Rating/Warning: 18+, lemon This fanfic has sexual content that may not be appropriate for some ages. Readers discretion is advised.
To Have, or Not to Have
(sequel to Four Walls of Heaven)
-Please read part one first at
http://www.xanga.com/Karu_Black/5225771 ... eaven.html
She couldn?t sit still throughout the whole ride. She was too excited about tonight. It didn?t help either that Heero, the one that had caused this excitement, was sitting right in front of her in the limo. Relena was repeating his last statement to her before they finally went to the conference in her head. ?wait until you see what I do tonight.?
She knew she was doing this to herself: the butterfly stomach, the visual pictures in her head. Relena was wondering just how talented Heero was.
But while Relena was fidgeting in her seat in the limo, Heero was calm. He didn?t understand why he did what he did in the elevator earlier that day. Heero continued to beat himself up in his head. ?I should have had more control? he kept repeating to himself. Now Relena would think that he was harvesting some sort of love for her and would start to talk about having a ?relationship.? He didn?t want one, he didn?t even know what a relationship was or what he would have to do. But he didn?t want to find out.
Heero?s inner voice called him a coward, Heero told that voice to shut up.
He did have to admit to himself, he did like Relena. He truly did care for her deeply, but he liked the way things were between them right now, he didn?t want anything to change.
But because he lost control he now messed everything up.
Heero looked at Relena. He had noticed throughout the whole meeting her looking at him, taking quick glances. And now she?s doing it again. Something else was annoying him.
?Why do you keep moving??
?Huh??
?Why do you keep moving?? He repeated himself. ?It?s annoying.?
?Oh I?m sorry. I?ll stop.?
But she couldn?t. In the place of the excitement came nervousness. She realized the first time she was with Heero was quick, with no real intimacy or lingering. She also realized she really didn?t do much at all. What if she was a bad lover? What if he would get so annoyed with her that he would changed his mind. These kinds of questions kept racing through her mind until she heard something in the distance.
?What??
?I said we?re here.? Heero had a frown on his face. ?This in not good? thought Relena.
Heero helped Relena out of the limo and was confronted with the mansion she had been living in for two years now. Heero never liked her living in such a big place. He didn?t like the fact that there was so many hiding places for any assassin to hide in.
They both enter the through the double doors of the building and walked into the living room. Relena put her briefcase next to the tan colored couch and took off her shoes to feel the soft plush of carpet underneath her feet. She didn?t know if she should sit down and look like she was comfortable and not at all concern with the fact that Heero was leaning against the wall staring at her, or if she should stay standing and look like a nervous wreck. She wasn?t able to choice.
?I didn?t mean what I said,? Heero said.
?What do you mean?? Relena was trying really hard to act casual.
?I don?t want a relationship.?
?What?? Relena felt the blood drain out of her; her spine went cold. She could feel the tears building up behind her eyes. How could he say that he didn?t want to be with her.
?Wait.? Heero saw that he had hurt her, he hadn?t intended to do that. ?I just don?t think that It?s a good idea. I don?t want things to change and a relationship would change things between us. Also I don?t know what to do in one so that wouldn?t help much.?
?What do you mean change Heero? What in the world would change? How could it change??
?You?ll start going to your romantic fantasies, start driving me nuts on everything, and then I would end up killing you because you annoyed me so much.?
Relena knew she was head-over-heal in love when she believed that the fact that he just threatened her was a good sign.
?Heero,? Relena wanted to make sure she said everything carefully so that she could finally be with Heero. ?Just because we would be in a relationship doesn?t mean things would change that much. I already know you don?t have a romantic bone in your body so for me to have any kind of fantasy would set me up for failure.?
?I don?t believe you.? Heero had a frown on his face.
Relena walked up to him and clasped his hands in hers. She placed her lips on her in a long his, one that put her on her tiptoes and forced a moan out of Heero. She pulled away and saw the lingering in his eyes.
?Trust me?I know you are not a knight in shining armor.?
Heero was taken aback with that statement.
?Well if your going to say that then I guess??
Heero couldn?t finish what he was saying, Relena had kissed him again, but he pulled back. Relena looked confused.
?I said I would do you tonight, not the other way around.?
Heero placed his arms around Relena and put his hands on the small part of her back. He bend Relena over to have a deep kiss. He moved his right hand to the front of her body and started to kneed her breast.
Heero moved his kisses to her neck. He found a sensitive spot on her collarbone which caused her to moan. Heero stopped.
?We need to go upstairs NOW.?
They both rushed upstairs, taking off jackets as they went. Relena had only stepped into the room for a few seconds before Heero grabbed her and attacked her blouse. Buttons flew across the room, and hungry hands ravished her flesh. Lucky for Heero, Relena decided not to wear a bra that day because the shirt was to clingy and would be uncomfortable if she had put one on.
They tumbled into the bed. Heero was molding her breast while he sought to find the sensitive spot on her neck again that caused her to moan. Relena reached for his pants and unfastened them. She then squirmed out of his grasp. She saw him glare at her but then said, ?I want to see you.?
Heero wasn?t a slow kind of person when it came to sex, but for Relena he would do anything. ?Get on your knees,? Relena commanded. Heero did as he was told.
Relena first grabbed the end of his tan T-shirt and pulled it over his head. She saw all of his muscles, toned and hard. She started to kiss his neck, then went to his collarbone, then to his chest. She heard the quicken in his breathing which just encouraged her to go on. She raised her head and pulled his pants pass his legs. Heero shifted some so that she was able to completely remove his pants from his body. She had already forgotten that he was going commando that day and was shocked and please with the sight in front of her.
She grabbed his length to feel the hardness and softness of it. Her loins was already hot, remembering the feel of him inside her. She was bending her head down to take a taste of him when he picked her up and flopped her on the bed.
?You keep trying to get in control of this situation. Well I need to teach you who really is in control.?
Heero hovered over Relena, his arms on either side of her head. He moved his right hand down her body until they found the zipper on her skirt. He started to yank the skirt off of her body, leaving her in only her panties. Heero crawled down her body until his head was between her legs. He stroked her inner thighs which enlisted a sigh from Relena?s lips. Heero removed her panties and breathed in her sent. He knew he didn?t have to do much, she was already soaking wet. But he decided to give her a few licks at her intimate spot just to hear her groan.
He went back up on her body and looked into her half closed eyes. Something caught his eye and he looked left. He then had a brilliant idea.
?Have you ever had sex on the balcony?? Heero asked.
?Heero you know I haven?t.?
?Good.?
Heero picked Relena up and carried her to the outdoor balcony that was connected to her room. Relena was laughing when he placed her on the rail in a sitting position. That laugh soon became a moan when he entered her. It was slow and smooth, like her body was made to have him fit in her.
Heero spread her legs wider so that she would take more of him in. He put on of his arms around her to make sure she didn?t lean back too much and end up falling.
Relena put her arms around Heero?s neck. She was chanting his name, feeling her body get closer to that release. It was pure estasy she was feeling. Heero was deep within her, hitting every wall the right way. It was like somehow he knew already how to move with her and what she liked.
They were starting to pant as Heero started to move faster and faster. Relena was scraping her nails against his back, but Heero didn?t care. Heero could feel her walls starting to clench around him, he knew she was close.
Heero pumped in her frantically until she finally came, colors swirling in front of her eyes, the air being pushed out of her lungs. Heero came with a groan soon after and held Relena as she went limp. Her loins were slick with their liquids, sweat was beading off of their bodies. Time had stopped for them.
When Relena was finally able to form a word all she could say was ?Heero.?
Heero moved back some, but not enough to leave her body. He moved her head up so that she could look at him. He looked into her blue eyes and knew there was no way he would ever leave her.
?So,? he said almost conversationally, ?where else have you not had sex yet??
A/N I know there are spelling errors most likely but i was pressured with this fanfic of getting it done quickly so i didn't proofread it but i hope the point got across.
Karu Black 
Sommer is very happy
<---- Kawaii so desu a ne 
well so much for privacy 
just an impression
............so heero wants to know what other places relena didn't have sex huh 