To Pick and Choose 1/2 (PG 13)
Posted: Sun Jul 02, 2006 10:43 pm
To Pick and Choose: Part One
Rating: PG 13, for language and references to sex.
Disclaimer: sadly I don?t own Gundam Wing, or James Lipton?
?Amazing!? sighed Hilde.
?What?? said Relena glancing at the same store window her best friend was gapeing at.
?Duo would kill me if I bought that!? Relena paused to take a better look at the same window full of overly priced designer bags.
?Yeah he would, that one is three-thousand dollars.? Hilde nodded in agreement then moved on. ?Besides, I have it in lavender.? Hilde gasped at her friend.
?Relena you are kidding!?? she said with a giant smile.
?Not at all, you can have it. It will bring out your eyes. Besides it makes me look washed out.?
?Wow, that?s great! I?m going to tell duo I bought it, scare the shit out of him.? They both laughed at Duo?s expense. It was a particularly cold day on L7 in the scheduled snow storm they were having. And the two very grown up women were doing a bit of much more inexpensive shopping.
?How much farther do we have to go? I am starving.? Said Relena wincing at the pain in her stomach,
?Not much, I just want to get the best possible ingredients for tonight?s dinner.? Hilde said waiting for the stop light. It turned and the two women continued down the street.
?Why is tonight something special??
?I think Duo is going to do it tonight.? Said Hilde with an overly excited grin.
?What! Propose?!?
?Yeah!? Hilde said nodding enthusiastically.
?Wow that?s great! Oh, my gosh! I can?t believe its happening!? Relena stopped her in the middle of another street to hug her fiercely and take a look at the last day she would see beautiful Hilde a dishonest women.
?I know! I know! Finally, he?s been hinting around it for weeks and I find him checking our finances almost everyday.? They laughed
?Poor guy he must be scared out of his mind.? Said Relena teasingly. ?I wish that would happen to me someday.? She said as she noticed an ultra expensive couture wedding collection in the window.
Hilde looked back at her with a bit of pity in her eyes. ?It will, Relena. And I bet I know just who your prince charming will be.?
Relena giggled a little, a sad little. ?Everybody knows who I want. I wont even pretend they don?t.? said Relena looking sadder and sadder with every word. ?That would just be ridiculous.?
?Yeah, well I?ve got a surprise for you!? said Hilde looking almost as excited as she was for the thought of marring Duo.
?What?? said Relena trying not to be distracted by the thoughts of him. She turned when Hilde didn?t say anything more. For a moment she had thought she lost Hilde in the crowd.
?Heero is coming to dinner tonight!? squealed Hilde. Relena felt extremely faint for about five seconds before registering what she had said.
?But?but?Hilde, I can?t!? said Relena looking extremely white. ?Does he know I?m going to be there??
?No, of course not. The man is a bit twitchy these days. No offense, but I don?t want to scare the man off??
?I just, I would have thought he would have told me something?? Relena trailed off.
?Wait, wait, wait, wait! You thought he would have told you something? What?s going on??
Silently Relena cursed herself for spilling the beans. ?We have been seeing each other for the last three months.?
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?I can?t do it man! I just can?t.? said Duo will his head in his hands. ?What if she says no?? Heero sighed in his head. Wufei was wrong. Men could be just as dramatic as women. ?Help me out here Heero!?
Heero paused to look at his shaking friend for a long time before finally deciding that he was desperate enough for his help. ?The woman has been with you long enough to know what she is in for. If she wanted out she would have been smart and done it a long time ago.?
?You really think so?? Duo brightened up a bit.
?No.? said Heero without emotion.
?What!? bursted Duo in offense.
?It?s possible that she is as stupid as you are.?
Duo wanted to punch him and kiss him at the same time. It was just Heero?s way of being friendly, funny if you will. He just did it in the worst possible way at the worst possible moment of a guy?s life.
?whatever.? Said duo standing up. ?Just make sure you?re looking good tonight. Relena will be there.? He looked back at Heero wanting to get some kind of response from him. But there was nothing. Heero didn?t even look up from the TV guide he discovered.
?Oh yeah,? said Duo leaning in and pointing to it. ?I think Martina will be the next Space Idol.? Heero lifted one eyebrow in response.
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?You?ve been doing what!? Hilde almost screamed in excitement.
?Its not what you?re thinking, relax.?
?You can?t tell me to relax, this is like your dream come true! Oh I am so happy for you!?
They continued walking and ignoring all the stares the two loud women were getting. ?We?ve been going to therapy together since the last time we were all together. I was lonely and he needed someone he could trust.?
?So you?re not dating?? said Hilde suspiciously
?No, not yet.? Relena said determined to act as though she hadn?t been dying to divulge this secret for months.
?But he trusts you! All relationships are built on trust! And that is so important for a guy like Heero.?
?And we?ve gotten really far, I don?t want to jeopardize it by forcing him into a relationship before he is ready.? The two women reached their destination in silence. Just as they approached the open food market Hilde broke it.
?But, it is couples therapy!?
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?Do you think I am going to be upset by this?? Heero asked monotonously.
?I would have thought you would be a little surprised, yeah.? Said duo turning to the mess he had to clean before the girls got there.
?We?ve been seeing each other every Tuesday and Thursday at six pm.? Heero didn?t even look up as he said this. Duo grinned as big as he could.
?Finally shagging her, huh??
?Did I say that?? Heero looked at him.
It was a death glare and Duo knew not to push that angle.
?Keep your mouth shut, baka.? He said in all seriousness.
?Only if you smile eight times during dinner.?
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After the girls had bought all the dinner ingredients they put them in Relena?s car back down the street at the dress shop they had left. They had decided to make venison scallopini. Relena would only eat game meat.
The tailor had just finished preparing their dresses for them when they entered the high-end boutique. Hilde had chosen a La Belle Floral Print Charmeuse Dress in red floral and cr?me. Relena stayed with a basic taupe baby doll Cap-Sleeve Crinkled Dress, despite Hilde?s accusations of it being too modest and preppy. Hilde opted for crimson red accessories and Relena went with white. Relena insisted on going back to Hilde?s flat to drop off the groceries before heading off to the salon.
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?All I?m saying Heero is that porn can be a healthy part of a man?s love life, no you don?t always have to share it with the person your sleeping with, but its nice to have something sexual for your self. Seriously, ask Wufei.?
?Porn, weakens the male species to a false idea of women? Said Heero stoically.
?We already know how weak some men get.? Said Wufei arrogantly.
?What! Chang! you act like all those??
?Disgrace.? Wufei shook his head at the flabbergasted Duo.
?Porn is for weaklings.? Said Heero with a bit of a smirk.
?Fuck you Yuy!? Duo bursted. ?Well then all the porn at Wufei?s house must be Sally?s. There sure is a lot of it.?
Chang said a few choice words in Chinese and Duo laughed at him before handing him a stack of paperwork.
?Just don?t ejaculate all over them while watching ?whip cr?me sluts do America?.? Teased Duo. Wufei flipped him the bird and exited the apartment. ?Ahhh, it was good to see him.?
?He?s going to kill you someday.?
?Probably.? Heero got up and collected his coat and scarf. ?Leaving??
?Errands to run.? Heero retreated to the front door.
?I meant what I said Heero.?
?Hn??
?If you don?t smile at eight of my insanely dumb jokes during dinner I am going to thoroughly embarrass you right in front of Relena.?
?Why?? Heero?s eyes narrowed in dangerous suspicion.
?Because you gave me ammunition? Duo said darkly. ?And because you sided with Wufei just now? he finished a bit more airily.
?Fine Duo, you?ll regret this.?
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?So you aren?t nervous at all? That?s good. I would be going out of my mind if I were you.? Said Hilde as she had her hands manicured. This was becoming increasing difficult due to the fact that Hilde normally talked flinging her hands in every which way
?Why?? Relena said finally interested in something she said beyond normal girl talk. ?Because of who his is??
?Yes and??
?Duo is the same thing though, they were both Gundam pilots, both of them were involved in the war in almost the same way. Heck, Duo is even considered the god of death.?
?Well, yeah Lena. But Heero is known as the deadliest man in the world. And not for his good looks and charm. He was raised to be a human computer. No offense, but how do you know he wont snap someday and just start killing people, you even.?
?That?s why we are going to therapy twice a week. The thought of having children with any man like that would be a bit unsettling. But the most important thing is that he wants to recover from his lack of childhood and he wants the normal things in life that everyone else has. What you and Duo have, for instance. You would just have to get to know him to understand.?
?Okay, so he wants children?with?you? This is sounding more like a relationship. How many times have you two had sex?? said Hilde with an evil smirk.
?What!?? exclaimed Relena. ?No.?
?Come on Relena, you guys have been having steamy deep personal talks twice a week for the last four months, are you saying that you don?t arrive and sometimes leave together??
?Our talks are not steamy of all things, they are painful and insightful.? She picked up a magazine and started looking through it.
?But you have had sex before?? Relena stayed quiet. ?Come on Lena I saw you last conference dinner coming out of the closet alone and Heero was no where to be found?you were all red your hair was messy and you had the fattest hickie I had ever seen!? she cracked up loudly despite the dirty looks they got.
?Okay, okay, just keep it down Hilde! Fine. We have had sex, but only a few times and we always fight afterwards.?
Hilde who had just looked ecstatic at her friend?s words now looked kind of sad. She searched Relena?s face for some sign of hopefulness but there was none.
?I always interpret him having sex with me as an extension of his interest in me, but I find myself wrong and he gets frustrated when I try to understand and I end up in tears.?
?Well what goes wrong? And how?s the sex?? Hilde said hoping to cheer her up. Relena smiled that embarrassed sort of smile when a girl talks about the first kiss or Valentines Day. And Hilde found it irresistibly cute. She would have to tease her later about this.
?Well the first time, it was horrible??
?Really?? said Hilde with a scrunched up nose.
?No! Dummy! He?s the perfect soldier for Christ?s sake. Its always? OH! My gosh look at the time! We?ve got to go!?
?What? Oh shit! We have to be there in five minutes!?
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The girls found themselves in a spotless apartment (thanks Duo) cooking dinner in their stilettos and hairspray. Hilde was becoming increasingly annoyed as she realized without doubt, that Relena couldn?t cook to save her life. Duo had just gotten home as Hilde was explaining how to use the searing knife.
?Hey babes! How?s it going? Mmmm smells good. Thanks babe? he said kissing Hilde on the forehead. Hilde smiled at Relena who smiled back. Hilde asked Duo about Heero.
?Oh he?ll be here soon he said he had an appointment to keep. I think it?s the same where he goes every Thursday night.?
?What!?? yelled Relena dropping the salad.
?Relena!? yelled Hilde.
?Yeah Heero goes to a meeting or something or other every Tuesday and Thursday.?
?Today is Thursday?? she said eyes wide open.
?Oh no? Hilde realized.
?I?ve got to go? she yelled running out the door. ?I?ll be back and explain later!? with that Relena slammed the door shut behind her.
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Heero was seen dressed in a dark blue grey suit and a navy button up shirt pacing outside the office where he meet with Relena twice a week. The therapist popped his shiny bald head (imagine James Lipton) out to find Heero.
?Would you like to come in??
?I?ll wait.?
?Very well.?
Heero resumed his pacing waiting for Relena, she was never late because he knew where she was. He could feel her coming up the street. A feeling that was usually right. Suddenly a car stopped in front of the building and he saw Relena in a short taupe dress get out and run up the stairs. ?I hope she doesn?t fall? he thought silently. She didn?t and she arrived up the stairs right in front of him in less then two minutes.
?You?re late.?
?Yeah but I made it up four flights of stairs in almost a minute.? She tried to get him to smile. Instead he turned from her and opened the door and she followed hoping to God that he wasn?t mad. They found Dr. Lipton sitting in the same plush green recliner and Heero and Relena took their seats next to each other, Relena in the black chair Heero in the white chair. The shrink took a moment to look at his two patients. They were both sitting there looking still uncomfortable. Although they were looking away from each other they were leaning into each other and their knees were also angled towards each other. A far cry from the first day where they were looking at each other but their bodies and legs faced away.
?She was late? said Heero interrupting the doctor.
?And do you have a problem with this Heero?? asked Dr. Lipton.
?She has been authorized one week without a body guard and I don?t understand why she can?t be on time without one.? he said not looking at her.
?That?s not fair! I was busy getting ready to go to a dinner he didn?t even tell me he was going to.?
?I didn?t know she would be there.?
?Heero, you are her body guard on a regular basis, I think it would be fair to both of you if you decided to check in with each other everyday this week. Now where did we leave off last Tuesday?? the doctor paused to think.
?I hate her idea of pacifism.? Offered Heero.
?Yes, well Relena. What can you tell him about that other than last week?s answer which was?? he looked down at his clip board. ?Get over it or slam your hand in a car door??
?I?m sorry about that Heero.? She said looking at him. He huffed in response.
?Well?? asked the doctor.
?I?m fighting just like you are Heero, but in a different way. The world has too much violence in it, why should I add more? If the world was full of people who wouldn?t fight, even in a physical way, I would. But that?s not what we need.?
?There will always be fighting, Relena.? Heero said finally looking at her.
?I acknowledge that, but we used to have a balance where the masses weren?t openly violent, and a few fought with words and weapons for the protection and betterment of everyone.?
?And you would let a few suffer for millions of people who don?t care??
?Yes, Heero. Is there any other way??
?What if you were one stuck fighting??
?I am Heero, and so are you. So please tell me why we are fighting and not uniting??
?Relena makes an excellent point. Heero, does that satisfy your question??
?Yes.?
?Is there anything you would like to ask Heero, Relena??
?I do, Dr. Lipton.?
?Go ahead.?
?Why don?t you ever stay the whole night??
Heero didn?t say anything. He was surprised that she would ask something so personal in front of another person. He waited a long time before saying anything. The truth was, he didn?t know.
?Heero?? asked Relena softly.
?Remember what I said to you the first time we spoke at school??
?That you will kill me??
?Yes. I may never pull the trigger. But if I get too close how can I ensure that I can protect you. If I can?t protect you, I?ve killed you.?
?Is that what you really think?? He nodded. ?Why did you promise to protect me in the first place Heero??
?You were better than me or anyone else??
?That?s just not true Heero, I have faults too. And you are not a machine! You don?t have to be perfect. The ideal of being a soldier doesn?t and has never fit you. You have always been an individual, unlike anyone that I know.?
?You can?t be perfect, it?s a bigger fault not to acknowledge that than to except it and become??
?Become what Relena?? bridged the doctor. She laughed a little.
?This is going to sound trite, but? excellent.?
?How?? he said looking back at her.
?You already are. Why can?t you concentrate on being the best instead of being perfect??
?Why do you care?? he asked.
?Heero, because I love you. And I?m not going to stop saying it just because you are afraid.? It seemed to hit a sore spot.
?What if I can?t love you back?? he said watching her intently.
?Well then grab your gun because you?ve killed me Heero.?
TBC
Rating: PG 13, for language and references to sex.
Disclaimer: sadly I don?t own Gundam Wing, or James Lipton?
?Amazing!? sighed Hilde.
?What?? said Relena glancing at the same store window her best friend was gapeing at.
?Duo would kill me if I bought that!? Relena paused to take a better look at the same window full of overly priced designer bags.
?Yeah he would, that one is three-thousand dollars.? Hilde nodded in agreement then moved on. ?Besides, I have it in lavender.? Hilde gasped at her friend.
?Relena you are kidding!?? she said with a giant smile.
?Not at all, you can have it. It will bring out your eyes. Besides it makes me look washed out.?
?Wow, that?s great! I?m going to tell duo I bought it, scare the shit out of him.? They both laughed at Duo?s expense. It was a particularly cold day on L7 in the scheduled snow storm they were having. And the two very grown up women were doing a bit of much more inexpensive shopping.
?How much farther do we have to go? I am starving.? Said Relena wincing at the pain in her stomach,
?Not much, I just want to get the best possible ingredients for tonight?s dinner.? Hilde said waiting for the stop light. It turned and the two women continued down the street.
?Why is tonight something special??
?I think Duo is going to do it tonight.? Said Hilde with an overly excited grin.
?What! Propose?!?
?Yeah!? Hilde said nodding enthusiastically.
?Wow that?s great! Oh, my gosh! I can?t believe its happening!? Relena stopped her in the middle of another street to hug her fiercely and take a look at the last day she would see beautiful Hilde a dishonest women.
?I know! I know! Finally, he?s been hinting around it for weeks and I find him checking our finances almost everyday.? They laughed
?Poor guy he must be scared out of his mind.? Said Relena teasingly. ?I wish that would happen to me someday.? She said as she noticed an ultra expensive couture wedding collection in the window.
Hilde looked back at her with a bit of pity in her eyes. ?It will, Relena. And I bet I know just who your prince charming will be.?
Relena giggled a little, a sad little. ?Everybody knows who I want. I wont even pretend they don?t.? said Relena looking sadder and sadder with every word. ?That would just be ridiculous.?
?Yeah, well I?ve got a surprise for you!? said Hilde looking almost as excited as she was for the thought of marring Duo.
?What?? said Relena trying not to be distracted by the thoughts of him. She turned when Hilde didn?t say anything more. For a moment she had thought she lost Hilde in the crowd.
?Heero is coming to dinner tonight!? squealed Hilde. Relena felt extremely faint for about five seconds before registering what she had said.
?But?but?Hilde, I can?t!? said Relena looking extremely white. ?Does he know I?m going to be there??
?No, of course not. The man is a bit twitchy these days. No offense, but I don?t want to scare the man off??
?I just, I would have thought he would have told me something?? Relena trailed off.
?Wait, wait, wait, wait! You thought he would have told you something? What?s going on??
Silently Relena cursed herself for spilling the beans. ?We have been seeing each other for the last three months.?
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?I can?t do it man! I just can?t.? said Duo will his head in his hands. ?What if she says no?? Heero sighed in his head. Wufei was wrong. Men could be just as dramatic as women. ?Help me out here Heero!?
Heero paused to look at his shaking friend for a long time before finally deciding that he was desperate enough for his help. ?The woman has been with you long enough to know what she is in for. If she wanted out she would have been smart and done it a long time ago.?
?You really think so?? Duo brightened up a bit.
?No.? said Heero without emotion.
?What!? bursted Duo in offense.
?It?s possible that she is as stupid as you are.?
Duo wanted to punch him and kiss him at the same time. It was just Heero?s way of being friendly, funny if you will. He just did it in the worst possible way at the worst possible moment of a guy?s life.
?whatever.? Said duo standing up. ?Just make sure you?re looking good tonight. Relena will be there.? He looked back at Heero wanting to get some kind of response from him. But there was nothing. Heero didn?t even look up from the TV guide he discovered.
?Oh yeah,? said Duo leaning in and pointing to it. ?I think Martina will be the next Space Idol.? Heero lifted one eyebrow in response.
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?You?ve been doing what!? Hilde almost screamed in excitement.
?Its not what you?re thinking, relax.?
?You can?t tell me to relax, this is like your dream come true! Oh I am so happy for you!?
They continued walking and ignoring all the stares the two loud women were getting. ?We?ve been going to therapy together since the last time we were all together. I was lonely and he needed someone he could trust.?
?So you?re not dating?? said Hilde suspiciously
?No, not yet.? Relena said determined to act as though she hadn?t been dying to divulge this secret for months.
?But he trusts you! All relationships are built on trust! And that is so important for a guy like Heero.?
?And we?ve gotten really far, I don?t want to jeopardize it by forcing him into a relationship before he is ready.? The two women reached their destination in silence. Just as they approached the open food market Hilde broke it.
?But, it is couples therapy!?
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?Do you think I am going to be upset by this?? Heero asked monotonously.
?I would have thought you would be a little surprised, yeah.? Said duo turning to the mess he had to clean before the girls got there.
?We?ve been seeing each other every Tuesday and Thursday at six pm.? Heero didn?t even look up as he said this. Duo grinned as big as he could.
?Finally shagging her, huh??
?Did I say that?? Heero looked at him.
It was a death glare and Duo knew not to push that angle.
?Keep your mouth shut, baka.? He said in all seriousness.
?Only if you smile eight times during dinner.?
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After the girls had bought all the dinner ingredients they put them in Relena?s car back down the street at the dress shop they had left. They had decided to make venison scallopini. Relena would only eat game meat.
The tailor had just finished preparing their dresses for them when they entered the high-end boutique. Hilde had chosen a La Belle Floral Print Charmeuse Dress in red floral and cr?me. Relena stayed with a basic taupe baby doll Cap-Sleeve Crinkled Dress, despite Hilde?s accusations of it being too modest and preppy. Hilde opted for crimson red accessories and Relena went with white. Relena insisted on going back to Hilde?s flat to drop off the groceries before heading off to the salon.
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?All I?m saying Heero is that porn can be a healthy part of a man?s love life, no you don?t always have to share it with the person your sleeping with, but its nice to have something sexual for your self. Seriously, ask Wufei.?
?Porn, weakens the male species to a false idea of women? Said Heero stoically.
?We already know how weak some men get.? Said Wufei arrogantly.
?What! Chang! you act like all those??
?Disgrace.? Wufei shook his head at the flabbergasted Duo.
?Porn is for weaklings.? Said Heero with a bit of a smirk.
?Fuck you Yuy!? Duo bursted. ?Well then all the porn at Wufei?s house must be Sally?s. There sure is a lot of it.?
Chang said a few choice words in Chinese and Duo laughed at him before handing him a stack of paperwork.
?Just don?t ejaculate all over them while watching ?whip cr?me sluts do America?.? Teased Duo. Wufei flipped him the bird and exited the apartment. ?Ahhh, it was good to see him.?
?He?s going to kill you someday.?
?Probably.? Heero got up and collected his coat and scarf. ?Leaving??
?Errands to run.? Heero retreated to the front door.
?I meant what I said Heero.?
?Hn??
?If you don?t smile at eight of my insanely dumb jokes during dinner I am going to thoroughly embarrass you right in front of Relena.?
?Why?? Heero?s eyes narrowed in dangerous suspicion.
?Because you gave me ammunition? Duo said darkly. ?And because you sided with Wufei just now? he finished a bit more airily.
?Fine Duo, you?ll regret this.?
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?So you aren?t nervous at all? That?s good. I would be going out of my mind if I were you.? Said Hilde as she had her hands manicured. This was becoming increasing difficult due to the fact that Hilde normally talked flinging her hands in every which way
?Why?? Relena said finally interested in something she said beyond normal girl talk. ?Because of who his is??
?Yes and??
?Duo is the same thing though, they were both Gundam pilots, both of them were involved in the war in almost the same way. Heck, Duo is even considered the god of death.?
?Well, yeah Lena. But Heero is known as the deadliest man in the world. And not for his good looks and charm. He was raised to be a human computer. No offense, but how do you know he wont snap someday and just start killing people, you even.?
?That?s why we are going to therapy twice a week. The thought of having children with any man like that would be a bit unsettling. But the most important thing is that he wants to recover from his lack of childhood and he wants the normal things in life that everyone else has. What you and Duo have, for instance. You would just have to get to know him to understand.?
?Okay, so he wants children?with?you? This is sounding more like a relationship. How many times have you two had sex?? said Hilde with an evil smirk.
?What!?? exclaimed Relena. ?No.?
?Come on Relena, you guys have been having steamy deep personal talks twice a week for the last four months, are you saying that you don?t arrive and sometimes leave together??
?Our talks are not steamy of all things, they are painful and insightful.? She picked up a magazine and started looking through it.
?But you have had sex before?? Relena stayed quiet. ?Come on Lena I saw you last conference dinner coming out of the closet alone and Heero was no where to be found?you were all red your hair was messy and you had the fattest hickie I had ever seen!? she cracked up loudly despite the dirty looks they got.
?Okay, okay, just keep it down Hilde! Fine. We have had sex, but only a few times and we always fight afterwards.?
Hilde who had just looked ecstatic at her friend?s words now looked kind of sad. She searched Relena?s face for some sign of hopefulness but there was none.
?I always interpret him having sex with me as an extension of his interest in me, but I find myself wrong and he gets frustrated when I try to understand and I end up in tears.?
?Well what goes wrong? And how?s the sex?? Hilde said hoping to cheer her up. Relena smiled that embarrassed sort of smile when a girl talks about the first kiss or Valentines Day. And Hilde found it irresistibly cute. She would have to tease her later about this.
?Well the first time, it was horrible??
?Really?? said Hilde with a scrunched up nose.
?No! Dummy! He?s the perfect soldier for Christ?s sake. Its always? OH! My gosh look at the time! We?ve got to go!?
?What? Oh shit! We have to be there in five minutes!?
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The girls found themselves in a spotless apartment (thanks Duo) cooking dinner in their stilettos and hairspray. Hilde was becoming increasingly annoyed as she realized without doubt, that Relena couldn?t cook to save her life. Duo had just gotten home as Hilde was explaining how to use the searing knife.
?Hey babes! How?s it going? Mmmm smells good. Thanks babe? he said kissing Hilde on the forehead. Hilde smiled at Relena who smiled back. Hilde asked Duo about Heero.
?Oh he?ll be here soon he said he had an appointment to keep. I think it?s the same where he goes every Thursday night.?
?What!?? yelled Relena dropping the salad.
?Relena!? yelled Hilde.
?Yeah Heero goes to a meeting or something or other every Tuesday and Thursday.?
?Today is Thursday?? she said eyes wide open.
?Oh no? Hilde realized.
?I?ve got to go? she yelled running out the door. ?I?ll be back and explain later!? with that Relena slammed the door shut behind her.
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Heero was seen dressed in a dark blue grey suit and a navy button up shirt pacing outside the office where he meet with Relena twice a week. The therapist popped his shiny bald head (imagine James Lipton) out to find Heero.
?Would you like to come in??
?I?ll wait.?
?Very well.?
Heero resumed his pacing waiting for Relena, she was never late because he knew where she was. He could feel her coming up the street. A feeling that was usually right. Suddenly a car stopped in front of the building and he saw Relena in a short taupe dress get out and run up the stairs. ?I hope she doesn?t fall? he thought silently. She didn?t and she arrived up the stairs right in front of him in less then two minutes.
?You?re late.?
?Yeah but I made it up four flights of stairs in almost a minute.? She tried to get him to smile. Instead he turned from her and opened the door and she followed hoping to God that he wasn?t mad. They found Dr. Lipton sitting in the same plush green recliner and Heero and Relena took their seats next to each other, Relena in the black chair Heero in the white chair. The shrink took a moment to look at his two patients. They were both sitting there looking still uncomfortable. Although they were looking away from each other they were leaning into each other and their knees were also angled towards each other. A far cry from the first day where they were looking at each other but their bodies and legs faced away.
?She was late? said Heero interrupting the doctor.
?And do you have a problem with this Heero?? asked Dr. Lipton.
?She has been authorized one week without a body guard and I don?t understand why she can?t be on time without one.? he said not looking at her.
?That?s not fair! I was busy getting ready to go to a dinner he didn?t even tell me he was going to.?
?I didn?t know she would be there.?
?Heero, you are her body guard on a regular basis, I think it would be fair to both of you if you decided to check in with each other everyday this week. Now where did we leave off last Tuesday?? the doctor paused to think.
?I hate her idea of pacifism.? Offered Heero.
?Yes, well Relena. What can you tell him about that other than last week?s answer which was?? he looked down at his clip board. ?Get over it or slam your hand in a car door??
?I?m sorry about that Heero.? She said looking at him. He huffed in response.
?Well?? asked the doctor.
?I?m fighting just like you are Heero, but in a different way. The world has too much violence in it, why should I add more? If the world was full of people who wouldn?t fight, even in a physical way, I would. But that?s not what we need.?
?There will always be fighting, Relena.? Heero said finally looking at her.
?I acknowledge that, but we used to have a balance where the masses weren?t openly violent, and a few fought with words and weapons for the protection and betterment of everyone.?
?And you would let a few suffer for millions of people who don?t care??
?Yes, Heero. Is there any other way??
?What if you were one stuck fighting??
?I am Heero, and so are you. So please tell me why we are fighting and not uniting??
?Relena makes an excellent point. Heero, does that satisfy your question??
?Yes.?
?Is there anything you would like to ask Heero, Relena??
?I do, Dr. Lipton.?
?Go ahead.?
?Why don?t you ever stay the whole night??
Heero didn?t say anything. He was surprised that she would ask something so personal in front of another person. He waited a long time before saying anything. The truth was, he didn?t know.
?Heero?? asked Relena softly.
?Remember what I said to you the first time we spoke at school??
?That you will kill me??
?Yes. I may never pull the trigger. But if I get too close how can I ensure that I can protect you. If I can?t protect you, I?ve killed you.?
?Is that what you really think?? He nodded. ?Why did you promise to protect me in the first place Heero??
?You were better than me or anyone else??
?That?s just not true Heero, I have faults too. And you are not a machine! You don?t have to be perfect. The ideal of being a soldier doesn?t and has never fit you. You have always been an individual, unlike anyone that I know.?
?You can?t be perfect, it?s a bigger fault not to acknowledge that than to except it and become??
?Become what Relena?? bridged the doctor. She laughed a little.
?This is going to sound trite, but? excellent.?
?How?? he said looking back at her.
?You already are. Why can?t you concentrate on being the best instead of being perfect??
?Why do you care?? he asked.
?Heero, because I love you. And I?m not going to stop saying it just because you are afraid.? It seemed to hit a sore spot.
?What if I can?t love you back?? he said watching her intently.
?Well then grab your gun because you?ve killed me Heero.?
TBC
I love where this is going! You know, not long ago I drew a picture of them in couples' therapy... it's actually pretty funny. I should scan it and email it to you. ^_^ Anyway, I can't wait to read more. 