Broken | 2xH | Pg-13ish

[Mellie]

Broken
By: Mellie
Disclaimer: I don?t own GW or the song lyrics by Seether. Title inspired by Evanescence lyrics.
AN: Moved from CPC forums on over here. Was for a challenge of lyrics there.
Warnings: Angst ahead.

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh

Her laugh was magical. It bounced off the walls and filled him with joy. Observing her from afar gave him a sense of happiness that penetrated his soul. Even when he wasn?t near her, he was aware of her.

It was something he couldn?t tell her, however.

She was living a new life. With a man she loved and was soon to wed. Even if he couldn?t be happy, he would let her have her happiness. It was her smile, her laugh, her personality that he had fallen in love with. She had a wonderful energy about her that affected him so.

He wasn?t sure when he had exactly fallen in love with her, but once he had, he knew he couldn?t escape. It was shortly after his realization that Hilde had met Conner. The few times Conner had come over, Duo noticed how happy Hilde seemed to be. The closer she got to Conner, the more Duo felt the need to escape.

I don?t feel right when you?re gone

I hadn?t known he was leaving. One day I returned from work and he wasn?t there. I thought it odd, but gave him time to return. I never would have imagined he would just leave and never say a word. We had been living together for so long, for him to just disappear didn?t seem to suit him.

But he was gone.

I wasn?t sure what to think, exactly. He was my best friend and suddenly he was gone. Even after three months, I haven?t heard anything from him. I am worried about him, but I know he can handle himself. He is strong and he has the spirit of a survivor. I only wish he would let me know where he is and what he is doing. I think about him everyday and wonder why he ever left.

At times, Conner crosses my mind as the reason.

Just as quickly, I change my mind. He had never acted interested in me like that. I always thought we were friends, maybe bordering on siblings. I assumed he had felt the same. Maybe I was wrong. But if I was, am I wrong now? Is it wrong to be in love with two men at once?

I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well

Duo gently rubbed the edge of his favorite picture of her. He was tempted to erase her from his life completely, but this picture meant the world to him. It was an essence of her.

In the picture, they were at a fair. It was summer and they were seated on a bench near a small pond. She had a large bag of pink cotton candy and had managed to have tufts of it sticking to her nose. As he brushed away a few pieces, Relena had captured the picture. The expression on her face was the one he wanted to always remember. Even as a still, it could still bring ghost smiles to his face.

I don?t feel like I am strong enough

Each day is hard to make it through. Conner makes me feel special still. However, there is so much missing in my life without Duo. I never knew the strength of his support. He helped me to greet each day with a smile. There was something in his energy that allowed me to be myself and truly happy.

He was just a friend, right? I?m not about to marry the wrong man, right?

I?m not in love with Duo, am I?

I wanna hold you

There it was. The nagging feeling that kept him from moving on and starting over. The need to be near her and inhale the scent of morning glories and mint. Her unique perfume stuck with him yet. In the woods, he could smell it all around him, and a stick of gum would complete it. But on his walk to his apartment, he caught a fragment of it and he stopped dead. His mind and heart fought before he turned in the direction of her house. There was no turning back now.

There?s so much left to learn

I was cleaning the kitchen when I heard the front door open swiftly. Startled, I turn to find Duo. I don?t know how to act, I don?t know what to do, I don?t know how I feel. Within seconds, he is before me. The powerful emotion dancing beneath the surface of his violet eyes is speaking to me, but I can?t understand the complicated language behind it.

Then his mouth is on mine.

The feeling is wonderful and fills me with delight. I never knew a kiss could be so powerful. There are so many words in the kiss, and I can only respond from my heart. My question answered, I let myself become his. My mind clears of thoughts of immorality, of responsibility. He is all that matters, his searing kiss on my lips is the only thing my brain is able to grasp.

We can breathe again

He was surprised with the force she returned the kiss with. If only he had known earlier that she had felt the same way, things might have been different. He might not feel so guilty for kissing her. Pulling away with regret, he leaned his forehead against hers. ?You sure about this??

Nodding, Hilde leaned closer into him. ?I?ve never been more sure in my life.? With that she leaned closer into him and curled her fingers into his long hair.

He didn?t need anything else before he deepened the kiss, his tongue sliding along hers. His left hand found the way to the back of her neck while his right hand trailed along down to her waist. Pulling her closer yet, he let himself open up to her.

The door slammed open and Duo?s eyes flew up to see Conner enter the house. Violet eyes clashed with hazel eyes. Conner entered the kitchen and whipped Hilde to face him. His expression was one of anger and hurt. ?Hilde?? his voice shook with emotion and his hand trembled on her shoulder.

Her blue eyes looked earnestly up at him. This is a man I love. I am supposed to marry him. I kissed another guy. Oh, lord, what have I started? ?Conner, I...I...I can?t marry you.?

Her head sunk to her chest, tears beginning to trail down her cheeks. Duo stood back, helpless to do anything but hinder the situation. He longed to run, but he could not leave Hilde. She was strong, but she had her limits.

Conner?s hand slipped from Hilde?s shoulder and pain echoed in the depths of his eyes. He looked down at the petite woman, trying to form a response. ?If it is what you need.? His voice was nothing more than a whisper before he slipped out of the house.

Hilde slowly dropped to the ground in defeat. She hadn?t meant for anything of this to happen. It went all too quickly for her to do anything but act on emotion and instinct. ?Hilde?? Duo?s voice from behind reminded her of what she could gain, and ultimately what she was losing.

Feeling trapped, Duo took a small step towards her. He couldn?t leave, but he didn?t know what he could do for her. Finally, he went down to her and held her in his arms. If nothing else, he would try to take her pain away. He could handle it, was used to it. And it tore him up inside to see her broken.

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

end

[Nightheart]

Angsty, yet sweet. I've never heard the song (not big on songfics anyway) but I liked the fic.

[Caliborn]

I remember reading this but can't remember if I ever reveiwed or not... in any case, I really liked it. ^_^