[FIC] Contradictions and Self-Recrimations

[PookaKitten]

Disclaimer: Full Metal Panic! is owned by some incredibly creative people in Japan, not me. No intent to violate copyright is meant. And anyway, isn?t imitation the greatest form of flattery?

Dedicated to HELLFIRE. I do not consider this the sequel to ?Thoughts of You? that you wanted, but more a companion piece. Perhaps one day I will write a true sequel.

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Contradictions and Self-Recrimations

By Samantha


How can one person
Seem like so many?

How can you be both
A military nut, and
My loyal protector?

You know so little of life,
Yet you know so much at times.

You live to fight,
But relish short glimpses of peace.

I can still see the sun glinting off your hair,
That day, when you opened your heart to me.
I can still remember the feel of your arms around me.
Did you feel the electricity too?

Was I cruel?
By then I knew you would do nothing strange,
Nor would knowingly put me in danger.
Why did I ask, then?

Why let your guard down around me?
I only belittle and tease you.
How often do I praise you?
Instead I accuse you of giving up, wanting to die.
Your only goal then was to ensure I lived,
Putting my life and safety above your own.

I can never truly understand the drive you have,
Your single-mindedness to your given task.
What events shaped you to be that way?
How did they not break you past any point of repair?

Yet for your dedication to duty,
You show your affection towards me in your own way.
You tell me you will not leave, yet you know that is not true.
You show me your inner sanctum, and want me to stay with you.

Why me?
I do not, cannot understand you.
Strangely enough,
You are the calm
To my storm.
Or is that why?

Am I am enough like you,
Able to understand when it matters?
Your complement,
Not your opposite?

I guess that is why you
Feel we can do anything,
So long as we are together.