Protect Me from What I Want, chapter 1-REVISED!

[BabbleFish]

Buon giorno, mi amici! here's a newly revised chapter 1, the other chapters will be posted soon^.^ Please read and enjoy! oh, and don't forget to review =^.^=


All Standard Disclaimers Apply (ASDA)
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Fuck it, I thought to myself as I washed two sedative tablets down with a large shot of bourbon. Ever since ?he? left, my nights were hell. We had never spent a night together before Heero disappeared, in all truth we hadn?t even shared a kiss. Goddammit, I?m 24, not some lovesick 15 year old girl anymore! He?s not coming back, you know that...I shook my head roughly to dislodge such damaging thoughts, I wasn?t ever going to be weak ever again. I was strong alone, self reliant; Relena Peacecraft is never going to depend on anyone again.

The vid-phone rang and jostled me out of my thoughts. I sighed deeply and pressed the connection button.

?Hi Relena!? Any other time of the day, I would have loved to have a chat with Duo. But it was night, the only time that I could be alone and free from bother.

It was difficult to keep the edge out of my voice as I said; ?Hello, Duo. Why are you calling so late?? I slid the bottle of bourbon out of view of the camera, he didn?t need to know about that.

?Aw, come on, it?s not that late! I needed to tell you something,? He ran a hand through his bangs nervously; though he tried to hide it, Duo was actually a very serious man. I could tell that this was going to be a very important announcement.

?Go ahead, I?m all ears,? I smiled, I was glad to hear from him, even though I would never admit it to anyone.

?IproposedtoHildeandshesaidyesandshewantedmetoaskyoutobehermaidofhonor!?

Needless to say, I was a bit shocked. Hilde and Duo seemed like the kind of people to which a certificate of marriage wouldn?t matter very much. They loved each other deeply, they didn?t need a Wedding wedding to prove that.

?Uhm, Duo? Could you say that again? Talk slower and actually breathe this time, all right?? He flushed scarlet and started over; I couldn?t help but chuckle. It seemed that the silly American pilot could make me smile no matter how awful I felt. I had kept in touch with all the pilots, and we saw each other often. Everyone except Heero...Sighing, I poured myself another drink. The first sip burned down my throat to pool warmly in my stomach. Ahh...that?s nice.

?Relena? Earth to Relena!? Duo?s usually jovial voice was tinged with concern; I immediately set down the glass in surprise.

?Huh? Oh yes, what were you saying Duo?? The pills were beginning to take effect and the edges of my vision began to soften. I felt calm, ready to handle the outside world and the latest Duo-Hilde drama. I looked up at the screen; Duo?s eyes were no longer sparkling with their usual gregariousness, but shadowed with surprise and sadness. Pity? , I thought, uncomfortable with his piercing stare.

?You know Relena, you look awfully exhausted, how about I call you back in the morning?? He smiled gently at me and idly stroked his braid. Something was up, I just knew it. I smiled back at him, exhaustion suddenly crushing me. Better living through chemistry indeed, I thought before replying.

?That would be great, Duo, I would really appreciate it. I do want to hear what?s going on with you and Hilde, tell her hello for me? ? I yawned.

?You take care of yourself, all right ?Lena?? His voice suddenly dead serious, Duo looked at my pointedly. I know what he meant, take it easy on the drinks, go to bed early...Don?t think of Heero, I thought to myself.

?Good night, Duo. It?s great to hear from you, I?ll talk to you tomorrow,? I smiled at him before severing the connection.

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There it is, the revised chapter 1. I really hope you enjoyed it enough to review.

[teardropdangel]

WOW. I like this so far...Relena on the brink of self-annihilation...all for the sake of Heero...What's Heero going to have to do to make up for it? AHHH...so many nice, illegal ideas come to mind......

[blackrose]

That's some potent stuff - sedatives and burbon. And Yuy's never even kissed her? There's no need to mourn his leaving, Relena. Get out your black dress because if there's mourning to be done, it's going to be over YUY'S DEAD BODY.

Gah! Yuy, you idiot!

(more ficcy, please)