It's A Kid Thing 7 (Heero's POV)

[Melville's Best Friend]

It?s a Kid Thing 7
Melville?s Best Friend



He awoke with a start, sweat threatening to drown him. It covered his body, soaking all he touched in his fear. Glancing around him, he realized that she wasn?t with him. The bed she?d slept in only a night before was left untouched. He sighed, allowing his eyes to finally reveal what his heart was screaming at him.

It was all a dream?

His heart slowed its pace, much like a jogger after a long run warms down. His heart had hit its top speed, and once the event was finished, he could calm himself. He saw himself in the mirror, afraid to focus on his image for longer than a second. To give him time to assess the situation would make him look the fool, and although he knew he was, he had yet to admit it.

He shouldn?t have to.

After all, he did what he had to do. He sat on the edge of the couch-bed, and it squeaked with the shift of his weight, adding noise to the overly dreary room. It echoed off the walls and tormented his ears. But this torture was for the best. He knew that they could never be. Their schools were too far apart. Their lives were about to be shattered in new directions, and his path was nowhere near hers. His path was easy. She had tried too hard for hers.

And because of him, she would no longer have to worry about her rocky path. But, of course, it wasn?t his fault. She should have carried on with her audition. He shifted again, the room suddenly too small. The walls threatened to capture him in his own misery, and his breathing became shallow with the impending doom. His heart screamed at him. His head throbbed with common sense. His body longed for her cool touch to soothe his fevered brow.

But this was for the best.





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He walked on the stage, his parents taping, his classmates screaming, and his principal smiling. As valedictorian, it was mandatory to present his speech. Heero was never one for speeches. The thought of public speaking didn?t frighten him as it did most. He could not understand what was so important about this day. Was it not just another day?

Feed the monkeys. Let them hear what they want to hear.

He sighed and started his speech. Of course, they ate it up. They were rabid starving wolves, ready to leap onto his words as if they were life. All in all, he hated graduation.


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He could see her from his window. She sat in their house. Silent. Pensive.

She is so beautiful?

He shook the thought from his head and turned away. His fingers found the volume button on his CD player, and blaring heavy rock music bombarded his room. His eyes darted back to her suddenly. She had yet to move. He twitched, and an itching feeling overpowered his legs; they threatened to run towards the only home he knew- her. He sat down to watch her, pulling the blinds down so that she wouldn?t see. Though when he became thoughtful of the fact he was a stalker, he turned around, cursing himself.

He had not thought about her in 2 months. He should definitely not start now. His eye twitched. Okay, he HAD thought about her in the 2 months they hadn?t spoken, but they were all chaste?Okay, MOST of them were chaste?SOME of them were chaste?99% of them were not.

He was interrupted from his thoughts and throbbing body with a telephone call. He answered it in less than a ring, eager to get his mind off her.

?Yuy residence.?

?Heero??

?Matt? How did you get my number??

?Rel?I mean?The phone book.?

?Hn.?

?Hey, Heero? Are you okay??

?Is there a point to this conversation??

?Relena.?

He flinched.

?What about her??

?What about her? Heero?! LOOK at her!?


He remained silent, and for a moment Matt thought Heero regretted what he had done. Only for a moment. Matt watched Heero?s face on the vid-screen. His impassive face broke Matt?s heart, and he felt himself falling into the pit of despair Relena had unconsciously dug for him. Matt looked at her and felt such sorrow in his own soul that it made him want to turn straight for her. What could it possibly be like inside her? He sighed and whispered to Heero, his head bowed.


?She needs you, Heero. She?s nothing without you.?


Heero terminated the line.



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He had made sure to stay away form her the entire summer, taking a job quickly, avoiding time at home. He went away on the weekends to a cabin his parents owned just so he didn?t have to see her. His heart ached when he saw her, and his breath grew shallow and rigged. Tears threatened to spill, and the emotions were too much for him. They surrounded him, swirling about him with a ghostly manner.


He was currently on the bus to Harvard. This was it. No more Relena. Ever. He would never see her again. For the holidays, his parents would come see him. He had family up there anyways. They had a huge house, and the only downside was the twins. They tugged at his clothes and barked for pony rides 24/7.

Usually with a well-placed glare, Heero could make them run, screaming? usually his mother would see him and send him off to play with the kids as punishmen. He sighed. He had to stay with his family while in college, and it annoyed him to the point of death.

The lights of the night danced across his features, and he felt himself thinking the light were almost New Your-like. His thoughts disturbed him, as he ended up thinking about her. He grabbed a book and began reading. The words formed pictures of her, however, and he found himself thinking he was crazy. He touched the pages, carefully scanning her picture, when it started to move. He was with her. They were together in his backyard once more. It was just like a movie?



If you?re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you?re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?



"Hey Heero! Wanna? come and play?"

"I can?t play with you, Relena."

"Well?Why not?"

"Because. I?m ten your nine, I?m a boy and you?re a girl."

"So?"

"So?It means I can?t play with you."

"Well, that?s a stupid reason. Look at you. You?re not even doing anything. You?re just playing in the dirt."

"Playing in the ten-year-old-dirt."

He watched in awe as the scene played out in front of him.


"Well, my daddy says your daddy?s a Publican!"

"Nuh uh."

"Yes huh. And that?s weird. Nobody likes Publicans!"

"Well, Heero? What?s a Publican?"

"They?Publicans are the bad people of the demoxapy."

"Oh. Well, what?s so bad about the Publicans?"

"Um?.well?they?They were behind the Water Gate."

"The what?"

"The Water Gate. You know, that thing that happened wayyyyyy back before there were colonies. We?re studying about it in school."


He smiled as he watched the scene change, fading into another memory.



"What? What is it?"

"My stomach. Ow??It hurts." She laid on the ground, and groaned.

"Oh. You know what it is, dontcha??"

"Heero, as much as I want to hear the words come out of your mouth, shut up or you?ll never reach puberty."

"Yup. That?s what it is all right. You?ve got symptoms of PMS."

"You can?t even spell PMS."


He laughed aloud as he watched her first period cramp hit her, though he never remembered being that evil or stupid about it. The picture faded and was replaced with another.



"So, how did it feel?"

"I didn?t like it."

"How come? It was obviously enough to jolt you out of your friendly stage, so what was wrong with it?"

"I dunno. It just didn?t feel right."

"Heero, that?s not the first girl who ever kissed you."

"I know. You were when we were five."

"And vise versa. So, how can you say that it didn?t feel right?"

"It just didn?t, okay?"

"I guess that means you don?t like her."

"Yeah."


He should have told her then. They would?ve had more time together. He should have told her why it felt wrong. He should?ve said something?The picture changed again.



"I have to go. A friend needs me."


I never know what the future brings,
But I know you are here with me now.
We?ll make it through,
And I hope you are the one I share my life with.



He watched her ditch her recital for him. He gasped as the scene unfolded of her comforting him. The tears fell on the pages of his book, and blurred his visions. He watched the city lights grow steadily more dim. The pictures found themselves in the window of the bus. They were random spots now, flickering through his mind as if it were some sort of song.


"Heero, dance with me."

"I can?t do this without you, Heero?I need you there."

He fell asleep dreaming of what was never to be again, a single tear caught the city lights and traced the line it formed down his cheek, un-swept.


I don?t want to run away but I can?t take it, I don?t understand!
If I?m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

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College was uneventful, especially when his parents kept calling him, checking on him, and squealing about his grades. Really, was this needed? He was aware that a parent?s primary function was to humiliate their child(ren) and act incredibly stupid when it came to the child?s accomplishments, but he felt that calling every night was a bit overboard.
He smiled and nodded mostly, as his mom would tell him all the events of the day. She avoided the words ?Relena? and ?Dorlain?, and for that he was grateful. He was pleased she finally understood that they had broken up. He smiled, said goodbye, and disconnected, when the twins bombarded him. They rammed the door in, and attacked his things with a vigor that was almost inhuman. Before they had a chance to blink, he had picked them up by heir ankles, and sat them outside his door, slamming it, and locking it back.

If I don?t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don?t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you?re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you?re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?



?Jimmy! Timmy! Leave Heero alone!!!!?


He sighed. His aunt was always a little too slow. He sat at his desk, concentrating on his homework, when he looked at a picture on his desk. He and Relena were 5, smiling after their first little league game, muddy and happy. The one beside it was of he and Relena at the funeral for Melville. The one above that, the picture frame having four compartments, was of she and Heero by their cars that they had gotten for their birthdays. The last picture was of Relena. She was at the prom her senior year. Matt had given it to him as a gift- a ?go apologize? gift. Matt had ended up taking her. The purple dress clung to her tiny frame, hugging her in a seductive manner. Her hair curled, framing her face. Her face wasn?t bright. Sadness covered her features, blanketing her in darkness. However, she smiled for the picture, as it WAS Matt?s senior prom, too.


I don?t know why you?re so far away.
But I know that this much is true:
We?ll make it through,
And I hope you are the one I share my life with.
And I wish that you could be the one I die with.
And I pray in you?re the one I build my home with.
I hope I love you all my life.


He set the frame on its face and continued with his homework. He refused to admit to himself what he wanted. He refused to admit to himself that he was wrong and she was right. He refused to admit anything.


I don?t want to run away but I can?t take it, I don?t understand
If I?m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?


He pushed his emotions aside and pretended to study.



?Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away.
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today.
?Cause I love you, whether it?s wrong or right,
And though I can?t be with you tonight,
And know my heart is by your side.

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The next day, he received a letter from Matt. He opened it cautiously, regretting it immediately. It was about her. His hands dropped it, unable to read. They shook restlessly, afraid to steady themselves for fear of being able to keep the paper steady long enough to read it. He slowly removed it from the ground, and read.


Heero,

I thought you should know this, as I found out just today. You should know what?s happened, seeing as how neither of your parents don?t seem to tell you anything.
Relena went to our state school, and is currently living at home.
She quit dance and is undecided on her major.
Go to her.

~Matt

Heero?s jaw dropped. His plan had failed. His heart was bleeding, swollen, and sore. His body ached to be near her. His mind focused on nothing but her. He saw her in everything. He felt her blood in his. His lips tasted of hers. His eyes bore into hers from a thousand miles away, and he admitted it.

He admitted it all.

He was going to correct his mistake.

I don?t want to run away but I can?t take it, I don?t understand.
If I?m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms?






Disclaimer: Don't own. Gundam Wing.

[WhiteWindRRose]

argh!
damn denial!
OOOh! i'm getting emotional...
:sniff:
lovely.
i'm breathing the pain.
it's exquisite

r u gonna do Rel's POV next?
can i count on a lemony, citrus-filled ending????????????
heh

don't delay to update!
it provokes the dark side of me in this odd way, you see...
heh

[AnimeBabe90]

Yay! Relena didnt really die! :: sighs in relief:: good, really good...me like. Hurry up with the next chapter! Please! ^^

[Chibi Reli]

Wow! That was such a good chapter! Chibi Reli wants to see what happens next!

[lilac310]

hehehehehehehehe.... ..sorry MBF, but I really find that funny---> a picture Heero and Relena in Melville's funeral.....Whoa!!!

[Eden]

Whew!! After that ending for the other chapter, I got a little worried!!

This is gonna be good!! *Does a little victory dance* Eventhough Heero's a dumb ass he's trying to correct his mistakes!

Can't wait for the rest!! Don't delay too long!

~Eden

[aku_ryo]

about time you big frikin dummy!!!! - points at heero - yes you!

luv the story !!

akuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

[shadowcat]

YAY!!
She didn't die!!
Melville, great work, this chapter was sad but it meant alot. And she didn't die, that means i won't have to drop by your house.
* throws away rotten watermelons *

GREAT FIC!!

-Shadow

[Cleo]

She is aliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiivvvvvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*cry in relief*
snif....wonderful....

[Beck]

YAY! I'm so glad that you just didn't end it with her dying. Good thinking of making it a dream or I would've found some way to hunt you down and make you write a nice ending Now I'm about ready to hunt Heero down for being such a jerk. Off to read the next part.