Wait

[Shi no Tenshi]

To those on the LRML: Hey guys this is Christine!! Do you still remember me? =P

<u>Wait</u>
By Shi no Tenshi

AN: This is the first fic I've written in a long time due to major writer's block. ^_^;; Post EW.

Disclaimer: Don't own, don't sue.

I lie on my bed. Waiting. For what? I'm not quite sure myself. It seems that's all I've been doing for awhile. Waiting for the Eve Wars to end. Waiting for a chairperson to finish a speech. Waiting for the sun to rise so the new day can begin.

You know what? I lied. I do know what I'm waiting for. I'm waiting for someone. Someone I've waited for for five years. Someone who's always been so close, and yet so far. Someone; that one person in the world who means the world to me. You.

I remember begging you not to leave. I remember you, lying in the hospital bed with your back turned against me, staring out the window as I listed reason after reason of why you should stay. Because you could start a new life here, I said. Because you could make a difference in the world.

Because I love you.

Most of all I remember knowing that your mind was already made up. Knowing that I could cry and plead all day, but nothing I said would change your mind. Helplessness is a painful companion.

Sure enough, the next day you were gone. I didn't have to visit the hospital to know; my heart ached in the wake of the rising sun, and I knew that you had left. But I waited for you to return.

The days progressed slowly as I nursed my broken heart. You haunted my dreams every night. You invaded my thoughts every day. Wherever I looked, I glimpsed your unruly brown hair. Whatever I dreamt, I saw your piercing cobalt eyes. Whenever one spoke, I heard your gruff yet soothing voice. Many a night I had aid awake in bed, crying because I missed you so. And through my tears, I waited for you to return.

The seconds ticked by like hours and the days melted into years until these five years have passed. I had, by no means, long periods of time to brood during this half decade. My job certainly kept me occupied; I was usually either at this conference or that lunch appointment. Lovely idea to heap the responsibility of keeping world peace upon the shoulders of a girl barely out of her teenage years. Despite the pressures of fatigue, I waited for you to return.

Often I wondered, as my mind tends to drift during particularly boring meetings, what my life would have been like if I weren't such a prodigy. If I were an anonymous college student with nothing to worry about but the midterm next week or the health of my pet goldfish. Would these bags under my eyes disappear? Would this placating smile be real? Would I have you? It is usually this time when an impending question would pull me out of my reverie and I would put on my dazzling smile to answer. In the back of my mind, I waited for you to return.

My publicist told me that I should find a boyfriend last year. It would be good for my image, she said. Is a false love a too large price to pay for public adoration? Is it too selfish to gamble his heart for my image? Of course not. The sweet love of their Vice Foreign Minister would melt the people's hearts and they would love me more. I refused. I was an unfortunate victim of heartbreak, and I couldn't bear to purposely evoke the feeling in another. And besides, I was waiting for you to return.

The rays of sun poking through the drawn curtains tell me that my wait for the new day is over. I begin my morning routines; waiting first for the water in my shower to warm, and then for my hair to dry. I wait for my bread to toast and my coffee to heat. And, as always, I am waiting for you to return.

[Angeldreams]

This is so sweet! *melts* I really loved how you kept Relena in character and showed how she knew and kept her responsibilities. Is there a sequel? (Hint, hint).

Angel

[Goldberry]

Wow, this is wonderful! You have a very nice writing style, so smooth and flowing, and you bring out your points without shoving them in a reader's face. I love it! I really like that you wrote this piece in 1st person. Usually, I'm not big on that POV but it really worked great here. I'm so happy with the ending too! It's so unresolved, just a glimpse into Relena's life, really, and that's what I like! It makes you think and wonder what happens, adds an air of mystery. So great job on this! I'd love to see more from you soon!

*hugs*
Berry-chan

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