I Never Thought (3x11 NC-17)
Posted: Sun Oct 27, 2002 8:59 pm
Here is another gift fic for me by Anna. As always, all comments will be sent her way. This fic was inspired by a 3x11 pic I had commissioned by Ponderosa.
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~Disclaimer~ All characters and such original to Gundam Wing belong to Sunrise, Bandai, etc., etc., etc.... and not me... *wipes tears* ... No lawyers... no suits... just enjoy...
?I Never Thought? is Mine, written for someone very special but taken for the purpose of this fic! (which is a poem)
This is dedicated to Beck who has given me a new insight on the whole 3x11 aspect!!! I wrote this based on a pic she had commissioned time back? Enjoy!!!!!!
Other pairings mentioned: 2xH, 1xS
~Warning~ LEMON... and Stuff? ~_^
(*) Prose
(=) Thoughts
(//) Memories
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How long had it been? Three years? Four, maybe? He had grown up before her from a subordinate youth to an intriguing young man. What had changed that she now felt the way she felt about him? She couldn?t be certain and had almost denied herself the feeling or the emotion but it was something she could not deny.
Taking leave of her office and her thoughts, Lady Une headed down to the break room, caring not that she interrupted a ?love fest? of kisses going on there. Clearing her throat to announce her presents, she studied the young couple and shook her head lightly. Grabbing a mug for the coffee she was after, she laughed to herself as the two separated and remained at a distance behind her. After she was done, she cleared her throat again, laughing a bit out loud this time.
?As you were,? she said and left the room.
Duo stared at Hilde, ready for round two but somehow knew that she would decline his offer. They weren?t supposed to get caught.
?Do you think she?s mad,? Hilde whispered.
Duo shrugged lightly with a smile. ?Nah. If she was, she?d been a little more? reprimanding,? he said.
Hilde laughed. ?How long did it take you to come up with that line,? she asked and hugged him, kissing him again.
Une shook her head, listening to their conversation as the door shut. ?Reprimanding,? she whispered to herself. ?Yeah right??
If she were to reprimand them, she?d have to also reprimand herself and she couldn?t do that. Love was not something controlled or even counseled. It just was. No. She wouldn?t ?reprimand? Duo and Hilde for their relationship unless it disturbed their working environment. She sighed and walked back to her office, pausing at the door as she stared out over her Preventer crew.
*
I never loved anyone as much I do now
It comes to a great shock to me as I contemplate how
Was it possible that I fell into a fantastical dream?
And now as I wake I am daring enough to scream
Could it be that I allowed freedom to take control?
Leaving me with emotion that I can no longer hold?
*
Trowa was in the middle of a conversation with Quatre, Noin and Sally, listening intently on what Quatre was talking about. He came into the conversation, voicing his opinion on the matter and then listening to Sally object to his thought. Aware that she was watching him? again? he chose to let her stare, saying nothing as he laughed a little at Quatre who was now arguing Sally?s point. He made a quick glance toward Lady Une who did not turn away at his making eye contact. She stared back at him, daring him; it seemed, to do something.
He turned from her, not wanting to make a scene with her standing there. He turned away from the two contingents of this argument, shaking his head and headed back to his desk.
?Trowa!? Quatre yelled, ?Come back! You have to help me, here,? he called but Trowa waved the request off with his hand, never turning to look back. His stomach was in knots and he wasn?t sure he wanted to feel this way even though he did.
?Hey, Trowa,? a saucy young girl came up to him with a low cut shirt and a short mini-skirt. He wasn?t sure who had hired her but she posed as a threat to most of the men in the office. The only ones who seemed not affected by her, besides himself, were Heero, Wufei and Duo. Quatre was too kind to be rude and all the other men in the office were just horn-dogs.
?Yes,? he spoke nonchalantly.
?Wanna have lunch with me,? she asked seductively.
Trowa stared at his paperwork, catching Heero?s attention behind her and sighed. Looking up with less than a smile, he declined as he always did.
?No.?
He never said ?no, thanks? or ?thanks for asking? or anything of that nature. It was always a hard core, solid ?No.? and nothing more.
?Your loss,? she said, trailing the words as though he?d really missed something. She walked off to her next approach and was sure to get what she was looking for there.
Trowa turned his gaze back to the office door where his commanding officer still stood and then sat down at his desk. Seconds later a crumpled up paper found its way to his desk. He opened it and read the words and then looked up at Heero who stared at him, waiting for an answer. Pulling a pencil out of the desk holder, he wrote something down and then tossed it back over to Heero. Heero opened it and nodded knowingly and then crumpled it up and threw it away. He sighed at the words now embedded in his mind.
What?s Going on with You and the Chief?
-When it concerns you, I?ll tell you.
*
I never even held a desire as great as this
A phenomenal feeling of surmounted bliss
An image of darkness being overcome by light
This emotion I have that I can?t even lift a finger to fight
It is an uncontrollable amount of radical rage
That surges through my heart in a distinct phase...
*
Une stared, taking a sip of her coffee before turning away from him and went back inside her office. Had she stood there a bit longer, she would have seen a paper wad fly across the walkway between Heero and Trowa?s desks but she had already entered her office. Her stomach in an uproar at the feelings Trowa Barton created within her, she heaved a heavy sigh and walked to her desk. She didn?t want to think about it. It was too painful. It almost seemed that he was someone she would never be able to have.
He was a second Lieutenant? here she was, the Chief of the Preventer Elite. She sighed.
A knock on her door brought her out of her thoughts and she granted passage into her sanctuary.
?Hey? what?s up for lunch,? Sally asked.
Eyeing the woman, her friend, she stared curiously, taking a step closer and tilting her head just a bit at Une?s _expression.
?What,? Une spoke back. ?Same as usual is good for me,? she said.
?What?s bothering you,? she asked. ?Don?t tell me it?s?? Watching her commanding officer blush a bright shade of red, Sally smiled brightly and walked up to the chair on the other side of the woman?s desk. ?Lady! Don?t make me go out there and Tell him,? she laughed.
Une sighed.
?It?s nothing? really? I mean? God? he?s so young?? she said.
?Not so young,? Sally said, thinking about her relationship with Heero. Of course if it was known how serious her relationship was, she would probably be in a heap of trouble. But then, if Une was going to go there with Trowa, she would have no room for judgment. It didn?t matter. Sally knew that Une was aware that she was sleeping with the infamous Heero Yuy.
?Lunch,? Une said and opened her drawer.
?Trowa,? Sally whispered. ?I?ll have lunch with someone else today,? she smiled and winked as she left the office.
Lady Une felt flustered. She?d never anticipated for this. It was all so sudden and so new. She?d had relationships before, never with someone she worked with, never with a junior rank officer but they were relationships nonetheless. But they never intrigued her the way she was when she thought about Trowa.
~*~
Trowa wrote down numbers and codes on the page in front of him. No matter how he tried, he could not get the image of her eyes out of his mind. Her continuous staring at him drove him insane but he wanted it. He wanted her. And now, even Heero had noticed it. Had the others as well?
Looking up from his work, Trowa stared at certain individuals around him. Josh and Peter were working on a program; both of them huddled around Josh?s computer. Stacey and Chance were both calling out numbers to each other to confirm a code sheet and Quatre was working diligently on his given task. Duo and Hilde had sauntered off somewhere, probably to attempt the same feat that Deirdre had managed to get away with almost every day, and that was to have lunch-time quickie. He blushed at the thought, wondering how anyone could do that on their lunch break but more because he?d had the thoughts himself of going into Lady Une?s office and showing her what he felt for her and how much he wanted her.
Turning his attention back to his own desk, he looked up to find Heero staring at him with a steady gaze. He shook his head lightly and then motioned for Trowa to go at least talk to her. He mouthed the words and Trowa motioned back that he wasn?t going to. He couldn?t.
?Then don?t be mad when another line dips in,? Heero spoke just loud enough for Trowa to hear and no one else.
Trowa stared at his friend and shook his head.
=Whatever= he thought and continued with his coding but now Heero had planted the thought into his mind. Talking wouldn?t hurt. He could go in there and talk to her! There would be nothing wrong with that! He?d just talk. =Damn you, Heero= he growled inwardly and pushed out of his seat, taking his finished coding with him and headed down to the woman?s office where he would just ?talk? to her and go over the information he now had with her.
*
I never wanted something so little known to my mind
Something that beckoned me to leave my stability behind
I fell freely, collapsing into the arms of fate
Not knowing how much more this heart could take
Perhaps it?s the essence of life that keeps me alert in time
Always hoping, wishing that his heart could be mine...
*
Lady Une flipped through her folder of menus, trying to decide what she was in the mood for. She could have put so many answers to that that it wasn?t even funny but she chose not to. Instead, she blankly answered for her visitor to come in when a knock sounded on her door. Perhaps Sally changed her mind and would have lunch with her after all. She was greatly shocked when she looked up to see who had entered.
?Lieutenant,? she relieved his salute and held her folder slightly off the table as she waited for him to speak. =God, you had to do this to me now, didn?t you? =
?I have these codes for you,? Trowa said. ?You said you wanted them as soon as they were done. Chance and Stacey are still working on the others??
He wanted to kiss her. Just reach over the desk, he would, and grab her and kiss her.
?Thank you,? she said, taking the paper from him, not turning away from his hypnotic gaze. She wanted him. How wrong would it be to ask him to take her right there? ?Is there anything else,? she asked carefully.
=Yes= ?No,? he said. ?I?m off to lunch now,? he said.
?Trowa?? she called. When he turned around, she continued. ?Would you mind having lunch with me,? she asked. ?I?d like to go over this with you, if that?s alright.?
?Sure thing,? Trowa said and left the office.
Moments later, the two were headed out of the building. Her heart pounded as she told him that he could meet her at Bill?s caf? but she had to stop by her house first for some things.
?Why don?t I just pick up something from there and I?ll take it?? he started but then thought about what he was saying. ?Yeah? I?ll meet you at? Bill?s?? he said and headed for his truck.
Une stared at him a moment, blinking. That would be fine, she thought and agreed, heading to her car.
~*~
It had already been half an hour and she hadn?t made it. Trowa looked around and thought to call her when his cell rang. She?d beat him to the punch, he noticed and answered the call.
?Where are you,? he asked.
He heard a rather perturbed Commander on the other line and listened to her go on and on and smiled lightly at the way she ranted. She?d pulled out of her driveway and lost her tire. Lucky for her, she was at home but she still had to change the flat. After getting the tire off, she realized that the spare she had was of no use since it, too, was flat.
?I?ll swing by and get you,? he said. ?We can get another tire later tonight.?
After saying the words, he took his order to go and headed out the short distance to the woman?s home. A little nervous about what he would find there, he slowly made the approach but chalked his energy up to being a man. He would let it go because she was his commanding officer.
Observing the lame vehicle, he studied the tire, finding a nail embedded in it and sighed. It almost seemed typical of a woman not to have a spare but he could not hold that against her. He took the bag of food and walked up to the door, knocking before opening the door.
?Just set the food down on the table,? Une called out from down the hall. ?I?ll be out shortly.?
Trowa did as he was told and waited. He?d never been here without the others or without Mariemeia being present but she was at school now and the maid was nowhere to be seen. He studied the pictures on the wall; the ones he?d seen almost a million times, it seemed. Seconds later, Une came out from hiding; her hair wet and loose from the bun it had been in earlier. Trowa tried not to show his seeming discomfort at her appearance as he nodded at her and waited further instruction.
He wanted her. He couldn?t look at her that way and not want her. With a low sigh, he turned to her, explaining what he?d purchased for her as far as meals were concerned and then began going over the codes before she even asked.
=Trowa, Shut UP= she hissed in her mind. =What would you do if I kissed you= she thought as she stared at him, eating his sandwich while he read from the page.
Une stared up at him. He?d grown so much in the last four years and was now a foot taller than she. She adored him and wanted him. What would come of it, though, she wondered and sighed, letting it go to what was and what was not. She didn?t want to deal with it.
?So that is where we get the area between Baghdad and Turkey,? he said. ?What??
He looked up from his work and found her staring at him curiously. The notion sent chills running through his spine and he wasn?t sure if he wanted to handle it.
?Nothing. That?s good. You guys do great coding? I like that,? she said between bites of her food.
*
I never held fast to a dream so seemingly far away
Never felt that my tongue would be at a loss for words to say
It has come to my surprise that I could have these feelings deep inside
*
There was silence between them for a moment when finally, she could handle it no more. He stared at her, almost falling backward as she stepped closer to him. She stopped for a brief second in front of him, hoping to catch a glimpse that he was feeling the same for her.
Trowa gazed into her eyes as she had done to him. She stepped up to him, taking in the sight of his uniform and how it suited him beautifully. Removing her glasses, she held them in her hand as she stepped a bit closer.
There was nothing he could do. He wanted it and he wasn?t going to stop her from it. Lady Une, decked out in her proper attire, he slowly reached one arm around her waist and the other he slid just under her chin to reach to the back of her neck. Une placed a hand on one of his shoulders and then reached around with her other hand, still holding her glasses in her hand. He was going to kiss her and she was going to let him. She knew that this was a bad idea but the fates seemed to have had it in for her and so she would let things flow according to plan.
Trowa leaned in slowly and gently tasted her lips. Just barely brushing them at first, both of them maintaining eye contact until the need grew and he pulled her closer, kissing her deeper, ignoring the rational side of him that was shocked that she was allowing him to.
He?d wanted this for so long and could tell that she had too. What had kept them from this for so long, they weren?t sure, but they weren?t going to let it affect this moment now.
It wasn?t long before Trowa was kissing her neck, biting gently as she stripped herself of her uniform jacket and then forced his off. Trowa stared at her in a white cotton t-shirt and her uniform skirt. He stood the same with his t-shirt and pants, both wearing shoes and other attire that needed to come off in a hurry.
?We can?t,? he whispered softly, kissing her gently.
How striking it was that he had the nerve or the ability to say that to her. But he was right. And did it matter to her that they couldn?t? Not in the least.
?Shhh?? she whispered and kissed him again until he was before her with a naked chest and she before him with her bra exposed to him.
?Fratern?..ization?.? he moaned as she began on his neck, slowly working his belt loose and his pants off. ?Une?? he whispered and she pulled back as his hands found her hair and his forehead rested against hers.
?Trowa? you can?t tell me you haven?t wanted this?? she whispered.
?No, I can?t,? he replied. ?But you are my superior officer?? he said.
Une stared at him, kissing his lips tenderly, stealing light little kisses here and there until he succumbed on his own to her invitation. Obliging her, picking her up, he carried her to her room and placed her down on the bed. He stared into her eyes again and kissed her as he hovered above her, his hand removing her panties from her body as everything else had been discarded. Never looking away from her, he let his hand roam her nakedness and lowered himself to her breast. Before taking a hardened nipple into his mouth, he stared at her, silently asking her permission.
Lady Une stared at him for a moment before slightly nodding. For only a second, Trowa hesitated. He couldn?t believe they were doing this on their lunch break, which technically was over in five minutes.
*
Only because there is no place for me to hide
Could it be that I have finally found something worth fighting for?
But no... only that I take courage in stepping through that unopened door.
*
With a slight intake of breath, Une closed her eyes and then gasped at the coolness of Trowa?s mouth on her breast. His hands fondled her, roamed her, explored her while his tongue tasted her and she wanted more.
Trowa found her wetness as he had moved his hand slowly up the inside of her legs and gently spread them as he played at her opening. Taking the other nipple into his mouth, he positioned himself at her door and then moved up to kiss her lips, asking her once again if she was certain and if he could have permission to have her. With a tear in her eye, she nodded and he did.
Ever so slowly, Trowa pushed himself into her body and then paused at the sudden rush he felt in his groin and stomach. He wanted to cry out like a baby but he didn?t. He sucked it in and pushed further into her tightened sheath, holding her close as he did so. Une arched her back slightly, feeling him pause a moment and then go on. A whimper escaped his throat but he continued and she couldn?t hold back. She opened herself wider to him, enticing him to go further and he did.
Trowa seated himself fully inside of her and slowly began rocking her as he made love to her, stroking her gently and pounding her as hard as he could when she begged him for more. He wanted to complete himself with her but he didn?t have protection in use and he felt awkward in asking her for a condom so he pulled out of her completely and lowered himself to her center, tasting where he had just been and playing there with his finger as his tongue danced on her jewel. He inserted a finger into her steaming flow and continued in pleasuring her until she came and spilled into his mouth. She screamed out his name, pulling him closer as her fingers ran through his hair.
Never in her life had she been given this much pleasure by a man and she was quite certain that she liked it. A little disappointed that Trowa did not complete himself, she knew why he did it and mentally noted that next time she would have a condom available. She didn?t expect Trowa to come over, much less have sex with her.
Trowa pulled away from her, crawling up to her and kissing her so that she tasted herself on his lips. He stared into her eyes and wanted to say so many things to her. He loved her, he had wanted her for so long? all he could come up with was one thing.
?Why me,? he asked softly.
?Because you are everything I want inside of me,? she whispered. ?You are everything I need??
Trowa kissed her gently on the lips, tensing when he felt her hand reach down and grab his still hardened length. She squeezed it gently and guided him back to her opening. He hesitated, not wanting to go further without protection but she shook her head, assuring him that it would be ok and so he did. He entered her a second time, rubbing her gently and kissing her; flipping her so that she was now on top and seated further on him, causing his penetration to be deeper than before. Moaning out her pleasure as she rode him, Trowa pumped within her, creating a rhythmic motion between his and her bodies until he felt the onset of his release closing in on him.
Trying to move so that he would not ejaculate inside of her, he grabbed her hips but she pushed down onto him harder and he released inside of her as she had managed another release of her own.
?Trowa? I?m so sorry?? she whispered, kissing his neck and his lips.
He kissed her back, assuring her that she didn?t need to be. ?I?ll take responsibility for whatever part of the cleanup is mine,? he said. ?Just know that whatever I create within you, you have done within me,? he continued and kissed her lips as he lifted her chin with a finger.
Une blinked a few times and smiled.
?I never thought I?d fall in love with someone and feel this strongly about it??
Trowa pushed a stray hair out of her face and studied her for a moment. The red lipstick she?d had on earlier lay somewhere lost on his skin or his shirt and her hair was somewhat dry now.
?I never thought I?d actually take the step? I never thought you?d love me? not as much as I?ve loved you,? he whispered back.
They stared into each other?s eyes before he pulled her in for a deep kiss and then released her.
?Now, Commander? we have to get back to work,? he said.
Une looked at the clock and sighed. What would they tell the others of their two hour lunch? She didn?t care. She was the Commander in Chief of the base! What she said went and that?s just the way it was!
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The END
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~Disclaimer~ All characters and such original to Gundam Wing belong to Sunrise, Bandai, etc., etc., etc.... and not me... *wipes tears* ... No lawyers... no suits... just enjoy...
?I Never Thought? is Mine, written for someone very special but taken for the purpose of this fic! (which is a poem)
This is dedicated to Beck who has given me a new insight on the whole 3x11 aspect!!! I wrote this based on a pic she had commissioned time back? Enjoy!!!!!!
Other pairings mentioned: 2xH, 1xS
~Warning~ LEMON... and Stuff? ~_^
(*) Prose
(=) Thoughts
(//) Memories
~~~~*~~~~ ~~~~*~~~~ ~~~~*~~~~ ~~~~*~~~~
How long had it been? Three years? Four, maybe? He had grown up before her from a subordinate youth to an intriguing young man. What had changed that she now felt the way she felt about him? She couldn?t be certain and had almost denied herself the feeling or the emotion but it was something she could not deny.
Taking leave of her office and her thoughts, Lady Une headed down to the break room, caring not that she interrupted a ?love fest? of kisses going on there. Clearing her throat to announce her presents, she studied the young couple and shook her head lightly. Grabbing a mug for the coffee she was after, she laughed to herself as the two separated and remained at a distance behind her. After she was done, she cleared her throat again, laughing a bit out loud this time.
?As you were,? she said and left the room.
Duo stared at Hilde, ready for round two but somehow knew that she would decline his offer. They weren?t supposed to get caught.
?Do you think she?s mad,? Hilde whispered.
Duo shrugged lightly with a smile. ?Nah. If she was, she?d been a little more? reprimanding,? he said.
Hilde laughed. ?How long did it take you to come up with that line,? she asked and hugged him, kissing him again.
Une shook her head, listening to their conversation as the door shut. ?Reprimanding,? she whispered to herself. ?Yeah right??
If she were to reprimand them, she?d have to also reprimand herself and she couldn?t do that. Love was not something controlled or even counseled. It just was. No. She wouldn?t ?reprimand? Duo and Hilde for their relationship unless it disturbed their working environment. She sighed and walked back to her office, pausing at the door as she stared out over her Preventer crew.
*
I never loved anyone as much I do now
It comes to a great shock to me as I contemplate how
Was it possible that I fell into a fantastical dream?
And now as I wake I am daring enough to scream
Could it be that I allowed freedom to take control?
Leaving me with emotion that I can no longer hold?
*
Trowa was in the middle of a conversation with Quatre, Noin and Sally, listening intently on what Quatre was talking about. He came into the conversation, voicing his opinion on the matter and then listening to Sally object to his thought. Aware that she was watching him? again? he chose to let her stare, saying nothing as he laughed a little at Quatre who was now arguing Sally?s point. He made a quick glance toward Lady Une who did not turn away at his making eye contact. She stared back at him, daring him; it seemed, to do something.
He turned from her, not wanting to make a scene with her standing there. He turned away from the two contingents of this argument, shaking his head and headed back to his desk.
?Trowa!? Quatre yelled, ?Come back! You have to help me, here,? he called but Trowa waved the request off with his hand, never turning to look back. His stomach was in knots and he wasn?t sure he wanted to feel this way even though he did.
?Hey, Trowa,? a saucy young girl came up to him with a low cut shirt and a short mini-skirt. He wasn?t sure who had hired her but she posed as a threat to most of the men in the office. The only ones who seemed not affected by her, besides himself, were Heero, Wufei and Duo. Quatre was too kind to be rude and all the other men in the office were just horn-dogs.
?Yes,? he spoke nonchalantly.
?Wanna have lunch with me,? she asked seductively.
Trowa stared at his paperwork, catching Heero?s attention behind her and sighed. Looking up with less than a smile, he declined as he always did.
?No.?
He never said ?no, thanks? or ?thanks for asking? or anything of that nature. It was always a hard core, solid ?No.? and nothing more.
?Your loss,? she said, trailing the words as though he?d really missed something. She walked off to her next approach and was sure to get what she was looking for there.
Trowa turned his gaze back to the office door where his commanding officer still stood and then sat down at his desk. Seconds later a crumpled up paper found its way to his desk. He opened it and read the words and then looked up at Heero who stared at him, waiting for an answer. Pulling a pencil out of the desk holder, he wrote something down and then tossed it back over to Heero. Heero opened it and nodded knowingly and then crumpled it up and threw it away. He sighed at the words now embedded in his mind.
What?s Going on with You and the Chief?
-When it concerns you, I?ll tell you.
*
I never even held a desire as great as this
A phenomenal feeling of surmounted bliss
An image of darkness being overcome by light
This emotion I have that I can?t even lift a finger to fight
It is an uncontrollable amount of radical rage
That surges through my heart in a distinct phase...
*
Une stared, taking a sip of her coffee before turning away from him and went back inside her office. Had she stood there a bit longer, she would have seen a paper wad fly across the walkway between Heero and Trowa?s desks but she had already entered her office. Her stomach in an uproar at the feelings Trowa Barton created within her, she heaved a heavy sigh and walked to her desk. She didn?t want to think about it. It was too painful. It almost seemed that he was someone she would never be able to have.
He was a second Lieutenant? here she was, the Chief of the Preventer Elite. She sighed.
A knock on her door brought her out of her thoughts and she granted passage into her sanctuary.
?Hey? what?s up for lunch,? Sally asked.
Eyeing the woman, her friend, she stared curiously, taking a step closer and tilting her head just a bit at Une?s _expression.
?What,? Une spoke back. ?Same as usual is good for me,? she said.
?What?s bothering you,? she asked. ?Don?t tell me it?s?? Watching her commanding officer blush a bright shade of red, Sally smiled brightly and walked up to the chair on the other side of the woman?s desk. ?Lady! Don?t make me go out there and Tell him,? she laughed.
Une sighed.
?It?s nothing? really? I mean? God? he?s so young?? she said.
?Not so young,? Sally said, thinking about her relationship with Heero. Of course if it was known how serious her relationship was, she would probably be in a heap of trouble. But then, if Une was going to go there with Trowa, she would have no room for judgment. It didn?t matter. Sally knew that Une was aware that she was sleeping with the infamous Heero Yuy.
?Lunch,? Une said and opened her drawer.
?Trowa,? Sally whispered. ?I?ll have lunch with someone else today,? she smiled and winked as she left the office.
Lady Une felt flustered. She?d never anticipated for this. It was all so sudden and so new. She?d had relationships before, never with someone she worked with, never with a junior rank officer but they were relationships nonetheless. But they never intrigued her the way she was when she thought about Trowa.
~*~
Trowa wrote down numbers and codes on the page in front of him. No matter how he tried, he could not get the image of her eyes out of his mind. Her continuous staring at him drove him insane but he wanted it. He wanted her. And now, even Heero had noticed it. Had the others as well?
Looking up from his work, Trowa stared at certain individuals around him. Josh and Peter were working on a program; both of them huddled around Josh?s computer. Stacey and Chance were both calling out numbers to each other to confirm a code sheet and Quatre was working diligently on his given task. Duo and Hilde had sauntered off somewhere, probably to attempt the same feat that Deirdre had managed to get away with almost every day, and that was to have lunch-time quickie. He blushed at the thought, wondering how anyone could do that on their lunch break but more because he?d had the thoughts himself of going into Lady Une?s office and showing her what he felt for her and how much he wanted her.
Turning his attention back to his own desk, he looked up to find Heero staring at him with a steady gaze. He shook his head lightly and then motioned for Trowa to go at least talk to her. He mouthed the words and Trowa motioned back that he wasn?t going to. He couldn?t.
?Then don?t be mad when another line dips in,? Heero spoke just loud enough for Trowa to hear and no one else.
Trowa stared at his friend and shook his head.
=Whatever= he thought and continued with his coding but now Heero had planted the thought into his mind. Talking wouldn?t hurt. He could go in there and talk to her! There would be nothing wrong with that! He?d just talk. =Damn you, Heero= he growled inwardly and pushed out of his seat, taking his finished coding with him and headed down to the woman?s office where he would just ?talk? to her and go over the information he now had with her.
*
I never wanted something so little known to my mind
Something that beckoned me to leave my stability behind
I fell freely, collapsing into the arms of fate
Not knowing how much more this heart could take
Perhaps it?s the essence of life that keeps me alert in time
Always hoping, wishing that his heart could be mine...
*
Lady Une flipped through her folder of menus, trying to decide what she was in the mood for. She could have put so many answers to that that it wasn?t even funny but she chose not to. Instead, she blankly answered for her visitor to come in when a knock sounded on her door. Perhaps Sally changed her mind and would have lunch with her after all. She was greatly shocked when she looked up to see who had entered.
?Lieutenant,? she relieved his salute and held her folder slightly off the table as she waited for him to speak. =God, you had to do this to me now, didn?t you? =
?I have these codes for you,? Trowa said. ?You said you wanted them as soon as they were done. Chance and Stacey are still working on the others??
He wanted to kiss her. Just reach over the desk, he would, and grab her and kiss her.
?Thank you,? she said, taking the paper from him, not turning away from his hypnotic gaze. She wanted him. How wrong would it be to ask him to take her right there? ?Is there anything else,? she asked carefully.
=Yes= ?No,? he said. ?I?m off to lunch now,? he said.
?Trowa?? she called. When he turned around, she continued. ?Would you mind having lunch with me,? she asked. ?I?d like to go over this with you, if that?s alright.?
?Sure thing,? Trowa said and left the office.
Moments later, the two were headed out of the building. Her heart pounded as she told him that he could meet her at Bill?s caf? but she had to stop by her house first for some things.
?Why don?t I just pick up something from there and I?ll take it?? he started but then thought about what he was saying. ?Yeah? I?ll meet you at? Bill?s?? he said and headed for his truck.
Une stared at him a moment, blinking. That would be fine, she thought and agreed, heading to her car.
~*~
It had already been half an hour and she hadn?t made it. Trowa looked around and thought to call her when his cell rang. She?d beat him to the punch, he noticed and answered the call.
?Where are you,? he asked.
He heard a rather perturbed Commander on the other line and listened to her go on and on and smiled lightly at the way she ranted. She?d pulled out of her driveway and lost her tire. Lucky for her, she was at home but she still had to change the flat. After getting the tire off, she realized that the spare she had was of no use since it, too, was flat.
?I?ll swing by and get you,? he said. ?We can get another tire later tonight.?
After saying the words, he took his order to go and headed out the short distance to the woman?s home. A little nervous about what he would find there, he slowly made the approach but chalked his energy up to being a man. He would let it go because she was his commanding officer.
Observing the lame vehicle, he studied the tire, finding a nail embedded in it and sighed. It almost seemed typical of a woman not to have a spare but he could not hold that against her. He took the bag of food and walked up to the door, knocking before opening the door.
?Just set the food down on the table,? Une called out from down the hall. ?I?ll be out shortly.?
Trowa did as he was told and waited. He?d never been here without the others or without Mariemeia being present but she was at school now and the maid was nowhere to be seen. He studied the pictures on the wall; the ones he?d seen almost a million times, it seemed. Seconds later, Une came out from hiding; her hair wet and loose from the bun it had been in earlier. Trowa tried not to show his seeming discomfort at her appearance as he nodded at her and waited further instruction.
He wanted her. He couldn?t look at her that way and not want her. With a low sigh, he turned to her, explaining what he?d purchased for her as far as meals were concerned and then began going over the codes before she even asked.
=Trowa, Shut UP= she hissed in her mind. =What would you do if I kissed you= she thought as she stared at him, eating his sandwich while he read from the page.
Une stared up at him. He?d grown so much in the last four years and was now a foot taller than she. She adored him and wanted him. What would come of it, though, she wondered and sighed, letting it go to what was and what was not. She didn?t want to deal with it.
?So that is where we get the area between Baghdad and Turkey,? he said. ?What??
He looked up from his work and found her staring at him curiously. The notion sent chills running through his spine and he wasn?t sure if he wanted to handle it.
?Nothing. That?s good. You guys do great coding? I like that,? she said between bites of her food.
*
I never held fast to a dream so seemingly far away
Never felt that my tongue would be at a loss for words to say
It has come to my surprise that I could have these feelings deep inside
*
There was silence between them for a moment when finally, she could handle it no more. He stared at her, almost falling backward as she stepped closer to him. She stopped for a brief second in front of him, hoping to catch a glimpse that he was feeling the same for her.
Trowa gazed into her eyes as she had done to him. She stepped up to him, taking in the sight of his uniform and how it suited him beautifully. Removing her glasses, she held them in her hand as she stepped a bit closer.
There was nothing he could do. He wanted it and he wasn?t going to stop her from it. Lady Une, decked out in her proper attire, he slowly reached one arm around her waist and the other he slid just under her chin to reach to the back of her neck. Une placed a hand on one of his shoulders and then reached around with her other hand, still holding her glasses in her hand. He was going to kiss her and she was going to let him. She knew that this was a bad idea but the fates seemed to have had it in for her and so she would let things flow according to plan.
Trowa leaned in slowly and gently tasted her lips. Just barely brushing them at first, both of them maintaining eye contact until the need grew and he pulled her closer, kissing her deeper, ignoring the rational side of him that was shocked that she was allowing him to.
He?d wanted this for so long and could tell that she had too. What had kept them from this for so long, they weren?t sure, but they weren?t going to let it affect this moment now.
It wasn?t long before Trowa was kissing her neck, biting gently as she stripped herself of her uniform jacket and then forced his off. Trowa stared at her in a white cotton t-shirt and her uniform skirt. He stood the same with his t-shirt and pants, both wearing shoes and other attire that needed to come off in a hurry.
?We can?t,? he whispered softly, kissing her gently.
How striking it was that he had the nerve or the ability to say that to her. But he was right. And did it matter to her that they couldn?t? Not in the least.
?Shhh?? she whispered and kissed him again until he was before her with a naked chest and she before him with her bra exposed to him.
?Fratern?..ization?.? he moaned as she began on his neck, slowly working his belt loose and his pants off. ?Une?? he whispered and she pulled back as his hands found her hair and his forehead rested against hers.
?Trowa? you can?t tell me you haven?t wanted this?? she whispered.
?No, I can?t,? he replied. ?But you are my superior officer?? he said.
Une stared at him, kissing his lips tenderly, stealing light little kisses here and there until he succumbed on his own to her invitation. Obliging her, picking her up, he carried her to her room and placed her down on the bed. He stared into her eyes again and kissed her as he hovered above her, his hand removing her panties from her body as everything else had been discarded. Never looking away from her, he let his hand roam her nakedness and lowered himself to her breast. Before taking a hardened nipple into his mouth, he stared at her, silently asking her permission.
Lady Une stared at him for a moment before slightly nodding. For only a second, Trowa hesitated. He couldn?t believe they were doing this on their lunch break, which technically was over in five minutes.
*
Only because there is no place for me to hide
Could it be that I have finally found something worth fighting for?
But no... only that I take courage in stepping through that unopened door.
*
With a slight intake of breath, Une closed her eyes and then gasped at the coolness of Trowa?s mouth on her breast. His hands fondled her, roamed her, explored her while his tongue tasted her and she wanted more.
Trowa found her wetness as he had moved his hand slowly up the inside of her legs and gently spread them as he played at her opening. Taking the other nipple into his mouth, he positioned himself at her door and then moved up to kiss her lips, asking her once again if she was certain and if he could have permission to have her. With a tear in her eye, she nodded and he did.
Ever so slowly, Trowa pushed himself into her body and then paused at the sudden rush he felt in his groin and stomach. He wanted to cry out like a baby but he didn?t. He sucked it in and pushed further into her tightened sheath, holding her close as he did so. Une arched her back slightly, feeling him pause a moment and then go on. A whimper escaped his throat but he continued and she couldn?t hold back. She opened herself wider to him, enticing him to go further and he did.
Trowa seated himself fully inside of her and slowly began rocking her as he made love to her, stroking her gently and pounding her as hard as he could when she begged him for more. He wanted to complete himself with her but he didn?t have protection in use and he felt awkward in asking her for a condom so he pulled out of her completely and lowered himself to her center, tasting where he had just been and playing there with his finger as his tongue danced on her jewel. He inserted a finger into her steaming flow and continued in pleasuring her until she came and spilled into his mouth. She screamed out his name, pulling him closer as her fingers ran through his hair.
Never in her life had she been given this much pleasure by a man and she was quite certain that she liked it. A little disappointed that Trowa did not complete himself, she knew why he did it and mentally noted that next time she would have a condom available. She didn?t expect Trowa to come over, much less have sex with her.
Trowa pulled away from her, crawling up to her and kissing her so that she tasted herself on his lips. He stared into her eyes and wanted to say so many things to her. He loved her, he had wanted her for so long? all he could come up with was one thing.
?Why me,? he asked softly.
?Because you are everything I want inside of me,? she whispered. ?You are everything I need??
Trowa kissed her gently on the lips, tensing when he felt her hand reach down and grab his still hardened length. She squeezed it gently and guided him back to her opening. He hesitated, not wanting to go further without protection but she shook her head, assuring him that it would be ok and so he did. He entered her a second time, rubbing her gently and kissing her; flipping her so that she was now on top and seated further on him, causing his penetration to be deeper than before. Moaning out her pleasure as she rode him, Trowa pumped within her, creating a rhythmic motion between his and her bodies until he felt the onset of his release closing in on him.
Trying to move so that he would not ejaculate inside of her, he grabbed her hips but she pushed down onto him harder and he released inside of her as she had managed another release of her own.
?Trowa? I?m so sorry?? she whispered, kissing his neck and his lips.
He kissed her back, assuring her that she didn?t need to be. ?I?ll take responsibility for whatever part of the cleanup is mine,? he said. ?Just know that whatever I create within you, you have done within me,? he continued and kissed her lips as he lifted her chin with a finger.
Une blinked a few times and smiled.
?I never thought I?d fall in love with someone and feel this strongly about it??
Trowa pushed a stray hair out of her face and studied her for a moment. The red lipstick she?d had on earlier lay somewhere lost on his skin or his shirt and her hair was somewhat dry now.
?I never thought I?d actually take the step? I never thought you?d love me? not as much as I?ve loved you,? he whispered back.
They stared into each other?s eyes before he pulled her in for a deep kiss and then released her.
?Now, Commander? we have to get back to work,? he said.
Une looked at the clock and sighed. What would they tell the others of their two hour lunch? She didn?t care. She was the Commander in Chief of the base! What she said went and that?s just the way it was!
~~~*~~~
The END
And the way my friend writes Trowa, it blows me away. He always seem to look out for the ones he cares about before being selfeish of his own needs.