Driven Under (Quatre x Noin)

[Mahan Mayhem777]

Driven Under

By MahanMayhem777

I?m, going to keep this short and simple, this is another 4x9 song fic, but trust me, it?s a lot different from my other writings. I went through a couple of songs like Audio Slave?s ?Like a Stone?, Chevelle?s ?Send the Pain Below?, and Fuel?s ?Hemorrhage?. In the end though, I thought Seether?s ?Driven Under? suit the mood best. I Highly recommend you listen to the song it if you haven?t already. Because not only is it a very good song, it helps when reading this story.

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing, or the band Seether, or their song ?Driven Under?

Warnings: Domestic Abuse, Violence, Frequent swearing, Major angst, and Suicide. Rated-R

Just for your information, the text Written in italics, is the song lyrics

Pairings: 6x9, 4x9

Driven Under

Do you think I?m faking
when I?m lying next to you

Quatre was getting ready to go to bed when he heard a knock on his door. He got out of bed and slowly walked over to it.

?Whose there,?

?Q?Q?Quatre,?

Quatre?s eyes opened wide, it was Noin. He opened the door and sure enough, she was standing there, shaking and crying heavily.

Do you think that I am blind
nothing left for me to lose

Quatre grabbed her by the hand, and led her inside to the couch. He sat her down and went to get a cup of tea. When he returned, he handed her the cup, and sat down next to her.

?Noin, what?s wrong,?

Noin began to cry some more ?Z?Zechs and I got into a big argument today and he, he,?

Noin buried her head in her hands and wept aloud.

Must be something on your mind
something lost and left behind

Quatre put an arm around her and swore to himself. Every time there were a problem between those two, she would always rush to him for comfort and help. He hated to see Noin like this, but he hated Zechs even more for doing this to her.

?Zechs, you bastard, don?t you realize you have the perfect woman, why must you always mistreat her. Noin? if only you knew how much I loved you?,?

As Quatre looked at her, he noticed that something was wrong with her face.

Do you know I?m faking now

?Noin, let me look at your face,? He reached for her hand.

Noin shrank back ?No Quatre, please don?t,?

Quatre squeezed her shoulder ?Noin please, I?m not going to hurt you, I?m here to help you,?

Do you know I?m faking
when I?m lying next to you

Quatre again reached for her hand, this time, Noin didn?t pull back. As he removed the hand from her face, his eyes went wide, and his jaw dropped in horror. Under her right eye, there was a black bruise

?Oh my god, that, THAT, THAT SON OF A BITCH


Do you know that I am blind
to everything you ever do

Up until now, Zechs abuse had been only verbal. But today, he had gone to far. He began pacing back and forth across the room.

?GOD DAMN HIM, DAMN HIM TO HELL,?

He suddenly felt a hand touch his shoulder; he turned around and saw Noin standing next to him, eyes pleading.

?Please Quatre, calm down,?

?I CAN?T CALM DOWN, I?M GOING TO GO OVER THERE AND SHOW HIM WHAT HAPPENS WHEN HE HITS MY FRIEND,?

Must be something on your mind
something lost for me to find

?No Quatre, don?t do that, maybe if I talked to him?,?

?TALK TO HIM, TALK TO HIM, NOIN HE JUST HIT YOU, YOUR NOT GOING ANYWHERE NEAR HIM,?

?But maybe he just lost his temper?

?I DON?T GIVE A DAMN, HE HIT YOU, AND I?M NOT GOING TO LET HIM GETAWAY WITH IT,?

Do you know I?m faking

?Quatre please, don?t get mixed up all this, just let me talk to him,?

Quatre was shocked ?What do you mean don?t get mixed up, I?M YOU FRIEND DAMN IT. So no, as a friend, I cannot allow you to go back there and see that man,?

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she?d used it once before on him

Noin looked at him angrily ?YOU DON?T DICTATE MY LIFE QUATRE, IF I WANT TO GO BACK, THAN I WILL,?

Quatre slammed his fist on the table, breaking it ?GOD DAMN IT, HOW MANY MORE TIMES ARE YOU GOING TO FORGIVE HIM. WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO REALIZE THAT HE DOESN?T LOVE YOU,?

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she?d used it once before, oh man

?AND WHAT WOULD YOU KNOW ABOUT LOVE, YOU JUST DON?T UNDERSTAND,?

?WHAT THE HELL IS THERE TO UNDERSTAND. HE YELLS AT YOU, HE MISTREATS YOU, HE EVEN HITS YOU. THAT ISN?T LOVE,?

Noin grabbed her coat ?I don?t have to listen to this, I?m leaving,? She walked out of the door and slammed it behind her.

I guess you know I?m faking
when I tell you I love you

Quatre stood there still stunned about what had happened. He suddenly picked up the teacup, and threw it as hard as he could into the wall. He then crumbled onto the floor and cried.

?Noin?Noin?Noin?why do you do this to me, why do you put me in so much pain, why do you always leave me for him,?

He remained on the floor until no more tears were shed. He then slowly got up, and put his shoes on.

?I need to go for a walk,?

He opened the door and walked outside into the night

I guess you know that I am blind
to everything you say and do

As he walked down the street, he tried to think of something else; but all of his thoughts went straight back to Noin. He had been in love with her for years, but he had always accepted the fact that she was with Zechs, until recently. Now, every time he saw her with Zechs, it felt like she ripped out his heart, and crushed it in her hands.

Must be something on my mind
there?s nothing left for me to hide

?Noin, why do you still love him, even after all the pain he?s put you through. Don?t you see that I love you, don?t you see the torment in my eyes every time he hurts you, why don?t you see it,?

It began to rain, so he started to walk back to his house, still thinking of Noin.

?Noin, if you were with me, I?d never hit you, I?d dedicate myself to you, and only do things to make you happy,?

As he reached his doorstep he paused; he had to see Noin, he had to tell her how he felt.

Do you know I?m faking

He jumped into his car, and drove to Noin?s house. When he arrived he ran straight to the door, but paused when he heard voices.

?But Zechs,?

?SHUT UP, YOU DON?T TELL ME WHAT TO DO, NOW SIT DOWN,?

?Zechs,?

*SLAP*

Quatre burst through the door, and his mouth dropped.

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she?d used it once before on him

He saw Noin, lying on the ground, hand clutching her cheek. Zechs was standing over her, looking at him.

?WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT,?

Quatre felt all his anger for him explode; he ran over to Zechs and tackled him onto the ground. He then began to punch him in the face over and over.

?YOU DIRTY SON OF A BITCH, I?LL KILL YOU, I KILL YOU FOR DOING THIS,?

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she?d used it once before, oh man

Quatre stood up and began kicking him in the ribs

?YOU?LL NEVER HIT HER AGAIN YOU BASTARD,?

Noin got up and ran to Quatre ?No Quatre, stop,?

Quatre forced himself to stop; Noin kneeled down next to Zechs and cradle him in her arms.

?Zechs? are you okay,?

Quatre couldn?t believe what he was hearing, he punched the wall as hard as he could and stormed
out of the door.

We have to, succumb to
the feelings we can never face

It was now raining heavily, but Quatre didn?t care, he was too mad to care.

?QUATRE,?

Quatre looked behind him and saw Noin running up to him. From the look on her face, he could tell that she was upset.

She reached him and looked him in the eye ?WHY THE HELL DID YOU COMEBACK FOR, YOU RUINED EVERYTHING BETWEEN ME AND ZECHS,?

I need you, I breathe you
I can?t go through this all again

?WHAT DO YOU MEAN RUINED EVERYTHING, ALL I DID WAS PREVENT HIM FROM HURTING YOU MORE THAN HE ALREADY HAS,?

?AND DO YOU THINK THAT BEATING HIM UP WAS GOING TO MAKE THINGS BETTER, YOU HURT ME EVEN MORE THAN HE DID,?

?WHY THE HELL ARE YOU SO MAD, HE JUST HIT YOU AGAIN, WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO DEFEND HIS ACTIONS,?

?BECAUSE I STILL LOVE HIM,?

We have to, succumb to
the feelings we can never face

?AFTER ALL HE?S DONE TO YOU, AFTER ALL HE?S PUT YOU THROUGH, HOW CAN YOU LOVE THAT MONSTER, ALL HE DOES IS BRING YOU DOWN, TO HIM, YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A LOWLY DOG TO ABUSE,?

Noin slapped him as hard as she could ?YOU FUCKING BASTARD, HOW DARE YOU JUDGE ME AND ZECHS, WE HAVE OUR PROBLEMS, BUT WE CAN MAKE IT WORK,?

Quatre?s voice rose in anger ?IT WILL NEVER WORK BECAUSE HE DOESN?T LOVE YOU,?

?YOU NEVER LOVED A GIRL, SO HOW THE HELL WOULD YOU KNOW,?

Quatre could not hold it back any longer ?GOD DAMN IT NOIN I LOVE YOU,?

I need you, I breathe you
I can?t go through this?

Noin stood in shock ?W?wh?what,?

?You heard me,? Quatre?s eye?s began to tear up, ?I?ve been in love with you for years, but I couldn?t tell you, I didn?t want to create a conflict with Zechs. But now I don?t care. Do you even realize what you put me through all those times you came to me for comfort. Do you realize the torment I went through every time Zechs had wronged you,?

Noin was taken aback ?Quatre? is this what it?s all about, you?re jealous about the fact that I?m with Zechs,?

Quatre was heartbroken ?NO, I?m jealous of the fact that you would rather put up with that son of a bitch, then come with me. Noin you know I would never wrong you, please just come with me,?

Noin just stared at him ?Quatre, Zechs and I are married, I just can?t leave him because you love me,?

That was it for him, his broken heart swelled with rage, Quatre gritted his teeth ?THAT?S IT, I TRIED AND I TRIED, BUT YOU STILL WON?T LISTEN. YOU WANT TO GO BACK TO HIM, FINE, FUCK HIM AND YOU LUCRENZIA NOIN, I?M LEAVING,?

He grabbed her, kissed her roughly, and ran to his car.

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she?d used it once before?

As he drove down the road, his head was spinning with emotions. He had just spilled his heart out to Noin, and she ripped it out and spit on it. He no longer felt any love toward Noin, just anger, sorrow, and hatred. He wanted nothing more to end it all, and make these feelings go away.

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she?d used it once before on him

He parked the car and slowly walked inside. He sat down on the couch and ran his hands through his hair.

?Noin, I told you everything, and you brushed me away like I was nothing to you. I guess though that?s what I really am to you, nothing,?

He wanted to cry, but no tears came out, just sorrow.

?So this is what I?ve been reduced too, a man with nothing to live for,?

He then came to a decision; he was going to kill himself.

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she?d used it once before, oh man

Quatre walked over to his closet and pulled out a shoebox. He opened it up, took out a revolver and a single bullet. He put the bullet into the chamber and cocked the gun.

?So this is it, it?s over for me, my life is over,?

As he stood looking at the door, a single tear rolled down his cheek as he raised the gun to his head.

Then she told me she had a gun
she says she wants to use it on me now?

Just then the door opened and Quatre saw an exhausted and soaked Noin. But it was too late; he had made his decision. Not even her presence could change his fate. He looked her in the eyes one last time.

?Noin?

He closed his eyes and pulled the trigger.

The End

Man that was depressing, but i guess life is like that sometimes. Like it hate it, let me know, just don?t flame me. Also look out for my sequel to this story. It?s basically the same thing except from Noin?s point of view. I will use Seether?s other song ?Fine Again? for that one. That?s all for now, Peace.

[Kanya Barton]

Oh no! That's so sad...but it's really good. I didn't know the song so I kinda sorta didn't read that part, but the story would have been just as good without the lyrics. Well, tootles!
Peace out!