Where I Can Say Chapter 2
Posted: Thu Feb 19, 2004 1:47 pm
Where I can Say
By: Blackak Bounti
Author's note: I'm sorry if I hadn't updated in a while but I hope this chapter makes up for that. And thank you so much for the really great reviews.
I wanted to give Heero a nice father and all. I think he deserves it. BTW.every few chapters, it's done by Relena's POV or Heero's. This chapter is Relena's POV.
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing, just this plot and the title.
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Where I can Say
By: Blackak Bounti
Full Summary: Relena has the guy that 'every girl would die for', but she soon realizes that the guy they want is someone who's destroying her world. Something she doesn't need to be dumped onto her shoulders when she met her betrayal.
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Chapter 2-
I woke up with something pressing against my cheek and I snapped up. I blinked and rubbed the clouds of sleep out of my eyes.
"What the hell?" I mumbled and suddenly I saw someone sitting across from me on the matching armchair. He had a smirk playing on his lips and his boyish bangs flopped over his forehead, framing his eyes. His button down cotton shirt was buttoned all the way down to reveal smooth skin with muscles that rippled with every breath he took. Plain jeans and I thought he looked like some one normal.
He made me think of things I didn't want to.
Damn. why me? I mean what did I do to actually get married to this guy? I heard that he use to have this fianc? named Sylvia Noventa. She was a singer who wasn't that big in the US, only in France. She was pretty well known here but not as well known as her past group called the Reford.
Now the group I USE to be in is also pretty well known here but you know. The Gundams.
"What do you want?" I asked him with a glare and a scowl.
Yeah I'm still pissed about it all, so what? Can you blame me I mean this.guy took away the one thing that mattered to me, my band. My house and just the fact that he brought the whole marriage thing to the surface was enough of a reason for me to hate him.
"Everyone wants to meet you at dinner."
"Well I didn't sign myself up to be served on a platter for dinner." I said harshly. Heero stood up and strode over to me.
He grabbed my chin roughly and smirked. His face inches away from mine's. I swear to god if he kissed me I would make sure he's out of the window in two seconds flat.
"Well you don't have much of a choice, Relena. I don't break my promises and I expect you to be the good wife everyone says you are." He told me.
I scowled and gripped his wrist. I pulled his hands off of my chin roughly. "If you need a babysitter than you got the wrong girl."
He chuckled and I had half the mind to stuff something down his throat to make sure he never even laughed at me again. I was pissed off as it was and I don't think he wanted to be my victim.
Already I missed my bouncer job back at Sissy K's. At least than, it was in my job description that I got to throw a guy over my head if he was breaking the rules of the club or the law. At least than I had something to take my built up anger with when I'm not singing.
He took both of those things away from me and now I'm going to dig deep to find something to do that.
Talking has never been my big point, never will too.
"Fine." I whispered huskily. I walked out the door before he could and that's when I remembered who was the "everyone" he was talking about.
I found out a minute later when Heero came up behind me. An elderly man sat at the head of the dining table and a couple. There was only three people I recognize. I was guessing that the old man was Heero's father and my father- in- law, Mrs. Sung and than there was Sylvia.
I sat at the empty seat on the right of Mr. Yuy and Heero sat across from me, on the left of his dad.
Sylvia sat next to Heero and I smirked with my head bowed. She was so fake, I could tell. It was in the woman's intuition to know if another girl was fake. She had a boob job, a nose job, everything. How pathetic. And I could tell she dyed her hair dark brown to fit the whole likings of Heero.
I wondered why she was here. I stared at Mrs. Sun and I read her lips as she told me silently. They broke up and Mr. Yuy thought it would be nice to have her here.
How nice it is because I feel like vomiting.
"Heero why not you introduce everyone to her." Mr. Yuy said, his voice reminded me so much of my father that I winced at the stab in my heart.
I thanked the god that no one saw it because I would've been so embarrassed at even guessing what they thought of me.
Heero stood up and told me whom the couple was. The girl, Hilde was his secretary.well one of them who was married to his brother. He mentioned Sylvia who glared at me and I smiled sweetly at her. But inside I was picturing on how I was going to live through the night without getting into a fight with her.
"So I heard you're in a band." Sylvia informed me. I cleared my throat and set down the fork I was holding before. I hadn't even touched my food and I shifted in my seat.
"I was." I corrected her. "The Gundams."
"Oh and what part did you play? The back up dancer?"
I forced a smile, "No. The lead singer and a brass player." I told her. Somehow I knew she wasn't going to let it go.
"So what do you do other than produce music." She asked me, spearing a tomato slice. She was a model when she wasn't singing, I knew that but I knew she wanted to embarrass me in front of Heero's family.
"I work at a club." I told her simply. She smirked but to someone else it was more of a smile.
"As what, a dancer?" She asked me.ever so innocently.
Duo, Heero's half brother choked on his wine. Mr. Yuy set down his glass and glared at his son and flickered his stare between his son's ex-fianc? and me. I glanced at Heero who I could tell was trying very hard not to shout out.
"No. I was actually the security head chef of Sissy K's." I informed her.
The fake model vs. the lucky woman who got the guy. 1 to nothing. I could use to this if I can get a smart fight with her every so often.
Hilde cleared her thoart and stared at me from the other end of the table. She stared at me with her dark cornflower eyes.
"So what kind of songs do you sing?" She asked me.
I shrugged and picked at my food. "Whatever comes to mind. Hip hop and rap most of the time."
"You rap?" Duo asked me. I smiled at him, I liked this couple already and I've only known them for a few minutes.
"So far I've only produced two songs that I actually have to rap on one of the CD's but." I paused. My voice caught in the back of my thoart. Trowa use to be in the band and he was the rapper. But when he left, Mike came in. Not that I didn't like him or anything but I kind of hated him for taking Trowa's spot. "Mike does most of the rapping. He just helps me because he think I'd make a good rapper."
Duo smiled and with a twinkle in his eyes, he nodded.
"So how is your father?" Mr. Yuy asked and I tensed at this.
He didn't know? It was kind of a shock to me. I made a sad smile and looked up at him.
"He's no longer here anymore." I informed him.
"Oh, and what of your brother and mother?"
"Their not here neither." I told him softly.
"So where have you lived all this time?"
"With foster parents." I paused and I could tell that he was going to ask me what happened to them. "They died a year ago."
Silence filled the air and I couldn't take it anymore. I pushed my chair back and asked if I could be excused. I left without waiting for an answer. I almost broke into tears when I reached back to the room.
I released a shaky breath and walked over to my bag. I unzipped the second zipped and took out a notebook and a picture.
The picture was of my broken family. I found it in my father's album. I stared at the necklace my mom had always worn. When she died my father gave it to me but a year later he took it back. I was suppose to have it when I'm twenty two but I don't even know where he placed it.
The notebook was a songbook, filled of my songs that I couldn't sing. I opened to a new page and started writing.
Two hours later I finally brought myself to come downstairs to the living room where everyone else was still there. A familiar song poured out from the radio.
"Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by"
My eyes turned glassy at the words of MY song.
"I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right"
I leaned against the wall and my back pressed against the cold wall.
"Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star"
The DJ named Matty spoke softly. "And that was Goodbye to You by the Gundams. Now we recently heard that the lead singer whom you just heard, Relena Peacecraft has left the band. Why? No one and not even the members of the band know."
"So if Relena, if you're out there listening, please come back. And don't say goodbye." Another voice whispered over the radio.
I wanted to tell them I would be coming back. But I couldn't. I was married. I sobbed and ran up the stairs silently. Why me?
TBC.
Author's Notes: The song belongs to Michelle Branch. I thought it fit. Review please!"
By: Blackak Bounti
Author's note: I'm sorry if I hadn't updated in a while but I hope this chapter makes up for that. And thank you so much for the really great reviews.
I wanted to give Heero a nice father and all. I think he deserves it. BTW.every few chapters, it's done by Relena's POV or Heero's. This chapter is Relena's POV.Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing, just this plot and the title.
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Where I can Say
By: Blackak Bounti
Full Summary: Relena has the guy that 'every girl would die for', but she soon realizes that the guy they want is someone who's destroying her world. Something she doesn't need to be dumped onto her shoulders when she met her betrayal.
**
Chapter 2-
I woke up with something pressing against my cheek and I snapped up. I blinked and rubbed the clouds of sleep out of my eyes.
"What the hell?" I mumbled and suddenly I saw someone sitting across from me on the matching armchair. He had a smirk playing on his lips and his boyish bangs flopped over his forehead, framing his eyes. His button down cotton shirt was buttoned all the way down to reveal smooth skin with muscles that rippled with every breath he took. Plain jeans and I thought he looked like some one normal.
He made me think of things I didn't want to.
Damn. why me? I mean what did I do to actually get married to this guy? I heard that he use to have this fianc? named Sylvia Noventa. She was a singer who wasn't that big in the US, only in France. She was pretty well known here but not as well known as her past group called the Reford.
Now the group I USE to be in is also pretty well known here but you know. The Gundams.
"What do you want?" I asked him with a glare and a scowl.
Yeah I'm still pissed about it all, so what? Can you blame me I mean this.guy took away the one thing that mattered to me, my band. My house and just the fact that he brought the whole marriage thing to the surface was enough of a reason for me to hate him.
"Everyone wants to meet you at dinner."
"Well I didn't sign myself up to be served on a platter for dinner." I said harshly. Heero stood up and strode over to me.
He grabbed my chin roughly and smirked. His face inches away from mine's. I swear to god if he kissed me I would make sure he's out of the window in two seconds flat.
"Well you don't have much of a choice, Relena. I don't break my promises and I expect you to be the good wife everyone says you are." He told me.
I scowled and gripped his wrist. I pulled his hands off of my chin roughly. "If you need a babysitter than you got the wrong girl."
He chuckled and I had half the mind to stuff something down his throat to make sure he never even laughed at me again. I was pissed off as it was and I don't think he wanted to be my victim.
Already I missed my bouncer job back at Sissy K's. At least than, it was in my job description that I got to throw a guy over my head if he was breaking the rules of the club or the law. At least than I had something to take my built up anger with when I'm not singing.
He took both of those things away from me and now I'm going to dig deep to find something to do that.
Talking has never been my big point, never will too.
"Fine." I whispered huskily. I walked out the door before he could and that's when I remembered who was the "everyone" he was talking about.
I found out a minute later when Heero came up behind me. An elderly man sat at the head of the dining table and a couple. There was only three people I recognize. I was guessing that the old man was Heero's father and my father- in- law, Mrs. Sung and than there was Sylvia.
I sat at the empty seat on the right of Mr. Yuy and Heero sat across from me, on the left of his dad.
Sylvia sat next to Heero and I smirked with my head bowed. She was so fake, I could tell. It was in the woman's intuition to know if another girl was fake. She had a boob job, a nose job, everything. How pathetic. And I could tell she dyed her hair dark brown to fit the whole likings of Heero.
I wondered why she was here. I stared at Mrs. Sun and I read her lips as she told me silently. They broke up and Mr. Yuy thought it would be nice to have her here.
How nice it is because I feel like vomiting.
"Heero why not you introduce everyone to her." Mr. Yuy said, his voice reminded me so much of my father that I winced at the stab in my heart.
I thanked the god that no one saw it because I would've been so embarrassed at even guessing what they thought of me.
Heero stood up and told me whom the couple was. The girl, Hilde was his secretary.well one of them who was married to his brother. He mentioned Sylvia who glared at me and I smiled sweetly at her. But inside I was picturing on how I was going to live through the night without getting into a fight with her.
"So I heard you're in a band." Sylvia informed me. I cleared my throat and set down the fork I was holding before. I hadn't even touched my food and I shifted in my seat.
"I was." I corrected her. "The Gundams."
"Oh and what part did you play? The back up dancer?"
I forced a smile, "No. The lead singer and a brass player." I told her. Somehow I knew she wasn't going to let it go.
"So what do you do other than produce music." She asked me, spearing a tomato slice. She was a model when she wasn't singing, I knew that but I knew she wanted to embarrass me in front of Heero's family.
"I work at a club." I told her simply. She smirked but to someone else it was more of a smile.
"As what, a dancer?" She asked me.ever so innocently.
Duo, Heero's half brother choked on his wine. Mr. Yuy set down his glass and glared at his son and flickered his stare between his son's ex-fianc? and me. I glanced at Heero who I could tell was trying very hard not to shout out.
"No. I was actually the security head chef of Sissy K's." I informed her.
The fake model vs. the lucky woman who got the guy. 1 to nothing. I could use to this if I can get a smart fight with her every so often.
Hilde cleared her thoart and stared at me from the other end of the table. She stared at me with her dark cornflower eyes.
"So what kind of songs do you sing?" She asked me.
I shrugged and picked at my food. "Whatever comes to mind. Hip hop and rap most of the time."
"You rap?" Duo asked me. I smiled at him, I liked this couple already and I've only known them for a few minutes.
"So far I've only produced two songs that I actually have to rap on one of the CD's but." I paused. My voice caught in the back of my thoart. Trowa use to be in the band and he was the rapper. But when he left, Mike came in. Not that I didn't like him or anything but I kind of hated him for taking Trowa's spot. "Mike does most of the rapping. He just helps me because he think I'd make a good rapper."
Duo smiled and with a twinkle in his eyes, he nodded.
"So how is your father?" Mr. Yuy asked and I tensed at this.
He didn't know? It was kind of a shock to me. I made a sad smile and looked up at him.
"He's no longer here anymore." I informed him.
"Oh, and what of your brother and mother?"
"Their not here neither." I told him softly.
"So where have you lived all this time?"
"With foster parents." I paused and I could tell that he was going to ask me what happened to them. "They died a year ago."
Silence filled the air and I couldn't take it anymore. I pushed my chair back and asked if I could be excused. I left without waiting for an answer. I almost broke into tears when I reached back to the room.
I released a shaky breath and walked over to my bag. I unzipped the second zipped and took out a notebook and a picture.
The picture was of my broken family. I found it in my father's album. I stared at the necklace my mom had always worn. When she died my father gave it to me but a year later he took it back. I was suppose to have it when I'm twenty two but I don't even know where he placed it.
The notebook was a songbook, filled of my songs that I couldn't sing. I opened to a new page and started writing.
Two hours later I finally brought myself to come downstairs to the living room where everyone else was still there. A familiar song poured out from the radio.
"Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by"
My eyes turned glassy at the words of MY song.
"I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right"
I leaned against the wall and my back pressed against the cold wall.
"Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star"
The DJ named Matty spoke softly. "And that was Goodbye to You by the Gundams. Now we recently heard that the lead singer whom you just heard, Relena Peacecraft has left the band. Why? No one and not even the members of the band know."
"So if Relena, if you're out there listening, please come back. And don't say goodbye." Another voice whispered over the radio.
I wanted to tell them I would be coming back. But I couldn't. I was married. I sobbed and ran up the stairs silently. Why me?
TBC.
Author's Notes: The song belongs to Michelle Branch. I thought it fit. Review please!"
