Holding On Poem

[DarknessAngel]

this is just something that i wrote sunday night while i was doing my science homework and has been running around in my head for a while now. just so you know, i am putting a PG13 rating due to some language and some things that may upset younger peoples. anyways, here it is.



i'm trying to hold on
but i'm slowly slipping away
life's starting to lose it's meaning
and i feel like i'm alone in a world full of people

you all think that i'm fine
that my life is just all that
but if you knew the real me
you'd think i was someone else

i've heard that it's nice outside right now
but i can no longer tell the difference
because all i feel is the cold
and all i see is the darkness

walking around with a smile on my face
i want to scream at your ignorance
life's just a fucking piece of shit
and i don't think i can take it anymore

i thought if i ignored it
that all the pain would go away
but i'm beginning to lose control
and i'm slowly losing sanity

i used to do as i was told
used to listen to your every word
but now i couldn't give two shits
about what i do or say

i never asked for much
and when i did it wasn't a hell of a lot
all i wanted was for you to listen
even if there were no words

you think that you know shit about me
like what i feel or what i do
well you just keep on thinking that
cuz my friends fucking know me better than you

i thought i made the right decision
when i chose to stay here with you
but those reasons that were once so clear
have become questions of doubt in my mind

i thought that i could deal with it
that i'd be able to go on
but it's getting harder everyday
and i don't know how much longer i can hold on.





a/n. well i hope you liked it. i know it may not be that great, but it reflects many things going on right now and it is just something i needed to express. and hey, isn't that what these kind of sites are for? sry, i'm going to start rambling it i don't stop now. anywho, any critisism is appreciated so let me know what ya think.

DarknessAngel

[Morrighan]

Ahem to that. Boy do I remember feeling that way... Still do, in someways. *sigh*

Wonderfully written!

[Lara Winner]

There have been days, weeks, and even months when I have felt just like that. It's a horrible feeling but sometimes it helps to remember that things will get better and it could always be worse. Take care and thanks for sharing with us.