Where I Can Say Chapter 7: Run and Hide From This Pain
Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2005 10:02 am
Where I Can Say
By: Lazi N Lonely Rei
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing or it?s characters. I do however own this story.
Author?s Notes: Awww, thanks for all the sweets reviews guys. I was hoping to receive more reviews though but I?m thankful for the ones I did get.
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Relena?s POV
I got up quickly but I was unable to keep my gaze from lingering on the strong lines of Trowa?s jaw and the strong planes of his face that was smooth like marble and warm like fire.
But reality crashed into my head too many times for me to feel that flutter in my heart that I lost for him a long time ago. And the face I saw?..it had been him. It had been his eyes that I stared at the moment I was hit to the ground, bleeding and lungs filling with a horrible gas as I struggled to stay awake.
And than I had saw him gasp and run in a blur as if he was just a shadow passing by. That nightmare stayed with me during the time of my recovery. A lot of nightmares held onto me during my recovery. My marriage, my friendships, my dreams, my father, and Trowa. I looked at Trowa?s forest green eyes.
?Listen??
?If you?re worried about you well-being like the selfish bastard you are than I?ll have you know I?m not pressing charges.? I snapped.
?But?I need to explain. I?.? Trowa struggled with his words but I had enough! The pain was so big, it swallowed me in one bite and never would spit me out. Everything in my life hurt at this moment and I just wanted to run, run far away to somewhere where I could rest, close my eyes without nightmares and stay without my heart hurting.
?I don?t need to hear it. I?m going to convince them to drop the charges.? With that I spun away and walked as fast as I could. ?Them? meaning Heero?s family. And of course Heero.
I sighed and stopped walking, staring at my surroundings. The park was quiet and peaceful as the lush tress blew a soft breeze that relaxed the tension in my body and let me close my eyes softly yet kept myself awake hanging on a thin thread to stop from getting nightmares.
The soft sanded wood of the bench relaxed me and spooned my body as I leaned my entire body into it. The mix of floral scents drove me to a clam place so I relaxed. A year I?ve been married and there was no fairy tale of an arranged marriage of the two perfect people that had somehow fallen in love.
I had always wanted to marry for love. And for some reason, deep down inside of me I wanted to fall in love with Heero. He was perfect in every way for every girl. He was handsome and hot, he was tall and muscular but not that jacked up. To most woman, his money was enough. To me, it was nothing because I had enough money entitled to my name from my band to care. His name was so foreign so it wasn?t heard much anywhere in the world. He knew how to keep things up and down when it came to publicity and he always knew how to control things and never let things control him.
From the things I read about him he was a funny and charming person. He was very romantic when it came to the women he wanted to impress and he was very determined when it came to what he wanted and his dreams. He had many sides of him that not even the girls he had dated longer than a one night stand could figure out even one. He was very cold and emotionless and did not like to smile too much when it came to being in the public eye.
I wondered if I and he would ever fit together like a married couple. The publicly, those who had seen him only with long legged brunette women think we are perfect for me to be only a petite, only two inches from the average girl height, blonde woman. They described me as supple breasted, thin waist, graceful and blah blah blah.
They didn?t know anything about me.
Like they didn?t know that I?m a tom boy who had many skills, I liked to wear dressed and things a girl would wear but my personality was a tom boy. I liked to talk about fashion too but I liked to talk about cars and sports teams. I like to play football and I love to play hockey. I hate baseball and I?m an artist in more than a way of a singer.
Sighing I made way back to the home I?d spent alone.
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When I arrived, Heero was explaining things to his family. I only saw them hugging and nodding in understanding and Duo saying, ?So you mean that bitch drugged you and fucked you just because she was desperately in love?!?
I would?ve laughed if I hadn?t seen it. When I heard Duo saying that, I felt something tug at my heart. Relief?.
Relief from what? Furrowing my brows as I struggled to think things out I never noticed that everyone left and Heero and I were the only two people in the large grand living room.
I held my breath and sat down next to him on a plush couch that wrapped around my body comfortingly.
?Relena?I-?
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Author?s Notes: MUHAHAHA! This is where I leave you in your cliff hanger and you click that review button and review! This time I expect a lot of reviews!
By: Lazi N Lonely Rei
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing or it?s characters. I do however own this story.
Author?s Notes: Awww, thanks for all the sweets reviews guys. I was hoping to receive more reviews though but I?m thankful for the ones I did get.
**
Relena?s POV
I got up quickly but I was unable to keep my gaze from lingering on the strong lines of Trowa?s jaw and the strong planes of his face that was smooth like marble and warm like fire.
But reality crashed into my head too many times for me to feel that flutter in my heart that I lost for him a long time ago. And the face I saw?..it had been him. It had been his eyes that I stared at the moment I was hit to the ground, bleeding and lungs filling with a horrible gas as I struggled to stay awake.
And than I had saw him gasp and run in a blur as if he was just a shadow passing by. That nightmare stayed with me during the time of my recovery. A lot of nightmares held onto me during my recovery. My marriage, my friendships, my dreams, my father, and Trowa. I looked at Trowa?s forest green eyes.
?Listen??
?If you?re worried about you well-being like the selfish bastard you are than I?ll have you know I?m not pressing charges.? I snapped.
?But?I need to explain. I?.? Trowa struggled with his words but I had enough! The pain was so big, it swallowed me in one bite and never would spit me out. Everything in my life hurt at this moment and I just wanted to run, run far away to somewhere where I could rest, close my eyes without nightmares and stay without my heart hurting.
?I don?t need to hear it. I?m going to convince them to drop the charges.? With that I spun away and walked as fast as I could. ?Them? meaning Heero?s family. And of course Heero.
I sighed and stopped walking, staring at my surroundings. The park was quiet and peaceful as the lush tress blew a soft breeze that relaxed the tension in my body and let me close my eyes softly yet kept myself awake hanging on a thin thread to stop from getting nightmares.
The soft sanded wood of the bench relaxed me and spooned my body as I leaned my entire body into it. The mix of floral scents drove me to a clam place so I relaxed. A year I?ve been married and there was no fairy tale of an arranged marriage of the two perfect people that had somehow fallen in love.
I had always wanted to marry for love. And for some reason, deep down inside of me I wanted to fall in love with Heero. He was perfect in every way for every girl. He was handsome and hot, he was tall and muscular but not that jacked up. To most woman, his money was enough. To me, it was nothing because I had enough money entitled to my name from my band to care. His name was so foreign so it wasn?t heard much anywhere in the world. He knew how to keep things up and down when it came to publicity and he always knew how to control things and never let things control him.
From the things I read about him he was a funny and charming person. He was very romantic when it came to the women he wanted to impress and he was very determined when it came to what he wanted and his dreams. He had many sides of him that not even the girls he had dated longer than a one night stand could figure out even one. He was very cold and emotionless and did not like to smile too much when it came to being in the public eye.
I wondered if I and he would ever fit together like a married couple. The publicly, those who had seen him only with long legged brunette women think we are perfect for me to be only a petite, only two inches from the average girl height, blonde woman. They described me as supple breasted, thin waist, graceful and blah blah blah.
They didn?t know anything about me.
Like they didn?t know that I?m a tom boy who had many skills, I liked to wear dressed and things a girl would wear but my personality was a tom boy. I liked to talk about fashion too but I liked to talk about cars and sports teams. I like to play football and I love to play hockey. I hate baseball and I?m an artist in more than a way of a singer.
Sighing I made way back to the home I?d spent alone.
**
When I arrived, Heero was explaining things to his family. I only saw them hugging and nodding in understanding and Duo saying, ?So you mean that bitch drugged you and fucked you just because she was desperately in love?!?
I would?ve laughed if I hadn?t seen it. When I heard Duo saying that, I felt something tug at my heart. Relief?.
Relief from what? Furrowing my brows as I struggled to think things out I never noticed that everyone left and Heero and I were the only two people in the large grand living room.
I held my breath and sat down next to him on a plush couch that wrapped around my body comfortingly.
?Relena?I-?
**
Author?s Notes: MUHAHAHA! This is where I leave you in your cliff hanger and you click that review button and review! This time I expect a lot of reviews!