Frozen

[Symee-Sama]

Disclaimer: Not mine? never mine.

<center>Frozen
By Symee Sama</center>

Author's Note: This was supposed to be an entry for the 99 ways to propose to Relena thing, but like the other fic I wrote for the contest, I sort of didn't pay enough attention to the rules, so it's ineligible... I decided to post it anyway. :p

She stood alone, watching the waves crash upon the sandy beach. This was their spot. The place that they had met. The place that they had said goodbye. This beach was full of memories. She wrapped her arms around herself, shivering slightly from the cool October wind.

?Relena?? She jumped when Heero placed his hand on her shoulder. She hadn?t heard anyone coming. ?What are you doing out here??

?Remembering.? She replied softly. ?I can still remember the look on your face when I first met you. You were horrified.? She laughed. ?I was so confused about your actions. You run away from me, and then you enrol in my school. I didn?t understand.?

?No one was supposed to know that I was here.? Heero supplied. ?You were a threat to my mission. I was supposed to kill you so you wouldn?t tell anyone about me.?

?Why didn?t you then?? Relena stared at him. She had been wondering about this for awhile. ?Why didn?t you kill me?

?I tried.? Heero said bluntly. ?I didn?t love you, I didn?t really feel anything for you, but I still couldn?t kill you.?

?That?s probably the most romantic thing I?ve ever heard you say.? Relena tried to make it sound like a joke, but found that she couldn?t. That had been the most romantic thing that he?d ever said to her. She winced, ignoring the look that he gave her.

?It?s a good thing that I didn?t.? Heero continued. ?Or there wouldn?t be peace right now.?

Relena looked away from him. That had hurt. Was that the only reason that he had spared her? Was that the only reason why he was happy that she was alive? Because she brought peace?

She blinked rapidly to stop the tears that were forming in her eyes from flowing down her cheeks. She had thought that she was his friend. She knew that he didn?t love her, but she had thought of her as a friend. But no, she was only useful for keeping the peace, and when her purpose was fulfilled she would be discarded and forgotten.

?What?s wrong?? Heero asked her, confused in her sudden change of mood. He moved closer to her, but for every step he took towards her, she took one away. ?Damn it, Relena! What?s wrong??

?Tell me, Heero.? Her voice disturbed him. Usually her voice was warm and welcoming, but now, it was cold and distant, completely unlike the Relena that he knew. ?Did I ever mean anything to you at all? Did you ever see me as something more than an icon of peace?? Her voice grew colder as she continued. ?Did you ever think of me as more than a mission??

Heero looked at her, silently assessing the situation, before answering. ?What made you think that?? He asked finally.

?Forget it.? Relena muttered, turning away from him, and walking towards the stairs that would lead her to the road. ?What do you want?? She snapped when Heero ran in front of her, blocking her way. He didn?t answer her, just simply stood there, waiting for her to answer his previous question.

?You don?t treat me like I?m human!? Relena yelled, his stoic silence had only made her angrier. ?I?ve seen you around other girls, Heero. I?ve seen you around other people. When you?re around them, you talk. Not much, but you do talk. With me... You?re a different person. I have to force the words out of you,.

?You tried to kill me, and you weren?t able to. I don?t even think that you?re glad that you saved me. You might have saved yourself a lot of trouble if you had just killed me on the night of the school dance. But, I bring peace, which is probably the only reason that you keep me around. I don?t mean anything to you. I?ve tried to be your friend, but you won?t let me close.

?You shut me out.? Relena wiped a hand across her eyes, hating herself for crying in front of him. ?You?ve always shut me out. It?s obvious that you don?t want to be around me. Hilde knows more about you than I do, and she?s only met you twice! I?ve worked with you for seven years, and I have to practically force you to say more than two words about yourself. All you care about is my security, about how safe I am, which should be flattering, but it?s not because? because I?m not a person to you!

Heero blinked at the sudden onslaught. Did she really believe that he felt this way? This wasn?t supposed to happen. He hadn?t wanted her to get mad! Say something, you idiot. His mind berated him, but he was at a loss for words. He had thought that his feelings were obvious, and that she knew and accepted them.

Relena sank to the ground, emotionally exhausted from her outburst. Heero didn?t move, and she thought that he was confirming her suspicions. She had seen him comfort women before, he had been awkward, but he had still managed to do it. He wouldn?t help her though, she sob silently, unable to hold back her tears any longer. He wouldn?t help her because she wasn?t a person?

?Please?? Relena said in a quiet voice that made his heart ache. ?Go away, Heero. Don?t waste any more of your time on me.?

?Relena?? Heero finally found his voice, and knelt beside her. ?I didn?t mean to hurt you. That was the last thing that I ever wanted to do to you.? She rubbed her eyes, looking sceptical. ?The reason that I don?t talk to you is that you make me uncomfortable.? He fumbled for the words, searching frantically for a way to describe what he felt.

?Whenever I?m around you, it seems like there isn?t enough air in the room.? He said slowly, looking at her for a reaction. ?My chest gets tight, and it hurts. It hurts to be around you because I thought that I could never have you. That you deserved better than me. I didn?t understand before, but I do now. I?m in love with you, Relena.?

She looked at him cynically, dismissing his words. ?Don?t make fun of me, Heero.? Her voice was cold once more. ?Why did you come here??

?It wasn?t supposed to be this way.? Heero ignored her question. ?I was supposed to find you, say something romantic, and then sweep you off your feet.?

?You?ve never had to say something romantic to sweep me off my feet.? Relena retorted angrily. ?All you ever had to do was look at me, and I would be lost, but you never looked at me. You would always avert your eyes.?

?Relena?? Heero ran a hand through his hair. ?I came here to ask you to marry me.?

?That?s not funny.? Relena said softly.

?I would never joke about something like this.? He replied seriously.

?If you love me, why wouldn?t you look at me?? Relena asked, unable to believe what he was saying. ?Why wouldn?t you talk to me? How can you love someone, but not want to look or talk to them??

?I didn?t want to get lost.? Heero said solemnly, smiling inwardly at the confused look that Relena wore. ?What you said earlier, about being swept away? it was the same for me.?

?You?d look into your eyes and get lost??

?Don?t play stupid.? Heero chided her. ?You know what I mean.? He reached into his pocket, pulling out a ring, and offering it to her. ?It wasn?t supposed to be this way.? He muttered.

?Heero?? Relena whispered, staring at the ring. ?It?s beautiful, but I can?t. It won?t work.?

?I won?t take no for an answer,? Heero growled, shoving the ring into her hand. ?I don?t have a life without you.? He pressed his lips against hers, leaving her room to escape if she wanted to. Despite his words, she knew that he would let her go if she asked him to.

?Heero?? She began again, noting the fear that suddenly appeared in his eyes. This time, she was the one who leaned forward, she was the one who claimed him, and as her hand tightened around the ring, she knew that she was lost.

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Relena shivered slightly as she stared at the moon. How happy she had been. Too bad it had been nothing more than a dream. A childish fantasy that had haunted her nights. It had never happened. Well, it had, but not to her.

She buried her face in her hands, wishing that it wasn?t true. Heero had proposed, and he was getting married. She should be happy, but no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't force herself to feel that way.

It would be just like she always dreamed. A beautiful ceremony only for friends and family, Heero smiling and happy at the prospect of a new life. A gorgeous white dress, and a wonderful life ahead of them.

In fact, there's really only one problem. Relena thought miserably as she hugged her knees to her chest.

The bride isn't me.


Author?s Note: Like I said before, this was for the 99 ways to propose to Relena, but it didn?t really have the requisite happy ending. I suppose that I could have cut out the last four paragraphs, but I liked them? I might make ?Frozen? a series, using this as the prologue because I have some ideas, but we?ll see. I?m not really sure if it?s good enough for a series?

I hope that you liked it.

Symee

[Eienvine]

How dare you?! How dare you do that? I was ready to melt into a puddle in my chair at the utter gooeyness of it all, and then you throw those last four paragraphs in! I am affronted.

I'm (sort of) kidding. Excellently written. It flowed well, and the story completely pulled me in until you dropped the bomb. I am impressed and amazed.

Poor Relena . . .

[fubberr]

Ahh!!!!.AHHH!!!AHHHH!!! OMG!!!

I so tottally thought this would be one of those WAFF ficys!

omg... I think it would be a great fic for the contest!

*sigh* I was getting all happy and fuzzzy...Till the end...ahh!!!

The bride isn't me

*sigh*.. I must say, this was a great fic , even tho it wasnt the way it turn out.... butt! Great fic..

You know what..its sooo great..maybe..you..should... continue!

Yes! Please do! I want to know who Mr. Yuy married..grrrr.. lol..

anyways... Great Fic Symee-Sama, please (I BEG YOU) continue!!!!!!!

the one and annoyingly

fubberrrrr!~

[RyanEX2000]

A much as I like my 1xR(and no one can claim otherwise),it always gives me a sense of satisafaction whenever Heero turns the tables on Lena.After all,I am the self proclaimed President of the Relena-torture club^__^.

(glares)Symee....you've been gone too long.Real life catches you at bad times doesn't it.Well three fics in one night.Not a bad comeback.How about some more.And maybe a bit happier this time .

[Chronalax]

Nice to see you posting again, sis. This has gotta be the first fic you've worked on since you got kicked out. Anyway, I think I have an idea where this fic is going, so yeah, I want you to continue it. Who knows, this fic might actually be good.

You suck :p

Chronalax