Where I can Say Chapter 3
Posted: Thu Feb 19, 2004 1:48 pm
Where I can Say
BY: Blackak Bounti
Author's Notes:
To: Crazygurl: Yeah I know that it is a lot like Tabloid. But trust me I have things in my mind to make it a whole lot different. But I will tell you this, I got my inspiration from Tabloid. But it's still not the story.
To: wing zero 2: Sure I can! I'm glad you like the story.
Anyhow I'm glad yall like the story. Thank you so much for the sweet reviews. And I hope you enjoy this chapter.
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine.
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Where I Can Say: Chapter 3: Drifting off Relena's POV
I sat there numbly and stared at nothing as I listened to the song flowing from the radio. Last night I figured out that Heero's dad, Odin, lived here too, only for a while though. His brother and wife along with his father would be moving back to the family mansion.
That means I'll be all alone.
With HIM!
Oh shit!
I stared at May who was cleaning around me so not to disturb me. I sighed and started walking upstairs. I noticed a room that caught my attention and I looked inside.
It was a study, filled with tall shelves of books. I stepped inside looking highly around me. I craned my neck to catch glimpse of titles on some of the books and I touched lightly on one of them.
"Do you like it?" A voice said behind me.
"Oh." I dropped my hand and smiled at my father in law sitting at an worn oak desk propped on the other side. I walked over to him. "It's really nice. At least I know I won't be bored." I told him.
He smiled at me before turning back to his work. His family owned a company called Wing Zero, and another company called Endless Waltz. Wing Zero was a company that held stocks and owned a few radio stations that were popular in the state. Endless Waltz was a music producing company.
I should know considering I've always wanted to be in the company called Endless Waltz.
Giving up his work, Mr. Yuy looked at me. "So are you happy with this?"
I couldn't say no because for one thing I had to. My father and him made a deal that if my father couldn't pay a debt back within two years, he'd have my hand in marriage to his son.
So I couldn't say no, I was a fighter. I don't whine about anything. "I'm fine here. But.it lacks emotions in the place."
He chuckled and looked at me. I swore I spotted a twinkle in his eyes as he said it. "Well maybe you can make it all comfortable."
I returned the smile and sat down next to him when he gestured me near. "You know I have something for you." He told me. I gave him a questioning look as he unlocked a draw and held out something.
"It was your mother's necklace that your father had given her on their honeymoon. When your mother died, your father sent me it. Telling me that when you and Heero got married, I would give you this. To say thanks for understanding."
I blinked back hot tears when Mr. Yuy beckoned a maid to hook the necklace around me. I smiled sadly yet gratefully at him. I left him with his work when I spotted someone bringing in more of it.
The hall was quiet and I hated it. It was dark and gloomy, the colors looked like a shadow. I sighed and walked over down a hall to Hilde's room. I paused when I heard something streaming from the door.
A moan. "Harder." A voice whispered huskily.
I froze and jumped back, sweating. I made a disgusted face.
"Harder.more."
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I ran. I panted and looked at where I had run from. I ran two halls and I was in the west wing. I looked around and saw a white marble staircase in front of me.
Curiously I walked slowly up the stairs. My slippers tapping softly against the bare marble.
There were two large white marble doors in a spacious hall. I walked over and brushed my fingers against the ivory knobs. I pushed both doors opened and I gasped at what I saw.
A black classic piano was propped on a flat stage. An old microphone and speakers around. It was a ballroom with closets on both ends and windows on the far end behind the stage. Sunlight burst through the glasses and painted the place with a heavenly glow.
The walls were a soft ivory and the flooring was a ice blue marble. I walked in. I finally noticed a black brass guitar. I walked swiftly onto the stage.
My fingers brushed against the keys of the piano and I pressed down on one. The high C note swam around me
Music the very thing that held my world together, my dreams, my world, everything. It was my happiness, my sadness, and the stage of my most painful times and my happiest dream that would still have to be fulfilled.
I smiled softly and looked around. I pricked my fingers along the strings of the guitar.
I smiled and lifted it. I played a few simple keys before drifting it back.
I turned the microphone on and turned on the speakers behind me.
Opening my mouth I spoke it all out. But my friends has always told me that pop music would be better to listen to. Sad music would be nice as a few tracks and I started to sprung up the words.
"What can i do for you What can i do for you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you
I can hear you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you" "Never thought that I would wind up by myself
If I told my wild, imagination But I hear I am finding myself so lost Everyday is a way, for me to turn back All the things I see They are different from What I had imagined they would be Everything is different Now I'm getting dizzy spells Its real emotion, shakin' up the world I'll never give it up I don't ever want to Lose this far No more than I can do
When I am just too wrong And in my heart I can hear you say, That I am not alone. What can I do for you What can I do for you What can I do for you I can hear you What can I do for you What can I do for you What can I do for you Never gotta look back I'm already here
Cause you give me faith
I'm on my own now
If anything happens, unexpectedly
I know you are there, to come and save me What do I do now?
What can I do now?
For the truth that you have made me see All that I can do now Is believe in what I feel It's real emotion, shakin' up the world
I'll be forever blessed, for you to stand by me Then, before" "So many things you tell me
That's why I am here
You give me strength and now I know
That I am not alone What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What what what
What can I do for you
What can I do for you I can hear you It's real emotion, shakin' up the world
You're always here with me, so deep in my heart
And I, am there
Beside you when you need me
Since I'm finally strong
Just close your eyes and you'll see me there
Cause you are not alone Its real emotion, shakin' up the world
I'll never give it up I don't ever want to
Lose this far
No more than I can do
When I am just too wrong
And in my heart I can hear you say,
That I am not alone." "What can i do for you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you
I can hear you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you I can hear you I can hear you"
I laughed joyfully and replaced the microphone back to it's stand. I twirled off the stage and onto the ice blue marble. I closed my eyes and sung the song once more. Dancing to it.
I soon grew tired of dancing and collapsed. I smiled and dropped down on my back. I looked at the ceiling and closed my eyes.
All I could do now was close my eyes and hum the song.
Oh god how I missed singing! But still it was different without my band behind me.
I was drifting off to sweet dreams when I suddenly froze.
Clap Clap Clap
I snapped up, sitting up straight. I relaxed when I saw May sitting there. She was smiling. "You sing really good, Relena." I nodded my thanks and I suddenly frowned when HE appeared behind her. Oh god, oh god!!! Don't tell me he heard me!!! No! He was smirking and after sending May off, he slipped the doors closed. No!!!! He heard me, he heard me! He. Heard. Me! Heero walked over to me, oh boy. I guessed he came back from work considering that he was wearing a suit and all. I swallowed as he walked closer to me. Oh my god?! Is he like.trying to take me right here and all? I mean I've heard that he fucks his girlfriend almost once a week! And I'm his wife!! No, ewwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!! Dirty thoughts entered my mind and I stiffened. "You sing nicely. Where did you learn to do that?"
"I was in a band, remember, baka?"
Heero chuckled and landed beside me, pressing his back against the floor. I edged away from him and turned my back to him. It's obvious that I hated him and I hated the situation. I mean he heard me sing! That's a big deal for me, I mean hello, singing is my way out. And since I've been bottling up all of my emotions I think I have the right to let it all out, right?
I sighed inwardly, forgetting slightly that Heero was in the same room as I am.
I missed my friends, and I missed be part of band. I missed being posted outside of the door of Sissy K's. I really missed my old life and I would do anything to get it back. Finally getting up, I walked back downstairs. Heero stayed behind me and didn't follow which I was grateful for. I needed some time alone. But than again I always needed time alone. Hilde and Duo was finally out of their bedrooms, allowing me to talk to them. Duo smiled cheerfully at me and threw an arm around my shoulder. "Hey, Rel!" I smiled in greeting not in the mood to talk much. "So did Heero tell you about the festival tomorrow?" I blinked rapidly and replied no. I guess I made a big mistake not staying there long enough for him to tell me that. But than again I like it when Duo is telling me instead of Heero. "A festival?" I repeated. Hilde laughed and nodded. "A festival silly. You know wearing a kimono and all that fun stuff. I mean everyone is going to be there and it'll be your first big show to the world that you're Heero's wife." Oh great.that's even worse. My fans would find out if it was broadcasted on TV that me, the ex-member of The Gundams abandoned the band for some marriage. Great.just what I needed.
"I don't have anything to wear." I told them, trying to slip my way out. Hilde patted me on my shoulder and laughed. "Don't worry I'll have May make one. Besides I need a new one too." Hilde told me. I swallowed and let out a nervous laugh. Somehow an image of Heero wearing a kimono slipped into my head. Oh no!!! Get out! I cannot even think about him or anything like that. I mean I hate him!
**** The next week, all three of us went to the mall. Thank god that no one recognized us I mean I was in the spotlight once you know and it's not all that perky as it seems. I watched as may threw piles and piles of material at me. Trying to see which fits. I smiled and told her that I'd pick one. Hilde chose this really nice silky light purple. I had to admit it looked really good on her. I smiled at the thought that she and Duo would have a great time together at the festival later on. After hours of choosing, I'd finally picked one. But when I touched it, I let it down once more. That's the color of the blue dress that I had always wanted to wear, well on my dream concert of course. I walked away quickly and thought back to Sara. She use to fret about what we were all going to wear for a photo shoot and all. I miss her so much. I spotted a dark red with cherry blossoms on it and I thought it was perfect for my outfit. For some reason I couldn't help but note that May had brought 24 yards of it. When we got back to the mansion I informed both Hilde and May that I wanted a short and simple kimono. I've never been big on huge dresses and stuff. Simplicity is my thing, always has been. Hilde smiled at me. "I like you. I mean Heero's past girlfriends would've wanted big expensive and that. But are you sure that you want to show your legs?" I nodded. "It would remind me a lot of my bouncer outfit." All three of us laughed and set straight to work. As we worked I asked a few questions to both Hilde and May. "So how long have you've been married?" I asked as a maid took my measurements. "By next month it'd be two years now." She told me letting a dreamy sigh. "And what about you May? I mean a great woman like you should have a boyfriend, am I right?" May blushed and told me she did have a boyfriend. Actually they were engaged. I let out a gasp and hugged her. Screaming things out that I couldn't even remember. I did remember that a pin stabbed into me but I ignored it. After getting the outline and all, May sent us out to make the kimono. "Out, out, out! I want to make these alone." I think she wanted to make something out of mine to make Heero think about me and all. I shuddered at the thought. "So how did you and Duo meet?" I asked as we settled in the living room. "I was his secretary." Hilde told me with a bright smile plastered onto her face. Oh my god I shouted. I told her that I read a book about that once, where the secretary would fall for her boss and all. Her love life must've always been a fairy tale than. "So what about you? I mean I'm sure you've had more than ten boyfriends in the past before Heero." Hilde told me. I blushed and shook my head. I told her that I only had ten. But in the back of my mind I thought about Trowa. My first real boyfriend that I had almost swore I was in love with him. "I did. But its not something I would really want to talk about. I mean I had this one boyfriend.I thought I was in love. But I was wrong." I told Hilde. I gave her a sad smile, "Turned out that after we broke up, I set him up with his real soul mate. So I'm happy for him." "So what happened?" Hilde asked. She sounded like a young girl who was listening to a wonderful fairy tale before bed. It was a bit silly because my love life was very much like a fairy tale, only this fairy tale never did have a happily ever after sort of thing. "They eloped and left without a word. He was in the band you know.until he left." I told her. "But we meet once a year which is better than nothing, you know?" Hilde nodded. "Yeah I agree. I use to have this boyfriend too. But I never told Duo about him, since he is a bit jealous and he goes a bit moody. But I can really relate. I mean I knew this man named Tai. He was really nice but the strange thing was, was that he looked a hell lot like Heero." I nodded. "So we were engaged but I suddenly realized why I had stayed with him for so long." I arched an eyebrow. "I stayed with him because he reminded me of Heero's family." His name made me blurt out a question. "Is Heero jealous?" I watched with a questioning stare as Hilde busted out into an amused laughter. "Dear me! Jealous! No, he's damn possessive and out right over protected." Her voice calmed a little. "He will be blindly filled of rage of any guy who would come near his girl." She gave me this cheeky smile and told me that it was me, by the way. I sighed inwardly. I didn't think of that. So I have an over possessive husband that's stuck with me for the rest of my life. Great. Later on, me and Hilde talked about the festival. We hung out together closely the next few weeks only because every male in the house went off to the company to do work and we were the only females in the house other than May who was working on our kimonos. We talked mostly about the things we liked, but basically, to sum it up for all of you, normal teenage schoolgirl kind of things. When the day of the festival arrived, May finally revealed our kimonos. As requested, mines was short, revealing my long legs. Long sleeves with a low drop, simple with only two layers which I was very grateful for considering that it's late spring. Hilde's was long, traditional with three layers. After getting our flip flops, Hilde went crazy over make-up. She had a whole room full of make-up. "So what are you going to do?" Hilde asked me, watching me through the mirror as I touched a brush. I shrugged and told her that I was more of a lip-gloss person. "Well than come on! I have tons of lip gloss!" I laughed as she dragged me over to a dresser. She grabbed about four trays of massive lip-gloss and after flipping out a mirror, she told me to get to work. I decided on a white metallic lip-gloss that smelled strangely of roses. It dazzled my thin lips and soon ended up blending close to my cream complexion.
After hours of fussing and chatting, it was finally time. I watched with a soft smile as Duo wrapped his arm around his wife, visibly showing that he had missed his wife. He wore a dark blue kimono, which was long. Mr. Yuy was there wearing a soft green kimono. I realized that I was the only one who was wearing a short kimono. I walked down the stairs and I knew that Duo had tripped me and I was about to fall flat on my face if I wasn't for one person. His arm had shot out and broke my fall and in an instant I was in his warmth. My back pressed against his chest. Giggles amongst the people and servants swam around me. growling under my breath, we left. The limo was filled of chatter and light laughter. When we got there, we had to walk about four flights of stairs. Now I've never been to a festival before, well not one where I had to wear something like this. "What are we waiting for again?" I asked Hilde as we stood by a pond. "The others." I nodded, looking around me. A full moon rested in the corner of the sky, and stars twinkled down at us. Lanterns graced stands of games and things like that. a stage was a few feet away from us with curtains drawn. I could tell that the performance wasn't there yet. I recognize only two people who came in a large group. Sylvia and Quarte. Now I knew Quarte simply because he was rich and had married one of my good friends before college. Dorothy. I hadn't spoken to her in more than two years and I smiled at how happy she looked when she first saw me. "Relena.." A male voice whispered in the distant. I tensed instantly. That voice could only belong to one person. The person I would see later on, on our regular meeting place was Trowa Barton. He wore a dark kimono with his wife who was another one of my friends, Midi Une. I winced at the jerk my heart gave. After all of these years, I still had feelings for him. Well not those kinds anyways. I'm happy for him and all, but I was never ready to meet him more than once in a year. Never, not since that day in high school. Maybe I didn't say but on that day.he had almost raped me. Drunk and blinded by a rage with no reason behind it. We broke up after that and met only once a year. Later on he married and still we met. But meeting him more than once a year was hard and painful. Because once I could deal with without the image of him tearing my shirt apart would come. But as I stood there frozen in place, images rushed to me that it brunt my eyes. "Hello Trowa." I replied monotone. "Hey Midi." I said to his wife with a bright smile. "Do you two know each other?" Quarte asked. Beside him, my friend Dorothy who had before came to embrace me told him in a whisper. "So let's go and have some fun!" Duo exclaimed and ran off with Hilde. That left me with Heero and a two couples and Heero's ex. Oh what a night this will be. But just as the night was about to begin, I heard painfully familiar music in the distance. I turned around and what I saw almost made me whimper.
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I saw them. On the stage and all of them saw me but never stopped playing. I missed them so much and listened contently on their music. A few minutes later when their performance was over for the time being, they made their way over to me. "Relena.what are you doing here?" Sara asked me with a smile. I was about to say something when they all ran, embracing Dorothy. I laughed at her shocked expression. It didn't take long for them to finally know the truth. Dorothy had told them and I could tell they were angry. Mostly because I really didn't give them a reason, I just told them that I was quitting and left. "So you left the band.for some marriage?" They asked me in unison, glaring at Heero. I swallowed and nodded numbly, I was at a lost of words only because I've never been in this situation before. "And not to mention that not only have you upsetted our fans and lied to us but your not even going to be there for our first big gig?" "What?" I squeaked. The simply word only made them more upset at me. "You know! Your whole dream concert, the one that happens this year. But I guess you don't care because as long as you got your boy, you don't give no shit about us right? The past where you use to have to be a bouncer?" I clenched my fists and was about to burst, but I managed to keep control. "Well than.if you knew the truth. You'd feel like the scum that you use to be before you came into the band, Mike!" I stormed off with tears threatening to fall. I sensed that the others followed me, and I guess they didn't want to feel the wrath of the Gundams neither. But for me it was different, they didn't want to hear their harsh words and I didn't want to feel the pain of feeling that I betrayed everyone. Everyone including me. I shakily released a pent up breath I didn't know I was holding. This festival was bright and children ran along with laughter. I was hurt yes but I knew that I couldn't make everyone else upset because of me. I'd have to deal with the pain later on. I quickly bottled everything up and slipped on a mental mask. I turned around with a smile that people who knew me very well could tell it was fake. I waved an arm to tell everyone to catch up. They did with much hesitation. "So come on! Let's go!" I said cheekily and I could tell they were thinking how I could possibly be so happy when that had just happened. But the thought was quickly dismissed when I grabbed both the arms of Heero and without knowing as well as Sylvia. You see she had been clinging to Heero like a fly to honey, but she did it so it seemed like she was walking behind him. I closed my eyes to block everything out and sort everything through. I gave a cheeky fake smile and told them to play games. I stayed behind with.Trowa and his wife. "Midi.can you go up ahead? I need to talk to Relena." Midi nodded, she knew about us and she wasn't jealous one bit. "So you never told me you left the band." Trowa was the first one to speak and I lifted my shoulders. "Well it was in the contract between me and him. Besides you never told me you left the band neither you know." "So that was a way to get back at me?" Trowa asked harshly. I shook my head and replied no. "Just hurt. But I never intended to get back at you anyways. Besides it couldn't be helped." Trowa sighed and patted my shoulder. "I wish that for once, Heero would admit he was wrong and just fix it." We stopped and I swore I saw Heero walk slower. I could also see two glares from both him and Sylvia. "What do you mean?" I asked Trowa. He lifted his shoulder and looked up at the sky. "I think that by now, in the back of his mind anyways, he's a bit wrong about letting you quit your whole pride and joy thing. I mean I was a bit hurt for a while after I quit the band but when I met Midi, it was better." "But that's not the same for me. If I had fallen in love with Yuy before I married him than I would've been slightly glad to leave the band. But that's not the case. I married him without knowing anything about it. And it was in the contract that I drop everything and let him make the money." "I thought you've always wanted to be a doctor." "Well I still do. But my life just stopped. I mean it's not even my life anymore, it's a we life." "Well you know, everyone in the band liked you not only for your talent but because of your personality. I mean you this big person with a golden heart that can never break and you're the kind who does what she wants to." Trowa informed me. "But this isn't what it is about, is it?" I shook my head sadly and smiled up at him. My eyes turning glassy. "No. All my father wanted for me ever since I was young was for me to marry to a man he would like and would know would support me. I guess in his eyes no man was good enough for me expect Heero. And the last thing I want to do if crash his dreams, because not only has he lead me to my dreams but he's there when I need him. And I can't just.crash his dreams for me when he was alive." Trowa nodded. "Besides it wouldn't be fair to ruin all of his hard work." I told him with amusement. We laughed and shared a friendly hug. I sensed Heero almost throwing a knife at Trowa. We broke apart and went our separate ways to our.wife and husband. But I could swear I saw Heero glaring at Trowa and took a step closer to me. Over protective and possessive indeed. TBC. Author's Notes: So what do you think? Anyways I hoped you enjoyed this chapter. And to the readers of A Locket Song, boy are you in for a treat! Just hang in there! And review!
BY: Blackak Bounti
Author's Notes:
To: Crazygurl: Yeah I know that it is a lot like Tabloid. But trust me I have things in my mind to make it a whole lot different. But I will tell you this, I got my inspiration from Tabloid. But it's still not the story.
To: wing zero 2: Sure I can! I'm glad you like the story.
Anyhow I'm glad yall like the story. Thank you so much for the sweet reviews. And I hope you enjoy this chapter.
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine.
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Where I Can Say: Chapter 3: Drifting off Relena's POV
I sat there numbly and stared at nothing as I listened to the song flowing from the radio. Last night I figured out that Heero's dad, Odin, lived here too, only for a while though. His brother and wife along with his father would be moving back to the family mansion.
That means I'll be all alone.
With HIM!
Oh shit!
I stared at May who was cleaning around me so not to disturb me. I sighed and started walking upstairs. I noticed a room that caught my attention and I looked inside.
It was a study, filled with tall shelves of books. I stepped inside looking highly around me. I craned my neck to catch glimpse of titles on some of the books and I touched lightly on one of them.
"Do you like it?" A voice said behind me.
"Oh." I dropped my hand and smiled at my father in law sitting at an worn oak desk propped on the other side. I walked over to him. "It's really nice. At least I know I won't be bored." I told him.
He smiled at me before turning back to his work. His family owned a company called Wing Zero, and another company called Endless Waltz. Wing Zero was a company that held stocks and owned a few radio stations that were popular in the state. Endless Waltz was a music producing company.
I should know considering I've always wanted to be in the company called Endless Waltz.
Giving up his work, Mr. Yuy looked at me. "So are you happy with this?"
I couldn't say no because for one thing I had to. My father and him made a deal that if my father couldn't pay a debt back within two years, he'd have my hand in marriage to his son.
So I couldn't say no, I was a fighter. I don't whine about anything. "I'm fine here. But.it lacks emotions in the place."
He chuckled and looked at me. I swore I spotted a twinkle in his eyes as he said it. "Well maybe you can make it all comfortable."
I returned the smile and sat down next to him when he gestured me near. "You know I have something for you." He told me. I gave him a questioning look as he unlocked a draw and held out something.
"It was your mother's necklace that your father had given her on their honeymoon. When your mother died, your father sent me it. Telling me that when you and Heero got married, I would give you this. To say thanks for understanding."
I blinked back hot tears when Mr. Yuy beckoned a maid to hook the necklace around me. I smiled sadly yet gratefully at him. I left him with his work when I spotted someone bringing in more of it.
The hall was quiet and I hated it. It was dark and gloomy, the colors looked like a shadow. I sighed and walked over down a hall to Hilde's room. I paused when I heard something streaming from the door.
A moan. "Harder." A voice whispered huskily.
I froze and jumped back, sweating. I made a disgusted face.
"Harder.more."
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I ran. I panted and looked at where I had run from. I ran two halls and I was in the west wing. I looked around and saw a white marble staircase in front of me.
Curiously I walked slowly up the stairs. My slippers tapping softly against the bare marble.
There were two large white marble doors in a spacious hall. I walked over and brushed my fingers against the ivory knobs. I pushed both doors opened and I gasped at what I saw.
A black classic piano was propped on a flat stage. An old microphone and speakers around. It was a ballroom with closets on both ends and windows on the far end behind the stage. Sunlight burst through the glasses and painted the place with a heavenly glow.
The walls were a soft ivory and the flooring was a ice blue marble. I walked in. I finally noticed a black brass guitar. I walked swiftly onto the stage.
My fingers brushed against the keys of the piano and I pressed down on one. The high C note swam around me
Music the very thing that held my world together, my dreams, my world, everything. It was my happiness, my sadness, and the stage of my most painful times and my happiest dream that would still have to be fulfilled.
I smiled softly and looked around. I pricked my fingers along the strings of the guitar.
I smiled and lifted it. I played a few simple keys before drifting it back.
I turned the microphone on and turned on the speakers behind me.
Opening my mouth I spoke it all out. But my friends has always told me that pop music would be better to listen to. Sad music would be nice as a few tracks and I started to sprung up the words.
"What can i do for you What can i do for you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you
I can hear you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you" "Never thought that I would wind up by myself
If I told my wild, imagination But I hear I am finding myself so lost Everyday is a way, for me to turn back All the things I see They are different from What I had imagined they would be Everything is different Now I'm getting dizzy spells Its real emotion, shakin' up the world I'll never give it up I don't ever want to Lose this far No more than I can do
When I am just too wrong And in my heart I can hear you say, That I am not alone. What can I do for you What can I do for you What can I do for you I can hear you What can I do for you What can I do for you What can I do for you Never gotta look back I'm already here
Cause you give me faith
I'm on my own now
If anything happens, unexpectedly
I know you are there, to come and save me What do I do now?
What can I do now?
For the truth that you have made me see All that I can do now Is believe in what I feel It's real emotion, shakin' up the world
I'll be forever blessed, for you to stand by me Then, before" "So many things you tell me
That's why I am here
You give me strength and now I know
That I am not alone What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What can I do for you
What what what
What can I do for you
What can I do for you I can hear you It's real emotion, shakin' up the world
You're always here with me, so deep in my heart
And I, am there
Beside you when you need me
Since I'm finally strong
Just close your eyes and you'll see me there
Cause you are not alone Its real emotion, shakin' up the world
I'll never give it up I don't ever want to
Lose this far
No more than I can do
When I am just too wrong
And in my heart I can hear you say,
That I am not alone." "What can i do for you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you
I can hear you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you
What can i do for you I can hear you I can hear you"
I laughed joyfully and replaced the microphone back to it's stand. I twirled off the stage and onto the ice blue marble. I closed my eyes and sung the song once more. Dancing to it.
I soon grew tired of dancing and collapsed. I smiled and dropped down on my back. I looked at the ceiling and closed my eyes.
All I could do now was close my eyes and hum the song.
Oh god how I missed singing! But still it was different without my band behind me.
I was drifting off to sweet dreams when I suddenly froze.
Clap Clap Clap
I snapped up, sitting up straight. I relaxed when I saw May sitting there. She was smiling. "You sing really good, Relena." I nodded my thanks and I suddenly frowned when HE appeared behind her. Oh god, oh god!!! Don't tell me he heard me!!! No! He was smirking and after sending May off, he slipped the doors closed. No!!!! He heard me, he heard me! He. Heard. Me! Heero walked over to me, oh boy. I guessed he came back from work considering that he was wearing a suit and all. I swallowed as he walked closer to me. Oh my god?! Is he like.trying to take me right here and all? I mean I've heard that he fucks his girlfriend almost once a week! And I'm his wife!! No, ewwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!! Dirty thoughts entered my mind and I stiffened. "You sing nicely. Where did you learn to do that?"
"I was in a band, remember, baka?"
Heero chuckled and landed beside me, pressing his back against the floor. I edged away from him and turned my back to him. It's obvious that I hated him and I hated the situation. I mean he heard me sing! That's a big deal for me, I mean hello, singing is my way out. And since I've been bottling up all of my emotions I think I have the right to let it all out, right?
I sighed inwardly, forgetting slightly that Heero was in the same room as I am.
I missed my friends, and I missed be part of band. I missed being posted outside of the door of Sissy K's. I really missed my old life and I would do anything to get it back. Finally getting up, I walked back downstairs. Heero stayed behind me and didn't follow which I was grateful for. I needed some time alone. But than again I always needed time alone. Hilde and Duo was finally out of their bedrooms, allowing me to talk to them. Duo smiled cheerfully at me and threw an arm around my shoulder. "Hey, Rel!" I smiled in greeting not in the mood to talk much. "So did Heero tell you about the festival tomorrow?" I blinked rapidly and replied no. I guess I made a big mistake not staying there long enough for him to tell me that. But than again I like it when Duo is telling me instead of Heero. "A festival?" I repeated. Hilde laughed and nodded. "A festival silly. You know wearing a kimono and all that fun stuff. I mean everyone is going to be there and it'll be your first big show to the world that you're Heero's wife." Oh great.that's even worse. My fans would find out if it was broadcasted on TV that me, the ex-member of The Gundams abandoned the band for some marriage. Great.just what I needed.
"I don't have anything to wear." I told them, trying to slip my way out. Hilde patted me on my shoulder and laughed. "Don't worry I'll have May make one. Besides I need a new one too." Hilde told me. I swallowed and let out a nervous laugh. Somehow an image of Heero wearing a kimono slipped into my head. Oh no!!! Get out! I cannot even think about him or anything like that. I mean I hate him!
**** The next week, all three of us went to the mall. Thank god that no one recognized us I mean I was in the spotlight once you know and it's not all that perky as it seems. I watched as may threw piles and piles of material at me. Trying to see which fits. I smiled and told her that I'd pick one. Hilde chose this really nice silky light purple. I had to admit it looked really good on her. I smiled at the thought that she and Duo would have a great time together at the festival later on. After hours of choosing, I'd finally picked one. But when I touched it, I let it down once more. That's the color of the blue dress that I had always wanted to wear, well on my dream concert of course. I walked away quickly and thought back to Sara. She use to fret about what we were all going to wear for a photo shoot and all. I miss her so much. I spotted a dark red with cherry blossoms on it and I thought it was perfect for my outfit. For some reason I couldn't help but note that May had brought 24 yards of it. When we got back to the mansion I informed both Hilde and May that I wanted a short and simple kimono. I've never been big on huge dresses and stuff. Simplicity is my thing, always has been. Hilde smiled at me. "I like you. I mean Heero's past girlfriends would've wanted big expensive and that. But are you sure that you want to show your legs?" I nodded. "It would remind me a lot of my bouncer outfit." All three of us laughed and set straight to work. As we worked I asked a few questions to both Hilde and May. "So how long have you've been married?" I asked as a maid took my measurements. "By next month it'd be two years now." She told me letting a dreamy sigh. "And what about you May? I mean a great woman like you should have a boyfriend, am I right?" May blushed and told me she did have a boyfriend. Actually they were engaged. I let out a gasp and hugged her. Screaming things out that I couldn't even remember. I did remember that a pin stabbed into me but I ignored it. After getting the outline and all, May sent us out to make the kimono. "Out, out, out! I want to make these alone." I think she wanted to make something out of mine to make Heero think about me and all. I shuddered at the thought. "So how did you and Duo meet?" I asked as we settled in the living room. "I was his secretary." Hilde told me with a bright smile plastered onto her face. Oh my god I shouted. I told her that I read a book about that once, where the secretary would fall for her boss and all. Her love life must've always been a fairy tale than. "So what about you? I mean I'm sure you've had more than ten boyfriends in the past before Heero." Hilde told me. I blushed and shook my head. I told her that I only had ten. But in the back of my mind I thought about Trowa. My first real boyfriend that I had almost swore I was in love with him. "I did. But its not something I would really want to talk about. I mean I had this one boyfriend.I thought I was in love. But I was wrong." I told Hilde. I gave her a sad smile, "Turned out that after we broke up, I set him up with his real soul mate. So I'm happy for him." "So what happened?" Hilde asked. She sounded like a young girl who was listening to a wonderful fairy tale before bed. It was a bit silly because my love life was very much like a fairy tale, only this fairy tale never did have a happily ever after sort of thing. "They eloped and left without a word. He was in the band you know.until he left." I told her. "But we meet once a year which is better than nothing, you know?" Hilde nodded. "Yeah I agree. I use to have this boyfriend too. But I never told Duo about him, since he is a bit jealous and he goes a bit moody. But I can really relate. I mean I knew this man named Tai. He was really nice but the strange thing was, was that he looked a hell lot like Heero." I nodded. "So we were engaged but I suddenly realized why I had stayed with him for so long." I arched an eyebrow. "I stayed with him because he reminded me of Heero's family." His name made me blurt out a question. "Is Heero jealous?" I watched with a questioning stare as Hilde busted out into an amused laughter. "Dear me! Jealous! No, he's damn possessive and out right over protected." Her voice calmed a little. "He will be blindly filled of rage of any guy who would come near his girl." She gave me this cheeky smile and told me that it was me, by the way. I sighed inwardly. I didn't think of that. So I have an over possessive husband that's stuck with me for the rest of my life. Great. Later on, me and Hilde talked about the festival. We hung out together closely the next few weeks only because every male in the house went off to the company to do work and we were the only females in the house other than May who was working on our kimonos. We talked mostly about the things we liked, but basically, to sum it up for all of you, normal teenage schoolgirl kind of things. When the day of the festival arrived, May finally revealed our kimonos. As requested, mines was short, revealing my long legs. Long sleeves with a low drop, simple with only two layers which I was very grateful for considering that it's late spring. Hilde's was long, traditional with three layers. After getting our flip flops, Hilde went crazy over make-up. She had a whole room full of make-up. "So what are you going to do?" Hilde asked me, watching me through the mirror as I touched a brush. I shrugged and told her that I was more of a lip-gloss person. "Well than come on! I have tons of lip gloss!" I laughed as she dragged me over to a dresser. She grabbed about four trays of massive lip-gloss and after flipping out a mirror, she told me to get to work. I decided on a white metallic lip-gloss that smelled strangely of roses. It dazzled my thin lips and soon ended up blending close to my cream complexion.
After hours of fussing and chatting, it was finally time. I watched with a soft smile as Duo wrapped his arm around his wife, visibly showing that he had missed his wife. He wore a dark blue kimono, which was long. Mr. Yuy was there wearing a soft green kimono. I realized that I was the only one who was wearing a short kimono. I walked down the stairs and I knew that Duo had tripped me and I was about to fall flat on my face if I wasn't for one person. His arm had shot out and broke my fall and in an instant I was in his warmth. My back pressed against his chest. Giggles amongst the people and servants swam around me. growling under my breath, we left. The limo was filled of chatter and light laughter. When we got there, we had to walk about four flights of stairs. Now I've never been to a festival before, well not one where I had to wear something like this. "What are we waiting for again?" I asked Hilde as we stood by a pond. "The others." I nodded, looking around me. A full moon rested in the corner of the sky, and stars twinkled down at us. Lanterns graced stands of games and things like that. a stage was a few feet away from us with curtains drawn. I could tell that the performance wasn't there yet. I recognize only two people who came in a large group. Sylvia and Quarte. Now I knew Quarte simply because he was rich and had married one of my good friends before college. Dorothy. I hadn't spoken to her in more than two years and I smiled at how happy she looked when she first saw me. "Relena.." A male voice whispered in the distant. I tensed instantly. That voice could only belong to one person. The person I would see later on, on our regular meeting place was Trowa Barton. He wore a dark kimono with his wife who was another one of my friends, Midi Une. I winced at the jerk my heart gave. After all of these years, I still had feelings for him. Well not those kinds anyways. I'm happy for him and all, but I was never ready to meet him more than once in a year. Never, not since that day in high school. Maybe I didn't say but on that day.he had almost raped me. Drunk and blinded by a rage with no reason behind it. We broke up after that and met only once a year. Later on he married and still we met. But meeting him more than once a year was hard and painful. Because once I could deal with without the image of him tearing my shirt apart would come. But as I stood there frozen in place, images rushed to me that it brunt my eyes. "Hello Trowa." I replied monotone. "Hey Midi." I said to his wife with a bright smile. "Do you two know each other?" Quarte asked. Beside him, my friend Dorothy who had before came to embrace me told him in a whisper. "So let's go and have some fun!" Duo exclaimed and ran off with Hilde. That left me with Heero and a two couples and Heero's ex. Oh what a night this will be. But just as the night was about to begin, I heard painfully familiar music in the distance. I turned around and what I saw almost made me whimper.
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I saw them. On the stage and all of them saw me but never stopped playing. I missed them so much and listened contently on their music. A few minutes later when their performance was over for the time being, they made their way over to me. "Relena.what are you doing here?" Sara asked me with a smile. I was about to say something when they all ran, embracing Dorothy. I laughed at her shocked expression. It didn't take long for them to finally know the truth. Dorothy had told them and I could tell they were angry. Mostly because I really didn't give them a reason, I just told them that I was quitting and left. "So you left the band.for some marriage?" They asked me in unison, glaring at Heero. I swallowed and nodded numbly, I was at a lost of words only because I've never been in this situation before. "And not to mention that not only have you upsetted our fans and lied to us but your not even going to be there for our first big gig?" "What?" I squeaked. The simply word only made them more upset at me. "You know! Your whole dream concert, the one that happens this year. But I guess you don't care because as long as you got your boy, you don't give no shit about us right? The past where you use to have to be a bouncer?" I clenched my fists and was about to burst, but I managed to keep control. "Well than.if you knew the truth. You'd feel like the scum that you use to be before you came into the band, Mike!" I stormed off with tears threatening to fall. I sensed that the others followed me, and I guess they didn't want to feel the wrath of the Gundams neither. But for me it was different, they didn't want to hear their harsh words and I didn't want to feel the pain of feeling that I betrayed everyone. Everyone including me. I shakily released a pent up breath I didn't know I was holding. This festival was bright and children ran along with laughter. I was hurt yes but I knew that I couldn't make everyone else upset because of me. I'd have to deal with the pain later on. I quickly bottled everything up and slipped on a mental mask. I turned around with a smile that people who knew me very well could tell it was fake. I waved an arm to tell everyone to catch up. They did with much hesitation. "So come on! Let's go!" I said cheekily and I could tell they were thinking how I could possibly be so happy when that had just happened. But the thought was quickly dismissed when I grabbed both the arms of Heero and without knowing as well as Sylvia. You see she had been clinging to Heero like a fly to honey, but she did it so it seemed like she was walking behind him. I closed my eyes to block everything out and sort everything through. I gave a cheeky fake smile and told them to play games. I stayed behind with.Trowa and his wife. "Midi.can you go up ahead? I need to talk to Relena." Midi nodded, she knew about us and she wasn't jealous one bit. "So you never told me you left the band." Trowa was the first one to speak and I lifted my shoulders. "Well it was in the contract between me and him. Besides you never told me you left the band neither you know." "So that was a way to get back at me?" Trowa asked harshly. I shook my head and replied no. "Just hurt. But I never intended to get back at you anyways. Besides it couldn't be helped." Trowa sighed and patted my shoulder. "I wish that for once, Heero would admit he was wrong and just fix it." We stopped and I swore I saw Heero walk slower. I could also see two glares from both him and Sylvia. "What do you mean?" I asked Trowa. He lifted his shoulder and looked up at the sky. "I think that by now, in the back of his mind anyways, he's a bit wrong about letting you quit your whole pride and joy thing. I mean I was a bit hurt for a while after I quit the band but when I met Midi, it was better." "But that's not the same for me. If I had fallen in love with Yuy before I married him than I would've been slightly glad to leave the band. But that's not the case. I married him without knowing anything about it. And it was in the contract that I drop everything and let him make the money." "I thought you've always wanted to be a doctor." "Well I still do. But my life just stopped. I mean it's not even my life anymore, it's a we life." "Well you know, everyone in the band liked you not only for your talent but because of your personality. I mean you this big person with a golden heart that can never break and you're the kind who does what she wants to." Trowa informed me. "But this isn't what it is about, is it?" I shook my head sadly and smiled up at him. My eyes turning glassy. "No. All my father wanted for me ever since I was young was for me to marry to a man he would like and would know would support me. I guess in his eyes no man was good enough for me expect Heero. And the last thing I want to do if crash his dreams, because not only has he lead me to my dreams but he's there when I need him. And I can't just.crash his dreams for me when he was alive." Trowa nodded. "Besides it wouldn't be fair to ruin all of his hard work." I told him with amusement. We laughed and shared a friendly hug. I sensed Heero almost throwing a knife at Trowa. We broke apart and went our separate ways to our.wife and husband. But I could swear I saw Heero glaring at Trowa and took a step closer to me. Over protective and possessive indeed. TBC. Author's Notes: So what do you think? Anyways I hoped you enjoyed this chapter. And to the readers of A Locket Song, boy are you in for a treat! Just hang in there! And review!
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