Present Tense

[illiterate]

AN: Hey look another posting, but this one is a song fic, unfortunately this songs not mine but maybe the next one will be. Gah I can't believe I posting this.

Disclaimer: No own Gundam Wing and unfortunately don?t own Pearl Jam. *pouts* or their song Present Tense.

Present Tense
by, Illiterate

Do you see the way that tree bends? Does it inspire?

Relena Peacecraft Darlain leaned her head against the cool glass of a hospital window. She tried not to look over at the patient in the bed across from her, to taking in his peaceful looks as he slept.

Heero had insisted that he was fine after they were extracted from the remains of the Presidential compound at Brussels, but after collapsing a second time into the arms of his friends they were able to convince him he needed medical attention. The doctors told her that he was experiencing sever exhaustion and that he had developed an ulcer due to prolonged amounts of physical and mental stress. He had made one request before he slipped of into a drug induced sleep that had lasted the past two days.

***

?Relena??

?I?m here Heero. What do you need?? she said, taking his hand and whispering in hushed tones so as not to disturb the medical staff working around his room.

?Be here when I wake up??

?Yes, of course.? She assured him with a soft smile. He motioned her to come closer and she bent her head down looking into his eyes that were mere inches from her own.

?Thank you.? Softly spoken words whispered against her skin of her check.

?For what?? she replied even softer. Tears glistened in her eyes as she looked upon a man she new to have such spirited strength struggle with these simple words.

?For believing in me,? he brought a shaky hand to caress her face, ?and for understanding? She toke his hand in her own and brought his palm to her lips never breaking eye contact, as he slipped of into a deep sleep.

?May your dreams be as untroubled as the life you will lead from now on.?

***
Leaning out to catch the sun's rays... A lesson to be applied
Are you getting something out of this all encompassing trip?

?This will be the last time we meet like this Heero? Relena spoke to herself in the quit room, but the second the words left her lips she knew that they were meant to be heard by someone else. She didn?t have to turn to know that he was awake and that his eyes were on her. She would not turn and let those eyes influence her.

?How long has it been?? His hoarse voice brought her even further out of her musings

?Two days.? Her gaze still held by the swaying tree outside the window.

?You can spend your time alone, re-digesting past regrets, oh...
Or you can come to terms and realize
You're the only one who can forgive yourself, oh...
Makes much more sense to live in the present tense

?Have you been here the entire time? Your clothes have not changed.?

?No, I?ve been very busy and have not had time to find some fresh clothes? She bit back her tears.

?The President must have much for you to do.? She wouldn?t look at him, ?Please don?t leave.?

She bit down on her trembling lip, cursing her betraying eyes as they turned to gaze at him. ?We can?t live like this anymore Heero. It?s time to move on, for you to discover who you really are without my influence constantly swaying you.?

Have you ideas on how this life ends? Checked your hands and studies the lines
Have you the belief that the road ahead ascends off into the light?
Seems that needlessly it's getting harder to find an approach and a way to live
Are we getting something out of this all encompassing trip?

?I understand.? but he didn?t. He wanted her to tell him that it would all be ok. He wanted her to tell him that everything that had transpired was not in vain, and that he was ok. He knew she could see all the things in himself that he couldn?t see, and couldn?t bring himself to say.

?Please Heero, I?m just asking you to try. I want to see you break free from all this.? She made her way to the door tears running down her face as she tried to hide them from him. Her hand was on the door knob. She was leaving and there was nothing he could do about it. ?Follow your emotions and let them lead you to find yourself and live for that person I know you really are.?

You can spend your time alone redigesting past regrets, oh...
Or you can come to terms and realize
You're the only one who cannot forgive yourself, oh...
Makes much more sense to live in the present tense.

Now she was gone and he had only himself to worry about and to live for. She could no longer forgive him for all evil he had done. And what was she telling him now? To forgive himself? She was giving him a second chance at life, but everything in his heart was screaming for her to join him.

AN: I?m not going to say that?s the end but I can?t promise a sequel. This fic turned out totally different than what I anticipated and towards the end I even thought about changing the song. Err? this is the first fic I?ve ever posted ?I think. It just made me feel good to post the poems that I thought I?d go again. Please tell me if it sucks. That way I can stop without feeling I?ve let myself down and save ya?ll a horrible read.

P.S. This was only proof read once so sorry if there's a bunch of grammatical errors, and tell me if something doesn't make sense. I have this habit of not writing what I'm thinking.

[Elyn Yuy]

Heero, is, ...emotionally breaking down? :-?

How ...? Heero, I mean, ...can he be ... Never mind. Great fic.

I understand the exsaustion, the ulcer... ? smacks self. Sorry, I'm tired.

Great fic.


Elyn Yuy

[Miroku]

you can't promise a sequel- pity, this was really good.

[Morrighan]

Oh.... That was sad....

Great job, though! ^_^

[bookworm]

Heero...the lost one.

Relena...the strong one.

*sigh*