Afraid To Love Chapter 1
Posted: Sat Feb 07, 2004 11:42 pm
Title: Afraid To Love
Genre: Drama/Romance
Rating: PG-13
Summary: A touching story about Heero's stuggle with his feelings for Relena. Will he give in to his feelings in the end or will his fear of hurting Relena keep them apart forever?
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing and Co. They belong to Bandai and Sunrise. This story is for entertainment purposes only. I am not making a profit from it.
"Afraid to Love"
Written by: WingZero2118
Chapter One
"What?s that noise, what?s going on?"
Heero awoke to the startled questions of Relena and the deafening echo of the alarm. "It?s the Preventers alarm," he stated calmly, "but who would be foolish enough to attack the earth now?" he added. "I have to get to head quarters, Zechs will be needing me."
"Don?t go Heero. I die every time you go into battle. I know that you are strong, and an excellent pilot and fighter but I can?t help thinking that maybe you won?t be coming back from this battle." Relena?s voice quivered with fear and emotional distress at the thought of losing Heero. A silent tear fell from her eye and rolled down her cheek where Heero caught it on his finger, wiped it away, then raised her eyes to his and said, "Don?t worry about me. The one thing that keeps me alive is knowing that I?m fighting to keep you and my friends safe. As long as I have you to come home to I?ll make it back some how, and that?s a promise."
And with that he kissed her softly, dressed, and walked out of the room. Heero ran from the mansion, jumped in his car, turned the key, slammed it in to gear, and sped off towards the Preventers HQ.
He had only gone about a mile down the road when he heard the all too familiar sound of missiles shooting over head. He screeched the car to a stop and searched the sky. Then he saw what he was looking for. Five missiles were tearing through the night sky and going straight in the direction of??..THE PEACECRAFT MANSION. ?Oh No, RELENA!?
Heero spun the car in the road and flew back home. When he arrived he found that the whole south wing was gone and the rest of the mansion was ablaze in a terrible fire. "RELENA!" he shouted as he jumped out of the car and ran for the front door. "RELENA!" Then he saw her lying face down in the grass five feet from the side door to their room. He rushed to her, kneeling at her head and cradling it in his arms. "Relena, speak to me, please be ok. Don?t die on me! You?re all I have in this world. You are my life, if I lose you I don?t know if I could go on living." But Heero?s words were all in vain, for Relena?s body hung lifeless in his arms. While Heero?s forehead rested on Relena?s he lost it. The tears came and he couldn?t stop them. ?If only I had been here she wouldn?t have died. This is all my fault.? "RELENA! NOOOOO???.."
19 year old Heero Yuy awoke very suddenly and violently from his dream. His heart was racing and he was covered in a cold sweat. What does this mean? Why do I keep dreaming about Relena?s death? Is this a sign telling me that if I get too close to her that she?ll die?
Night after sleepless night he had been dreaming of the same thing. He didn?t know what it meant or why he kept dreaming it over and over. It was never the same dream but it was always about the same thing, the death of his secret love Relena Peacecraft. He had never told anyone about his feelings for Relena and had only admitted it to himself less than a year ago.
Ever since that fateful day on the beach when they first met he had told himself that she must be killed. She knew his identity and was a risk to his mission. But he could never do it. It was hard for Heero to compensate the fact that he cared for her seeing as he had been trained to only think about his mission and that nothing was to compromise it. He constantly toiled with the idea that he was in love with Relena.
In the end his feelings won out and he kept it inside hiding it even from his only friends, and fellow Gundam pilots, Duo, Trowa, Quatre, and WuFei. Heero had not seen any of them in over a year. He had left them all and set out to live away from the only people that cared about him and who were the only ones he truly cared about. Heero had told them all that he needed time and space to himself to sort every thing out after the war had ended and had never contacted them since. He longed for their company once again but didn?t know what to say to them.
?What if they don?t accept me back? I have been gone a long time and they have all probably moved on with their lives not giving a second thought as to what I was doing.?
But Heero was dead wrong. They had all been greatly affected by his leaving, and the one most affected was none other than his secret love, Relena Peacecraft. In the cold and bitter month of November, Heero finally made up his mind to rejoin his comrades. ?Alright. This is it. I?ve been gone for a year and a half but I can?t stay away not knowing if I?ve been forgotten.? Trowa and Catherine had gone to live with Quatre at his palace in the desert somewhere in Arabia. Heero would visit them first, seeing as they were the closest destination.
Tired and weary from his travel Heero swung the large doorknocker and waited. The door opened and Quatre stood in the doorway. He looked like he was about to cry. Finally, when he had composed himself, he spoke.
"We had almost given up all hope on you ever returning to us, Heero." His face lit up with that smile that Quatre always got when he was with his fellow Gundam pilots. "You look exhausted Heero. Why don?t you come in and rest. When you?ve rested up a bit you can join Catharine, Trowa and me in the dining room for dinner. It will be ready in about an hour, so you have time to relax."
"Thanks Quatre. Have you kept in touch with the others?"
"Yes, of course I have. In fact they will all be here in a few weeks to celebrate the holidays. I have invited them all out for the remainder of the holiday season. I even sent some of my men to look for you as well. But since you are already here I can call them back home to be with their families for the holidays. But enough talk for now, there will be plenty of time for that. You should rest now from your long travel. I?ll have one of my men wake you for dinner."
With that said, Quatre rang a small bell to his right in the entrance hall. Two men appeared from behind him, bowed and said together, "You rang, Master Quatre?"
"Yes, please show Heero to one of the guestrooms. Draw up a bath for him and place his things in one of the dressers." They bowed again and motioned for Heero to follow them. They led him down the marble-floored corridors of the palace finally stopping at one of the doors. Heero paid no attention to the servants and slumped onto the bed completely exhausted. Seconds later he was fast asleep. Mean while Quatre had gone to his study immediately to call Relena to tell her that Heero was there.
"Hello, Relena? This is Quatre. Yes I?m doing just fine. Listen, I have great news for you. I called as soon as he got here. Yes that?s correct. Heero has finally come back. I?m not sure how he is. I told him to rest up before we talked any. My men tell me he?s already fast asleep in his room. So does this change your mind about my invitation? I thought it might. How soon can you get here? Great. I?ll await your arrival in two days. Don?t worry, I won?t say a word to Heero about your coming. See you soon Relena."
?Finally, after all of our efforts those two will finally get together.?
Unknown to Heero and Relena, Quatre and the others had been working over the past year to find Heero and bring the two lovers together. They all had assumptions that Heero and Relena were in fact in love and had taken it upon themselves to unite the two of them.
Please let me know what u think of the story and whether or not I should keep writing more.
Please contact me at mmileusnich@yahoo.com with comments and concerns
Genre: Drama/Romance
Rating: PG-13
Summary: A touching story about Heero's stuggle with his feelings for Relena. Will he give in to his feelings in the end or will his fear of hurting Relena keep them apart forever?
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing and Co. They belong to Bandai and Sunrise. This story is for entertainment purposes only. I am not making a profit from it.
"Afraid to Love"
Written by: WingZero2118
Chapter One
"What?s that noise, what?s going on?"
Heero awoke to the startled questions of Relena and the deafening echo of the alarm. "It?s the Preventers alarm," he stated calmly, "but who would be foolish enough to attack the earth now?" he added. "I have to get to head quarters, Zechs will be needing me."
"Don?t go Heero. I die every time you go into battle. I know that you are strong, and an excellent pilot and fighter but I can?t help thinking that maybe you won?t be coming back from this battle." Relena?s voice quivered with fear and emotional distress at the thought of losing Heero. A silent tear fell from her eye and rolled down her cheek where Heero caught it on his finger, wiped it away, then raised her eyes to his and said, "Don?t worry about me. The one thing that keeps me alive is knowing that I?m fighting to keep you and my friends safe. As long as I have you to come home to I?ll make it back some how, and that?s a promise."
And with that he kissed her softly, dressed, and walked out of the room. Heero ran from the mansion, jumped in his car, turned the key, slammed it in to gear, and sped off towards the Preventers HQ.
He had only gone about a mile down the road when he heard the all too familiar sound of missiles shooting over head. He screeched the car to a stop and searched the sky. Then he saw what he was looking for. Five missiles were tearing through the night sky and going straight in the direction of??..THE PEACECRAFT MANSION. ?Oh No, RELENA!?
Heero spun the car in the road and flew back home. When he arrived he found that the whole south wing was gone and the rest of the mansion was ablaze in a terrible fire. "RELENA!" he shouted as he jumped out of the car and ran for the front door. "RELENA!" Then he saw her lying face down in the grass five feet from the side door to their room. He rushed to her, kneeling at her head and cradling it in his arms. "Relena, speak to me, please be ok. Don?t die on me! You?re all I have in this world. You are my life, if I lose you I don?t know if I could go on living." But Heero?s words were all in vain, for Relena?s body hung lifeless in his arms. While Heero?s forehead rested on Relena?s he lost it. The tears came and he couldn?t stop them. ?If only I had been here she wouldn?t have died. This is all my fault.? "RELENA! NOOOOO???.."
19 year old Heero Yuy awoke very suddenly and violently from his dream. His heart was racing and he was covered in a cold sweat. What does this mean? Why do I keep dreaming about Relena?s death? Is this a sign telling me that if I get too close to her that she?ll die?
Night after sleepless night he had been dreaming of the same thing. He didn?t know what it meant or why he kept dreaming it over and over. It was never the same dream but it was always about the same thing, the death of his secret love Relena Peacecraft. He had never told anyone about his feelings for Relena and had only admitted it to himself less than a year ago.
Ever since that fateful day on the beach when they first met he had told himself that she must be killed. She knew his identity and was a risk to his mission. But he could never do it. It was hard for Heero to compensate the fact that he cared for her seeing as he had been trained to only think about his mission and that nothing was to compromise it. He constantly toiled with the idea that he was in love with Relena.
In the end his feelings won out and he kept it inside hiding it even from his only friends, and fellow Gundam pilots, Duo, Trowa, Quatre, and WuFei. Heero had not seen any of them in over a year. He had left them all and set out to live away from the only people that cared about him and who were the only ones he truly cared about. Heero had told them all that he needed time and space to himself to sort every thing out after the war had ended and had never contacted them since. He longed for their company once again but didn?t know what to say to them.
?What if they don?t accept me back? I have been gone a long time and they have all probably moved on with their lives not giving a second thought as to what I was doing.?
But Heero was dead wrong. They had all been greatly affected by his leaving, and the one most affected was none other than his secret love, Relena Peacecraft. In the cold and bitter month of November, Heero finally made up his mind to rejoin his comrades. ?Alright. This is it. I?ve been gone for a year and a half but I can?t stay away not knowing if I?ve been forgotten.? Trowa and Catherine had gone to live with Quatre at his palace in the desert somewhere in Arabia. Heero would visit them first, seeing as they were the closest destination.
Tired and weary from his travel Heero swung the large doorknocker and waited. The door opened and Quatre stood in the doorway. He looked like he was about to cry. Finally, when he had composed himself, he spoke.
"We had almost given up all hope on you ever returning to us, Heero." His face lit up with that smile that Quatre always got when he was with his fellow Gundam pilots. "You look exhausted Heero. Why don?t you come in and rest. When you?ve rested up a bit you can join Catharine, Trowa and me in the dining room for dinner. It will be ready in about an hour, so you have time to relax."
"Thanks Quatre. Have you kept in touch with the others?"
"Yes, of course I have. In fact they will all be here in a few weeks to celebrate the holidays. I have invited them all out for the remainder of the holiday season. I even sent some of my men to look for you as well. But since you are already here I can call them back home to be with their families for the holidays. But enough talk for now, there will be plenty of time for that. You should rest now from your long travel. I?ll have one of my men wake you for dinner."
With that said, Quatre rang a small bell to his right in the entrance hall. Two men appeared from behind him, bowed and said together, "You rang, Master Quatre?"
"Yes, please show Heero to one of the guestrooms. Draw up a bath for him and place his things in one of the dressers." They bowed again and motioned for Heero to follow them. They led him down the marble-floored corridors of the palace finally stopping at one of the doors. Heero paid no attention to the servants and slumped onto the bed completely exhausted. Seconds later he was fast asleep. Mean while Quatre had gone to his study immediately to call Relena to tell her that Heero was there.
"Hello, Relena? This is Quatre. Yes I?m doing just fine. Listen, I have great news for you. I called as soon as he got here. Yes that?s correct. Heero has finally come back. I?m not sure how he is. I told him to rest up before we talked any. My men tell me he?s already fast asleep in his room. So does this change your mind about my invitation? I thought it might. How soon can you get here? Great. I?ll await your arrival in two days. Don?t worry, I won?t say a word to Heero about your coming. See you soon Relena."
?Finally, after all of our efforts those two will finally get together.?
Unknown to Heero and Relena, Quatre and the others had been working over the past year to find Heero and bring the two lovers together. They all had assumptions that Heero and Relena were in fact in love and had taken it upon themselves to unite the two of them.
Please let me know what u think of the story and whether or not I should keep writing more.
Please contact me at mmileusnich@yahoo.com with comments and concerns
