Confronting Weakness (5xMeilan) 1/3

[Mellie]

Confronting Weakness
Part One: Struggle
By: Mellie
Disclaimer: I don?t own Gundam Wing. But if I could own the boys...that would be interesting!
Rating: PG (nothing bad, just Wufei being angry)

I pace the floors of the ER hoping desperately that she will be all right. I can?t remember everything that happened a few hours ago. Just the blood-her blood-that now stains me.

?Wufei Chang??

I turn to see a doctor. ?Yes??

?Follow me.?

The walk to where she is seems eternal. Silence laughs at my predicament and I curse my weakness. Finally we reach her room. I stop just outside. Through the large window I can see her lying still as if death had claimed her. The doctor?s voice comes back to my ears as the words I want to hear most are spoken.

??injuries weren?t fatal. However, she will need to stay here for a few days to recover. She?s asleep right now, the morphine should help ease her pain??

?She?s going to be all right?? I hear myself ask. For a second, I tear my eyes away from her bandaged body to look at the doctor beside me.

?Yes. She lost a lot of blood, but she is fighting.?

She?s coming back to me. It elates me.

?Can I go in??

The doctor nods. Quietly I enter feeling as though I am trespassing?as if I don?t belong. I sit and take her hand. It?s cool and soft. ?Meilan,? I whisper quietly, seeing if she will waken.

Still, she sleeps. And I let her. I?m not ready to face her. Not ready to admit I wasn?t strong enough to protect her.

I remain at her side as night gives way to day. Her slumber is no longer subdued. She stirs at my warm hands, the sun on her face. I know she?ll waken soon. But I will her to sleep a few more hours.

?Wufei??

I say nothing because whatever I say is inadequate. ?Did they ruin the garden??

The simplicity of the question catches me off guard. Suddenly I feel something grow in my chest. I stand. ?Is that all you care about?! You almost died, Meilan! How can you be so weak??

?I just wanted to protect you,? she whimpers sounding uncharacteristically hurt and put out.

?I am nothing. Born of nothing, raised of nothing. To protect nothing is idiotic.?

I turn from her. It hurts to look at her anymore, and I know she?s crying. The silence gives away how strong she is. She won?t let me hear her cry.

Fighting every emotion flying through me, I exit. I can?t turn back. I?m sorry I?m so weak, Meilan.

Someday I?ll have to face her, but I?m too weak for that right now.

At last I am home. I fall into a couch in the den to let me thoughts catch up with me. And then I remember what happened last night.

tbc...

Comments appreciated!

[angel222]

Ow I really like this fic c'mon I wanna know what happens

[Mellie]

Thanks, I'm glad you like it. I have the next chapter up, but am suffering from writer's block on the final chapter!