Tears
Posted: Thu Jun 10, 2004 11:27 am
Tears
Disclaimer: If gundam wing was owned by me I wouldn?t be writing this fic
AN: Based upon my Relena? poem I hope you like it and maybe now the poem will be easier to understand. Please review since this my first real fanfic. Also the 2nd half will be up maybe tomorrow so look out for that :p
The light shone through the parted curtains and playfully dances across my face dragging me out of my beautiful dreams. I struggle to keep that last picture of relena fresh in my mind but it fades and all that is left is here soft golden glow that has been permently imprinted on my heart.
?Relena??
It has been a year since I?ve saw her face, a year since she held me close and I gave up killing and a year since i ran away from Relena.
:: Flashback ::
-A day after the Mariemaia Khushrenada incident
I was painfully awakened by the pain that was surging through my body but I showed no emotion. I hear voices echoing from outside of the room, I can hear the distinct tone of Relena and Sally?s voices from outside the room.
?Relena, you must let Heero rest. I know you want to stay with him but it?s not doing either of you any good if you don?t get some rest.? said Sally sympathetically understanding how the woman cared for the young man lying on the table.
?I know but??
?He?s not going to go anywhere. So go get something to eat and get some sleep, you can come back tomorrow.?
?I guess your right, call me if anything happens.? says Relena In an apologetic tone as she makes her way out of the building and into the waiting limo to be whisked back to her home.
Hnn. Why did she care so much, why? All I am is a redundant soldier, a murderer. I was supposed to die so many times? but I didn?t because of her. My head suddenly panged with incredible pain, jolting me out of my thoughts. I have to see Relena if only for one last time. I easily stride out of the hospital by blending in the masses of frantic nurses and relatives. Hnn. How to get there? I spot a pretty beaten down car in the alleyway and within seconds I have it hotwired and driving towards my location, Relena?s house.
The security is getting lax with this peace; he easily made it over the wall, through the garden and up the side of the house onto the balcony without even so much as a flicker from the guards.
As I look through the French doors, I see the person in which I had been searching for hair spilling over the bed in waves of gold. She almost seemed like an angel lying their in her peaceful slumber oblivious to the man watching from the balcony. She?s so pure, untainted, and innocent. Everything I?m not? and everything I would strip from her if i stayed. She is the thread that holds peace, the one that holds this peace on a fragile pedestal tipping back and forth and never knowing in which way it will fall. I made my decision in that instant which almost seemed like an eternity and burned that one last memory into my heart forever. I step to leap from the balcony and disappear from her life forever, but midstep I hear my name from the lips of the person who I thought I had left behind.
?Heero!? Relena says as she scrambles to open the doors in an attempt stop Heero leaving.
?Relena?? I turn to look into her sky blue eyes, shinning with the glistening tears which were ready to tumble down her face and meet the cold harsh ground. I reach to brush those tears away like I had done so many years ago. She smiles kindly back at me, just like before.
?Are you leaving again Heero, without saying goodbye?? Relena says looking me straight in the face. I struggle to meet her eyes, to convey the message which a minute ago had been so clear in my mind.
?I?m leaving.? That?s all I could muster to say with her intense glaze piercing my very soul.
?Another Mission?? She asks curiosity in her eyes. I turn around to leave and turn to face her again at the edge of the balcony.
?For good, Relena?? I quickly turn away and look to the ground in an attempt to ready my resolve. To make one step and she would forever be out of my life.
?I love you Heero!? shouts Relena as she desperately hold out her hand to Heero, offering another path from his hell of a life. The words sunk in, he had always secretly known but to hear them was a whole different thing. I turn to look in her eyes shimmering with hope that they could be together. I start reaching for her hand, I feel the heat radiating from her as I move ever closer and then I remember. The girl and her dog? they deserved happiness? I don?t. My hand falls to my sides and I turn to jump, I look round once more tears forming in her eyes.
?I?m Sorry? I jump to the solid ground below and make my way to the shadows where I belong.
Relena?s tears slowly trickle down her face and fall like cascades of sparkiling diamonds as they make there way down to the cold hard truth that is life, but there is no longer anyone to wipe away those tears.
::Flashback::
Disclaimer: If gundam wing was owned by me I wouldn?t be writing this fic
AN: Based upon my Relena? poem I hope you like it and maybe now the poem will be easier to understand. Please review since this my first real fanfic. Also the 2nd half will be up maybe tomorrow so look out for that :p
The light shone through the parted curtains and playfully dances across my face dragging me out of my beautiful dreams. I struggle to keep that last picture of relena fresh in my mind but it fades and all that is left is here soft golden glow that has been permently imprinted on my heart.
?Relena??
It has been a year since I?ve saw her face, a year since she held me close and I gave up killing and a year since i ran away from Relena.
:: Flashback ::
-A day after the Mariemaia Khushrenada incident
I was painfully awakened by the pain that was surging through my body but I showed no emotion. I hear voices echoing from outside of the room, I can hear the distinct tone of Relena and Sally?s voices from outside the room.
?Relena, you must let Heero rest. I know you want to stay with him but it?s not doing either of you any good if you don?t get some rest.? said Sally sympathetically understanding how the woman cared for the young man lying on the table.
?I know but??
?He?s not going to go anywhere. So go get something to eat and get some sleep, you can come back tomorrow.?
?I guess your right, call me if anything happens.? says Relena In an apologetic tone as she makes her way out of the building and into the waiting limo to be whisked back to her home.
Hnn. Why did she care so much, why? All I am is a redundant soldier, a murderer. I was supposed to die so many times? but I didn?t because of her. My head suddenly panged with incredible pain, jolting me out of my thoughts. I have to see Relena if only for one last time. I easily stride out of the hospital by blending in the masses of frantic nurses and relatives. Hnn. How to get there? I spot a pretty beaten down car in the alleyway and within seconds I have it hotwired and driving towards my location, Relena?s house.
The security is getting lax with this peace; he easily made it over the wall, through the garden and up the side of the house onto the balcony without even so much as a flicker from the guards.
As I look through the French doors, I see the person in which I had been searching for hair spilling over the bed in waves of gold. She almost seemed like an angel lying their in her peaceful slumber oblivious to the man watching from the balcony. She?s so pure, untainted, and innocent. Everything I?m not? and everything I would strip from her if i stayed. She is the thread that holds peace, the one that holds this peace on a fragile pedestal tipping back and forth and never knowing in which way it will fall. I made my decision in that instant which almost seemed like an eternity and burned that one last memory into my heart forever. I step to leap from the balcony and disappear from her life forever, but midstep I hear my name from the lips of the person who I thought I had left behind.
?Heero!? Relena says as she scrambles to open the doors in an attempt stop Heero leaving.
?Relena?? I turn to look into her sky blue eyes, shinning with the glistening tears which were ready to tumble down her face and meet the cold harsh ground. I reach to brush those tears away like I had done so many years ago. She smiles kindly back at me, just like before.
?Are you leaving again Heero, without saying goodbye?? Relena says looking me straight in the face. I struggle to meet her eyes, to convey the message which a minute ago had been so clear in my mind.
?I?m leaving.? That?s all I could muster to say with her intense glaze piercing my very soul.
?Another Mission?? She asks curiosity in her eyes. I turn around to leave and turn to face her again at the edge of the balcony.
?For good, Relena?? I quickly turn away and look to the ground in an attempt to ready my resolve. To make one step and she would forever be out of my life.
?I love you Heero!? shouts Relena as she desperately hold out her hand to Heero, offering another path from his hell of a life. The words sunk in, he had always secretly known but to hear them was a whole different thing. I turn to look in her eyes shimmering with hope that they could be together. I start reaching for her hand, I feel the heat radiating from her as I move ever closer and then I remember. The girl and her dog? they deserved happiness? I don?t. My hand falls to my sides and I turn to jump, I look round once more tears forming in her eyes.
?I?m Sorry? I jump to the solid ground below and make my way to the shadows where I belong.
Relena?s tears slowly trickle down her face and fall like cascades of sparkiling diamonds as they make there way down to the cold hard truth that is life, but there is no longer anyone to wipe away those tears.
::Flashback::
Good job, Shingami! 
