Whispered and Heard :: Chapter 1

[Kaname Fan Whipper]

Whispered and Heard :: Reverberating Silence
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Rating ? PG-13 and up (Or as otherwise marked)

Warning - Descriptive violence and language.

Posting - Anywhere. As long as my name and e-mail are on the fanfic. Please notify me if my fic is being used anywhere else. Or for easier access just e-mail and I will send you it in a file.

Summary - Our dynamic duo, (Sagara & Chidori) have a nice little adventure. With all kinds of twists and turns. Angst, Romance.. everything (I hope).

Authors Note ? Do I have a note? Nah, screw it. Just read on!

Unfortunately I do not own Sagara and Chidori (yet)! They belong to Gonzo and all those cool people associated with FMP! I own a couple of my made up minor characters here and there. I also don?t own any of the music used in my series. Nor do I own that damned answering machine. Why you ask? I should own it. I did put it in there for cryin? out loud. But, nooooo.. I?m to poor for an answering machine! So it?s not mine. *sniff*

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I love the time and in between the calm inside me. In the space where I can breathe I believe there is a distance I have wandered to touch upon the years of reaching out and reaching in, holding out holding in

I believe this is heaven to no one else but me and I'll defend it as long as I can be left here to linger in silence if I choose to. Would you try to understand?

I know this love is passing time, passing through like liquid. I am drunk in my desire... but I love the way you smile at me. I love the way your hands reach out and hold me near... I believe...

I believe this is heaven to no one else but me and I'll defend it as long as I can be left here to linger in silence if I choose to. Would you try to understand?

Oh the quiet child awaits the day when she can break free the mold that clings like desperation. Mother can't you see I've got to live my life the way I feel is right for me. Might not be right for you but it's right for me... I believe...

I believe this is heaven to no one else but me and I'll defend it as long as I can be left here to linger in silence if I choose to. Would you try to understand?

I would like to linger here in silence ???if I choose to???.would you understand it?..would you try to understand...


The last remains of a midnight shower filtered across the night sky as Kaname awoke from sleep. A soft sigh escaped her dry lips as she shifted her weight on the small bed. A bed? How nice and comfy it was compared to the cold floor. She had no recollection of moving last night but she didn?t mind the warm feeling that felt like strong, lean arms curled around her, tucking her into the safety of an embrace. She lifted her head and rested it in the gap of her two pillows. Unfortunately she realized that those arms were just a figment of her imagination, but the face that belonged to those arms was merely a memory.

She stretched her legs, tight muscle protesting any movement at all. She slowly padded off to her bathroom. Switching on the lights of the bathroom absent mindedly. She was careful not to use too much thought process this early in the morning. She crossed over to her mirror and took one look at her face. Her hair sneaked out in small sections from a bun to fall randomly across the pale skin of her face which was as translucent as watery milk, her lips almost looked bloodless and dry and purple shadows haunted underneath each eye.

Her thought wandered away from her reflection and she finally took notice to her radio. It was on low playing a soft melody and she couldn?t help but lazily shift her weight back and forth on her feet. The thought of dancing or even swaying to the beat was not an option at this early in morning but the tune itself was catchy and felt almost like a window into her soul.

And if I'm gone before you start well you can find me in your heart.
Who can say if it's right or wrong?
I've waited for you to long and if I can't hold on, I'm gone.

Of course he was gone.

?Ugh, not these thoughts again,? She said out loud to herself. She really didn?t need a repeat of last night.

When you came to me I said love will find a way
For every heart that leaves another heart will stay.
I guess you couldn't see past the shadows in the night.
It seems that time for us just wasn't right.

?When is time for me ever right? It seems that time just wants to go ahead and do its own thing. Can?t loose track for just one second to fit happiness into my life.? She angrily dropped her comb into her sink annoyed with the messy bun and the irate thoughts that seemed to be floating to the surface with the help of that DAMN song.

She crossed through the door and impatiently shoved her fist at the machine. ?Why don?t you just shut up already. He?s not coming back!? She froze. Since when did she start yelling at the machine? Plus wasn?t she speaking for herself? He?s not coming back. She pressed her fingers to her forehead and sighed. ?I?m just moody.? That shut her up. She just stared blankly at the machine. Watching the digital red light blink the passing of minutes.

Sousuke?s face materializing before her. ?Kaname.? It spoke and she tried to shake loose of the memory, but everything was so hazy, so thick. Her head felt like it weighed a ton. She blinked and tried to take and process all the information her senses were telling her, but it was a difficult task. Her mind was working far too slowly to be not under the influence of something, she knew that. She had not lost feeling in any part of her body but she felt very strange. Kaname thought hard, it was difficult to concentrate. She tried to move again but quickly discovered that she couldn't move anything, couldn't even lift her head.

She could barely even notice the dark figures that traveled in the shadows. No, they were the shadows themselves. They moved expertly through the shadows with purpose, determination and a common goal.

Her thought processes started back up again and she was able to think out of reflex. Turning quickly she faced the direction she thought was where the shadows came from. Nothing, just an empty still room. Her shirt was already soaked in sweat. Beneath its thin layer, she could feel her heart racing at breakneck speed, its momentum threatening to tear itself from its cavity.
Save for the sound of her own ragged breathing and the rush of blood in her ears, but still all is silent.

A blast, shuttered from the flailing black shadows, outwards in a pang of destruction. Suddenly the ground began to shutter, as the shadows ripped from the ground, alive and gleaming with lime light. First their hands and then arms, reaching out and ripping at her clothing, as the shadows began to arise. The shadow?s figures standing proudly against the smooth white walls. An evil crackle coming from the lips of the dark one his hand gripping about her neck.

A thought slowly ran through her head. These weren?t supernatural forces. These were real men. Their arms fell upon her, pulling her away as she bravely faced the evil she unfortunately could not sense. A small yelp of surprise creped out from her throat as she jerked her foot away from a grasping arm. Her slipper fell from her foot as she staggered back, only to fall hard upon the ground.

Quickly she reached out for an extended arm, her finger nails digging into the man?s like daggers into a spleen. His quick short steps threw her backward from him, and yet her nails still manage to firmly grasp the limb. She was so brave, so amazingly brave! Almost like Sousuke. She could imagine the adoration gleaming in his eyes if he watched her battle the armed men.

But her minor victory was soon shattered as her assailant?s hand, unyielding as steel grasped her wrist. She had no time to struggle. Her assailant dragged her across the floor, throwing her roughly to her knees before she was swung all the way across the room landing in the middle of her glass coffee table. Bits of glass shot out everywhere and as she landed they soon embedded themselves into her skin. Her hot steamy blood did nothing to help the pain that felt like a thousand shocks being pricked into her back.

The sound of a phone dialing brought her to attention and away from the pain in her back. Who was dialing a phone in the middle of a heated struggle? And no sooner had she asked herself this question she heard the answering machine on the other side pick up.

?This is Sergeant Sagara, Sousuke. I am not at the phone right now. I am sorry for being a burden to you but please leave a message so I can call back immediately and swiftly as possible.? She recognized the message immediately and could?nt even wait for the beep before she let out a cry for help.

"Don't scream, bitch." One man called out to her as he swiftly slapped her across her face. Another man held his gun pressed into her temple. Her eyes looked up into the brightness of a high-beam flashlight that pierced her vision. She squinted against the glare, trying to make out the identity of this man and with a sinking feeling, she admitted to herself that she already knew who he was.

?Oh god.. Sagara! I need help!?

Slap another sting this time to the other cheek.

?Sagara Please.. It hurts. Please Sagara!?

Two angry sets of hands held her firmly in place, pressing her face into her soft carpet. But that did nothing to muffle her screams.

One of the men listened as the echo of the scream slowly faded into the darkness. He was fed up with the screaming from Kaname and was about to do something to shut her up. In his hand held a knife and with the firm, unyielding grasp a surgeon would employ, molded and steadied
through years of practice and gradual satisfaction he received from the people who found themselves under his blade pressed it against her skin.

The intense pleasure he gained from the gradual exploration of peoples bodies and the sensation of her flesh parting smoothly as blood ran out in a steady stream, was his to covet and investigate. He looked down at the face of Kaname, her eyes were wide with terror, almost disbelief at the manner in which he seemed to enjoy her torture.

He smiled softly at her and stroked her cheek. Only his fingers were coarse and callused. It reminded her of how a perverts hand would feel and this man was more than a pervert he was down right insane

?Now if you come quietly I won?t have to be forced to do that to you again.? He said forcefully grasping her bruised cheeks in between his fingers forcing her to stare up at him. Although his face was shielded by the night she could smell his hot sticky breath and the smell alone was awful enough to make her hurl right there and then but she resisted the idea seeing as how it wouldn?t help her situation out any further.

?Never! Sagara!!!! Help me damn it!? She screamed again.

?Shut up or I will shut you up myself.? By now her captor was getting even more irritated by the second.

If anytime was right for her to get the upper hand this was it.

?Oh please, have you ever killed anyone? Of course you haven?t. Your to chicken. To scared to remember the feeling? The rush pumping through every part of our body? The exquisite feeling of power and intoxication? It can be quite addictive. I?m surprised a wimp like you can even threat me with a gun in my face!"

The effect it had on him was immediate but not the effect she had hoped for. Grabbing hold of her arm which she had not even noticed was broken until now. The sheer source of adrenaline had kept her from noticing the pain. Even with her broken arm he hauled Kaname to her feet. She managed to stifle her own cry of pain, determined not to give him that much satisfaction, steeling herself for whatever he was about to do. She did try to move away from him and was rewarded with a swift kick to the stomach by one of the other men which momentarily stunned her.

He held Kaname to his chest, keeping her upright with his arm tight across her collarbone. He slowly lowered his head to meet her terrified gaze, the look in her eyes pleaded with him.

"You are very beautiful, Kaname Chidori. They promised me you were pretty, but you have surpassed even MY expectations."

Kaname?s own paranoid imagination went into overdrive. Cold dread settled, deep in the pit of her stomach.

He ran his fingers down her battered cheek, moving them lower to brush her breast. She closed her eyes, unable to look at him now.

?Oh Sousuke. Please get here. Please. I need you!!?

Even though she wanted Sousuke to come rescue her as soon as possible. She couldn?t imagine the horrified look on his face if he watched her assailant violate her. In fact she wanted him there so badly but at the same time she wished he wouldn?t come to see this and that thought the most scared her. She was willing to endure torture and she wasn?t sure if it was to protect him or herself but maybe a little of both.

Snapping out of her reverie she could feel him fidgeting with something, and opened her eyes tentatively. A glimmer of light teased its way over the blade he held in his hand. Shifting his hold on her slightly, he slashed the knife across her chest and abdomen, she cried out with fading consciousness, as two long gashes opened up, the blood quickly staining her shirt as blood mixed with sweat. Dropping her with disdain he motioned for the others to pick her up. They did as they were told but not before injecting an unknown drug into her system.

She was awake barely long enough to hear the dead dial tone ringing through her telephone and still the answering machine beeped its red lights to notify her of one new message that she may never hear. And the painful truth was that it was the one message she needed and had waited to hear.

She struggled to hold on to consciousness but soon she lost to the shadows in the night and then with them she was gone.

I guess you couldn't see past the shadows in the night.

I've waited for you to long and if I can't hold on, I'm gone.

- To be continued

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Author?s Note: The music used in this chapter is Elsewhere by Sarah McLachlan and I?m gone by Alison Krause.

[Red Ninja]

But......and.......there........Oh MAN!! You can't just end things there!! *stares at KFW* So ya gonna update quickly......

Hehehe, I loved it! Keep up all the good work!

[Kaname Fan Whipper]

Lol. Thank You so much Red Ninja! I was up till 5 am typing this up so I'm affraid there are so many mistakes. And that everyone is going to hate it. So yeah. I should let someone proof read it but I really wanted to get it out last night. I woke up this morning and I was like " Man I shouldn't have posted that.. It was crap.. spelling mistakes.. and the story line.. It was to violent.. maybe it should be R.. man.. People are going to hate it." I know Im my worst critic and all but It helps alot that you are enjoying the fanfic and don't worry I wrote the begining of chapter 2 last night but cut it off right there because I wanted to be evil with that damn awnsering machine again. So don't worry the begining of chapter 2 is all ready!

***Oh and I know I'm blabbering but everyone please don't forget to read the Prologue before this it makes this one much more angsty.. I think!

- Re-Lee (Ser)

[Red Ninja]

Well I like it! You got one fan!

[elyra-chan]

How can you cut it off there?! I must have more! This is great, very suspenseful and with just the right amount of violence. The story is getting very interesting, and i can't wait until you update again.

[Kaname Fan Whipper]

Thank you guys so much!! I have a two person fan club! I think... wohooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well Im not sure what to say the next chapter is almost done and.... Im in such a crappy mood lol. Not your guys fault I just think the work is really 'blah' y'know. Maybe it's just me? Oh well... I think Im just mad at the catty girls on this floor in the dorms.. they're so.. Should I say.. itchy with a b -- Anyways.
Thanks Y'ALL!!! I really enjoy screening your comments here! It means alot to us.. or atleast me. It really helps motivate me to do my best.

So anyways..

Thank you very much and I will tryto my best!

-Re-Lee

[pilot03]

Better make that 3 members! I think your story is great. I can't wait to see where it goes from here. The suspense is killing me. I wonder what is going to happen to poor Kaname. Man, update quickly please!!

[Kaname Fan Whipper]

Yay.. 3!! *points to the yelloe smiley face* Why yah hittin' yourself!?

[pilot03]

I like the pain....no, that's not it. I keep getting flashbacks and the last thing I see is a large paper fan coming at me. Why is that?? I can't see straight..@_@ *faints* Only the next chapter will keep from hurting myself,..that or Kaname!!

Kaname: That's it!! *takes out paper fan*
pilot03: Now I remember!! *whap,whap,whap*
Kaname: Leave these nice people alone!
Pilot03: Where am I?

[Kaname Fan Whipper]

Oh you like pain huh? I'll give you pain. They don't call me fan whipper for nothing! *Whapitty whap whap whap whap....... whaaap... poke..prod..slap kick whap!* ........ .. *blink blink* Is he alive? ... *blink* Oh well! *Uses his body as as a foot rest*