Any suggestion to improve this fic as well as suggestions for the name of the fic will be much appreciated, wether constructive or
destructive, I will take them into account... also take note that I hate Shinji... Gomen to those who like him but I tried to consider it from his side but I just can't get anything but annoyed and irritated with him... Gomen Gomen... But in later chapters I would probably have him be really humiliated or something like that... again, Gomen-nasai...Lastly... *Insane Ramblings of a guy who has been bored to death*
... I Love You Ayanami-kirei... please forgive me... I will make a fic of you in the future... And to those who want Rei, FUKUSHU (Revenge)!!! SHININ (Death)^^!!! REI IS MINE!!! MINE I TELLS YA!!! hehe... getting a bit crazy now... Just kidding, hope you all like this fic... 
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The wind swept across the fields as a red haired young girl stood upon the roof tops, her eyes half open, shielding them from the winds, her arms placed behind her as she stared upon the skies.
A door creaked behind her as a figure presented herself, ?Asuka??
Her hair, fixed upon pigtails, were swept by the wind as well, her eyes placed upon the red haired girl as she moved closer towards her, a soft voice breaking the silence, ?Daijoubu??
The red haired girl remained silent, not a sign of movement upon her as she continued to stare upon the distance, as if nothing had occurred, seeming that she had ignored the voice.
?Asuka?? The pigtailed girl voiced out once again as she moved closer, placing a hand upon her shoulder, though her arm quickly moved away as the red haired girl shrugged her shoulders in a somewhat offensive way.
The pigtailed girl pulled the red haired girl to look upon her, her eyes bearing confusion, ?Asuka? What?s wrong??
She pushed her away, her eyes beginning to well up with tears as she shouted towards the other, ?JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!?
Leave me alone?
She turned to stare upon the horizon once again, a tear slowly moving down upon her cheek. The pigtailed girl nodded to herself as she turned, moving towards the stairs, her head tilted to the side, observing the red haired girl as she made her way down.
Upon the door, she had bumped into something, or more apt, someone. Her gaze quickly shifted to the person she had bumped upon as she bowed slightly.
?Gomen-nasai, Koritome-san.? She quickly moved down the stairs without waiting for a reply.
The young boy shrugged as he took the last step of the stairs, staring around himself as he breathed in the cold air, the winds ruffling his hair slightly. His gaze moved upon the red haired girl as he tilted his head slightly, shaking his head as he moved a few steps towards her though remaining at an earshot. She did not even move though his eyes trailed her tears for a moment, before he shrugged, breath escaped his lips as he shook his head slowly.
He took a cigarette stick out from his pocket, his head remained tilted, remaining upon her, ?You don?t mind??
She did not reply, the tear upon her cheek swept by the winds though the trail still upon her eyes.
He shrugged once again, moving his hand to place the cig upon his lips as his free hand took a small lighter from his pocket, flicking it on as he let the flame light the cig, replacing the lighter back in his pocket, a stream of smoke escaping his lips.
Moments of silence passed as they continued to stare upon the horizon, though the young boy glanced upon the red haired girl a few times before he shrugged off the thought of asking her what was wrong. A soft cough escaped her lips just as a stream of smoke escaped once again upon the young boy?s mouth. He took the cig off his lips, staring upon it slightly then upon her once again, though he moved it back upon his lips, taking one more whiff upon it.
The red haired girl slowly turned towards him, taking the cig upon his lips as she stared upon its lit end, placing it upon her lips as she took a breath from it, though she quickly pulled it out of her mouth, coughing hard as she held her chest. He moved his hand upon hers; attempting to take the cig from her though she held it quite tight, as if not to give it to him.
He frowned as he voiced out a bit loudly, ?Nani-o Tenai-o?! That?s My Last One!?
She moved her gaze upon him, her eyes filled with sorrow and tears; she moved the cig upon her hand, pressing the lit part against her skin as it made a mark, dousing it as another tear pushed down her cheek. She let it fall upon the ground, holding her hand, staring upon her burnt skin.
He took her arm, tilting his head slightly as he gazed upon the wound then upon her eyes, whispering, ?It?s not that bad? Sorry for that outbreak a moment ago??
Her eyes remained upon his, the same sorrow as before still upon them as she voiced softly, ?Am I alive??
A confused look moved upon the young boy as his lips parted slightly, uncertain of what to reply.
?Am I? alive?? She repeated as her eyes remained upon his, tears continuing to move down her cheeks, marking stains upon her light flesh.
?You?? He paused, uncertain of his reply, moreover of the question, ?You?re? alive??
Silence crept upon them once again, though her eyes remained upon his. He slowly moved his hand upon her cheek, gently drying her tears, though she quickly tilted her head, her eyes moving to the side to look upon his once again.
?It hurts?? She whispered, though her voice still contained the same sorrowed tone.
A smile moved upon his lips as he nodded slightly, ?Yes? Burns do that sometimes??
He moved his hand upon her cheek once again; though this time she did not tilt her head away.
?I hate you?? She whispered, softly sniffing before she continued, ?I hate everyone??
He tilted his head slightly, blurting out, ?Nande??
Her form fell upon his, pushing him down to a sit as her tears dampened the shoulder of his shirt, her arms moving around him, trying to find some sense of comfort.
?I hate everyone?? She voiced out softly, her face burying upon his shirt, pushing upon her form upon his, ?They do nothing? only to hurt me??
He hesitantly moved his arms around her, running upon her back in an attempt to comfort her, ?I?m sure they just??
?Sometimes?? His voice was cut as she whispered upon his ear, ?I just want to die??
His eyes widened slightly as he tilted his head towards her ear, ?Don?t say th??
?Why do they hurt me, Ashihei-kun?? Her voice was weak though her head remained upon his shoulder.
The young boy was uncertain of what to say. He knew who the red haired girl was, though somewhat annoying, she wasn?t all that bad. He didn?t hate her, but then again, he didn?t know her too much. Whenever she would begin to mock him in anyway, he would just shrug it off, after all, it was only a joke.
Silence moved between them for what seemed like forever, her head still placed upon his shoulder, her eyes still pushed out tears as she held herself closer to him. Who was he to her that she would be so close, he did not know. Suffice to the fact that this seemed to bring her comfort, even if it was only a slight and though it did not really matter if he was there or not, did it?
He held her in his arms, an uncertain embrace as her arms around him tightened slightly, her head titled back, and her eyes locked upon his as their light blue color glistened slightly upon the high sun. Sweat moved down from his forehead, out of nervousness or the sun?s heat, did it really matter?
?Ashihei-kun?? She whispered softly as her form moved closer to him, her head slowly moving towards his, her lips inching slowly to his, her eyes moving to a half close.
Breath escaped his lips as he felt the warmth of her mouth. His eyes held wide open, his chest heaving with nervous breaths as she tilted her head, shifting the position of her lips against his. After a few moments, he pulled his head away, though a bit forcefully as his head moved towards the cement roof, making a light thud as he frowned, his arm moving behind his head, he took a glance at it, sighing softly as he saw nothing wrong. He looked upon her once again as she sat upon him, her eyes still brimming with tears.
?Don?t hate me?? Her voice was an inaudible whisper as she spoke again, ?Don?t hate me??
?I exist? Don?t hate me? Don?t look away? Onegai, look at me?? She whispered through sobs, her voice slowly gaining volume as she spoke, her form moving down to lay against his.
?Don?t look away? Look at me? I?m alive? Don?t hate me? Don?t leave me?? She kept repeating these words as she cried against his chest.
His arms wrapped around her once again as he moved one hand up, moving some hair on her face to the side of her head.
A soft shush escaped his lips as he whispered softly; seeming that only they could hear, ?Calm down, Asuka??
He sat up, though still holding her in his arms, moving his hand to shift her skirt, lifted by her movement, down to cover her legs, though she did not make a movement, only soft breaths after each sob.
?I don?t care?? She whispered once again against his ear, ?Do whatever you want? just don?t leave me??
Don?t hate me?
He held her closer, only in an attempt to comfort her, closing his eyes to gather his thoughts, though he blurted out, ?I?m here??
The bell rang, just as it always did, though it did not matter to them.
?Tell me something?? the red haired girl voiced as her head moved, cushioned upon his shoulder.
His free hand scratched his head slowly as he voiced out, ?Eh? Nani??
?Anything?? She spoke once again, her voice slowly moving out of its sobbed state, ?Your past? What happened this morning?? Anything??
He sighed softly. It was quite weird for her to ask this. In truth, it didn?t really make any sense. What did she want to know? Why did she want to know? All were hidden in a cloud of tears, though disguised, he was still uncertain of what to do.
?I want to forget?? She voiced, as if for explanation, ?I want all the pain to go away??
Make me forget?
He nodded slowly, voicing out the first thing that came into his mind, ?Once, when I was young? I ate ants??
A confused smile moved upon her lips, though it could not conceal her sadness from before, ?Ants??
?Well?? He continued, smiling slightly, ?More like bugs??
Soft breath escaped her lips, seeming like a laugh, her voice calming, ?Why did you do that??
?My father said that the eco system was stabilizing?? He shifted his form a bit as he tried to explain, ??and there will be a lot of weird things returning to the world? I found one of them? and I decided to eat it??
Her laughter, though soft, reflected upon her form as it shifted and moved with her laughter, ?That was stupid!?
He shrugged, smiling slightly, ?At least you?re turning to your old self once again??
?So the story was false?? She titled her head, her eyes moving to gaze upon his.
?It was true?? He laughed softly as he spoke once again, ?I didn?t make it up??
Her features moved slowly to a playful gaze of doubt, then it softened as she nodded, ?Alright? I believe you??
The young boy shrugged slightly, a bit meekly voicing out, ?Sorry? I know the story is kind of corny but? it?s all I could come up with on short notice??
She nodded, shifting her form upon his arms, a silent reply, no other words escaping her lips. He breathed in quite unstably. It was fine that they were talking, moreover that her past glow existed now, slowly growing as his eyes moved upon his. He fell silent as she smiled, her blue eyes never leaving his for a moment.
His hand slowly moved upon her forehead as her head tilted, her eyes from a smile to a confused look. He shook his head slowly, moving his hand back down.
?Nani wa?? She voiced out, her hand absently moving upon his, though it seemed so.
?It?s just that?? He gulped, trying to gather his words, ?Well? you don?t really act this way. I guess I was expecting? by now, you would be mocking and pissing me off or something like that? I just thought that you were sick.?
A soft giggle escaped her lips as she shook her head slowly, ?Why? Do you want me to do that??
He shook his head a bit vehemently, ?No? I mean? well, it?s kinda.... weird? that?s all.?
She gently pushed herself off him, standing straight as she offered her hand towards him. He nodded in reply, helping himself stand up, though before she could move her hand to her side, he took it upon his, though his eyes were upon the floor.
Strangely enough, a slight tint of crimson moved upon her cheeks, though she was perfectly calm when upon his arms, this seemed different. His eyes moved upon hers with no smile, only a silent gaze. She held her breath for a moment, uncertain of what to say, moreover of what to do, though her hand didn?t even attempt to leave his, accepting the warm gesture.
His expression quickly changed as he smiled towards her, ?Henya yatsu??
She smiled a bit widely, nodding to him as she voiced, ?We had better get in??
He nodded in reply as he released her arm, the thought of giving everyone else an idea of whatever their perverse minds could conjure, though he was not completely against the thought. She was beautiful after all, though at times, she was quite annoying, in a sense she had been cute, for him at least.
?Can you?? She bit her lip, seeming to forget what she was saying, her eyes wandering around the skies, trying to find the right words, ?Will you? be? my friend??
His lips parted slightly, a long moment seemed to pass as they stared endlessly upon each other?s eyes. His breathing was calm though it was quite obvious that he was hiding what he truly felt. He shook his head off the daze as he stared upon the floor, thinking of the thing most apt to say.
?I am?? He whispered a bit meekly as his eyes moved towards hers once again, ?We are friends, right??
Her features softened, her smile unlike any other that she had shown before. Where usually a smirk of greed or of evil intent crossed her face, now was something that was, in a way, something quite unusual, especially from her. To describe it more will be quite difficult; to explain it vaguely it was a? vulnerable smile, weak in a way.
The ground around them quivered as a flash of light enveloped a far side of the city. Their eyes quickly moved upon its direction as another flash appeared on almost the same spot as the first one.
Speakers sounded off quickly, ?To all civilian personnel, please vacate yourselves to your designated shelters or to the shelter near you??
Their gaze moved upon each other once again, the red haired girls lips parted, prepared to speak though the ring from her pocket stopped her. She frowned as she took the cellular phone in her pocket, quickly opening it and placing it upon her ear, repeating loud ?hai?s? and ?I know?s?.
Her eyes were upon his yet again as she tried to explain though his voice pushed through, his hand moving upon her shoulder, ?Don?t worry? You?ll do well? I believe that you will??
His arm moved towards his pocket, taking out a small piece of cloth, placing it upon the burn on her hand, nodding to her before releasing her hand as he turned to move down the stairs. She followed suit, holding the cloth upon her hand, though the blush upon her cheeks still remained.
A few moments passed and they reached the school?s entrance as she turned towards him, whispering softly, ?Arigatou? Ashihei-kun??
He nodded slowly, raising his hand slightly in farewell.
She turned, moving a bit quickly towards the exit though her movement was paused as she turned to look upon him, upon his utterance of her name.
?Asuka?? He voiced out, his lips parted, as if losing the thought of what he was trying to say, his voice a bit soft as the words pushed through, ?Be careful??
She nodded her reply, a smile playing upon her lips as he continued, ??And I expect the old Asuka teasing and annoying me again when she comes back.?
Her smile widened slightly as she nodded once again, turning to leave the school.