Title: Stinkfist
Author: Kendra
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: 1xR
Warnings: Lemony, angsty.... Relena POV
Disclaimer: *bows to Maynard* He owns this song w/ Tool and Sunrise
owns GW.
Notes: *backs away from Rose* I'm sorry that I didn't watch over
Heero and relena but I'm a writer and I got him by 1xR inspiration for the first time in a
week!
I'm so soorry!!!
Stinkfist by Tool
//Something has to change.
Un-deniable dilemma.
Boredom's not a burden
Anyone should bear.//
I feel his lips on mine as his body comes in contact with mine. Heero is so strong yet so
gentle when he's with me.
I can tell that when he's with me, he feels calm, at peace. Without me, he's in confusion. Why
can't he realize that?
//Constant over stimu-lation numbs me
and I wouldn't have
It any other way.//
As his hands grasp my body, bringing me into needful contact with him, I tell myself the
answer. Heero refuses to accept that he needs me. He likes me, he lusts after me, but he
refuses to love me.
I can understand his recluctance, he has issues from his past to deal with.
//It's not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I don't want it.
I just need it.
To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.//
But I need more from Heero. I need his heart, his love, his acknowledgement of our
relationship. This, this relationship we have right now isn't enough any more.
I have his trust, but I need his love to be whole.
//Finger deep within the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Relax, turn around and take my hand.//
As his hands lift my legs around his waist, I sigh a little in regret. All of the sex in the
world couldn't make up for what I need the most.
His lips nibbling on my neck cannot make up for what I need the most. My fingers careening down
his back cannot make up for what I need the most.
//I can help you change
Tired moments into pleasure.
Say the word and we'll be
Well upon our way.//
I feel the wall against my back as Heero tightly presses our bodies together. I know that this
time, it will be rough, not as gentle as it usually is.
His fingers rip open my shirt as his lips attach to my breast. I feel a new urgency inside him,
an urgency that was never there before.
//Blend and balance
Pain and comfort
Deep within you
Till you will not have me any other way.//
I heard Heero's grunts as he struggled taking his shirt off. I helped him undress by working on
his pants. I was already basically naked as my skirt was hiked up around my waist, my panties
discarded long ago. I could feel the intensity building. Something special would be started
tonight, I could just feel it.
//It's not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I don't want it.
I just need it.
To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.//
His need almost overwhelms me as he is poised at my entrance. His eyes bore into mine, asking
if its okay. I nod, I want and need him anyway that I can.
He enters, nice and slow, just how I like it. But I know it won't last as the warrior spirit
inside of him aches for release. I wrap my arms around his neck, keeping him close as he
thrusts inside me.
//Knuckle deep inside the borderline.
This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to.
Relax. Slip away.//
I feel his lips nibbling on my ear as our rhythm because faster, rougher. I don't feel alarmed
because I know that Heero would never hurt me. The pressure of his hands on my hips becomes
almost bruising as we both strive to reach our peak.
I come first, loudly, screaming Heero's name as my orgasm is beautiful and complete. In my
daze, I hear Heero say, "I love you," before screaming my name.
//Something kinda sad about
the way that things have come to be.
Desensitized to everything.
What became of subtlety?//
I lean my head against the wall as I feel my orgasm ebbing away. Heero's head is laying on my
breasts as his harsh, labored breaths cool my skin. I brush his wild hair with my hands as
Heero's grip relaxes.
Heero then looks up at me, his Prussian-blue eyes serious and intense. He says, "I meant what I
said."
//How can it mean anything to me
If I really don't feel anything at all?
I'll keep digging till
I feel something.//
I feel elatement in my heart as I digest what he just said. As he picks me up and deposits me
on the bed, I feel complete. I, we are now whole.
//Elbow deep inside the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Shoulder deep within the borderline.
Relax. Turn around and take my hand.//
Title: Parabola
Author: Kendra
Rating: R/NC-17
Pairing: 1xR
Warnings: Slight angst, introspection, and lime.
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Notes: Seeing if i still got it.
Even though it isn't explicit,you can see whats going on.
Parabola by Tool
//We barely remember who or what came before this precious moment,
We are choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside
This holy reality, this holy experience.
Choosing to be here in//
His hands were on his body, as desire flamed between both of them. It
was elemental, this force that brought these two opposites together:
one an idealist, the other a hardened pragmatist. Yet whenever their
eyes met, they could both see into the other's soul. It was
unexplainable; it was just there.
//This body. This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not
alone in
This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal
All this pain is an illusion.//
He could not comprehend of ever being without her now. Sure, the
passion between them always flared into arguments since outside of
the bedroom, they weren't completely compatible. As his tongue delved
into the swell of her belly button, he fleetingly thought, 'Making up
is worth the drama.'
They would never completely understand each other despite their
connection to each other. She seemed to be too pure, only stepping
into the muck when she had to. He was a fallen angel who teetered on
the brink between absolute darkness and the shadows one too many
times.
//Alive, I
In this holy reality, in this holy experience. Choosing to be here
in//
An insistent bite on his inner thigh reminded him of the task at
hand. Breathing in her unique scent, Heero shuddered as her tongue
licked his hard penis. He didn't know how long he would be able to
keep this up.
Sexual attraction isn't enough for a real relationship. They had been
attracted to each other when they had first met, but they weren't
ready for a relationship. He was a machine, programmed not to feel;
she was a sheltered brat who was just beginning the task of finding
her wings. It had taken 7 years for them to find each other again.
//This body. This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not
alone in
This body, this body holding me, feeling eternal
All this pain is an illusion.//
They had both known it was a matter of time before they were
together. They were soul mates, it was destiny and destiny had to run
its course. They met in Beijing; Heero was there to vist Wufei,
Relena was there for a conference. They had both changed quite a bit;
Heero had reached his full height of 6', his dark hair was ponytail
length, and there was a scar on his face from a mission on L5.
Relena's once golden blond hair had darkened to a dirty blond/brown
color, she was 5'7 and had gained weight all over after a bout with
bulimia. Under any other circumstances neither would have noticed the
other, but when their eyes' locked, it was as if nothing else
mattered.
//Twirling round with this familiar parable.
Spinning, weaving round each new experience.
Recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this chance to be alive
and breathing.//
With a fluid move, Heero flipped Relena on her back, sheathing
himself inside of her at the same time. His cobalt-blue eyes met her
sea-green eyes, love and passion showing in their depths as instinct
took over. Joined as two halves of a whole as man and woman could be.
//This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality.
Embrace this moment. Remember. We are eternal.
All this pain is an illusion.//
<i>Parabola</i> is an incredibly distinct piece. I just love the descriptions of the older Heero and Relena - you prove that even though they're together, they had to cross some hurdles before it all worked out.
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