Pushit, Tool Series cont. 2/?
Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2004 12:12 pm
AN: Hey, this is the second fic, so read and enjoy, inspired by the song Pushit. I?m not sure if I made this clear, but this is the near future, year 2050ish.
Disclaimer: Music property of Tool, Characters property of Gundam Wing.
//lyrics//
?talking?
?thoughts?
Flashback
AD: 2050
<i>//I will choke until I swallow...
Choke this infant here before me.
What is this but my reflection?
Who am I to judge and strike you down?//</i>
The cold seat of the bus stuck to his skin. Chilling his insides in a foreboding warning of what his new future would be like. It held less promise then the planned one, he had just left, but it would be his life, away from his parents and their incessant meddling. He?d find peace in a different way.
<i>
//But you're
Pushing and shoving me.
You still love me and you pushit on me.//</i>
<i>
He looked down the hallway of his lavish, yet somber apartment. He?d spent another night out, waking up with a different woman then last night. Knowing full well that this wasn?t what he wanted out of life, but knowing that going to his classes everyday was not something he really wanted to do either.
?Besides what?s the point of going to class, when your teachers are bought?, he thought to himself.
Walking back into his room he pulled a sweater from his dresser-drawer and moved towards the door of his apartment. It was past 50 minutes late for him to go to his next class, but his teacher wouldn?t care, they never seemed to the last seven times.
</i>
<i>
//Rest your trigger on my finger,
bang my head upon the fault line.
Take care not to make me enter.
'cause if I do we both may disappear.
But you're pushing me,
Shoving me. Pushit on me.//
</i>
?Yuy!? The Drill Instructor yelled as he glared at the man, that seemed to barely fit the profile of boy.
?Sergeant, Yuy Reporting, Sir?
?Don?t call me Sir boy, I work for a living? The DI said proudly, while adding a sneer to the term Sir, ?Now, get your ass up that rope!?
Without hesitation, Heero jumped on to the rope, pulling himself upwards while still maintaining the balance needed to increase speed progressively as he had been taught earlier in his Basic Training. Moving with as much speed as possible and the agility of a squirrel he bested his time by ten seconds. He had earned this chance to be happy.
<i>
?Another A Mr. Yuy, outstanding grades wouldn?t you say.? Otto said as he followed Heero from his class.
Turning around and giving a scathing glare, that cut through the very courage of any man, Heero looked at Otto, disgust seeping through his skin and weaving around the two like a snake.
?Yes Otto, great grades, that my family paid for, I wasn?t even in school for more then seven days this semester. SEVEN!, for God-sakes, I mean at least...........? He realized that venting on this suck-up and miserable excuse for a person would do nothing, but he?d have to do something about it.
?I?m sorry Mr. Yuy, I didn?t mean to upset you, as a friend..? Otto was interrupted by Heero before he could finish his sentence.
?What kind of friend calls another, Mr.??
Turning quickly Heero jumped on his bike and headed back towards his apartment over-looking the campus.
</i>
<i>//Slipping back into the gap again.
I'm alive when you're touching me,
Alive when you're shoving me down.
But i'd trade it all
For just a little bit of
Piece of mind.//</i>
?Heero-buddy, nice job on your APFT(Army Physical Fitness Test). 255's a good score, you?ll get into SF(Special Forces) on that.? Duo said as he dropped his sweat pants to the ground and pulled his shirt over his head. I got a 240, barely made it with you, swear to God man, you were a freak when it came to that run today.? putting his hand over his heart as he spoke.
?Hn, Like the DI?s say, focus and mental toughness.? Heero said as he to undressed and jumped up onto the top bunk.
<i>//Put me somewhere I don't wanna be.
Seeing someplace I don't wanna see.
Never wanna see that place again.
Saw that gap again today
As you were begging me to stay.
Managed to push myself away,
And you, as well.
If, when I say I may fade like a sigh if I stay,
You minimize my movement anyway,
I must persuade you another way.//</i>
<i>
Returning home was like injecting snake venom into an already open and infested wound.
?Heero, we have terrific news, do you remember that young girl from high school, Nicole?? his mothers snobbish tone was already on his nerves, and the mention of a name that girl, only upset him further.
?Yes.? Goddamn if he felt like he was whining, by moping. He needed out, his parents were to controlling.
?Her parents and I have arranged your marriage, it?s really a nice trade off when you think about it. Their wealth increases and you marry a beautiful girl
The fork bent is his hand, his eyes squinted to the point of closing, his body shook with the tremors of controlled and subsided rage, that had held for year.
?No. Not this time.? he thought.
Standing up with righteous anger and staring down his mother and father, who had decided to show for his return, he announced his ending and emancipation from the family.
?I don?t want to marry that girl, and it?s not your right to play matchmaker for me.? Heero said ending the sentence with a glare of hatred toward his mother.
?Heero you must understand, your mother and I only want what?s best for you, as such we decided it would be best.....? Heero?s father was cut short.
?It?s not your life its mine, and I don?t want this bullshit life of yours, I want to earn respect, not swindle it from other people, I?m leaving the family, I can?t take it anymore. You?ve payed for my grades, even my friends, I don?t want that.?
Turning away from the table he headed up towards his room to pack his things.</i>
<i>//There's no love in fear.
Staring down the hole again.
Hands around my neck again.
Survival is my only friend.
Terrified of what may come
Remember I?ll always love you,
As I claw your fucking throat away
There will be no other way.
There will be no other way.//</i>
?Second best score Yuy.?
?Second, to who, he had known so much on that made-up language test.? he thought.
?Sergeant, Who scored higher??
?Uh...., it say?s Dorlain, seems like she beat you again. First Airborne Training, now Language? The Sergeant chuckled and walked past Heero.
Again. Again! He hated that woman, while still being completely fascinated with her, and he hated the person that let woman start to join Special Forces. At least, however, he had something to work for, beating her would definitely be a challenge, and more so, he now knew that his parents weren?t operating behind the scenes of his life.
<i>
?Don?t come into my life again. Not until I come back to you, that?s how it has to be. You?ve controlled me for to long, and it?s hard for me not to hate you for it, but remember I still love you. This is just how it has to be there, there is no other way.</i>
Disclaimer: Music property of Tool, Characters property of Gundam Wing.
//lyrics//
?talking?
?thoughts?
Flashback
AD: 2050
<i>//I will choke until I swallow...
Choke this infant here before me.
What is this but my reflection?
Who am I to judge and strike you down?//</i>
The cold seat of the bus stuck to his skin. Chilling his insides in a foreboding warning of what his new future would be like. It held less promise then the planned one, he had just left, but it would be his life, away from his parents and their incessant meddling. He?d find peace in a different way.
<i>
//But you're
Pushing and shoving me.
You still love me and you pushit on me.//</i>
<i>
He looked down the hallway of his lavish, yet somber apartment. He?d spent another night out, waking up with a different woman then last night. Knowing full well that this wasn?t what he wanted out of life, but knowing that going to his classes everyday was not something he really wanted to do either.
?Besides what?s the point of going to class, when your teachers are bought?, he thought to himself.
Walking back into his room he pulled a sweater from his dresser-drawer and moved towards the door of his apartment. It was past 50 minutes late for him to go to his next class, but his teacher wouldn?t care, they never seemed to the last seven times.
</i>
<i>
//Rest your trigger on my finger,
bang my head upon the fault line.
Take care not to make me enter.
'cause if I do we both may disappear.
But you're pushing me,
Shoving me. Pushit on me.//
</i>
?Yuy!? The Drill Instructor yelled as he glared at the man, that seemed to barely fit the profile of boy.
?Sergeant, Yuy Reporting, Sir?
?Don?t call me Sir boy, I work for a living? The DI said proudly, while adding a sneer to the term Sir, ?Now, get your ass up that rope!?
Without hesitation, Heero jumped on to the rope, pulling himself upwards while still maintaining the balance needed to increase speed progressively as he had been taught earlier in his Basic Training. Moving with as much speed as possible and the agility of a squirrel he bested his time by ten seconds. He had earned this chance to be happy.
<i>
?Another A Mr. Yuy, outstanding grades wouldn?t you say.? Otto said as he followed Heero from his class.
Turning around and giving a scathing glare, that cut through the very courage of any man, Heero looked at Otto, disgust seeping through his skin and weaving around the two like a snake.
?Yes Otto, great grades, that my family paid for, I wasn?t even in school for more then seven days this semester. SEVEN!, for God-sakes, I mean at least...........? He realized that venting on this suck-up and miserable excuse for a person would do nothing, but he?d have to do something about it.
?I?m sorry Mr. Yuy, I didn?t mean to upset you, as a friend..? Otto was interrupted by Heero before he could finish his sentence.
?What kind of friend calls another, Mr.??
Turning quickly Heero jumped on his bike and headed back towards his apartment over-looking the campus.
</i>
<i>//Slipping back into the gap again.
I'm alive when you're touching me,
Alive when you're shoving me down.
But i'd trade it all
For just a little bit of
Piece of mind.//</i>
?Heero-buddy, nice job on your APFT(Army Physical Fitness Test). 255's a good score, you?ll get into SF(Special Forces) on that.? Duo said as he dropped his sweat pants to the ground and pulled his shirt over his head. I got a 240, barely made it with you, swear to God man, you were a freak when it came to that run today.? putting his hand over his heart as he spoke.
?Hn, Like the DI?s say, focus and mental toughness.? Heero said as he to undressed and jumped up onto the top bunk.
<i>//Put me somewhere I don't wanna be.
Seeing someplace I don't wanna see.
Never wanna see that place again.
Saw that gap again today
As you were begging me to stay.
Managed to push myself away,
And you, as well.
If, when I say I may fade like a sigh if I stay,
You minimize my movement anyway,
I must persuade you another way.//</i>
<i>
Returning home was like injecting snake venom into an already open and infested wound.
?Heero, we have terrific news, do you remember that young girl from high school, Nicole?? his mothers snobbish tone was already on his nerves, and the mention of a name that girl, only upset him further.
?Yes.? Goddamn if he felt like he was whining, by moping. He needed out, his parents were to controlling.
?Her parents and I have arranged your marriage, it?s really a nice trade off when you think about it. Their wealth increases and you marry a beautiful girl
The fork bent is his hand, his eyes squinted to the point of closing, his body shook with the tremors of controlled and subsided rage, that had held for year.
?No. Not this time.? he thought.
Standing up with righteous anger and staring down his mother and father, who had decided to show for his return, he announced his ending and emancipation from the family.
?I don?t want to marry that girl, and it?s not your right to play matchmaker for me.? Heero said ending the sentence with a glare of hatred toward his mother.
?Heero you must understand, your mother and I only want what?s best for you, as such we decided it would be best.....? Heero?s father was cut short.
?It?s not your life its mine, and I don?t want this bullshit life of yours, I want to earn respect, not swindle it from other people, I?m leaving the family, I can?t take it anymore. You?ve payed for my grades, even my friends, I don?t want that.?
Turning away from the table he headed up towards his room to pack his things.</i>
<i>//There's no love in fear.
Staring down the hole again.
Hands around my neck again.
Survival is my only friend.
Terrified of what may come
Remember I?ll always love you,
As I claw your fucking throat away
There will be no other way.
There will be no other way.//</i>
?Second best score Yuy.?
?Second, to who, he had known so much on that made-up language test.? he thought.
?Sergeant, Who scored higher??
?Uh...., it say?s Dorlain, seems like she beat you again. First Airborne Training, now Language? The Sergeant chuckled and walked past Heero.
Again. Again! He hated that woman, while still being completely fascinated with her, and he hated the person that let woman start to join Special Forces. At least, however, he had something to work for, beating her would definitely be a challenge, and more so, he now knew that his parents weren?t operating behind the scenes of his life.
<i>
?Don?t come into my life again. Not until I come back to you, that?s how it has to be. You?ve controlled me for to long, and it?s hard for me not to hate you for it, but remember I still love you. This is just how it has to be there, there is no other way.</i>
