past destructions chp 6 part 2
Posted: Sun Dec 12, 2004 11:33 pm
ok, it's finals time and work is going into overdrive, so writing is a luxury, but here's a preview for chap 6 part 2:
It was long, but he now weighted in at 80 pounds. He stayed at sick bay since that day Dr. J opened his eyes and from there he was fed 4 times a day and was bathed constantly. He had access to a bathroom next to his bed and was dressed in a clean gown everyday. When the medical assistant took his third meal he was left with a pad and a pencil to pass the time. Pilot 01 took the pencil and poised it above the paper thinking thoughtfully what to write. The thoughts were in his head and as much as he didn?t want to write it, he felt himself giving in to the defeating thoughts because it was so much easier than to fight them.
The first he wrote down was ?Endurance was in the mind.? And when he wrote that, he felt the memory of Odin and Frieda fading from his mind.
He urged himself to continue with the second thought ?Emotions are faulty?. he then felt tears roll down his eyes but disregard them as folly and ignored the hot, salty tears.
The last he wrote were ?Women are fuck-worthy? and at that, he felt he had let go of something in his heart and mind. Something that kept him in balanced all his life and was gone in an instant. At that same time, he felt like he also lost that weakling that was in that cell and in that bed receiving electric punishment.
Thinking about that, was it punishment? It made him see the truth of emotions and the power of ignorance. It made him see that ignorance could make him invincible and knowing that strength is a valuable quality, then it could not be punishment. It?ll make him into an effective solider. He will achieve all his goals.
Everything that happened, Pilot 01 realized now for what it was. It was not a punishment. It was a privilege.
Later, when Pilot 01 was sleeping, Dr. J?s assistant took the pad and brought it to Dr. J. Looking upon what the child wrote, he smiled.
The old man won. Dr. J had finally gotten into Pilot 01?s head.
not much, but its a start
Thanks
Valkyrie
It was long, but he now weighted in at 80 pounds. He stayed at sick bay since that day Dr. J opened his eyes and from there he was fed 4 times a day and was bathed constantly. He had access to a bathroom next to his bed and was dressed in a clean gown everyday. When the medical assistant took his third meal he was left with a pad and a pencil to pass the time. Pilot 01 took the pencil and poised it above the paper thinking thoughtfully what to write. The thoughts were in his head and as much as he didn?t want to write it, he felt himself giving in to the defeating thoughts because it was so much easier than to fight them.
The first he wrote down was ?Endurance was in the mind.? And when he wrote that, he felt the memory of Odin and Frieda fading from his mind.
He urged himself to continue with the second thought ?Emotions are faulty?. he then felt tears roll down his eyes but disregard them as folly and ignored the hot, salty tears.
The last he wrote were ?Women are fuck-worthy? and at that, he felt he had let go of something in his heart and mind. Something that kept him in balanced all his life and was gone in an instant. At that same time, he felt like he also lost that weakling that was in that cell and in that bed receiving electric punishment.
Thinking about that, was it punishment? It made him see the truth of emotions and the power of ignorance. It made him see that ignorance could make him invincible and knowing that strength is a valuable quality, then it could not be punishment. It?ll make him into an effective solider. He will achieve all his goals.
Everything that happened, Pilot 01 realized now for what it was. It was not a punishment. It was a privilege.
Later, when Pilot 01 was sleeping, Dr. J?s assistant took the pad and brought it to Dr. J. Looking upon what the child wrote, he smiled.
The old man won. Dr. J had finally gotten into Pilot 01?s head.
not much, but its a start
Thanks
Valkyrie
Heero isn't even Heero anymore...he's just 'Pilot 01'.