabbing my side. I tried to whisper stop, but instead, I closed my eyes and let the pain absorb. Blonde hair against my cheek reminded me of the man who owned me. The numb rocking rocked me to sleep- not a physical sleep- but instead I dreamt of some other life, in some other world.

Quatre?s hands tore into my blouse, grabbing roughly at my chest. ?Oh God, Relena.? His hardness poured inside me before he pulled back and let his hands cup me. One finger at a time he tugged and poked as I simply kept my eyes shut and prayed.

Where had Heero gone?

?Relena. Relena? Wake up. Relena,? Heero?s rough but gentle hand brushed a few strands off my forehead. I opened my eyes with all of reality setting in slowly. He sat at the end of his bed, telephone in hand. I glanced sideways at the clock and saw one am flashing brilliantly against the dark backdrop of his bedroom. ?Your husband is on the phone.?

Quatre. I reached for the phone and prepared for anything. ?Hello??

?Relena, love, I have some business I have to attend to. I know you said you would come home in the morning, but I need you here now. I have to catch the first flight at seven to the outer rim.?

?I see.? He wanted one last fuck before he went off playing. ?I?ll be home soon.? Heero didn?t making any movement, but I could see the disconcerting thoughts against his forehead. The click of the phone and the unheard goodbye from Quatre were now just of the past.

?You can?t go back.?

?Forget I said anything.? I wanted to cry. The violent images of my dream made me feel dizzy. I wanted to stay. I wanted Heero to keep me here- but that was foolish. Diplomatic situations rested on my marriage to Quatre. I couldn?t let that go. ?He?s my husband and we?re just having sexual problems like all marriages.?

?Hn.? Heero stood up off the bed. ?Like all marriages. I?ll remember to rape my wife daily then.? The cold words burned into my conscious. Heero sniffed and I was reminded of his illness. I felt sorry for him. Sorry that I laid my burdens on him when he wasn?t in his strongest time.

I felt as though I was moving in slow motion while a panic surge swept over. I pulled myself together as quickly as possible. Frustrated with myself, I headed for the door.

?Wait.? Heero?s voice made me turn around. Dear God, just let me go. ?Don?t think I would send you back into the lion?s den.? I pleaded inwardly for him to give up. I had to go back. ?I?m coming too.?

And then my heart broke.

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?Heero?? Quatre looked perplexed as we both walked in the foyer.

Heero shoved his hands in his pocket as Quatre reached out to shake. ?We weren?t done going over procedures.?

?Procedures? Oh, yes. You must forgive me Heero,? Quatre smiled brilliantly and pulled his arm around me, the simple wife. ?She has so much work going on I forget all the, procedures, as you put it. I do hope I?m not causing a huge delay. You can get some done by yourself, can you not?? His diplomatic smile made me feel sick.

Heero shrugged. ?Very little if any. We?re going over physical measures.?

Quatre could only smirk. ?And a physical women she is.? I wanted to slap him. That?s physical, isn?t it? ?I?m sure you can wait until the morning though.?

?But her protection can?t.?

I couldn?t help but notice Quatre?s grip around me tighten. ?I assure you Heero, I?ll keep her safe until the morning. Is there a situation I should be aware of? I thought we had an understanding that all of the security concerns should go through me as well. I want to be informed on my wife?s circumstances.?

Heero knew this wasn?t going to work. Heero glanced at me and I knew it too. I gave him a reassuring smile. If anything, I could endure Quatre one more time. Heero gave me one last look, bid farewell to Quatre and mumbled that he would back in the morning to pick me up, and with that he retreated back to the car. The sound of his wheels leaving the driveway was enough for Quatre to lead me to the bedroom.

?He?s a really tight guy that Heero. Good guy, mind you. Just tight.? I smiled at good length. His suitcase was on the bed opened with clothing neatly folded inside. His hands snaked around my waist and pulled me back into his frame. ?I?m going to miss you.?

One hand drifted down to the hem of my skirt. ?Quatre?? I breathed, as his lips skinned my neck. ?I?m not feeling well.?

His hand pulled up my skirt before tugging down the elastic band. ?You?ll feel better. I promise.? His thumb slipped inside, pushing slowly in and out. My breath became shaky. ?You?ll feel much better.? I hated myself then. I hated the way my body responded against my feelings. Quatre pushed me against the bed, and spread my legs apart. Before I had a chance to grab on to the headboard, I felt him rip into me, hard and angrily.

?Oh God, Relena.? And like my dream, I closed my eyes, and pretended to be somewhere else.

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What would it take? What would it take to convince Heero to take me away? What would I have to do? Would I have to do anything at all? Would he just know? Or would I have to ask him? Would I have to do anything for him?

The smell of Quatre lingered in the air as I laid limped in distraught covers. He had been gone for quite some time now. I had bid him farewell with a strange kiss. I pretended it was my last. I watched him go and felt some part of me surge with happiness. Then I remembered that he was coming back in a few days. That joy was pulled back down, and I laid, numb, in a state of wonder.

Heero was expected any moment. I thought I heard his car pull up. What would it take to convince him?

?Relena?? The door creaked open. I opened my eyes to see a very meek looking Heero holding a tissue in his hand. His voice sounded too soft- I didn?t want his sympathy.

?Heero.? I started to pull out of bed, ignoring the fact that I was barely clad. As he stepped forward I reached out to pull him closer. ?What would it take Heero?? I asked as I pulled at the waist of his pants. ?What do I have to do to convince you??

He pushed my hands away as I tried to undo his zipper. I ignored his push and only kept at it. ?Convince me for what??

?What do I have to do to convince you to take me away?? I kissed his neck, and let my finger slip under the elastic band. ?If you want me you can have me. I?ll do anything you want.? And with that I let my hand grip the warm muscle and pull forward.

?Ah,? Heero pulled away, breathing hard. ?Relena, you don?t have to. God,? he zipped up his pants. He didn?t want me? I felt like crying. Instead, I only persisted.

?I want to.? I gripped his hands and placed them on my bare breast.

?No. I?ll take you away. You don?t have to do anything- you know that. You?re not feeling well. You?ll regret this.? Would I? Haven?t I always been in love with Heero?

?No, I want you Heero.?

This time he regained his composure and gripped my hands together. His eyes seem to soften for a second. ?No, Relena you don?t. Not right now, not like this.?

I knew he was right. I pulled back into a slump on the bed and cried.

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Author's Notes: I know, I've been gone
forever. Get over it. School has been
hectic. Life has been hectic. Sorry. Sorry it's so
short too.

Love you all. Love all of you who review
even more.

-Shev

[NafX]

Yippeeee!!!
You updated !!! *claps happily*
I love this story ...

Hmmm ..hectic life getting in the way of your creative genius ... don't you just HATE that? I can relate ... believe me ... *sighs*

Anyway ... good to see you're back ...
Can't wait for more ...

~Nat.

[Kaili Charmer]

Update! WOOT! What, are you kidding me? Quit apologizing. As long as you write, and you don't take forever after leaving a cliffhanger, then i don't care how long it takes you to put together a chapter. This story is so good...dreary, but a work of art. Keep it up! :razz:

[Crazygurl]

Oooo. Very good. I understand the hectic-ness of life. Mine is as well.

But get Relena a happy ending. And give Heero a shag, for G*d's sake!

[The Engrish Spy]

*Hugs ALL AROUND* New Chapter Hip Hip Horay!

~Engrish Spy~

[Melville's Best Friend]

SHEVAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!! <---I'm luvin' that. ^___~

What a great new chapter! I want to *HURT* that QUATRE person. Oh yes. Oh yes HURT. The PAIN he will feel will not be pleasant.

Nor FAST.

Mwa he ha he ha he...ha.

Shevaaaaaaay, I left a lil' "finish your fics" post earlier, then decided I should, you know, CHECK, and see if you actually posted! Yay! YOU DID!

And it was wonderful. I can totally see where you're taking Relena's mental state, and I think it's fabulous! I can't wait for more. And what a guy Heero is...keepin' them sex-drives under control.


*squee*

I'm lovin' it. Keep up the good work, chika, and UPDATE reaaaaal soon!!!!

^____^

heart,
the MBF

[Morrighan]

Oh dear. I was afraid that was going to happen... Poor Relena!! Heero should take her far, far away...

Can't wait to see more!!

[Wild Cyan]

oh...how sad...T_T

so well written...it was so touching..!

horrible, horrible quatre...how could you do this to her?! T_T i luvv Heero's character...so sweet and concerned...

props to ya!

~Cyan

[Fatimai1]

ITS NOT FAIR! I'm so sad. i despise you Quatre...

[Gundam Girl]

I agree with Fatimai1, and I never thought it would happen! I never thought I would be able to EVER hate Quatre...

And I do, you miserable wretch! That innocent persona, the wide-eyed gaze, IT WAS ALL A LIE! YOU LIED TO YOUR WATCHERS!

Quatre: I regret this not.

Fans: BASTARD!

Hope you update soon, Shevey. But take your time. A rushed fic is...well, it's not always but, but it...it's rushed, so... You know, I'm just gonna stop right there.

Great fic!

-GG