Faye: The Therapy Sessions *Chapter 12*

[Red Ninja]

Chapter 12 - Dead in the Water -

It was October, he had left in July.

"This ruined puzzle is beige with the pieces all faced down
so the placing goes slowly
the picture of anything
other than it's meant to be"

I'm sitting here on stage in front of my usual lunch crowd, strumming my guitar and
singing another sad song.

"But the hours they creep
patterns repeat
Don't be concerned
I know I'll be fine on my own"

He hadn't contacted me since he left.

"I never said don't go'
don't go"

I had learned to play guitar. Karen, one of the waitresses, taught me during our breaks.

"But I've hidden a note
it's pressed between pages
that you've marked to find your way back"

I went back down in a hole after he left, it wasn't that deep. I figured I'd be at the top in no time.

"It says,
does he ever get the girl?"

But then he never called, hell he never wrote. He could be dead in a gutter on the street and I wouldn't know. I sunk deeper and deeper into my own hole of a life.

"But what if the pages stay pressed,
the chapters unfinished,
the stories too tough to unfold
Does he ever get the girl?"

After a solid month of depression, it got better. I accepted that it was never meant to be.

"Well this basement's a coffin
I'm buried alive
I'll die here just to be safe
just to be safe"

I pitied myself, I was sorry I ever believed in him again. I was mad that I let myself become so swayed by his kisses.

"Cause you're gone
and I get nothing
and you're off with barely a sigh"

The wall around me had been rebuilt. Only Jet and Doctor Zebb were allowed back in. I would have been utterly alone if it weren't for them. Hell, I'd probably be dead if they weren't there for me.

"I never said good-bye
but I've hidden a note
it's pressed between pages
that you'll read if you're so inclined
Does he ever get the girl?"

I finally was starting to convince myself that being with him was a dream. And unlike him I refused to stay in that dream, I wanted to live in reality.

"The hours they creep
the patterns repeat
don't be concerned
I know I'll be fine own"

Right now was reality. Faye Valentine without a lover, Faye Valentine being the pillar of strength she was meant to be.

"I never said don't go
Don't go"

But I couldn't help but notice how fake this reality seemed.

"Does he ever get the girl?"