Where I can Say Chapter 1
Posted: Thu Feb 19, 2004 1:46 pm
Where I can Say
By: Blackak Bounti
Author's note: It's pretty much a long story and I got inspired by movies and other stories I read. But know that A Locket Song is going to be finished, just not right now. I mean I'm still waiting for more reviews. And I hope you like this story so please review! Also this title is mine.
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing, just this plot and the title.
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Where I can Say
By: Blackak Bounti
Full Summary: Relena has the guy that 'every girl would die for', but she soon realizes that the guy they want is someone who's destroying her world. Something she doesn't need to be dumped onto her shoulders when she met her betrayal.
I can't say much about my childhood seeing as how it was just like any others, but I have face more deaths in my childhood. When I was seven my mom passed away on the attack on the Twin Towers, my brother left the week after, that left me and my dad. We lived in a house on a busy street, I loved it a lot. However I didn't get a happy ending. My dad died when I was sixteen on my birthday, the same day that the attack was and when my mom died. So after that I lived with my parent's best friends, the Dorlins. They were my guardians and when I felt like my world was falling apart, I got a night job by a club as a bouncer. They liked me because I could really tell who was supposed to be in and who wasn't. That's when I met them.
My friends. They were my age and faced the same things; they went to my school and everything. They lifted my world up. We formed a band together. And two couples met. We were good and we played at the club I worked at, giving me more money so I could go to college. We took a few tours and sent out about three albums. We weren't really the best but our fans liked us because we had a way of making their days better and expressing their emotions well.
Now while I hook up my mic. I remember my past. I'm now twenty-one and a half, the same year where I got out of college. My friends had yet to arrive. I was always the first one here.
"Hey, Relena!" Bob said as he entered with his wife Sara. Bob was the drummer while Sara was the keyboard player. They were high school sweethearts and when they got out of college, married. I smiled in greeting.
"What's up, my girl!" Mike said, entering with his wife, Lily, also. Everyone in the band was married expect for me, not that I minded. I liked seeing my friends happy but at the same time having them with me. I smiled and did our little handshake.
Their dreams were already fulfilled and I had yet to have mine's to come. My dreams were as simple as any other. I wanted to sing in Fleet Center when I'm twenty-two, on my birthday. The same date as both of my parent's deaths and my guardians, as well as the same date where my parents first met. I wanted to sing in the Fleet Center when I'm twenty-two with a big huge crowd because it where and when my parent's first met. It was also the date of my birth many of my loved ones deaths, and when America changed forever.
I didn't regret anything I did back than or the deaths that came to me. Because it taught me lessons that others don't until later on. I learned them all with each and every death I faced on my birthday. And I smiled remembering the fact that my birthday was coming in 5 months. It was now April. Suddenly just as we started the beat of the music, a loud phone ring poured into the air and cut off our music. We stopped playing and Sara jumped down from the platform.
"I'll get it!" She told us as she jogged over to our mixing studio and picking it up. We glanced at each other before tuning up things and fixing this and that.
"Relena, it's for you!" Sara shouted. I rolled my eyes, wondering who it could be.
"Hello?" I whispered onto the phone.
"Hey, Relena!" I smiled. It was Mrs. Sun, she was my dad's oldest sister. She took care of things when I couldn't. She was also my lawyer.
"Hi, Aunt Sun." I said, plotting down onto a chair nearby.
"Hey, Relena, are we practicing or what?"
"Um..hold on!" I told them back
"Hey, Aunt Sun can you please tell me now before my friends totally get annoyed?"
"Sure, well I need you to come to the office in two hours. No expectations. There's something I have to tell you."
"Couldn't you tell me now so I don't have to waste my friend's time on getting here?"
"No, I think it'll give you the big picture if you do come."
"Um, okay. Well I guess I can have practice to an end and give my one hour shift at the very least."
We hung up and I sighed. I told my friends and they smiled at me telling me they knew it from the beginning. I stayed a while, mixing our songs to make it a bit better before I ran off to the bathroom and changed into my bouncer outfit.
I ran through the door an hour later, panting. "I'm sorry, I'm late. This.girl wouldn't let go of the fact that she was underage to get into the club."
I looked up, wiping some sweat from my brow. I was dressed in all black, the dress ending at my thigh with black boots that stopped at my ankle. It was the only dress I wore my entire life every since I got the job.
"Okay can we get on with it, if I leave Sam there for more than an hour, he'll have let a ten year old in the club."
Mrs. Sun nodded, smiling when I plotted down onto a chair in front of her desk.
"I think that he can say it, don't you dear?"
I glanced at whom she was talking to, it was only her husband. Her husband was also another lawyer, however in a different company. I didn't like him much seeing as how I don't know him at all. All I know is his name and that's all.
"You're marrying me." The new voice seemed to be like a knife cutting through a thick cake. His voice sounded rich and deep. Somehow I felt like I was a black girl, dressed all bad like in a formal party. I turned my head and saw that it was.
"The man that every girl would die for" was there. Sitting down wearing a suit. His boyish bangs flopping over his forehead, its chocolate color framed those beautiful Prussian eyes of his. Inside they churned like the sea.
"Relena, meet."
She was cut off with my two harsh words. "Heero Yuy." I didn't take my eyes off of him. "I know him." I spat. "So what's the whole deal with the marriage."
"As I've said over the phone. It'll be presented to you." Mrs. Sun said to me. I covered my annoyance and my anger with an emotionless mask as I was handed a folder and with a gesture I opened it. I could sense the tension and the suspense in the air. Everyone awaiting my reaction. Out of the corner of my eye, I could feel and see Heero being the only calm one. As if he knew my reaction. I read the letter in my father's handwriting and stared longingly at the signature was both my parents. I slammed down the folder onto the desk angrily.
What the fuck was this? I'm arrange to this bastard for the rest of my life because of a damn deal?
You see in the letter it said that my father had made this huge foolish bet, where he bet millions of dollars. And when he knew that my mother was pregnant with a girl, he told Heero's father, Jay, that if he didn't pay the money before the next five years, that his son may have MY hand in marriage. Did I not have a say in my life anymore?
Actually I didn't. The only say I had was with the band. Nothing else. I couldn't object when my brother left and I couldn't object being taken in by the Dorlins. I could not object with what my job had requested of me in order to pay the college bills.
I didn't have a say in my life, it was as if the people in the world ruled it for me, I was just the doll to do the orders.
I released a shaky breath, ducking my head so no one would see what ran in my eyes. I could feel my fists clenching the paper and ruining it. I snapped my head back the moment I felt my mask slipping on.
"Fine." I hissed. We were married right than and there. We signed the papers and I left.
I couldn't bear it anymore when I got back home. I slammed the door, feeling tears trickle down. I hated the fact that people ran my life for me as if I was a child still who couldn't make my own decisions. I knew that I'd be getting a phone call later with Mrs. Sun lecturing me about my behavior and what was expected of me from my husband.
I hated it. I hate it all. I pounced on my bed, staring at the picture of my broken family. My mom who was larger than life with her honey gold hair spun into curls and piled onto her head. A soft smile on her face. My father when he was still young and strong with his platinum blonde hair and light blue eyes. My father had always told me after my mom died, that I looked like her only more angelic. I didn't know back than because I never saw myself as an angel, I saw myself as a child whose been cornered in the darkest corner of life.
I felt like talking to Bob, but than I remembered that he was already on the plane out to Hong Kong with Sara to visit his family like he did every year. And I knew I could talk with Lily or Mike because they were out of state too. They were in California to visit their family. So I went to the one place I could. My parent's graves. I sat down next to it, feeling the summer breeze flow through my hair. It soothed me a little but didn't help stomp down on my anger. I talked to the graves as if it was the only way I could get over this. Two hours later when I returned back home the phone rang and I picked it up.
"Hello." I stated knowing who had called. I was right. It was Mrs. Sun.
"Relena!" And the lecture began. I sat down on the floor, listening but yet at the same time trying to hide the fact that I wanted to curse and snap at her for ruining my life for having more of say in my life than me but I managed to hold it in.
But I snapped when she told me that last thing on her mind. "Heero Yuy wants you to move in with him and quit all of you're jobs."
And that's when I did it. I said, "Screw you and screw him!" Before slamming the phone down. I felt like tearing my entire house down but thought better of it. I didn't feel much like driving to the studio where I can sing and work to let out my boiling anger out. I felt like the world was against me and I felt like the people's saying was overpowering mine's.
My hope was always to be in the band forever and get my dream come true. But now I had to leave the band! The one good thing and the only thing I had a say in. I phoned my friends without much of a heart and without even the slightest hint of an explanation but I did give them my new address in case they wanted to see me. But I knew that I didn't want them to come and they got the hint too. The next day I quit my job at the club and packed things. I didn't sell the house, I knew that one day I was going to run away here and stay here. It was now my sanctuary.
A limo came and picked me up at Mrs. Sun's office, I didn't want them to know my new sanctuary. The mansion that Heero lived in was two hours away from where it picked me up and I stared out the window.
I felt low. I felt like dirt and I felt like I need to peel my skin to rid of the dirty way I felt. When we got to the mansion I watched silently as Pagan the butler bring my things in. I offered to help him but he said it was his job to do so. When I stepped completely into the mansion and felt the door close behind me I knew that my old life was now gone.
The mansion consisted of bright cream white colors and dark blue. It blended beautifully well and the living room was nice but I felt like it needed dark red. But I didn't say anything. Heero was there sitting on one of the couches. I stood there by the doorway, not moving or saying anything. He glanced at me and gestured me to sit down. I didn't move from my spot. So he just had to make me feel even more uncomfortable by standing up next to me.
He was tall and I could feel his body heat flowing to mine's. And I walked away. I walked quietly up the stairs and I asked a maid to show me to my room. She lead me down a hall and stopped in front of these beautiful two doors. They looked like doors that lead to a huge ballroom. I opened it and I looked around. Dark blue like the midnight skies was everything in the room. I walked in and closed the door behind me. I looked around. It was nice but nevertheless home. My feet glided against the blue marble and I sat lightly down onto the bed. I fingered the blue comforter and sighed.
There were books on a small shelf and I felt myself looking for my favorite book that my father use to read me because it was my mother's favorite book. And it became mine's too. Love's Labors Lost. I smiled as I pulled the blue book out from the shelf and sat down onto one of the couches and read it. But before I pulled away, I noticed the shelf also held one of my other favorite books. A Walk to Remember. I smiled softly and walked away. Maybe I can spend my time reading.
But I knew it wouldn't last long. I could always sneak out and work or I can always help around. I knew that I haven't been long without my job(s) but I missed it a hell lot now. I was more happy back than but I knew I couldn't change anything. I opened the first page and started to read.
When I finished the sixth chapter, I saw that it was raining out. I remembered when I was seven that my brother would come looking for me. Because every time when it was going to be a day where it rained, I was always outside on the swings. My brother would always come looking for me in the rain where we would hug each other to keep ourselves warm in the wet rain and plowed home. My mother and father would cry and hug both of us before telling us to redress and sit by the fire with them so my mother could read us a story.
Back than was when I really was happy. Where I had no worries. But when my first death came, I faced life. Where it wasn't where a princess would be rescued by a prince from far away. It was more like a princess and prince would seem to fall in love and do this and that before breaking apart. Or one of them would die.
I slipped my eyes to a close and felt my book fall. I listened to the soft music of the rain pounding against the glass of the window and fell asleep. The last thing I heard was the door opening and closing, singling someone new came in.
TBC..
Author's Notes: Okay press the button and review. No flames please. I know this story does sound like Tabloid a little but it's really not. Trust me.
By: Blackak Bounti
Author's note: It's pretty much a long story and I got inspired by movies and other stories I read. But know that A Locket Song is going to be finished, just not right now. I mean I'm still waiting for more reviews. And I hope you like this story so please review! Also this title is mine.
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing, just this plot and the title.
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Where I can Say
By: Blackak Bounti
Full Summary: Relena has the guy that 'every girl would die for', but she soon realizes that the guy they want is someone who's destroying her world. Something she doesn't need to be dumped onto her shoulders when she met her betrayal.
I can't say much about my childhood seeing as how it was just like any others, but I have face more deaths in my childhood. When I was seven my mom passed away on the attack on the Twin Towers, my brother left the week after, that left me and my dad. We lived in a house on a busy street, I loved it a lot. However I didn't get a happy ending. My dad died when I was sixteen on my birthday, the same day that the attack was and when my mom died. So after that I lived with my parent's best friends, the Dorlins. They were my guardians and when I felt like my world was falling apart, I got a night job by a club as a bouncer. They liked me because I could really tell who was supposed to be in and who wasn't. That's when I met them.
My friends. They were my age and faced the same things; they went to my school and everything. They lifted my world up. We formed a band together. And two couples met. We were good and we played at the club I worked at, giving me more money so I could go to college. We took a few tours and sent out about three albums. We weren't really the best but our fans liked us because we had a way of making their days better and expressing their emotions well.
Now while I hook up my mic. I remember my past. I'm now twenty-one and a half, the same year where I got out of college. My friends had yet to arrive. I was always the first one here.
"Hey, Relena!" Bob said as he entered with his wife Sara. Bob was the drummer while Sara was the keyboard player. They were high school sweethearts and when they got out of college, married. I smiled in greeting.
"What's up, my girl!" Mike said, entering with his wife, Lily, also. Everyone in the band was married expect for me, not that I minded. I liked seeing my friends happy but at the same time having them with me. I smiled and did our little handshake.
Their dreams were already fulfilled and I had yet to have mine's to come. My dreams were as simple as any other. I wanted to sing in Fleet Center when I'm twenty-two, on my birthday. The same date as both of my parent's deaths and my guardians, as well as the same date where my parents first met. I wanted to sing in the Fleet Center when I'm twenty-two with a big huge crowd because it where and when my parent's first met. It was also the date of my birth many of my loved ones deaths, and when America changed forever.
I didn't regret anything I did back than or the deaths that came to me. Because it taught me lessons that others don't until later on. I learned them all with each and every death I faced on my birthday. And I smiled remembering the fact that my birthday was coming in 5 months. It was now April. Suddenly just as we started the beat of the music, a loud phone ring poured into the air and cut off our music. We stopped playing and Sara jumped down from the platform.
"I'll get it!" She told us as she jogged over to our mixing studio and picking it up. We glanced at each other before tuning up things and fixing this and that.
"Relena, it's for you!" Sara shouted. I rolled my eyes, wondering who it could be.
"Hello?" I whispered onto the phone.
"Hey, Relena!" I smiled. It was Mrs. Sun, she was my dad's oldest sister. She took care of things when I couldn't. She was also my lawyer.
"Hi, Aunt Sun." I said, plotting down onto a chair nearby.
"Hey, Relena, are we practicing or what?"
"Um..hold on!" I told them back
"Hey, Aunt Sun can you please tell me now before my friends totally get annoyed?"
"Sure, well I need you to come to the office in two hours. No expectations. There's something I have to tell you."
"Couldn't you tell me now so I don't have to waste my friend's time on getting here?"
"No, I think it'll give you the big picture if you do come."
"Um, okay. Well I guess I can have practice to an end and give my one hour shift at the very least."
We hung up and I sighed. I told my friends and they smiled at me telling me they knew it from the beginning. I stayed a while, mixing our songs to make it a bit better before I ran off to the bathroom and changed into my bouncer outfit.
I ran through the door an hour later, panting. "I'm sorry, I'm late. This.girl wouldn't let go of the fact that she was underage to get into the club."
I looked up, wiping some sweat from my brow. I was dressed in all black, the dress ending at my thigh with black boots that stopped at my ankle. It was the only dress I wore my entire life every since I got the job.
"Okay can we get on with it, if I leave Sam there for more than an hour, he'll have let a ten year old in the club."
Mrs. Sun nodded, smiling when I plotted down onto a chair in front of her desk.
"I think that he can say it, don't you dear?"
I glanced at whom she was talking to, it was only her husband. Her husband was also another lawyer, however in a different company. I didn't like him much seeing as how I don't know him at all. All I know is his name and that's all.
"You're marrying me." The new voice seemed to be like a knife cutting through a thick cake. His voice sounded rich and deep. Somehow I felt like I was a black girl, dressed all bad like in a formal party. I turned my head and saw that it was.
"The man that every girl would die for" was there. Sitting down wearing a suit. His boyish bangs flopping over his forehead, its chocolate color framed those beautiful Prussian eyes of his. Inside they churned like the sea.
"Relena, meet."
She was cut off with my two harsh words. "Heero Yuy." I didn't take my eyes off of him. "I know him." I spat. "So what's the whole deal with the marriage."
"As I've said over the phone. It'll be presented to you." Mrs. Sun said to me. I covered my annoyance and my anger with an emotionless mask as I was handed a folder and with a gesture I opened it. I could sense the tension and the suspense in the air. Everyone awaiting my reaction. Out of the corner of my eye, I could feel and see Heero being the only calm one. As if he knew my reaction. I read the letter in my father's handwriting and stared longingly at the signature was both my parents. I slammed down the folder onto the desk angrily.
What the fuck was this? I'm arrange to this bastard for the rest of my life because of a damn deal?
You see in the letter it said that my father had made this huge foolish bet, where he bet millions of dollars. And when he knew that my mother was pregnant with a girl, he told Heero's father, Jay, that if he didn't pay the money before the next five years, that his son may have MY hand in marriage. Did I not have a say in my life anymore?
Actually I didn't. The only say I had was with the band. Nothing else. I couldn't object when my brother left and I couldn't object being taken in by the Dorlins. I could not object with what my job had requested of me in order to pay the college bills.
I didn't have a say in my life, it was as if the people in the world ruled it for me, I was just the doll to do the orders.
I released a shaky breath, ducking my head so no one would see what ran in my eyes. I could feel my fists clenching the paper and ruining it. I snapped my head back the moment I felt my mask slipping on.
"Fine." I hissed. We were married right than and there. We signed the papers and I left.
I couldn't bear it anymore when I got back home. I slammed the door, feeling tears trickle down. I hated the fact that people ran my life for me as if I was a child still who couldn't make my own decisions. I knew that I'd be getting a phone call later with Mrs. Sun lecturing me about my behavior and what was expected of me from my husband.
I hated it. I hate it all. I pounced on my bed, staring at the picture of my broken family. My mom who was larger than life with her honey gold hair spun into curls and piled onto her head. A soft smile on her face. My father when he was still young and strong with his platinum blonde hair and light blue eyes. My father had always told me after my mom died, that I looked like her only more angelic. I didn't know back than because I never saw myself as an angel, I saw myself as a child whose been cornered in the darkest corner of life.
I felt like talking to Bob, but than I remembered that he was already on the plane out to Hong Kong with Sara to visit his family like he did every year. And I knew I could talk with Lily or Mike because they were out of state too. They were in California to visit their family. So I went to the one place I could. My parent's graves. I sat down next to it, feeling the summer breeze flow through my hair. It soothed me a little but didn't help stomp down on my anger. I talked to the graves as if it was the only way I could get over this. Two hours later when I returned back home the phone rang and I picked it up.
"Hello." I stated knowing who had called. I was right. It was Mrs. Sun.
"Relena!" And the lecture began. I sat down on the floor, listening but yet at the same time trying to hide the fact that I wanted to curse and snap at her for ruining my life for having more of say in my life than me but I managed to hold it in.
But I snapped when she told me that last thing on her mind. "Heero Yuy wants you to move in with him and quit all of you're jobs."
And that's when I did it. I said, "Screw you and screw him!" Before slamming the phone down. I felt like tearing my entire house down but thought better of it. I didn't feel much like driving to the studio where I can sing and work to let out my boiling anger out. I felt like the world was against me and I felt like the people's saying was overpowering mine's.
My hope was always to be in the band forever and get my dream come true. But now I had to leave the band! The one good thing and the only thing I had a say in. I phoned my friends without much of a heart and without even the slightest hint of an explanation but I did give them my new address in case they wanted to see me. But I knew that I didn't want them to come and they got the hint too. The next day I quit my job at the club and packed things. I didn't sell the house, I knew that one day I was going to run away here and stay here. It was now my sanctuary.
A limo came and picked me up at Mrs. Sun's office, I didn't want them to know my new sanctuary. The mansion that Heero lived in was two hours away from where it picked me up and I stared out the window.
I felt low. I felt like dirt and I felt like I need to peel my skin to rid of the dirty way I felt. When we got to the mansion I watched silently as Pagan the butler bring my things in. I offered to help him but he said it was his job to do so. When I stepped completely into the mansion and felt the door close behind me I knew that my old life was now gone.
The mansion consisted of bright cream white colors and dark blue. It blended beautifully well and the living room was nice but I felt like it needed dark red. But I didn't say anything. Heero was there sitting on one of the couches. I stood there by the doorway, not moving or saying anything. He glanced at me and gestured me to sit down. I didn't move from my spot. So he just had to make me feel even more uncomfortable by standing up next to me.
He was tall and I could feel his body heat flowing to mine's. And I walked away. I walked quietly up the stairs and I asked a maid to show me to my room. She lead me down a hall and stopped in front of these beautiful two doors. They looked like doors that lead to a huge ballroom. I opened it and I looked around. Dark blue like the midnight skies was everything in the room. I walked in and closed the door behind me. I looked around. It was nice but nevertheless home. My feet glided against the blue marble and I sat lightly down onto the bed. I fingered the blue comforter and sighed.
There were books on a small shelf and I felt myself looking for my favorite book that my father use to read me because it was my mother's favorite book. And it became mine's too. Love's Labors Lost. I smiled as I pulled the blue book out from the shelf and sat down onto one of the couches and read it. But before I pulled away, I noticed the shelf also held one of my other favorite books. A Walk to Remember. I smiled softly and walked away. Maybe I can spend my time reading.
But I knew it wouldn't last long. I could always sneak out and work or I can always help around. I knew that I haven't been long without my job(s) but I missed it a hell lot now. I was more happy back than but I knew I couldn't change anything. I opened the first page and started to read.
When I finished the sixth chapter, I saw that it was raining out. I remembered when I was seven that my brother would come looking for me. Because every time when it was going to be a day where it rained, I was always outside on the swings. My brother would always come looking for me in the rain where we would hug each other to keep ourselves warm in the wet rain and plowed home. My mother and father would cry and hug both of us before telling us to redress and sit by the fire with them so my mother could read us a story.
Back than was when I really was happy. Where I had no worries. But when my first death came, I faced life. Where it wasn't where a princess would be rescued by a prince from far away. It was more like a princess and prince would seem to fall in love and do this and that before breaking apart. Or one of them would die.
I slipped my eyes to a close and felt my book fall. I listened to the soft music of the rain pounding against the glass of the window and fell asleep. The last thing I heard was the door opening and closing, singling someone new came in.
TBC..
Author's Notes: Okay press the button and review. No flames please. I know this story does sound like Tabloid a little but it's really not. Trust me.
