Faye: The Therapy Sessions *Chapter 17*

[Red Ninja]

Chapter 17~Suffused with Love~

I left morning dress rehearsal in a flash; I didn't even bother to remove most of my stage make-up. Carrey had acted weird all morning, I felt sorry for him. It wasn't his fault this happened. I hope after he gets over this we can be friends, I do like him. But again, he isn't Spike. No one can be Spike. It took me a long time to realize that it seems. Why did I play the helpless girl through this whole ordeal? Why didn't I hunt him down and bitch him out for treating me like shit? Why didn't I try to contact him? Well there's really no use in thinking about it now. It's like Doctor Zebb always used to tell me.

"The past is the past Faye, you can't do anything about it. So let it slide, just let it slide"

"How can I just 'let it slide'?"

"Practice"

At the time I thought she was some nutty hippie, but she was right. After I learned to let one thing go, it became easier to let the next thing go. But I forget how to let things slide when Spike is involved. I think I need more practice.
I reached the hospital and walked over to the main desk. I saw Sandy flipping through chart, so immediately looked up at me with a smile.

"He's missed you Faye"

"How can he? He's in a comma!"

"I dunno, I can just tell."

Nevermind she was a nutty hippie. She gave me this little visitor's tag that said I
was his wife.

"But I'm not"

"Today you are, only immediate family are really allowed to visit him."

"He has no immediately family!"

"YOU are"

"Okay okay, thanks Sandy"

"No problem Mrs. Spiegel"

"Right"

I hurried away before she could see me blush like a ten-year-old schoolgirl. 'Mrs. Spiegel' god that sounded good. I could just see him introducing me.

"This is my wife Faye"

"Nice to meet you Mrs. Spiegel"

I could see our kids, too...okay jumping ahead a bit there Faye. He's not even awake yet and I'm picturing our children...I'm such a girl.

"Hiya Spike"

I walked into his room and sat down on the corner of his bed.

"You bored out of your mind yet? Or do you just need a good smoke?"

I don't know why I was talking to him like this. Maybe I was becoming a nutty hippie too. I dunno, I saw it in this soap opera where there was this guy in this comma for like ever. Then they get his kid to talk to him and WHAM! He wakes up; maybe it'll work for me. I look down at Spike sleeping like a lump.maybe not.

"C'mon lunkhead, let's snap outta this. You're supposed to buy me a big princess cut engagement right, not sleep."

"I don't think he would appreciate being called a lunkhead."

The devil herself is there, in full black and blonde glory.

"Hi"

"Hello Faye, any better?"

"Not that I can tell, no"

"Sandy said he was grunting last night, possibly a sign that he'll wake up soon."

Damn you Sandy you fucking hippie, why didn't you tell me that?

"Wait a sec, how'd you get in here anyway?"

"I told Sandy I was your sister."

"And she believed you?"

"Yeah that she did"

"Fucking hippie"

"That about sums it up."

"Do you mind if I ask what happened"

"No you have a right to know."

She saunters over to the other side of the bed and sits down in the chair.

"He cleared my name, the whole syndicate thought I had gotten him and Vicious killed. My only life is the syndicate, Faye, I need them. The second Spike showed up everything came to a halt. They idolize him, Faye, as if he were the height of achievement. They needed a leader, someone to turn them in the right direction. I know he didn't want to do it Faye. But he knew if he didn't they'd just hunt him down and force him. He cut a deal with them, he'd help for a few months and get things reorganized and on the right track then he'd be free. That's all he wanted Faye was to be free of them. After a few months Spike was pretty sure they weren't going to hold up to their end of the deal, he knew he was going to be stuck. So he planned another death, I was in on it. I won't go into the particulars, they sickening for me even to think about today, but Spike ended up like this."

"Is he free?"

"He's free"

"What about you?"

"What do you mean me?"

"Is he free of you?"

She looked shaken for a minute; she didn't expect that to come out of my mouth. Hell neither did I.

"Yeah, I guess he is"

"I'm sorry that was rude of me."

"No, it's perfectly acceptable. I'm going back to the syndicate, somewhere Spike never wants to see again"

"Why do you stay?"

"I'm a coward, the biggest coward of them all."

"You're not a coward, no coward could look as cool and collected as you do. If anyone here is, it's me."

She laughed; it's the first time I've heard her laugh. It's like music, light and melodic. I stared at her not sure exactly what she was laughing at.

"Sorry, it's just.never mind."

She wipes a few tears from her eyes from the laughing and stands up.

"I should go Faye"

"Oh, can't you stay longer?"

"No, people will start to wonder."

She extends her hand to me and I take it.

"Good-bye Faye Valentine, take care of our lunkhead."

We shake hands and she smiles, truly smiles.

"Oh and make him get you a big, diamond for the ring, with a platinum band the biggest damn princess cut diamond in the universe"

"Umm, sure"

She heads for the door then turns around and says one last thing to me.

"We really should have been sisters"

She leaves just as smoothly as she came, that was the last time I saw her. Not a bad memory to hold I must say. I look at the clock and realize it's time to go, call in 20 minutes.

"Good-bye lunkhead, see you soon"

I give him a light kiss on the lips.

"You're free ya know, snap out of it will ya?"

I walk out the door and down the hall. I stop by the nurse's station and hand Sandy my visitor's pass.

"See you Sandy"

"Bye Mrs. Spiegel, hurry back the Mister misses you."

I head down the hallway towards the doors.

"Fucking hippie"