Colorblind

[Lara Winner]

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Inuyasha.


Colorblind
By: Lara Winner
Song: Counting Crows



I am color...blind

Love and youthful passion, a shade of crimson bold and commanding like the fire rat cloth that protected him from harm poured through her veins. Blood, heated and pumping madly as his clawed fingers traced a path over the back of her hand shyly longing to entwine with her own.

With out comment Kagome obliged, turning her hand palm up. He did not glance her way, yet he did not have to. They were alone under the stars, a quiet moment for two young lovers as they sat upon the grass side by side gazing out over the rice paddies. The molten gold of his eyes said all as she observed his profile in discreet fascination.

Coffee black and egg white

Her gaze dropped to their hands, hers small and nearly engulfed by his larger one. His fingers were long and calloused, testament of a hard life, and his claws were sharp and ever ready to cause destruction.

A soft smile tugged at her lips as she rubbed her thumb over the back of his hand.

Those claws could tear and mangle and yet they could also tease the skin in a soft caress that would send her nerves tingling. She shivered. Quite the paradox, just like her hanyou.

Pull me out from inside

?Are you cold?? Inuyasha asked softly, breaking the night?s stillness with the gentle timbre of his voice.

?Not really.? She replied. Taking advantage of the moment she snuggled closer, resting her head on his shoulder. ?You?re more than warm enough.?

He tensed out of habit, still a bit at odds with the affection she lavished upon him. But as always he relaxed into her, melting within the icy barriers he erected against the world allowing her to reach the boy starved for attention and in desperate need of acceptance.

I am ready

They had fought long and hard for this moment. The ripple of a lifetime in the ocean of eternity, as insignificant as it should seem, was a treasure only soulmates could dream of.

I am ready

Every patient moment she had spent suffering the brunt of his spite reaped the seeds of love she?d sown. The roughness of his fa?ade eased, if only in the private moments they shared, and there in the light of her smile he basked.

I am ready

It was difficult for her hanyou to see beyond the years of recrimination for his existence. The scars he hid would forever sting and seep their poisonous influence into his perception.

He once confessed that the touch of her hand, even the scent of her skin, could chase his pain away.

I am?

His chin came to rest atop her head as he let out a soft, contented sigh.

?I love you Inuyasha.? She whispered. It was something he needed to hear and something she never tired of saying.

Taffy stuck, tongue tied
Stuttered shook and uptight

?Kagome? I?? He swallowed hard.

For reasons she could not fathom, some so deeply rooted in his psyche she doubted he fully understood, the words he longed to say remained choked in his throat. She didn?t need the words. When all she had to do was look at the way he coveted her and tried so very hard to give her the practical things he deemed important like protection and security, speaking of love paled in comparison to the ways he expressed it.

Kagome leaned back to look up at him and seeing his stricken countenance hastened to dissuade his apparent anxiety.

Pull me out from inside

?Shhh.? She cooed moving close enough to feel his quickened breath against her lips. ?I know Inuyasha, you don?t have to say anything.?

Like a well-read book with a worn cover a frayed edges Kagome could interpret Inuyasha's expressions just as easily as words spelled out on a page. His golden eyes narrowed in a mixture of mild annoyance at her aptitude and anticipation of closing the short distance between them. But he would not take the initiative to kiss her, he never did.

For as bold and brash as her hanyou could be, the concept of intimacy was still foreign territory in his colorblind mentality. He was eager to follow her lead, yet it was not innocence that kept him timid for he?d seen far too much in his young life to hide behind such pretences.

Kagome sensed there were deep psychological wounds still raw and bleeding, possibly forever buried in Inuyasha?s soul that even her complete acceptance would never heal. There was much fear in him, fear that he tried to hide with an overbearing bravado, fear that kept him guarded even when his true feelings seeped through the cracks in his invisible armor, fear that would forever bind him in a self made prison.

But in these private moments she could guide him out into light?

I am ready

Gently her lips moved to capture his own in a silent invitation, one that he accepted as he returned the gesture pressing closer. Pink velvet claimed them both as the dance began, lips barely touching and moving together languidly as she lead him further into her arms.

I am ready

One hand lifted to tangle in his silver locks as her heart increased its tempo. Her head tilted as she deepened the kiss, flicking her tongue at his bottom lip. Against her he shivered.

I am ready

A soft growl rumbled in her hanyou?s chest as he obeyed, parting his lips enough to allow her entry. Playfully she caressed then darted back achieving victory ad he followed with fervor.

I am... fine

When they finally parted Kagome gave a shaky chuckle leaning her brow to his. ?When you kiss me like that you say more than words ever could.?

?I like kissing you wench.? he replied huskily.

Kagome?s smile turned mischievous. ?And kissing leads to other things?? her words trailed off as her fingers resumed the conversation plucking at the tied of his haori.

He watched her intently as the material fell slack. Slowly his arms came around her in a more secure embrace as she tucked her face into the crook of his neck and started placing kisses where she couldn?t access before.

I am covered in skin
No one gets to come in

?Kagome?? he groaned her name helpless against the feelings she created.

She enjoyed his surrender remembering a time not so long ago when he balked away from the vulnerability he succumbed to at her touch. Even now she would venture no further than running her palms along his sides, memorizing the play of muscles beneath her hand. He was not ready for more than this and she was too afraid to undo the progress she had made by ignoring his needs and pushing too far.

He was only just beginning to get comfortable in his own skin, finally thinking himself worthy of the love she offered. No one else was given the privilege of being so close to him and Kagome would rather die than to ever forsake the precious gift of his trust.

Pull me out from inside

Gingerly, as if afraid to startle her, clawed fingers slipped just beneath the hem of her shirt resting just above the waistband of her school skirt. His thumbs rubbed carefully mindful not to press too hard. Another groan tore from his throat as she nipped at his pulse point before pulling back to see his face.

I am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding

Inuysha?s eyes cracked open to golden slits, his ever present scowl momentarily cast aside. A small smile, more beautiful than finest work of art, curved his lips as he pulled her impossibly closer. Knowing what he wanted Kagome obliged leaning in for another kiss.

I am color?blind

Love, red in its passion and white in its purity, illuminated her heart to the boy in her arms showing him so many shades of gray without using sight at all. Eagerly he aimed to please her, kissing her in the way that she had taught him and boldly losing himself in her world of color.

It was a brave move for the hanyou once hated by all and in the end even by the one he loved? once upon a time.

Coffee black and egg white

?Kagome?? he breathed against her lips.

Her name spoken with such reverence pulled at her heartstrings for never had she thought it would be her name he would whisper. And tomorrow would bring back her moody lover as he struggled let go of the past now that it was forever behind him.

?I love you.? she whispered once more knowing that hearing it would banish the darkness from his soul.

Pull me out from inside

Snuggling against him contentment settled over her as he nuzzled his nose into her hair and breathed deeply filling his lungs with her scent.

I am ready
I am ready
I am ready

?Inuyasha can we stay here tonight??

?Out here?? he asked sounding amused.

She pulled back to look at him, pleading with her eyes. ?Would you mind? I don?t want to let go of you just yet.?

For a moment he seemed to consider her request then he nodded hugging her tighter. ?Alright.?

Tucking herself against him once more Kagome smiled.

I am.... Fine


A.N- Well I?m not dead? I know its been a while since I last posted anything but some of you may know that I live in New Orleans? Lets just say that it good to be back and connected to the web again after four months.

This was a little piece I started last summer and I finally decided to finish it. I hope you enjoy.

Love and hugs!

[takisha16]

Not only are you back, but back with a kick!!!!
I love this sooo much....I have been traveling all day to get to college far
far away from home and I was feeling very sad and I opened up BI and
found your little one-shot and as I read it everything just melted away!
It was sooo well written, and it just pulled at your heart strings!
Inuyasha is soo damn cute and cuddly here, I wanna hug him too!
And kagome is totally IC: you portrayed her as Inuyasha's savior and she
certainly is!
This is too cuddly and 'aww...' for words, I love it!
I bet its great to be home!!
Keep it coming girl!

[Lady Casper]

Aw, awesome. Inuyasha and Kagome cuddled up underneath the stars. I really envy how you protrayed Inuyasha and his armor that puts up due to things that happened in his past and how Kagome accepts it and still stays with him. This beautifully written and the lyrics work well with it indeed. Great to see you back and well. Can't wait for more.

[black_nemesis_queen]

That was very poetic...I LOVED it! Wonderful work!

Not only are you back, but back with a kick!!!!

I'm looking forward to you next piece.

[leuje13]

oh, miss Lara.. you did it again. Just superb, i love it dearly. ^_~

[SaiyanBlack]

EEEEEEEEEE!

Gah, I love it. You know me, I love short, sweet, tooth-ache inducing IxK fluff moments. You got Inuyasha and Kagome's characters down perfect - totally canon - and I absolutely love how you didn't make them too forward with each other because this line could have very easily gone to smut. Seen it enough. But it just radiated the tentitive romance that is Kagome and Inuyasha.

And, as you are so often saying to me: YOU ROCK!

I'm glad to see you back, I got worried when we didn't hear from you in a while after Katrina. I hope you're well and settled, and that your life gets back in order soon.

- Katharine

[Kuroi Ruy]

Oooh..awesome fic! *swoons* By the way how u doin, hope everythin will be okay for a while and ur presence was soo missed. *sigh* T.T

[ice princess]

You know, I've never heard this song, but through your words, I could. I don't know the melody or the tempo, but when reading this piece, I could feel the taught string of ready tears that only beautiful music can pull. This piece was just that: beautiful. It was a character study at its finest, rich with depth, metaphor and imagery that easily related intangible emotions with sympathetic visuals. I almost felt embarrassed to be looking in on such a private, intimate moment; that's strong storytelling, IMHO. Amazing work, as always. Beautiful, expressive and poignant. Thank goodness you're back.

BTW, how's everything in New Orleans? Better, I hear, but do you have a feeling of normalcy returning yet or is there still reconstruction?

~ice *still hearing the music, having never heard the song* princess

[Lara Winner]

Thanks for the great reviews. It's good to be back. I missed you guys so much.

As far as things returning back to normal... its not going to happen. Everywhere you look something reminds you of Katrina. Right now I'm living in a house with five other family members and two of the three bedrooms have no ceiling. All i can say is nothing is like it used to be and FEMA hasn't helped us one bit.

Grr...

Wish me luck!

[SaiyanBlack]

Luck!