The Symbol of Temptation chapter 8

[Litia-sama]

AN: I am so sorry for the delay on this chapter! To make up for it we'll just jump on in.

Disclaimer: Yadda yadda I don?t own Gundam Wing and so on.

The Symbol of Temptation
Chapter Eight

His knuckles were bleeding. He didn?t care. Pain didn?t matter. All he cared about was that the tree was there and he could keep on hitting it. Again. And again. And again.

He killed my mother.

And again.

He killed the Dryeks.

And again.

He tried?he tried to force me to?

Again.

He told me no one could ever love me like he did.

Again.

He attacked me when I said I didn?t want him.

Again.

He said I deserved it for how much I hurt him.

Again.

He said I belonged to him.

Heero gave the tree one more punch and stopped, breathing heavily. He leaned his forehead against it, running his hands through his hair. His mind was in chaos. So many questions, so few answers.

So many feelings.

His talk with Relena only hours earlier had awakened something within him. Something he thought was dead. A need. A need for blood. He was fairly certain that Alex had tried to rape Relena. Which enraged him. What was worse was that the filthy bastard had gotten away with it.

This awakened something else as well.

An instinct. A carnal lust he couldn?t get rid of, no matter how hard he tried. He felt possessive. Angry. He needed to have her. Needed. It scared him to think so. He?d told himself he wouldn?t do anything of the sort until he?d married her, but now?now it filled his thoughts. He was frightened of her now more than ever, because he didn?t know what he would do.

Every time he closed his eyes he saw a man, another man, on top of Relena, forcing her to submit to him.

When his thoughts turned primal he?d left the cabin and ran through the trees, trying to escape them. He would only hurt her if he acted on either of his needs. The need for her. The need for Alex?s blood.

He had promised not to do either of the things he now needed to do.

He needed to kill Alex.

He needed to be with Relena.

He knew he would be her first. They?d spoken about it the previous night and neither of them had been with anyone. The knowledge only increased his current desires and made him want only to beat himself rather than this defenseless tree.

Alex was coming for Relena. He was certain of that. What he wasn?t certain of was how long it would take for him to find them.

He knew Quatre wouldn?t tell anyone. He also knew Quatre well enough to know that even he couldn?t find them himself if he were the one looking. But that didn?t matter to him. What mattered was Laura and Relena. And Alex?s blood.

He squeezed his eyes shut and tried in vain to stop the way his thoughts were going. He was out of control and he knew it. He needed to calm down, but he couldn?t. He couldn?t get rid of the images. Alex. Relena.

He wondered if she was all right.

He?d left so suddenly that she didn?t have time to say anything. He kicked himself now for leaving her alone like that, and decided it was time to go back to the cabin. He could control his lust. His lust for her, anyway. His bloodlust was another matter.

One, he decided, she didn?t need to know about.

When he reached the cabin she walked out from behind the glass door and stared at him, saying nothing. She looked him up and down and made an expression of impatience at his bruised and bleeding knuckles. Without a word, she grabbed him by the arm and led him into the kitchen, making him sit on the floor so she could glare down at him. She went about tending to his wounds with silent fury.

He was finally able to see the fury he?d been waiting for.

?I only hurt myself. You shouldn?t be angry.?

She made a noise similar to a cough. ?Heero, dearest, that?s why I am angry.?

The tone of her voice alone made him want her. He took great pleasure in seeing one of her rare moments of fury.

Only she would be this upset over something like this. Her sarcasm only made it even more spectacular.

He gently grabbed her hands when she was finished. ?Don?t be angry. I needed to calm down.?

?You could have found another way.?

?No, I couldn?t. It was either me hurting myself or me hurting someone else.?

She got the message. ?Well, then. Now that you?ve got it out of your system, why don?t you tell me what you plan to do to Alex??

His skin crawled. ?Nothing.?

?Bullshit.?

He blinked. ??What??

?I said, ?Bullshit?. If you intended to do nothing, you wouldn?t have run out of here like a bull chasing a red flag.? She crossed her arms, looking very stern. Perhaps her fury wasn?t such a good thing after all.

But it was incredibly arousing.

?Relena, I told you once that I wouldn?t kill anyone ever again. If I intended to break that promise, I wouldn?t have come back here tonight.? He was on his feet now, face-to-face with the woman who ruled his thoughts. And his heart.

?How do I know that?? her voice dropped to just above a whisper and it lingered in his ears, accusing him of lies.

?Because I would never do anything you didn?t want me to do.? Except for killing Alex.

Her expression changed, tears welling in her eyes. They didn?t say anything more and just held each other, trying to block out the darkness of their pasts. Heero especially.

He already felt guilty about killing Alex, and he wasn?t even close to doing it yet.

* * *

?Heero?? she moaned, digging her fingers into his skin.

?Ah?ah?Hee?eero??

He snapped awake, sitting straight up and sweating from head to toe.

He couldn?t believe it. He couldn?t believe the things he was dreaming about.

Intimate embraces.

Sinful desires.

Where did all this come from?

He turned his head to the right, where the dream-demon lay sleeping. So calm. So peaceful. So unaware.

He turned away and closed his eyes, trying to chase the dreams away. Maybe it wasn?t such a good idea for them to sleep in the same bed. It definitely wasn?t his idea, not after what he?d been feeling and thinking before they even put Laura to bed.

But she?d been crying.

He wouldn?t leave her.

He turned towards her again and froze when their eyes met. She was awake. What was she thinking? Had he said something in his sleep?

She sat up and embraced him in her arms. He closed his eyes and was surrounded by her.

?Heero, I know what you want,? she paused, taking a breath. ?I want it to.?

His eyes shot open. ?What??

She pulled away from him and he missed her instantly, trying to keep from shaking like he always did. She gazed into his eyes and he was overwhelmed with emotion, speechless.

She took another deep breath and steadied herself. ?I told you I loved you, didn?t I??

Yes, he remembered. He?d never been more shocked in all his life. He nodded slowly, unsure of her intentions.

She paused a moment. ?And you said?that you loved me. Didn?t you??

He nodded again, even more slowly.

?Then?then why are you waiting?? She looked unsure. She looked nervous.

What she was saying suddenly hit him. He stood up off the bed and backed away, mortified, watching her. She stared at him with her eyes, those eyes, until his back hit the wall and he couldn?t back up anymore. He watched, terrified, as she stood from the bed and walked over toward him. She walked slowly, not knowing what she was doing to him. Not knowing what kind of turmoil she was putting him thought.

?Stop it, Relena. Stay away from me,? he pleaded. He couldn?t let himself have her. Not here. Not now.

?Why? Why, Heero?? she asked, coming closer. He closed his eyes, trying to escape her. He felt her hands, her soft, wonderful hands, on either side of his face. He panicked. No, his mind screamed. No, no, no!

?No!? he yelled, startling them both. Her hands disappeared from his face and he opened his eyes, looking for them. He saw her face. Her beautiful, forbidden face, questioning him with things he couldn?t answer.

?Heero, don?t,? she whispered, her hands on his face again. ?Don?t run away from me.?

Those words. Those words?

He brought his trembling hands up to his face, covering her hands with his like he?d done before. If he wanted her so badly why was he running away?

?Because he wasn?t worthy to have her yet.

He pulled her hands away from his face, seeing the flash of pain in her eyes. He hoped his own eyes conveyed the feeling that he could not. The pain he himself felt at refusing her. But it wasn?t time yet.

?It?s not time yet,? he said, unconsciously rubbing her palms with his thumbs. ?We?re not married-?

?Then marry me,? she cut him off. He was shocked once more, lost for words.

?But-?

?No,? she cut him off again, ?I want to marry you, Heero. You?re all I think about. You?re all I dream about.? She took a moment to look at the floor, embarrassed. He couldn?t believe his ears. She raised her head and met his gaze, enchanting him. ?Heero, I feel as if I can?t live without you.? She closed her eyes. ?I need you.?

He didn?t know he was kissing her until he had to stop for air. She completely amazed him. She?d asked him to get married. He was so relieved and overjoyed that he forgot about Alex, at least for the moment.

?Relena,? he gasped when she began kissing his neck. For a second he thought he was seeing another side to her fury.

?No. I don?t want to talk anymore. I just want to be with you.?

If you only knew, he thought. ?Stop. Stop it!? He chuckled, unable to hide his mirth. He pushed on her shoulders and she pulled away. She raised her head and made a mock frown, her lips swollen and red from their heated kiss.

?You do know that Alex will try to stop us if we get married, don?t you?? she said, her expression serious.

?I know,? he said, ?I?m counting on it.?

It was more than true. Vice Foreign Minister Darlian?s marriage ceremony was sure to draw attention, and it would certainly draw Alex?s attention.

A plan to bring Alex to him was a plan he liked very much.


\\\\\Don't worry, the big Alex/Heero showdown isn't far off. And get ready for a plot twist!/////

[ice princess]

THIS STORY IS SOOOOOO GREAT!!!!!!

Ahh, the turmoil!!!! How do you do it?!?!?

I'M going to kill Alex if you don't hurry with the next chapter, and then what will Heero have to do.....heheheh......

~ice princess

[Numena]

Another chapter!
I love this fic! I'm so glad there's a new chapter! I love all the drama and turmoil. Can't wait to see what happens next!! (can I stop writing exclamation points??) Guess not. Hope you update soon!

[criminal wreckchords]

after she read fic:


::cries:: i love this fic so much! this is quite possibly one of my top 5 favorite fanfics of all time (which is saying something, cause I've read a LOT). your portayal of heero is incredible, and your plot twists (grrr...) are so wonderful and wonderfully torturesome simultaneously. everything about this fic is realistic and gives a different perspective. i can't wait to read more!

criminal wreckchords

[Litia-sama]

*cries*

You guys...are just so great.... I'm going to work even harder now. I can't leave you all hangin' without a good showdown between Alex and Heero.

Oooooh, gotta love (er, hate) those homemade villians! And here I thought people would hate this chapter.

Now I feel daring...hehehe.


~Litia-sama

[shadowcat]

WoW!!!

Go RELENA!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYY...they are getting married!!!!

KICK SOME ASS HEERO!!!!

**kitty

[neekabe]

oooo.. they have a plan, a plan and a wedding ^___^ even better!
I don't want to rush you or anything, but pleeeeese get the next chapter up soon ^_^

neekabe