The Perfect Life 2/?
Posted: Sat Mar 13, 2004 2:42 pm
DISCLAIMERS: I don’t own Gundam Wing or the characters. I do own Liana and other future original characters but that’s it, I don’t own anything else much to my own dismay *sobs*
The Perfect Life
By Stardust
Chapter two
“Relena what in the world are you doing? It’s 3:30 A.M.” Catherine was awakened a sound coming from the office next to her room.
“Oh! Hi, Cathy. I am just working in some papers for a meeting tomorrow. I am sorry if I woke you up.” Relena said looking at her friend before continuing her work.
“Relena you have to get some sleep or would you like me to tell Zechs, Sally and the guys that you are working and have not gotten any sleep?” Cathy said more like a threat than a question. Relena knew what would happen if either one of those persons knew that she was still up. Zechs would start a rant and strap her to her bed; Sally would probably give her some drugs so that she would fall sleep, and the guys would probably take her to her room and watch her sleep all night long. “Come on. I will go with you to your bedroom and see that you get some sleep.” Cathy pulled Relena out of her chair and pushed her out of the room.
“Cathy! At least let me save the work that I did. I promise I will go to bed right after I do that.” Relena begged Cathy. In reality Relena could not had stud up from her chair on her own, she was too tired.
“All right, young missy. But I will wait for you and take you to bed.” Cathy acted like a mother to all of them but especially to Trowa, Quatre and Relena, since they had such a close relationship with Trowa. It was 4:00 a.m. before Relena had saved and organized all of her work. Afterwards they went to Relena’s room but neither one was ready for what they were about to see. When they entered Relena’s room everything was pitch black and they could not see a thing but after they turned the lights on the only thing they could do was to scream in terror.
“AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!” The terrible scream was heard all over the house. The first ones to get there had been Zechs and Heero, much to Zechs’s dislike, whose rooms where at the sides of Relena’s rooms. In no time everyone else was in the hall trying to figure out what had just happened.
“What is it Relena?” Zechs hugged his sister before he saw the sight in front of him. What ever it was it had scared both Cathy and Relena to death. He knew them both and knew that a simple thing would easily scare none of them. But he understood all of it as soon as he saw what was inside Relena’s room.
‘Rena, Rena, Come out and play, I am waiting for you, and I will soon have you.’ Was written with blood in the wall in front of the door, lines of blood where painted all over the room and in Relena’s bed laid a red dove with a pool of blood underneath. Who ever had done this wanted everyone to see it. Zechs pulled Relena and Cathy out of the room and closed the door.
“Relena, What happened?” Liana was still trying to catch her breath. As soon as she heard Relena’s scream she went in a crazy sprint to where Relena was. But Relena did not answer her. Relena looked pale and deep in thought. She knew that this was going to happen sooner or later. The government was breaking apart and the only thing holding it together was her.
“Nothing, Liana, I just had a really bad nightmare like the one you had the other day,” Relena kneeled and hugged Liana, “ Now go back and sleep, ok?”
“Sure. But are you going to be ok? I want you to be fine.” Liana said as she slowly kissed Relena in the cheek and walked back to her room. Everyone was surprised that Relena could sound so calm when she had just seen the little ‘surprise’ that someone had left in her room.
“Oh, Quatre, by the way, we have a meeting at 10:00 am. I have to tell you what happened during the last meeting, and I think that all of you should know this.” Relena started telling them about the last meeting. Nobody was paying to much attention to what she was saying. Everyone was thinking of how calm Relena seemed to be, even Cathy could not get over the shock. After all she does throw knifes at people and could easily kill them with a single wrong movement if she was not calm and careful. As soon as she said the words ‘rebuilding Gundams’ everyone turned their complete attention to her words.
~ o ~ o ~ o
It had been a tedious day for Quatre and Relena, especially for her. The whole meeting the now divided government pointed fingers at each other and fought over where the Gundams should be kept and built. Of course every country wanted to build and keep the Gundams. And whenever they would not get to an agreement they all turned to Relena for an answer. Quatre had tried as much as he could to support her but his efforts were meaningless as the rest of the politicians found ways to ignite another disagreement. The setting sun at one side of the car as they drove home was the only nice thing they had seen in the whole day.
“Relena!! You took longer than you were supposed to!!” Liana yelled from the door as Relena and Quatre got out of the car.
“Yes, Liana.” Relena was tiered and didn’t really wanted to deal with anything or anyone right now. When they came into the living room where everyone was Duo asked the single question that would break Relena’s control and stability.
“How was the meeting?” That single question caused Relena to explode. Quatre wanted to shoot Duo in the head for asking such and stupid question. They were supposed to be back by 2:00 pm and it was 6:30 pm, at least that should had given him a clue.
“It was a lousy meeting.” Relena answered in an ice-cold voice. Everyone was surprised but supposed that the stress was speaking.
“Oh, come on. It could not had been that bad!” Duo tried to lighten the mood but only succeeded in making it more stressful. Quatre was about to get up and cut Duo’s throat but Relena started talking or rather shouting.
“YES IT WAS THAT BAD!” Relena yelled in frustration. She could not hold it any longer, she felt herself collapsing and knew she had to get away from everyone. With that Relena left the room running blindly not knowing where to go. It seemed her feet had taken a mind of their own and where caring her against her will to some safe place. She found herself running up the stairs leading to her room. As she reached the top of the stairs she felt strong hands in her shoulders turning her around. Heero almost cringed at the sight that met him. Relena was shooting him the same glare he so frequently shot to everyone who annoyed him but that was not what scared him it was the hurt, sadness, hatred and desperation in Relena’s eyes that for an instant seemed to be directed to him alone.
“I think we all understand how stressful and taxing your job can be. Don’t worry, nobody will blame you for what happened.” Heero said in the most comforting tone he could muster. He thought that he had accomplished his mission when Relena smiled but, boy, was he wrong.
“No, Heero you don’t understand. This stupid smile I have plastered in my face is nothing but a mask. Can’t you see that I hurt inside but I have to be strong for every one else who wants peace? That I must think of them before myself? It is because of this stupid mask that people see me as a symbol, a figure, a doll… not as a human with human needs and feelings!!” Relena yelled. Heero was speechless, but even if he had spoken, Relena would have interrupted him as she went on with her rant.
“Everyone sees me as ‘the Angel of Peace’ or ‘the Dove of Peace’, no one sees me as Relena Darlan… and I am tired of that!!” Relena finally stopped her seething only to pass by an astonished Heero and slam her bedroom door. If Duo had been there, he would have been rolling in the floor with laughter. Heero’s face was a mixture of anger, sadness and surprise. He had passed trough war emotionless, and yet a single girl could arise such quizzical emotions within him.
~ o ~ o ~ o
“AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!” Relena growled as she took one of the many pillows that decorated her bed and started punching it. She was a pacifist, but since her life was constantly being threatened, she had learned self-defense, fencing, and some martial arts—mostly Milliardo’s and Dorothy’s teachings. “Why can’t they see that I am not a delicate porcelain doll that is going to break with a single touch? But it will stop because they won’t be able to protect me anymore.” As she said this, she took a backpack full of cloths, her laptop and some money. Suddenly she heard a knock on the door. “I can’t go right now. They’ll catch me before I make it to the front door. I will go when they least expect it. I will bid my time and wait until the perfect moment comes.” With this new reflection, she took her belongings and hid them away underneath her bed and asked who was knocking.
“It’s the girls, Lena” Hilde’s muffled voice sounded through the wooden door.
“Come in” Relena said as she dried her last tears and sat in her fluffy bed. Soon the door was opened and five woman bursted in to the once peaceful bedroom of the princess.
“Lena, are you ok, hon?” Hilde asked as she took her seat next to Relena putting her arm around Relena’s shoulders to comfort her. Relena smiled as all of them took their assigned posts. Whenever Relena or any other one of them felt depressed or had something to tell the others they always sat around the person. In this case they where all sited around Relena.
“Yeah, the stress must be getting to my head and yesterday’s surprise is not helping much.” Relena said with an apologetic smile.
“Don’t worry darling after all what use is it to have six gundam pilots if not to protect you?” Noin stated and everyone laughed.
“I will be alright guys, I just need to rest.” Relena stifled a yawn and everyone got the message.
“Night” Everyone said unanimously and left.
I am really lucky; I have friends and family who really care for me. Then how come I don’t feel happy?
‘You know why.’ A little voice answered Relena’s question
No, I should be happy. What else can a girl dream for? Being a princess, having everything she wants, the people of the world hanging to her every word and deed, friends and family that would die for her. I have everything anyone ever wanted and yet I am not happy. What is wrong with me?
‘There is nothing wrong with you; you are perfectly fine. You are not happy because you don’t want to be the queen of the world anymore. Because you want something more. Because you want to live a normal life. Some people in life search for what society calls normality and then there are others who search for anything but normality. You my darling tasted what normality is and it did not made you happy so now you are breaking the bonds to this life and trying to begin a new one.’
Why should I give up this perfect life? I have everything.
‘Because, child, you don’t want to have an assassination attempt on your life every time you walk out of the door. Because you don’t want to carry the weight of the world in your shoulders anymore. Believe me, Rena, nobody can blame you for it, nobody. You are only a human being. You can only do so much for the world. You, my dear, have done more than enough.’
Maybe you are right but… Who are you any ways?
‘I, my sweet child, am you mother.’
Uh? To say the least Relena had been expecting it to be anyone but her mother
‘I am your mother, dear, your real mother.’
But how come… I I I mean, how can you talk to me? How can I hear you?
‘I am always watching over you and I thought that you needed some help right now.’
You never came all does other times.
‘I have always been by your and Milliardo’s side. Besides you always managed all those other times, I just thought that you need some extra help on what’s to come. I most go now but remember what I said about your life.’
Wait, will you talk again with me
‘Maybe but remember I am always at your side, no matter what happens’
With that said Relena fell into the most peaceful sleep she had had in months. Dreams of a smaller version of her playing with a beautiful woman with long curly honey blonde hair and dark blue eyes in a plain full of wild flowers filled her mind all night long.
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Ok, that is it for this chapter, tell me what you think.
The Perfect Life
By Stardust
Chapter two
“Relena what in the world are you doing? It’s 3:30 A.M.” Catherine was awakened a sound coming from the office next to her room.
“Oh! Hi, Cathy. I am just working in some papers for a meeting tomorrow. I am sorry if I woke you up.” Relena said looking at her friend before continuing her work.
“Relena you have to get some sleep or would you like me to tell Zechs, Sally and the guys that you are working and have not gotten any sleep?” Cathy said more like a threat than a question. Relena knew what would happen if either one of those persons knew that she was still up. Zechs would start a rant and strap her to her bed; Sally would probably give her some drugs so that she would fall sleep, and the guys would probably take her to her room and watch her sleep all night long. “Come on. I will go with you to your bedroom and see that you get some sleep.” Cathy pulled Relena out of her chair and pushed her out of the room.
“Cathy! At least let me save the work that I did. I promise I will go to bed right after I do that.” Relena begged Cathy. In reality Relena could not had stud up from her chair on her own, she was too tired.
“All right, young missy. But I will wait for you and take you to bed.” Cathy acted like a mother to all of them but especially to Trowa, Quatre and Relena, since they had such a close relationship with Trowa. It was 4:00 a.m. before Relena had saved and organized all of her work. Afterwards they went to Relena’s room but neither one was ready for what they were about to see. When they entered Relena’s room everything was pitch black and they could not see a thing but after they turned the lights on the only thing they could do was to scream in terror.
“AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!” The terrible scream was heard all over the house. The first ones to get there had been Zechs and Heero, much to Zechs’s dislike, whose rooms where at the sides of Relena’s rooms. In no time everyone else was in the hall trying to figure out what had just happened.
“What is it Relena?” Zechs hugged his sister before he saw the sight in front of him. What ever it was it had scared both Cathy and Relena to death. He knew them both and knew that a simple thing would easily scare none of them. But he understood all of it as soon as he saw what was inside Relena’s room.
‘Rena, Rena, Come out and play, I am waiting for you, and I will soon have you.’ Was written with blood in the wall in front of the door, lines of blood where painted all over the room and in Relena’s bed laid a red dove with a pool of blood underneath. Who ever had done this wanted everyone to see it. Zechs pulled Relena and Cathy out of the room and closed the door.
“Relena, What happened?” Liana was still trying to catch her breath. As soon as she heard Relena’s scream she went in a crazy sprint to where Relena was. But Relena did not answer her. Relena looked pale and deep in thought. She knew that this was going to happen sooner or later. The government was breaking apart and the only thing holding it together was her.
“Nothing, Liana, I just had a really bad nightmare like the one you had the other day,” Relena kneeled and hugged Liana, “ Now go back and sleep, ok?”
“Sure. But are you going to be ok? I want you to be fine.” Liana said as she slowly kissed Relena in the cheek and walked back to her room. Everyone was surprised that Relena could sound so calm when she had just seen the little ‘surprise’ that someone had left in her room.
“Oh, Quatre, by the way, we have a meeting at 10:00 am. I have to tell you what happened during the last meeting, and I think that all of you should know this.” Relena started telling them about the last meeting. Nobody was paying to much attention to what she was saying. Everyone was thinking of how calm Relena seemed to be, even Cathy could not get over the shock. After all she does throw knifes at people and could easily kill them with a single wrong movement if she was not calm and careful. As soon as she said the words ‘rebuilding Gundams’ everyone turned their complete attention to her words.
~ o ~ o ~ o
It had been a tedious day for Quatre and Relena, especially for her. The whole meeting the now divided government pointed fingers at each other and fought over where the Gundams should be kept and built. Of course every country wanted to build and keep the Gundams. And whenever they would not get to an agreement they all turned to Relena for an answer. Quatre had tried as much as he could to support her but his efforts were meaningless as the rest of the politicians found ways to ignite another disagreement. The setting sun at one side of the car as they drove home was the only nice thing they had seen in the whole day.
“Relena!! You took longer than you were supposed to!!” Liana yelled from the door as Relena and Quatre got out of the car.
“Yes, Liana.” Relena was tiered and didn’t really wanted to deal with anything or anyone right now. When they came into the living room where everyone was Duo asked the single question that would break Relena’s control and stability.
“How was the meeting?” That single question caused Relena to explode. Quatre wanted to shoot Duo in the head for asking such and stupid question. They were supposed to be back by 2:00 pm and it was 6:30 pm, at least that should had given him a clue.
“It was a lousy meeting.” Relena answered in an ice-cold voice. Everyone was surprised but supposed that the stress was speaking.
“Oh, come on. It could not had been that bad!” Duo tried to lighten the mood but only succeeded in making it more stressful. Quatre was about to get up and cut Duo’s throat but Relena started talking or rather shouting.
“YES IT WAS THAT BAD!” Relena yelled in frustration. She could not hold it any longer, she felt herself collapsing and knew she had to get away from everyone. With that Relena left the room running blindly not knowing where to go. It seemed her feet had taken a mind of their own and where caring her against her will to some safe place. She found herself running up the stairs leading to her room. As she reached the top of the stairs she felt strong hands in her shoulders turning her around. Heero almost cringed at the sight that met him. Relena was shooting him the same glare he so frequently shot to everyone who annoyed him but that was not what scared him it was the hurt, sadness, hatred and desperation in Relena’s eyes that for an instant seemed to be directed to him alone.
“I think we all understand how stressful and taxing your job can be. Don’t worry, nobody will blame you for what happened.” Heero said in the most comforting tone he could muster. He thought that he had accomplished his mission when Relena smiled but, boy, was he wrong.
“No, Heero you don’t understand. This stupid smile I have plastered in my face is nothing but a mask. Can’t you see that I hurt inside but I have to be strong for every one else who wants peace? That I must think of them before myself? It is because of this stupid mask that people see me as a symbol, a figure, a doll… not as a human with human needs and feelings!!” Relena yelled. Heero was speechless, but even if he had spoken, Relena would have interrupted him as she went on with her rant.
“Everyone sees me as ‘the Angel of Peace’ or ‘the Dove of Peace’, no one sees me as Relena Darlan… and I am tired of that!!” Relena finally stopped her seething only to pass by an astonished Heero and slam her bedroom door. If Duo had been there, he would have been rolling in the floor with laughter. Heero’s face was a mixture of anger, sadness and surprise. He had passed trough war emotionless, and yet a single girl could arise such quizzical emotions within him.
~ o ~ o ~ o
“AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!” Relena growled as she took one of the many pillows that decorated her bed and started punching it. She was a pacifist, but since her life was constantly being threatened, she had learned self-defense, fencing, and some martial arts—mostly Milliardo’s and Dorothy’s teachings. “Why can’t they see that I am not a delicate porcelain doll that is going to break with a single touch? But it will stop because they won’t be able to protect me anymore.” As she said this, she took a backpack full of cloths, her laptop and some money. Suddenly she heard a knock on the door. “I can’t go right now. They’ll catch me before I make it to the front door. I will go when they least expect it. I will bid my time and wait until the perfect moment comes.” With this new reflection, she took her belongings and hid them away underneath her bed and asked who was knocking.
“It’s the girls, Lena” Hilde’s muffled voice sounded through the wooden door.
“Come in” Relena said as she dried her last tears and sat in her fluffy bed. Soon the door was opened and five woman bursted in to the once peaceful bedroom of the princess.
“Lena, are you ok, hon?” Hilde asked as she took her seat next to Relena putting her arm around Relena’s shoulders to comfort her. Relena smiled as all of them took their assigned posts. Whenever Relena or any other one of them felt depressed or had something to tell the others they always sat around the person. In this case they where all sited around Relena.
“Yeah, the stress must be getting to my head and yesterday’s surprise is not helping much.” Relena said with an apologetic smile.
“Don’t worry darling after all what use is it to have six gundam pilots if not to protect you?” Noin stated and everyone laughed.
“I will be alright guys, I just need to rest.” Relena stifled a yawn and everyone got the message.
“Night” Everyone said unanimously and left.
I am really lucky; I have friends and family who really care for me. Then how come I don’t feel happy?
‘You know why.’ A little voice answered Relena’s question
No, I should be happy. What else can a girl dream for? Being a princess, having everything she wants, the people of the world hanging to her every word and deed, friends and family that would die for her. I have everything anyone ever wanted and yet I am not happy. What is wrong with me?
‘There is nothing wrong with you; you are perfectly fine. You are not happy because you don’t want to be the queen of the world anymore. Because you want something more. Because you want to live a normal life. Some people in life search for what society calls normality and then there are others who search for anything but normality. You my darling tasted what normality is and it did not made you happy so now you are breaking the bonds to this life and trying to begin a new one.’
Why should I give up this perfect life? I have everything.
‘Because, child, you don’t want to have an assassination attempt on your life every time you walk out of the door. Because you don’t want to carry the weight of the world in your shoulders anymore. Believe me, Rena, nobody can blame you for it, nobody. You are only a human being. You can only do so much for the world. You, my dear, have done more than enough.’
Maybe you are right but… Who are you any ways?
‘I, my sweet child, am you mother.’
Uh? To say the least Relena had been expecting it to be anyone but her mother
‘I am your mother, dear, your real mother.’
But how come… I I I mean, how can you talk to me? How can I hear you?
‘I am always watching over you and I thought that you needed some help right now.’
You never came all does other times.
‘I have always been by your and Milliardo’s side. Besides you always managed all those other times, I just thought that you need some extra help on what’s to come. I most go now but remember what I said about your life.’
Wait, will you talk again with me
‘Maybe but remember I am always at your side, no matter what happens’
With that said Relena fell into the most peaceful sleep she had had in months. Dreams of a smaller version of her playing with a beautiful woman with long curly honey blonde hair and dark blue eyes in a plain full of wild flowers filled her mind all night long.
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Ok, that is it for this chapter, tell me what you think.