Afraid To Love Chapter 6

[WingZero2118]

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing and Co. They belong to Bandai and Sunrise. This story is for entertainment purposes only. I am not making a profit from it.


Afraid to Love
Written by: WingZero2118
Chapter Six


?What are you talking about Heero? What do you mean that you?re leaving so I won?t die?? Relena asked, totally astonished.

?About six months ago I started having these dreams, well nightmares really, and they all end in the same way, with your death. It has to be a sign that if I get to close to you that you will die so I?m leaving so that doesn?t happen. I can?t let you die because??because I love you. I know that by leaving it doesn?t seem like I do but this is the only option that I can think of to keep the one person I care about most alive.? Heero?s voice trailed off as he turned away from Relena, tears returning to his eyes once again.

?Oh Heero. I had no idea that this was happening to you. But surely you don?t believe the dreams are true do you??

?I don?t know what to believe any more. But one thing is for sure, and that is that the dreams have become stronger since you arrived here. I?m not asking you to try and understand what I must do, but I am leaving and never returning so that you will be safe. I can?t bare the thought of you dying because of me,? he said.

When Heero had finished packing he turned to face Relena again. ?Take care of yourself Relena. You have changed my life and I thank you for that. This is probably the hardest thing I have done in my life but it is for the best. Know that I will always love you no matter where I may be. Good bye Relena,? he said and bent down and kissed her on the cheek and then left the room.

Snapping out of the momentary shock that had over come her, Relena ran out of the room and after Heero. ?I can?t let you leave Heero. Now that I know how you feel about me I can?t lose you again. I have spent the past two years hoping that one day you would re-enter my life, and now that you have I can?t let you leave again. I don?t care if I die because of you being close to me. I would rather die with you by my side then die without you in my life at all. Please Heero, don?t leave me again,? Relena said, trying to hold back tears of her own.

Heero stopped in his tracks. He had not expected Relena to chase after him like this.

?What do I do now? Do I stay with the woman I love or do I continue running away from my past?? At that moment, for the first time in his life Heero found himself doing not what was required of him but what he felt was best given the circumstance.

?I can?t stay Relena. As much as I want to and as much as you plead with me I can not stay here with you. I need to be alone for a while. I do not know yet whether I will return or not but I can say this, if I do return it will be to find you.? And with that Heero opened the front door and walked out.

Relena couldn?t believe what had just happened. For one brief minute it seemed that Heero was finally going to let his emotions get the better of him, and then the next minute he was gone. She collapsed in the entryway and began to cry. He was gone again. She had finally found him after two whole years, and now he was gone.

Just at that moment Quatre appeared in the hall looking rather concerned. ?He?s gone isn?t he?? Quatre asked quietly.

Relena could only nod her head in reply to Quatre?s question. ?I?ll send some of my men out to search for him at once,? Quatre said. ?He can?t have gone far and when we get him back here we will make him see what a terrible mistake he is making.?

?No,? Relena finally said. ?Don?t force him to do something that he?s not ready to. He?s going through a lot right now, and he needs to sort everything out on his own. I know what he?s going through cause I went through it myself. The nightmares about him dying, the stress, the anxiety of wanting to be with him but not knowing if he would die because I had sought him out to be by his side at all times. Sooner or later he will realize as I have that the dreams are just telling him that he?s in love and not that I will die if he gets too close. We will all just have to wait for him to see the truth and return to us on his own time and terms like we did the last time.?

Quatre nodded in agreement. They would all just have to wait for Heero to return. But how long would it take for him to come to his senses? This was a question that no one, not even Heero himself, could answer.

Thanksgiving came and went, and in the weeks approaching Christmas Heero still had not returned. Duo, WuFei, and Sally finally arrived at Quatre?s two weeks before Christmas, while no one had heard from Heero in over a month. All hope of his return before the holidays were over was fading fast with each passing day.

But miles away Heero had realized what a terrible mistake he had made. He was running away from the only person he had ever loved because of a dream.

?I?m such a fool! Why did I leave her like that!? She probably won?t ever talk to me again now. I?d rather be with her even for just a short time then to go on living the rest of my life without her and living with the fact that I had made the biggest mistake of my life by walking away.? So in the weeks preceding Christmas, Heero started his journey back to Quatre?s. He only hoped that he would make it there by Christmas and that everyone would still be there, especially Relena. Heero traveled day and night trying to make sure he would make Quatre?s in time.

?I just hope she hasn?t left yet. What a fool I?ve been.?

Back at Quatre?s everyone was in high spirits with the coming of the holiday. Everyone except Relena. No matter what any one said to her she didn?t seem to embrace the holiday cheer around her and let go of the fact that Heero was not there with them. Just when she was about to give up all hope on his return, the unexpected happened.

It happened to be Christmas day very early in the morning. Everyone was still in bed when there was a knock at the door. One of Quatre?s servants opened the door, still yawning to find that Heero was standing in the doorway.

?Heero, you?re back!? he said with great surprise. ?I?ll go wake master Quatre and let him know that you are here.?

?No,? Heero replied. ?Let them sleep. I?ll just go and lie down in an empty room. Do not let them know I am here. When I have rested up a bit I will tell them of my arrival myself.?

?As you wish Heero,? the servant said bowing and taking his luggage. Heero returned to the room that he had been using before he left and found it to be unoccupied. He crashed on the bed and drifted off to sleep almost instantaneously.

When Heero finally woke up, it was mid-morning already. He was completely rested and felt like a new person. He got out of bed, stretched, put on some clothes and cautiously opened the bedroom door. Peering outside, he looked to see if anyone was standing in the hallway. Seeing no one, he then proceeded on towards the dining room. Opening the door slightly, he listened to see if he could he what the others were talking about.

?I wonder what Heero?s up to these days?? Heero recognized that voice in an instant. It was Duo. Duo must have arrived at Quatre?s sometime after he had walked out.

Before anyone had a chance to make a response to Duo?s comment Heero burst into the dinning room and said, ?If you want to know what I?ve been up to, why don?t you just ask me.?

Everyone in the room turned at the sound of his voice and just stared in amazement at his sudden entrance.

[miz_lou]

oh goodness XD he just bursts in?
OO wow...Heero is getting some guts to him *removes all hits, whacks and verbal assults from previous posts* eh he he ^^;

I am glad to see that Relena is so understanding, very true to her character in the series...she's much too patient for me I'm still getting over her challenging Heero to a race! *giggles* and winning XD <genious, really>

Very good story so far McWall, the emotion, situation and comedy are just awesome!