The shadows behind her smile (1)

[shadowcat]

The shadows behind her smile (1)

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing in any sort of way.

AN: this fic was based on a magazine article i read about eating disorder. I'm sure many of us girls fear their body to be "out of shape" and stop eating to remain in shape. Girls get paranoid about being ugly so I wrote this to be realistic about a woman's emotions about her self. To all the girls out their who have the same problem, don't think that way because everyone is beautiful so don't put your self down!!


The shadows behind her smile.

The gentle moonlight shone into the bedroom and lit up the dark shadows.
Heero kissed his wife gentle on her forehead as he silently admired her delicate features. Relena Dorlian- Peacecraft- Yuy huddled against Heero's body as she rolled over so her head is pressing against his chest.

She even looks beautiful when she is asleep. Heero thought as he smiled and cupped her face. Her smile says it all. Her sky blue eyes lights up her face as her lip curve into an arc. Her honey blonde hair frames her face perfectly and her eyelashes flutter ever so slightly when she blinks.

Beautiful, Heero thought again as he kissed her again and went back to sleep.
***

Heero woke up to find Relena standing in front of the large mirror, three outfits in her hands. She studied herself in the mirror again and sighed. She went into the wardrobe and pulled out yet another suit and looked at it doubtfully. She frowned as I got up and placed both my arms around her slender body.
"Still staining on what to wear today?"I whispered to her ear as I gave her a good morning kiss.
"Yeah" I heard her reply as she put the four outfits on the bed." what one Heero, I really can't decide."
"Well, I really like what you are wearing now."I said as I ran my hands along her thigh.
"This??"She shrieked as she pointed to her slender body. " Heero, I'm only wearing a tank top and boxers! That is highly inappropriate to wear to a meeting with the ministers, it shows too much of my disgusting body!"
"Disgusting body! Relena that was really negative what you said about your self! You do not have a disgusting body! You have the most perfect body in the whole wide world." I said as I gathered her up in my arms and tilted her head up so she was looking up into my eyes. "Don't ever say that about yourself, ever again."
"No Heero…"she said as she looked away. "I do have a hideous figure, please don't try and hide it from me."She pointed at the mirror. "See, I'm too fat." She frowned and picked up an outfit and ran into the bathroom where she slammed the door shut and locked it.
What is up with women worrying about their figure! I thought angrily to my self. She has the best body in the world and she is worried about being fat! Strange how their mind work. I thought as I pulled my shirt over my head and walked down the stairs towards the kitchen. Maybe a nice breakfast can cheer her up!
Relena came down the stairs as she hung her head low to hide her blood shot eyes.
"good morning." She muttered as she sat down and poured herself a glass of water.
"anything for breakfast?"I asked as I held up a plate of bacon and eggs.
"no thank you Heero, I'm full." She said as she got up and applied her make up. Her hands shoke violently as she broke into tears. I ran up to her and held her close.
"Heero, I'm ugly, I'm so ugly." She cried as she burried her face into my chest.

I gently stroked her hair and chose my words carefully.
Nothing I say will make her feel better. She doesn't trust anyone any more. Mot me or even herself.
TBC

Ok ,please don't abandon me!! I need to know how this turned out so if tell me I can learn from my mistakes! PLEASE DON"T LEAVE ME!!! I need to know if I should stop writing!!
I promise the next few chapters would be more eventful!!

Shadowcat

[suicide_baka]

I'm sure all girls had those days before. Good start. Let's see some more!

Heero: Relena, your not fat.
Relena:*pokes at her stomach* Are you sure about that?
Heero: Want me to show you how sure I am?
Relena: 0.o;;;;;

[Kamii]

I used to to have many things wrong with my body due to an illness. This sort of reminds me of that. It's very good, It can touch proplein many ways.

[Sai Hikaru]

ooo poor Relena...so how is Heero gonna help her!??!?! realli want to no, so hope dat the nxt chpt comes out soon!!!!

[Melville's Best Friend]

I know first hand what this is like. I just want you all to know that annorexia is NOT a good thing, and I battle with it every day of my life. Never, ever, EVER think you're too anything besides beautiful...I know I'm still working on it, but I can try to help others...^_^

I wanna' see how this turns out, kiddo. Good job so far! I'm eager to read the next part! ^_^


Your friend,
Melville's Best Friend

[AngelOfDeath]

I always thought that Relena had a fairly realistic figure compared to most anime girls, though I think that even so she was fairly thin. I think that anime girls in general probably promote an unhealthy body image if taken seriously, and the treatment of this subject matter is very interesting in that context. I'm eager to find out how you work on this particular situation. Good job.

[shadowcat]

first of all...

THANK YOU FOR REPLYING!!!!

it means alot to me * breaks into sobs *

first to AngelOfDeath, i totally agree on what you mean, their bodies look really unhealthy, they should promote something to make all girls realise that what you look on the outside really doesn't matter!!!

MBF, i know what it feels like too. i went on for days without eating just so i feel good about myself but i felt worse each day. i totally agree with you that annorexia is not good, worst than not good!!
keep telling your self that you are beautiful MBF because you are!!!!
i know that annorexia a really hard thing to get rid off, its damn evil but just keep making yourself feel happy, it helps. BE HAPPY

Sai Hikaru, thank you so much for replying and i promise to finish the fic soon!! thank you again!!

Kamii, i feel extremly sorry for you about your illness but don't worry about it! you still got us and we would do our best to make you feel happy every day!!

suicide_baka, i'll try and get this done by Friday at the very latest! i've got the plot line figured out but the typing is worrying me...i'll have to find a way to get my ideas together, thankyou so much for the reply though

~THANK YOU ALL AGAIN!!!

* jumps up and hug you all tightly *

I feel so happy right now!!

**cat

[Kiyoko]

This is way realistic. I know how it feels and when that happens you don't want to listen to anybody. Today's society has posioned our minds so much on how the 'normal' female body should look like. I'm glad that you are writing this story and hopefully you get your message across.

Great job on the fic and I can't wait to see where the next chapter will lead us.

[Pure]

hey,


i agree this topic is good...ppl still are worrying WAY too much about their figure and looks. girls want to fit into a dress size 2...but the only dress they'll be wearing will be to their own funeral cuz they're too skiny and undernourished. i hope heero helps her see she's pretty just the way she is.


heero: You're not fat or ugly...i love you relena
duo: Yeah your cute and if you weren't married and if i wasn't married i'd marry you *wink*
hilde: Wat?! *pulls on duo's braid* you look fine Relena and im sure your husband some interesting ways to show you how much he likes your body the way it is *winks at heero*
heero: *grins* mission accepted *sweeps relena up and carries her back to their room.


~evil ~