of my crystal life.
The screams of demons pulling me down
laughs of darkness as they cover my dreams.
Dragging me through memories
growing darker the more I look back to them.
If only I had known
I would have changed the times.
Sitting alone the guilt takes me to the end
sorrow for the day I was born.
My heart shatters always again
as I see hope slipping through my fingers.
But I wont cry I never will
showing my weakness is dying again.
Angels wings covering me
but I can?t see.
I know she?s is sitting next to me
But I can?t feel her worried embrace.
I?m sorry I kept you
In a place you don?t belong.
Every day I wish it was me who died
But my wishes are in vain.
As I see my loved ones parish
and I have to stay.
I have to live my painful life
that will be my sad fate.
I know one day I have deserved my rest
And I?ll meet the end with open arms.
AN : in the 3th and 4th strophe, the she = my mom, I't might help to understeand the poem
