Blissful Ignorance

Love Always, Relena
By Andrea Sinisterra
Angst
Standard Disclaimers Apply


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Dear Heero:

Confucius once said that the real knowledge is to know the extent of one's ignorance, and I've realized the foolishness of my actions. So many years have gone by, and many more after that, and I still wanted to hang to the notion that one day you'd come around. Come around and be mine.

And now I know how foolish I've been.

We've gone through so much, and in my mind, I've always thought we had gone through those things together. For many years, I thought of you and I, together, with a same goal in mind. Always trying to ignore what, at that time, was beyond my eyesight. Always trying to ignore your indifference, your coldness? your ruthlessness. Always trying to see beyond your actions, always trying to justify them in my heart. Something that at the time I thought was hope, but now I know it was just a waste of time.

I don?t know the motive for this letter, and for some reason, I don?t want to understand. Maybe I just need some closure. I just need to get this all out and forget? Move on.

Can you really blame me for all this? I try to think of the times when it seemed my love was requited, when I thought I?d seen some sort of emotion in your eyes? Can you really blame me for hoping for more? I do blame you. I blame you for saving me; blame you for protecting me? Hate you for giving me hope.

The saddest thing, though, is I did this all on my own.

It?s been a slow process; I?m ashamed to admit. But it hasn?t been that difficult. I?ve learned a lot of things during these past years of your absence. I feel like I?ve grown into this woman I no longer recognize. We?ve all carried burdens, we still do. But it?s these burdens that define us as human beings? we just have to cope.

I fear you never learned how to.

During these years I?ve met a lot of people? and grown closer to others. I?ve realized how blind I?ve been; always hanging on to that obsession? not appreciating what I know now was so obvious. I no longer feel surprised at these findings, and I?m glad I?ve gotten so much support. I guess people are just happy to see that I?m moving on.

I?m getting married.

We?ve come to care for each other very much. We?ve both been hurt, and we?ve both learned how to cope. I didn?t think it would be possible to open up to someone else; didn?t think it would be possible to give my heart to someone else. I have no doubt in my heart that he?ll make me happy. We compliment each other so well.

I know that with time, I?ll learn to love him, even though I know I will never be able to love him as deeply as I loved you. You will always hold a special place in my heart, Heero.

Life is cruel at times, but we must learn to stand up, and keep on living. It?s the same with love. It never withers, it never disappears? but there are times we must struggle? and keep on loving. Even if it?s unrequited.

I wish you a good life, and sincerely hope you can find that someone to love. We all deserve a little happiness in our lives.

Especially you.

Good luck and farewell,
Relena

Heero: *anvil drops onto chest* "Oof. And I die."

So perpendicular to your usual style! Who is this significant other of Relena's??!! Anyone we know??

All descriptions provided, Relena's letter will be perused with stone face, and then discarded. Heero will find the next peace prodigy to guard, and that will be that. Poor, poor Relena. She has bad taste in men. (Not really. Can I get an applause for messy, stinky, non-conformist, uninstitutionalized, inhuman Pilot 01??)

Harsh expose`. Very harsh. And bittersweet.

Leave it as a solo piece will do just perfectly.

So glad to read you're still around, my darling. Besos y mucha suerte - with HWW - with everything, I secretly wish, in my heart, that you have the most rotten luck. MUAHAHAHAHA!

This is what would have happened if Heero decided to be a blockhead. Luckily he isn't always like this (or us 1xR fans would be bereft and very, very sad).

Wonderful prose, sis! I love the emotion you capture within the words.

*glomp attack!*

for a simple letter...wow..that was really heart-wrenching...so full of emotions...I wonder if Heero would actually get to read it and what his reaction would be...that would be a nice sequel...just to get Heero's reaction, nothing more...although, Angry Angel's description of his reaction is most likely, a more elaborate one would be nice...

I like the way you showed another side of Heero and Relena's "supposed" relationship or lack thereof - that she brought it upon herself to interpret things that way....

...a very powerful and moving piece...

ta-da,
Lilac

*sniffles in corner*

ill be ok...really/....*sob*

oh my god....you just killed me!
I need to breath, yeah, remember to breath and everything will be ok...like hell! buaahhh

aahh, can't help to love your works anyway...uff

Hmm... Sad letter, yes. But it makes you to reflect.

Strange, but I could actually "see" Relena moving on in this letter. Hn.

Anyway, great work!

Wow, haven't read something like this in awhile. Very thoughtful on Relena's take on things. I likes it a lot Drea.

Especially

Life is cruel at times, but we must learn to stand up, and keep on living. It?s the same with love. It never withers, it never disappears? but there are times we must struggle? and keep on loving. Even if it?s unrequited.

Very touching!

...And this seems familiar! o.o

*Snickers* I never thought you could use it as a stand-alone fic, but it works. I love it as much as I did when I first read it. ^^

TWO YEARS AGO. Yes, people, this was written two years ago when Cali got hit by this amazing idea where we both were to cowrite a fic, but it never went through... Hmm.... Found it recently while going through my old files and... yes.

Wai!