Reflection of a Tainted Soul (GW500)

[Lady Casper]

Reflection of a Tainted Soul
This is what I got for an unexpected from Becks Challenge. Hope you like...
Disclaimer: I dont own them but you can give em if you dont want them anymore > GW boys!

What is it that makes you so special?

Sure you are a pacifist; yes you have a perfect face and body (at least in my eyes). But what makes you so valuable to me? Yes it's true what people have said about your ability to make anyone smile...you even made me smile even if it is just a small one. What gives you the right to go into other lives and change them forever? Tell me why is it that you can make a smile and always melt my heart. I didn't even know I had a heart. Of course everyone is born with an actual heart it was the soul really that counted.

You see me as a symbol of hope and justice but all I see is a thorn in your side. It seems I can only get in your way with a soldier with blood stain hands. Don't you see that? Why can't you just find someone else that could keep you safe and keep you away from people like me? Even if there isn't a single live out there that is like me...I know that I would never be able to touch her. I can't...I won't. I care for her to much to take away such pureness that I see razzing through her eyes. It would inhuman of me to even think I should take that away.

Even though I see I shouldn't she still have that hurt in her eyes that I can see from afar when she doesn't seem to realize I am there. No, she?s always known I was there...her secret guardian in the night that protects sovereign angel. Do I love her? I am not sure of this...because love is something only a lover or curer would know. Everyone has a place except for me...even when I a lonely person on the platform of the edge of oblivion and darkness you pull me away from the darkness and towards your shimmering light that cascades around you. A light aura: that surrounds your whole being.

Why do you care about me so badly? How could you want someone like me? I am tainted with thousands of souls died on my mind, shoulders, and hands filled with their blood and tears. Even those hands you grab and kiss them gently tenderly stroking them while whispering...a...an apology? Why would you need to ever apologize to me?

?Why are you crying? Don't cry for my sake. I don?t want you to cry over me when there is nothing to worry about. I will always to stay by your side don't ever think I will walk away. Even when you marry another and have swollen belly from your love child with your husband I will still watch over you. Why you ask...because I love you.?

Heero looked straight into Relena's eyes when he stated his feelings for her. She gasped and grabbed his face stunning him and pulled it to hers. Relena whispered softly so no one in that particular room which was no one could her them. ?Heero I love you as well and I don?t want you to just watch me. I want you to be apart of that. Be with me through hard times and good times. Heero whatever the cost I want to be with you because without you my life is just as meaningless as you say yours is. Your life, Heero is my life and what you do I feel everything.?

?Don't just give up. Those hands you hold in front of me are not stained with blood. All I see are all the lives that you have saved from fighting for what you believed in. All those families, that is still together because you saved their love ones. You can't just look at the negativity of one thing; you have to look on the other side as well. Life is full of bad, strange, awkward times, and yes sorrow times, but there is also the good times that make it worth it to live another day. To take another breath, walk another step, kiss another way, live your life, Heero you only get one chance make it count.?

Those words were like a strong gust of wind just knocked me over without my noticing my balance had been lost. You were right; you were always right when it came to the heart. That night we made love, and the next morning when you awoke I was gone. You began to tear for you thought I left you. Never had I told you?I always keep my promises.

As you exit your room to head down the stair you find flowers everywhere. Big roses to tiny blue-bells and Rosemarie, which held your favorite color where lined all the way along the hallway of the mansion. Your eyes danced with shock and exhilaration as to seeing these here now when they weren?t there the night before she walked in her room.

You walked down the stairs admiring the flowers and hadn?t noticed me until I asked if you liked them. Your answer was not liked but loved. As you approached me I hoped that you wouldn?t see the shine of sweat crossing over my brow as I tried to figure out how to say what I needed to say to you.

You smiled at me with your loving adored their vision of me. As you came closer to me I grabbed your hand, you followed soot of the direction. I stumbled at first at what I was going to say but that was alright to you. You didn?t pursue me into telling you everything right then and there. You had the patience of a goddess on her throne as she watched her worshippers ask for her to give them freedom. Your eyes winked at me to continue so I did?Relena?I got on one knee?your eyes widened.


I loved her that?s what kept ringing in my ears and willed me to go on?

?Relena?you said you loved me enough to sacrifice everything?I have not much to sacrifice but only wounded soul. Relena will you please heal it? I want to be with you for eternity. Relena Peacecraft?tears welled in my eyes for the first time since I was young boy?please take me as your husband and let me give you my wounded but loving soul that wants nothing but you? Relena marry me??

Yours eyes started to tear as well she kneeled down and hugged me like I was your only life support and whispered in my ear, ?indefinitely.?
That?s all I wanted or needed was her and it seemed that?s all she needed or wanted too. I guess the journey of life is ironic. You really just don?t what you really want until its right in your face slipping away until you grasp it.

That following autumn Relena became a Yuy. But things seemed to think otherwise besides my darling wife to inherit that name. Seemed an unexpected visitor came. Relena is hoping for it to be a girl, me I don?t care at all as long as it?s in my arms safe and sound with its family.

[Mellie]

oo, I liked this. angsty with a touch of romance!

[Eienvine]

Cute! I really liked it.

[PinkDelusion]

Awww! Its so cute! I'm glad it all worked out in the end! Great job!

[bookworm]

Very nice indeed. Luv the ending.

[Roa_Aoife]

Very sweet, but watch your tenses. And you ran your sentences together a little. But other than that, very nice, and very in charachter.