Untitled [rated PG-13, SxK]
Posted: Mon May 23, 2005 11:46 am
Its an okay fic, I haven't really written a romantic fanfic in nearly four years, but something striked in me to write something. Had to blow the dust off of my keyboard and clean the cobwebs out of my brain. lol
I decided to experiment. Wanted to break from the standard FMP! mold of fanfics.
- Ladymercury
PS: Hopefully, I have evolved as a writer compared to my fanfics from nearly 6 years ago.
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Standard disclaimers apply. Don't own FMP!.
Rating is for subject matter.
Drama.
Drama.
Drama!
Untitled
It wasn?t as if she didn?t want to tell him; she earnestly wanted to tell him everything, but she wasn?t certain of his reaction, nor how he would react to such news. It baffled her how she was afraid to express this news to him despite the six years they?ve known each other. The years on and off that their relationship been going on.
She didn?t plan it.
It was simply clouded thinking that time.
It was just the heat of the moment. Flirting in the kitchen that ended up going a step beyond what was just innocent playing. Who was thinking about the repercussions at the time? Besides, after the heated rampage of lust and emotions, she didn?t notice any changes.
But after he left on one of his ?briefings?, she noticed that she didn?t have a cycle in the previous month, she was frequently nauseous, and her trips to the bathroom to throw up in the mornings was nearly becoming a daily event.
After seeing her doctor, she found out.
Kaname Chidori was nearly two months pregnant.
She tried to hide it; the moment physical changes in her body began to show. She changed her attire to cater darker shaded clothing to try to make her seem slimmer to the now Lieutenant Sousuke Sagara. Kaname couldn?t hide it much longer, and she worried everytime Sousuke would question her about how she felt.
Kaname Chidori couldn?t hide it anymore. It was a miracle to her how she managed to play it off in front of Sousuke for nearly four months, despite the noticeable changes within her body. She realized she couldn?t play this off much longer.
? What do you mean?.? The tall Twenty-two year old Lieutenant looked at his lover with a confused look. ? Pregnant??
? That?s what I mean?.? Kaname said, clutching onto her silk nightgown, it didn?t cover up the now slightly round belly. She looked down ? Four months.?
? This does not calculate.? Sousuke said, in an almost panic. ? This? we?re not even married?. I-I? I don?t know? what to do? How did you manage to hide this??
? The first few months you can?t really notice much?.? She looked back up at Sousuke. ? But? I?m starting to show? and I can?t keep this a secret forever.?
? Why didn?t you tell me sooner?? Sousuke tried to repress the urge to yell that statement. He clenched his fists. This isn?t right? this can?t happen. Thoughts kept running through his mind.
? Because? because I was? afraid?. The first month I didn?t even know?.?
? How did this happen?? It sounded more like a statement than a question.
? When I went to the gynecologist the first time, he said that he suspected it to happen a month and a week before the visit?? She sighed. ? Meaning it was that time? in the kitchen? when we?? Sousuke raked a hand through his hair, remembering that specific night. How could I be so careless! He thought, mentally kicking himself. I specifically knew the chances, why did I act so carelessly!
??. I?.?
? Don?t blame yourself?.? Kaname said, getting up, walking towards Sousuke. ? I should have realized? I should have??
? You know I?m barely around as it is for you, Kaname. What makes you think you can decide it?s alright to bring a child in this world without a father.?
The statement tore through Kaname as if someone was shoving a dagger in her heart. She clenched her fingers into a fist, trying to suppress the anger ranging through her body? but it couldn?t stop the tears.
? How? can? you? say such a thing!? She yelled.
? Its already hard enough trying to balance relationship with you between Mithril, and now you expect me to be a father?? Sousuke sighed. ? Why did you try to take this upon yourself without discussing this with me.? He lowered his voice to a whisper, extending his hand to Kaname?s face to wipe her tears away. Kaname pulled away.
? How could I with you being away all the time!? She turned around. ? I knew that this wouldn?t work out, I knew that you probably couldn?t deal with this, but I also knew that I couldn?t run to the nearest abortion clinic and request them to rip this life out my body? just so I can make your life easier.? Kaname said the last few words with so much anger that her body was shaking. Sousuke placed his hand on her shoulder, but she shrugged it off. ? Why are you so afraid? What are you afraid of??
Sousuke moved closer to Kaname, wrapping his arms around her waist, and leaning his head on her neck. The sensation of feeling his child within his lover?s stomach made him feel? he couldn?t describe the feeling he felt that moment. Sousuke closed his eyes and sighed, his breath tickling Kaname?s neck.
? I?m afraid of?.? What am I afraid of? What? could I be afraid of?. Is it of dying? Abandonment? ? ? One day? not being here? for the child.?
? What makes you think that?? Kaname opened her eyes, putting her hands on top of her lover?s.
? What happens if I die, the child will not have a father?. I? don?t want that to happen. I don?t want the child to witness the same things I had to go through.?
? I?m sure that? this child of ours is not going to suffer the same way you did? not the same way we did. I?ll, no, we?ll make sure of it.? Kaname leaned into Sousuke. Sousuke kissed the nook in her neck.
? I believe you?.? He whispered. Kaname smiled.
Sousuke kissed her again.
Everything was going to be alright.
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Gyah, everyone is going to say: They?re out of character! What are you doing here! YOU SUCK. DIE.
(I personally hate how I ended this)
Yeah, yeah, but realistically looking at the picture, I highly doubt that Sousuke and Kaname would still have the mindsets of 16 year olds, especially six years into the future where they have grown into adults. Also, I think six years into the future, Sousuke would eventually be more emotional around Kaname, considering that this is Kaname and that this is a SousukexKaname and that the two have been lovers for a ? really? really? long time.
I don?t know if I want to continue this or write any thing else to accompany this story? like a prequel or anything. Even if I did attempt it, I don?t think I would have the time to dedicate myself to a story. Maybe someone would incline that I right a lemon that leads up to the: ? Sorry dear, but you weren?t planned, you were an accident? situation (I highly doubt Kaname would tell that to her child anyway), and like I said again, I highly doubt I?d write it.
But then again, you never know.
Thanks for reading. If you hate it, love it, like it, whatever it; leave some comments.
Maybe I?ll commit seppuku if it sucks that bad!
Joking.
I decided to experiment. Wanted to break from the standard FMP! mold of fanfics.
- Ladymercury
PS: Hopefully, I have evolved as a writer compared to my fanfics from nearly 6 years ago.
+++
Standard disclaimers apply. Don't own FMP!.
Rating is for subject matter.
Drama.
Drama.
Drama!
Untitled
It wasn?t as if she didn?t want to tell him; she earnestly wanted to tell him everything, but she wasn?t certain of his reaction, nor how he would react to such news. It baffled her how she was afraid to express this news to him despite the six years they?ve known each other. The years on and off that their relationship been going on.
She didn?t plan it.
It was simply clouded thinking that time.
It was just the heat of the moment. Flirting in the kitchen that ended up going a step beyond what was just innocent playing. Who was thinking about the repercussions at the time? Besides, after the heated rampage of lust and emotions, she didn?t notice any changes.
But after he left on one of his ?briefings?, she noticed that she didn?t have a cycle in the previous month, she was frequently nauseous, and her trips to the bathroom to throw up in the mornings was nearly becoming a daily event.
After seeing her doctor, she found out.
Kaname Chidori was nearly two months pregnant.
She tried to hide it; the moment physical changes in her body began to show. She changed her attire to cater darker shaded clothing to try to make her seem slimmer to the now Lieutenant Sousuke Sagara. Kaname couldn?t hide it much longer, and she worried everytime Sousuke would question her about how she felt.
Kaname Chidori couldn?t hide it anymore. It was a miracle to her how she managed to play it off in front of Sousuke for nearly four months, despite the noticeable changes within her body. She realized she couldn?t play this off much longer.
? What do you mean?.? The tall Twenty-two year old Lieutenant looked at his lover with a confused look. ? Pregnant??
? That?s what I mean?.? Kaname said, clutching onto her silk nightgown, it didn?t cover up the now slightly round belly. She looked down ? Four months.?
? This does not calculate.? Sousuke said, in an almost panic. ? This? we?re not even married?. I-I? I don?t know? what to do? How did you manage to hide this??
? The first few months you can?t really notice much?.? She looked back up at Sousuke. ? But? I?m starting to show? and I can?t keep this a secret forever.?
? Why didn?t you tell me sooner?? Sousuke tried to repress the urge to yell that statement. He clenched his fists. This isn?t right? this can?t happen. Thoughts kept running through his mind.
? Because? because I was? afraid?. The first month I didn?t even know?.?
? How did this happen?? It sounded more like a statement than a question.
? When I went to the gynecologist the first time, he said that he suspected it to happen a month and a week before the visit?? She sighed. ? Meaning it was that time? in the kitchen? when we?? Sousuke raked a hand through his hair, remembering that specific night. How could I be so careless! He thought, mentally kicking himself. I specifically knew the chances, why did I act so carelessly!
??. I?.?
? Don?t blame yourself?.? Kaname said, getting up, walking towards Sousuke. ? I should have realized? I should have??
? You know I?m barely around as it is for you, Kaname. What makes you think you can decide it?s alright to bring a child in this world without a father.?
The statement tore through Kaname as if someone was shoving a dagger in her heart. She clenched her fingers into a fist, trying to suppress the anger ranging through her body? but it couldn?t stop the tears.
? How? can? you? say such a thing!? She yelled.
? Its already hard enough trying to balance relationship with you between Mithril, and now you expect me to be a father?? Sousuke sighed. ? Why did you try to take this upon yourself without discussing this with me.? He lowered his voice to a whisper, extending his hand to Kaname?s face to wipe her tears away. Kaname pulled away.
? How could I with you being away all the time!? She turned around. ? I knew that this wouldn?t work out, I knew that you probably couldn?t deal with this, but I also knew that I couldn?t run to the nearest abortion clinic and request them to rip this life out my body? just so I can make your life easier.? Kaname said the last few words with so much anger that her body was shaking. Sousuke placed his hand on her shoulder, but she shrugged it off. ? Why are you so afraid? What are you afraid of??
Sousuke moved closer to Kaname, wrapping his arms around her waist, and leaning his head on her neck. The sensation of feeling his child within his lover?s stomach made him feel? he couldn?t describe the feeling he felt that moment. Sousuke closed his eyes and sighed, his breath tickling Kaname?s neck.
? I?m afraid of?.? What am I afraid of? What? could I be afraid of?. Is it of dying? Abandonment? ? ? One day? not being here? for the child.?
? What makes you think that?? Kaname opened her eyes, putting her hands on top of her lover?s.
? What happens if I die, the child will not have a father?. I? don?t want that to happen. I don?t want the child to witness the same things I had to go through.?
? I?m sure that? this child of ours is not going to suffer the same way you did? not the same way we did. I?ll, no, we?ll make sure of it.? Kaname leaned into Sousuke. Sousuke kissed the nook in her neck.
? I believe you?.? He whispered. Kaname smiled.
Sousuke kissed her again.
Everything was going to be alright.
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Gyah, everyone is going to say: They?re out of character! What are you doing here! YOU SUCK. DIE.
(I personally hate how I ended this)
Yeah, yeah, but realistically looking at the picture, I highly doubt that Sousuke and Kaname would still have the mindsets of 16 year olds, especially six years into the future where they have grown into adults. Also, I think six years into the future, Sousuke would eventually be more emotional around Kaname, considering that this is Kaname and that this is a SousukexKaname and that the two have been lovers for a ? really? really? long time.
I don?t know if I want to continue this or write any thing else to accompany this story? like a prequel or anything. Even if I did attempt it, I don?t think I would have the time to dedicate myself to a story. Maybe someone would incline that I right a lemon that leads up to the: ? Sorry dear, but you weren?t planned, you were an accident? situation (I highly doubt Kaname would tell that to her child anyway), and like I said again, I highly doubt I?d write it.
But then again, you never know.
Thanks for reading. If you hate it, love it, like it, whatever it; leave some comments.
Maybe I?ll commit seppuku if it sucks that bad!
Joking.
