Past Mistakes - Chapter 12
Posted: Mon Jul 26, 2004 10:27 am
Past Mistakes
Chapter 12
(Relena?s POV)
?One Hazelnut and one French Vanilla,? Jeremy said, handing my cup of coffee.
?Thank you,? I replied, watching as Jeremy sat down across from me. Taking a sip I continued to talk, ?What exactly do you want, Jeremy??
Looking up at me, he smiled. ?Straight to the point. You haven?t changed a bit, Relena.?
I looked at him carefully, trying to figure out his reason for wanting to meet me here and now. It?s been five years since I last saw him. And you could say it wasn?t the most pleasant way to depart. Taking a breath, I continued, ?You can say I?m the type of person who hates wasting precious time by talking rubbish.?
?Yes I know,? he replied looking at me closely. Too close in my opinion. Then he open his mouth and continued, ?I suppose guilt has finally taken it?s toll on me.?
?Guilt?? I asked carefully looking at him suspiciously.
Looking down into his cup of coffee he replied, ?Yeah, guilt. But before you say anything or comment on what I?m about to say, just promise me you let me finish. You can scream and yell whatever you like once I finish.?
For some odd reason, I was feeling pity towards Jeremy. Just watching him looking deeply into the depths of the brownish blackish coffee, I realized he wasn?t the same guy I knew back then. He somehow changed and matured. Knowing I shouldn?t listen I agreed. ?Fine, go on.?
Looking up, he smiled gently at me. ?Thank you. I suppose I should start at the beginning. When we first met.? I seemed surprised that he wanted to talk about something like that. Remembering that I had promised to keep quiet I shook my head, waiting for whatever he has to say.
?I suppose when we first met, we didn?t expect to fall in love like we did. When I first saw you, I knew I had to meet you. You were just sitting down next to the fountain, you hair blowing around from the wind. You were the most beautiful creature I had ever met. Then I got to know you and realized you were perfect.? Stopping, he looked back down at his coffee. I started to remember about that exact day. I remembered how windy that day was, and I had totally forgotten to bring a hair elastic. I had decided to sit down next to the fountain to relax and enjoy the weather. It was then when Jeremy had walked towards me and introduced himself. He eventually asked me out to dinner and I accepted. It was during the dinner when we both realized that we were both professional Tennis Players. I learned he competed in the States while I competed in European Finals. It was about a year later and we were still together.
?What I?m trying to say,? he said. I looked back up and realized he was watching me the whole time. Blushing slightly I nodded for him to continue. ?I loved you then Relena and I still love you now.? I could feel my eyes widen and I open my mouth to protest. Yet his hand beat me before a syllable left my mouth. ?Remember, you promised not to say a word until I?m done. I?m not done yet.? he replied, taking his hand away from my lips.
It was then when I noticed how wet his eyes had become. ?I know I was wrong by cheating on you with other women. However, you have to understand, I was doing it for you benefits. I was feeling lousy and awful for losing the match and getting kicked out of the finals. Then I started to feel angry about it. I didn?t want to hurt you by saying things hateful because I was upset. Then my manager, Moore, started to send me women as a way to get my attitude up. And I agreed with the method and I did use those women just for sex and nothing else. They didn?t mean a thing to me.?
I shook my head quickly, I too felt my eyes watering. Why now? Why is he telling me this now? After five years. Why?
?You?re probably thinking why I?m telling you this now, right? I suppose it has to do on the day you walked on me and then later told me about the baby. I still wasn?t feeling any better. And when you walked on me, I felt lousy. Then I became angry at myself for causing you pain. It was then you informing me about you being pregnant that caused me to go over the edge. I didn?t deserve you and I didn?t deserve to be a father. I knew that I would be the world?s lousiest father ever. So I did what I thought was best and told you to beat it. I didn?t want anything to do with you or the child.? he started to cry at that point. I knew people started to look in our direction but I didn?t care. I needed to know the rest. I needed to know the truth and the reason. That was all I ever wanted from him. But now that I know, I wished I didn?t. Especially considering that he too didn?t know all the facts.
?For the reason of me calling you down today is that I wanted to apologize for my actions. Relena Elizabeth Peacecraft, I?m sorry for everything I ever done to you and I?m sorry that I wasn?t there when you needed me the most. I hope you do forgive me for what I?ve done to you. I can understand if you don?t forgive me today or tomorrow. I just hope you will forgive me someday. I also hope that one day I can meet our daughter and apologize for not being there for her.? he gently took my hand and helped me up. ?Now I?m done.?
Looking down at our hands I squeezed them gently. I slowly walked into his arms and gave him a tight hug. I then replied, ?Finally I know the truth. I do forgive you. I never stopped loving you either. There is so much I wanted to tell you.?
Stepping away, I grab hold of one of Jeremy?s hands and placed it over my heart. ?Somewhere deep inside here, is the love I had for you then and now. You must know that you will always be part of me, no matter what. However, you should know that?? looking closely at Jeremy, I realized that something had caught his attention. ?Jeremy, what is it??
?Heero Yuy,? he replied. ?What do you want??
No, this couldn?t be happening. There is no way Heero could be behind me. There is no way Heero could have heard what I just said. Turning around slowly I face the one man I had least expect to run into this morning.
?Heero,? I whispered. There he was, standing in front of me. He was wearing jeans with a button down shirt. His hair was still unruly like always. I slowly moved my eyes to look directly into his. Only this time I couldn?t see a spec of emotion moving about. ?Heero, this isn?t what it seems,? I started.
He moved back and shook his head. Looking right back at me, I saw his eyes. Only this time they held the one emotion I was afraid of most. Hatred.
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(Heero?s POV)
I couldn?t believe my eyes or ears. Here was Relena in the arms of Jeremy Sparks. One of my competitive rivals in tennis. After everything I had been through, meeting Relena was a gift. But now I realized this was some cruel joke.
?Your right, this isn?t what it seems,? I replied. I could feel the anger rising and growing within. How could I been such a fool. They were lovers. They both tricked me into letting my guard down.
?Heero?? I saw her reach her hand out but I stepped back.
?Don?t you touch me!? I yelled out.
People turned their heads to look at us. The workers stopped their chores and look at us as well. But for once, I didn?t care. I didn?t care if the press appeared out of no where. To many thoughts were passing through my head. I could feel the betrayal and the hurt. But my anger was much stronger. My hatred had grown so much in a matter of seconds. Standing before me was not the same person who I trusted these past months. The one who I feel in love with.
?Relena, what?s going on here?? Jeremy asked. She turned around to face him.
?Heero and I had been going out,? she replied.
?I see. So you two are a couple then?? he asked.
?Was,? I responded, turning around I started to walk away.
?Heero please listen to me,? she yelled. She grab hold of my arm and it was then when I lost my temper.
Yanking my arm away from her I turned around and stood straight up. Looking down at her I said angrily, ?I want nothing to do with you ever again. You never wanted to help me become better. You been working with him this whole time weren?t you!?
I saw her shaking her head quickly and tears started to spill. ?No, you?re wrong Heero. Jeremy and I are over, it was a thing in the past.?
?Liar,? I replied, ?I heard everything you just told him. You been working with him to bring me down. Well you know what Relena, it?s over. Your plan has failed and I will not lose. Not to him nor to you.? I turned around and walked towards the door.
She started to cry and said, ?You?re wrong Heero. I would never do anything to hurt you, and also,? I walked out never hearing her whisper the last three words out, ?I love you.?
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(Relena?s POV)
?This can?t be happening to me,? I said to no one but myself.
?Relena, I?m so sorry,? Jeremy replied.
Turning around I faced him. ?You did nothing but be a perfect gentleman. I?m grateful. Thank you Jeremy, but I must be going.?
?Good-bye Relena,?
I started to walk away but then stopped. Turning around I asked, ?Jeremy, do you think I can stopped by your place later today??
Looking at me surprising, he replied, ?Sure,?
?Do you still live in the same apartment??
?Yes, 253 Webster Court. May I ask why??
?There?s something you must know. Something I need to tell you that happened five years ago as well. See you then, good-bye.?
Walking out I saw two familiar figures running towards me. I waited until they reached me and said, ?It?s over between Heero and me.?
Hilde slowly walked up to me and gave me a hug. ?I?m so sorry Relena, I knew this was a bad idea to begin with.? She kept on repeating ?I?m sorry?, over and over again.
?If it makes it any better, I?ll try having a talk with Heero later tonight?? Duo asked looking at me hopefully.
Smiling I shook my head, ?No it?s alright. It?s my problem and my mistake. If Heero decides to talk to me, then it will be on his own free will.?
?Relena,? Hilde said worriedly.
?It?s alright Hilde, I?ll be fine. I just need some peace and quiet. I think I?ll go home and rest for awhile.? I replied.
?Are you sure Relena?? she asked carefully.
?Yes, I?m sure Hilde.?
?Alright, call me as soon as you wake up though.?
Shaking my head slightly, I said good-bye to both of them and started to walk home. That is if I get any sleep. Especially considering what I?m about to confront to Jeremy about. Smiling gently, I thought the reaction he?ll make once he learns that April was never his child to begin with.
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(In the caf?)
Dialing a number, a nearby witness waited for the receiver to answer the call.
?Yes,?
?Sir, Yuy and Peacecraft officially broke up. Yuy caught Peacecraft with Sparks. Just like you planned Sir.?
?Excellent, so everything is going as planned. Sparks followed his orders well then?? the receiver asked.
?Yes, but I do have to report a problem sure,? the stranger continued.
?What is it??
?It seems Miss. Peacecraft will be stopping by Sparks apartment later on today. It seems like she has something to explain. Something that happened to her five years ago,? the stranger replied.
?I see,? the receiver responded. About 10 seconds later he continued, ?You new job is to get rid of Sparks as quickly as possible. Before Miss. Peacecraft comes over and visit. Do you understand??
?Yes sir,? the stranger replied.
?Good and this is how you?re going to do it,?
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Author?s Notes:
Finally!!! A new chapter to the story. This time I'll try to get another one as soon as I can. Please review and tell me what you think
I just got a good idea how I want this to end n I think its going to be a shocker
:-?
till next time
StarryNight
Chapter 12
(Relena?s POV)
?One Hazelnut and one French Vanilla,? Jeremy said, handing my cup of coffee.
?Thank you,? I replied, watching as Jeremy sat down across from me. Taking a sip I continued to talk, ?What exactly do you want, Jeremy??
Looking up at me, he smiled. ?Straight to the point. You haven?t changed a bit, Relena.?
I looked at him carefully, trying to figure out his reason for wanting to meet me here and now. It?s been five years since I last saw him. And you could say it wasn?t the most pleasant way to depart. Taking a breath, I continued, ?You can say I?m the type of person who hates wasting precious time by talking rubbish.?
?Yes I know,? he replied looking at me closely. Too close in my opinion. Then he open his mouth and continued, ?I suppose guilt has finally taken it?s toll on me.?
?Guilt?? I asked carefully looking at him suspiciously.
Looking down into his cup of coffee he replied, ?Yeah, guilt. But before you say anything or comment on what I?m about to say, just promise me you let me finish. You can scream and yell whatever you like once I finish.?
For some odd reason, I was feeling pity towards Jeremy. Just watching him looking deeply into the depths of the brownish blackish coffee, I realized he wasn?t the same guy I knew back then. He somehow changed and matured. Knowing I shouldn?t listen I agreed. ?Fine, go on.?
Looking up, he smiled gently at me. ?Thank you. I suppose I should start at the beginning. When we first met.? I seemed surprised that he wanted to talk about something like that. Remembering that I had promised to keep quiet I shook my head, waiting for whatever he has to say.
?I suppose when we first met, we didn?t expect to fall in love like we did. When I first saw you, I knew I had to meet you. You were just sitting down next to the fountain, you hair blowing around from the wind. You were the most beautiful creature I had ever met. Then I got to know you and realized you were perfect.? Stopping, he looked back down at his coffee. I started to remember about that exact day. I remembered how windy that day was, and I had totally forgotten to bring a hair elastic. I had decided to sit down next to the fountain to relax and enjoy the weather. It was then when Jeremy had walked towards me and introduced himself. He eventually asked me out to dinner and I accepted. It was during the dinner when we both realized that we were both professional Tennis Players. I learned he competed in the States while I competed in European Finals. It was about a year later and we were still together.
?What I?m trying to say,? he said. I looked back up and realized he was watching me the whole time. Blushing slightly I nodded for him to continue. ?I loved you then Relena and I still love you now.? I could feel my eyes widen and I open my mouth to protest. Yet his hand beat me before a syllable left my mouth. ?Remember, you promised not to say a word until I?m done. I?m not done yet.? he replied, taking his hand away from my lips.
It was then when I noticed how wet his eyes had become. ?I know I was wrong by cheating on you with other women. However, you have to understand, I was doing it for you benefits. I was feeling lousy and awful for losing the match and getting kicked out of the finals. Then I started to feel angry about it. I didn?t want to hurt you by saying things hateful because I was upset. Then my manager, Moore, started to send me women as a way to get my attitude up. And I agreed with the method and I did use those women just for sex and nothing else. They didn?t mean a thing to me.?
I shook my head quickly, I too felt my eyes watering. Why now? Why is he telling me this now? After five years. Why?
?You?re probably thinking why I?m telling you this now, right? I suppose it has to do on the day you walked on me and then later told me about the baby. I still wasn?t feeling any better. And when you walked on me, I felt lousy. Then I became angry at myself for causing you pain. It was then you informing me about you being pregnant that caused me to go over the edge. I didn?t deserve you and I didn?t deserve to be a father. I knew that I would be the world?s lousiest father ever. So I did what I thought was best and told you to beat it. I didn?t want anything to do with you or the child.? he started to cry at that point. I knew people started to look in our direction but I didn?t care. I needed to know the rest. I needed to know the truth and the reason. That was all I ever wanted from him. But now that I know, I wished I didn?t. Especially considering that he too didn?t know all the facts.
?For the reason of me calling you down today is that I wanted to apologize for my actions. Relena Elizabeth Peacecraft, I?m sorry for everything I ever done to you and I?m sorry that I wasn?t there when you needed me the most. I hope you do forgive me for what I?ve done to you. I can understand if you don?t forgive me today or tomorrow. I just hope you will forgive me someday. I also hope that one day I can meet our daughter and apologize for not being there for her.? he gently took my hand and helped me up. ?Now I?m done.?
Looking down at our hands I squeezed them gently. I slowly walked into his arms and gave him a tight hug. I then replied, ?Finally I know the truth. I do forgive you. I never stopped loving you either. There is so much I wanted to tell you.?
Stepping away, I grab hold of one of Jeremy?s hands and placed it over my heart. ?Somewhere deep inside here, is the love I had for you then and now. You must know that you will always be part of me, no matter what. However, you should know that?? looking closely at Jeremy, I realized that something had caught his attention. ?Jeremy, what is it??
?Heero Yuy,? he replied. ?What do you want??
No, this couldn?t be happening. There is no way Heero could be behind me. There is no way Heero could have heard what I just said. Turning around slowly I face the one man I had least expect to run into this morning.
?Heero,? I whispered. There he was, standing in front of me. He was wearing jeans with a button down shirt. His hair was still unruly like always. I slowly moved my eyes to look directly into his. Only this time I couldn?t see a spec of emotion moving about. ?Heero, this isn?t what it seems,? I started.
He moved back and shook his head. Looking right back at me, I saw his eyes. Only this time they held the one emotion I was afraid of most. Hatred.
????????????.........................................................................................
(Heero?s POV)
I couldn?t believe my eyes or ears. Here was Relena in the arms of Jeremy Sparks. One of my competitive rivals in tennis. After everything I had been through, meeting Relena was a gift. But now I realized this was some cruel joke.
?Your right, this isn?t what it seems,? I replied. I could feel the anger rising and growing within. How could I been such a fool. They were lovers. They both tricked me into letting my guard down.
?Heero?? I saw her reach her hand out but I stepped back.
?Don?t you touch me!? I yelled out.
People turned their heads to look at us. The workers stopped their chores and look at us as well. But for once, I didn?t care. I didn?t care if the press appeared out of no where. To many thoughts were passing through my head. I could feel the betrayal and the hurt. But my anger was much stronger. My hatred had grown so much in a matter of seconds. Standing before me was not the same person who I trusted these past months. The one who I feel in love with.
?Relena, what?s going on here?? Jeremy asked. She turned around to face him.
?Heero and I had been going out,? she replied.
?I see. So you two are a couple then?? he asked.
?Was,? I responded, turning around I started to walk away.
?Heero please listen to me,? she yelled. She grab hold of my arm and it was then when I lost my temper.
Yanking my arm away from her I turned around and stood straight up. Looking down at her I said angrily, ?I want nothing to do with you ever again. You never wanted to help me become better. You been working with him this whole time weren?t you!?
I saw her shaking her head quickly and tears started to spill. ?No, you?re wrong Heero. Jeremy and I are over, it was a thing in the past.?
?Liar,? I replied, ?I heard everything you just told him. You been working with him to bring me down. Well you know what Relena, it?s over. Your plan has failed and I will not lose. Not to him nor to you.? I turned around and walked towards the door.
She started to cry and said, ?You?re wrong Heero. I would never do anything to hurt you, and also,? I walked out never hearing her whisper the last three words out, ?I love you.?
????????????......................................................................................
(Relena?s POV)
?This can?t be happening to me,? I said to no one but myself.
?Relena, I?m so sorry,? Jeremy replied.
Turning around I faced him. ?You did nothing but be a perfect gentleman. I?m grateful. Thank you Jeremy, but I must be going.?
?Good-bye Relena,?
I started to walk away but then stopped. Turning around I asked, ?Jeremy, do you think I can stopped by your place later today??
Looking at me surprising, he replied, ?Sure,?
?Do you still live in the same apartment??
?Yes, 253 Webster Court. May I ask why??
?There?s something you must know. Something I need to tell you that happened five years ago as well. See you then, good-bye.?
Walking out I saw two familiar figures running towards me. I waited until they reached me and said, ?It?s over between Heero and me.?
Hilde slowly walked up to me and gave me a hug. ?I?m so sorry Relena, I knew this was a bad idea to begin with.? She kept on repeating ?I?m sorry?, over and over again.
?If it makes it any better, I?ll try having a talk with Heero later tonight?? Duo asked looking at me hopefully.
Smiling I shook my head, ?No it?s alright. It?s my problem and my mistake. If Heero decides to talk to me, then it will be on his own free will.?
?Relena,? Hilde said worriedly.
?It?s alright Hilde, I?ll be fine. I just need some peace and quiet. I think I?ll go home and rest for awhile.? I replied.
?Are you sure Relena?? she asked carefully.
?Yes, I?m sure Hilde.?
?Alright, call me as soon as you wake up though.?
Shaking my head slightly, I said good-bye to both of them and started to walk home. That is if I get any sleep. Especially considering what I?m about to confront to Jeremy about. Smiling gently, I thought the reaction he?ll make once he learns that April was never his child to begin with.
????????????.....................................................................................
(In the caf?)
Dialing a number, a nearby witness waited for the receiver to answer the call.
?Yes,?
?Sir, Yuy and Peacecraft officially broke up. Yuy caught Peacecraft with Sparks. Just like you planned Sir.?
?Excellent, so everything is going as planned. Sparks followed his orders well then?? the receiver asked.
?Yes, but I do have to report a problem sure,? the stranger continued.
?What is it??
?It seems Miss. Peacecraft will be stopping by Sparks apartment later on today. It seems like she has something to explain. Something that happened to her five years ago,? the stranger replied.
?I see,? the receiver responded. About 10 seconds later he continued, ?You new job is to get rid of Sparks as quickly as possible. Before Miss. Peacecraft comes over and visit. Do you understand??
?Yes sir,? the stranger replied.
?Good and this is how you?re going to do it,?
????????????.......................................................................................
Author?s Notes:
Finally!!! A new chapter to the story. This time I'll try to get another one as soon as I can. Please review and tell me what you think
I just got a good idea how I want this to end n I think its going to be a shocker
:-? till next time
StarryNight
Good job!!! Starry Night, please continue!!! 
I have to finish alot of fics too, don't worry about people asking you to hurry up! Quality over Quantity and all that 
Please...continue...would like to read more...can wait to read more... 