THE AFFAIR
CHP. 3
He?d known it was going to happen . . . the both of them in their prime, understanding the possible ramifications of their actions but neither willing to give it up though the chance occurrence grew more probable with each day. He understood. And when he looked at her he knew she understood, too.
Just as she knew he understood the moment her eyes caught his, that she was pregnant.
They went through the motions, keeping it hidden from the public view until they could be sure of just exactly how the people would view the situation in its entirety. The people needed to understand that it wasn?t a flight in the night, that she wasn?t a hypocrite, that he wasn?t the mindless killing machine he was perceived to be. He was human, and so was she. And just like a fairytale, they had fallen in love. Despite the prejudices; despite the chaos going on around them, love had found a way into the suits of armor they were forced to wear around their hearts. Unfortunately for the three involved, and the future that could have been with an offspring of two of the most influential people in history, the chance for that revelation never came.
Relena miscarried.
They had had a fun time . . . Heero had more than proven how wonderful and attentive a father he would have been. Every Sunday he would take her to watch Duo at the New St. Maxwell Church, take her to their favorite park and eat a packed lunch as they watched the ducks floating across the pond. He would read his book as she lied across his lap and caught up on sleep she had lost from the baby kicking. Around three they would go home and work on business; by six they would stop, making sure she didn?t over work herself, especially toward the middle of her second trimester. Most Sundays she would be too tired to do much more and they would retire to the parlor to watch one of Relena?s classics she was so fond of. Through the week they would work, him working along side her to take over when she needed a break. The doctors said it was normal for her to be so tired, especially with the schedule her profession entailed.
But Heero had his suspicions. He wasn?t an expert on the subject ? or personal affairs in general ? but he WAS an expert on what the human body could handle. And he was certain Relena?s body was near a breakdown. So, in her sixth month he had ordered her a maternity leave and took it upon himself ? as always ? to ensure her safety. He ordered the best doctors alive and had the three of them come to monitor her in their home for three weeks. It didn?t matter though; it was nature and it was going to happen no matter how much he fought for it NOT to. This time, his skills could get him no where.
She miscarried the first week of her seventh month. The Sundays together turned into overtime at work, his position at her side turned into his position on the field. Instead of reading in the park they would sit in silence contemplating what was lost. Everyone that was involved and knew was forced to sign confidentiality agreements, promising never to speak of the miscarriage, the anti-depressants, the threats that incurred if they opened their mouths, or the affair. Heero and Relena had decided all evidence of the pregnancy should be destroyed to prevent confusion of a situation that didn?t need to occur throughout the populace. The park they had visited was private and only friends had been allowed in. All of which signed the papers, understanding the importance of the position it could put the couple in. Heero couldn?t handle it, though. He had wanted so badly for it to happen ? for her to have his baby. He had wanted it with everything he had, everything he was; his life was finally going to have meaning, purpose. This lonesome man would finally have a family, a family to care for and to love . . . he would never be alone again.
That?s why he couldn?t destroy the picture; it was the only thing he had to prove to himself ? when he had bad days, when he was missing what was real ? that it had really happened. It wasn?t just another one of his tormented dreams that kept him weeping in pain at night. When he had those nights, those days, he could always sit on the couch and look at how beautiful she had been in his arms, glowing, smiling face, protruding stomach he had never fathomed her lithe figure could ever stretch to. They?d been messing around in bed ? tickling each other (Heero was surprisingly ticklish), whispering secrets both knew made no sense. He?d got her in a lock, holding onto her huge stomach, and grabbed the disposable camera from the side-table and snapped a quick picture before she?d gotten loose of his hold to run to the bathroom and relieve herself of the supper of the previous night.
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?Relena, I ??
?I have one, too.? Her voice was shaky, and her head was down. She was crying and it took him a moment to realize it, as well as what she had meant. Relena had one too, she had kept a picture too! That had to mean something, it had to . . . Heero needed it to. When she didn?t look up or show any signs of continuing he moved forward to take her elbow. Slowly lifting her head she turned to him, and just like before, he knew. He knew she had been hurting just as much as he had, knew she had nights when she wept in pain, those bad nights, bad days; knew she sat on her bed and saw how happy she had been in his arms, smiling, big belly stretched farther than she ever thought possible. But he also knew that wasn?t enough.
?You need to know something.? Heero looked at her for the sign to continue. Nodding slightly to himself after seeing that he had her attention, he stepped back and sat down on the couch. ?For the past few months I?ve been . . . living . . . with a girl named Shayne. She was . . . my girlfriend.? He swallowed the lump that was in his throat and looked down at his hands, afraid to look at her for fear of seeing what was there. The rest came out in a rush. ?She was here on L1, but is from the Lunar base originally. I was so far down, after . . . what happened, that when she found me at the bar and asked me for a date, I think I was just so grateful for the chance to do something other than sit at home and cry until it physically hurt, that I just said yes. After that I think it just became routine to go over to her house after work. Soon I was spending more time there than here and it didn?t hurt as much anymore. I suppose, somewhere along the line, I convinced myself that I was . . . in love with her. But it was all a lie.? He looked at her now, needing her to see that what he was about to say was true, ?I was just trying to replace you. I was hurt and trying to replace that with . . . her. But nothing can change that pain, and certainly not another woman. Especially not Shayne.
She came here the last week, while I was at work. I had given her a key because she?d left her sweater in my car and I?d taken it inside so I wouldn?t forget. I realized too late that she?d never been here before and that she must?ve seen the picture. After I realized why I was keeping her around, we really started to drift apart, so I wasn?t surprised when she threw me out, but why she?d said I?d cheated . . . I had no clue. That was the day I saw you. Why I?d had the box with me. I?m sorry . . . I . . . I?m sorry.? He hung his head in shame and fears of what she might say, do; fear that she would leave most of all. He wasn't prepared for what she did say.
She took a shaky breath in and laid a hand on his forearm, ?Heero . . .take me to bed??
Heero blinked and cocked an eyebrow. Nope. Definately didn?t see that coming.
A/N:
Ooookay. After mucho internal debating, I?ve decided though short, this is where English literature would rather have me leave this chapter. I DO however have the opening sentence for the next chapter! Therefore, I should be able to get the next chapter out reeeeally soon. And sorry for taking so long to update, I?ve been feeling not so hot lately, plus I was COMPLETELY uninspired! XD Anywho, I think the beginning of this chapter was definitely some of my best work. But whether or not you liked it, please please let me know, I don?t even care if they?re flames, I just wanna know! Also, I AM on ff.net now, sn is DereksGirl so I hope ya?ll will check out the challenges I?ve posted here cuz I?d love to recommend you on my profile! Feel free to pm or e-mail me, my msn sn is KakashisBabe.OK EVERYBODY!! Here's the url to my devianart photo album, (THE "BABY" IS THERE!) cuz my drawings r too big to post here!! pleeeeeaase check 'em out and lemme know what ya think!! I didn't trace ANY of them, I hate imposters that do that, & if u want any, lemme know but please don't steal! they rn't good enough anyway, lol.
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And also for anyone who cares, I'll be posting a pic I've drawn of 1XR that :I: really like, and I'll be trying to draw a nice picture of Heero, Relena, & THE BABY when I get the free time. But that would take away from the time on updating the story. and don't worry everybody, I'm most definately continuing this story! 
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