What My Mother Doesn't Know (Poem)

[Perfect Soldier]

Note- If you're easily offended then I wouldn't read this. The language content is questionable and it's nothing like my usual work, but I feel it conveys my most honest emotions regarding my life and my mother.

What My Mother Doesn?t Know

I am the person she told me to stay away from
I lie to her all the time about where I am, and why
I don?t tell her what she doesn?t want to hear
I drink my sorrows away, glass after glass
I feel satisfied in my pathetic bliss
I want nothing from her but to stay out of my life

I say her arrogance makes me sick
I always call her a bitch
I hate looking at her worn face
I never want to think that could be my fate

I cringe when her footsteps near
I avoid my empty house, rather to sleep on a park bench
I think nothing more than selfless enjoyment
I live for the moment and escape the past
I worry you constantly and don?t even care
I scare myself, sometimes my friends

I do bad things she loves to hate
I kiss cute girls
I love to french with lonely boys
I treat my emotions like toys
I mute my concerns when things go to shit

I value my secrets
I go where I please
I ignore my hearts suffering
I tell myself to forget
I try to forgive
I catch myself in a vicious cycle
I know there is no end

I dream of escape
I understand fear
I enjoy and regret my existence
I take pride in being the ugliness that I am

I- is what my mother does not understand

[angel222]

wow, I really liked this. Perhaps because in some phrazes I recognize myself
I admire the way you wrote this poem, so direct so honest.
Great job

[teardropdangel]

That was deep.
It was raw and I could sense the emotion there.
Luv it.

[Lady Casper]

Like! Very much!

Like Tear said raw...and i see a lot of depth and feeling in it...

Good...me give 2 thumbs up...along with 4 fingers lol

[AnShino]

Brilliantly honest and [for me] easy to relate to. Splendid =]