When You Say You Love Me
Posted: Thu Jan 01, 2004 9:10 pm
Right. So this'll be my first posted fic in...forever. I'm still working on "Of Mystical Gates" for that one person who cares. Your patience will be worth the wait. ^__^ OKALY DOKELY. On with the fic. ^__^
When You Say You Love Me
MBF
?Heero?I want to thank you.?
He ignored her comment and turned his eyes away from hers. A smile lit her face as she closed her eyes. Beyond the walls that protected them, a battle raged and Heero could only hear the sounds of death.
?I haven?t known you to make many speeches, Heero, so I?m not offended at all by your silence. Sometimes I think?I feel?I can read you by your eyes.?
He stole a glance at her without moving his head. Rose hugged her cheeks in what was...cute?Heero blinked at his thoughts and tried to remain focused on the mission at hand. Libra shook with the impending battle. Death drew so much closer.
?I know that this is where I was meant to be. It was unexpected, I think, but I know that I?m supposed to be with you, right here. Like this,? she sat next to him. ?And you know it, too. Don?t you? Maybe you just don?t want to feel it.?
She looked at him with those impeccable eyes. Aqua he could drown in. Stars he could watch all night long. He lost himself when his eyes caught hers. For a moment, the mission didn?t matter. For a moment?
?Heero,? she whispered, ?I?ve wanted to tell you for so long. I think now is the perfect time. I?love you.?
For a moment there was no one else alive.
?Relena?? he leaned in to her warmth and acted on his emotions.
?Yankee Doodle went to town, hmm hmmm hmm hmmm HMMM PONY!!!! Heero! Out of bed, sunshine! You?ll miss the best part of the day!?
Heero?s human alarm clock went off at precisely 7:03 AM. Groaning, Heero sat up and picked up his usual alarm-clock-silencer: a gun. Duo held his hands up in surrender and muttered, ?We have to leave in an hour.?
Heero rubbed his eyes. Somehow the dream hadn?t stopped. He could still feel her warmth. He could still see her shining beauty.
Duo?s grin spread immeasurably.
?You were dreaming about her!?
Heero got out of bed and slammed the bathroom door shut.
?What happened? Did you kiss her? Of course you kissed her?WHERE did you kiss her??
A bar of soap hit Duo square in the face, and the door to the bathroom slammed as quickly as it had opened.
?You?ll confess to me sometime, you know. You will.? Duo continued singing his little song on his way to the kitchen.
Heero was downstairs in thirty minutes--downing a mug of coffee and reading the paper. Relena?s ball was headline news--as it was every year. Duo smiled from behind the paper.
?Are you excited??
Heero continued to read.
?It?s technically Preventer business, so I don?t think she?ll think anything of your being there. And, hey! You can tell her about your dream!?
Heero set the paper down and grabbed his jacket. The ostentatious Preventer logo smiled at Duo.
?Are you ready?? his monotone voice asked.
Duo threw his hands in the air. ?I don?t know why I bother trying to talk to you. I swear. You?re worse than a Trowu-fie.?
Heero made no hint of annoyance, but got in the car that would take them to headquarters. Heero obtained the driver?s seat and dawned his sunglasses. On Earth, he felt somewhat unnerved. Maybe it was homesickness. Perhaps it was the fact that she lived on Earth. At any rate, he was on Earth and tried to tell himself to deal with his traitorous emotions.
He and Duo had received orders to journey to Earth for?well, for her. Someone had requested Preventer protection for Relena during her annual New Year?s Party. It was no different from any other job-- except he was usually protecting her from the colonies. And somehow being on Earth made him feel...unlike himself.
?You know, I think she?s the one that asked that the Preventers handle this party. Maybe she?s trying to tell you something??
?Relena doesn?t play games like that. If she wanted me there, she?d tell me.?
Duo blinked. ?Yeah, I guess?But that doesn?t mean you can?t act out what she wishes you were thinking?and probably what she?s thinking but won?t act upon herself.?
?Hn.?
?She loves you.?
?Yeah. I know.?
?So??
?So what??
?So how does that make you FEEL??
?Who are you, Froid??
?No. A concerned friend,? Duo looked at his partner and friend, ?You?ve been thinking about her a lot lately.?
?You can?t prove that,? his grip on the wheel tightened.
?I can see it in your eyes, man.?
?I??
?You?ve been blind. For all that you think you see, she sees so much more. It?s kind of funny how that works, don?t you think??
?What do you mean??
?Well, you?ve ignored all the love she?s tried to give to you, and yet she keeps on giving you her love. Why? Haven?t you ever wondered why??
?Every day. I wonder every day what she sees in me.?
?Heero, what are you doing out here alone??
?My job.?
?Oh,? she moved to stand beside him on the balcony. ?Can I talk to you??
?You can do what you want. This is your country.?
He looked off her balcony and onto the garden below them.
She smiled and looked at the Heavens. ?How are you, Heero? I mean?how have you been??
?Did you mean what you said? On Libra??
She blinked in astonishment at his abrupt question then smiled. ?Yes. Very much so.?
He clenched his eyes shut. ?Why??
?Heero,? her hand was on his chin, and he opened his eyes to see hers a bit dull. They still held exuberance. More than he felt he would ever have. ?I know that during the war?I was a distraction. Love?love was a distraction, and you couldn?t listen to what your heart told you.?
?My heart never talked to me, Relena.?
?You never acted on your motions??
He ignored her. ?You didn?t answer my first question,? he said watching her.
?You?d been denied it all your life.?
His mouth opened in astonishment and she smiled.
?You made me strong and gave me hope. You saved me in so many ways, Heero. My heart will always belong to you.?
?I?m not worthy of that, Relena.?
?If not you, no one,? she said and leaned in to kiss his cheek. ?One day you?ll accept that I love you. I always will, Heero Yuy. Maybe?one day you?ll realize the same,? she said, smiling. She walked away as quietly as she had entered and left him alone.
For a moment, his heart had stopped beating. For a moment, he couldn?t move.
For a moment?
?HEERO! WATCH OUT!?
Heero dodged the car about to hit them as he finished running the red light. He gasped for breath he never knew he?d been holding.
?What in the world were you doing, man? I?d like to make it through the rest of my life in one piece. Geez,? Duo grabbed his pounding heart, ?If extreme driving is your resolution for the new year, I wish you?d wait until I?m out of the car.?
?People on Earth can?t drive,? he commented.
?People from Japan, especially.?
Heero couldn?t help the turning of his lips as he listened to his friend. He drove the rest of the way to work with Relena haunting his mind.
?Heero??
He suddenly felt as if her were falling?lost in a dream.
She ran to his side, moving the hair out of his eyes. She ignored the girl who?d been shot. She ignored the faction that nearly cried at the sight of the blood flowing out of the small body. She ignored Une?s shouts as the paramedics were called. She only heard him. She only saw him.
?HEERO!? he knew her voice was the only thing keeping him alive. Her arms surrounded him, sheltering him. He had never felt like he belonged anywhere, but her arms?her embrace?they consumed him. Nurtured him. He was safe. Sheltered in her love.
?It?s over,? she whispered. A tear fell on his face as he allowed his eyes to close, and, suddenly, he was flying in the stillness of time. He glided between Heaven and Earth, free. More free than he?d ever been in his life. And for a moment, he didn?t care that he didn?t know why. It felt so right.
?I can?t lose you, Heero?I love you too much?? another tear trickled down his skin as her gentle sobs rocked him to sleep. And he wouldn?t die. He would survive.
For her. Always.
?Whatever you?re on, I want some,? Duo joked. A hand was waving in front of Heero?s face while another slapped a stack of papers on his comrade?s desk.
?What are these??
?Files on the Governor?s case. What were you thinking about??
?Nothing.?
?It didn?t look like nothing. Your eyes did that?bubbly?love thing you see in all those cartoons. It was kind of funny. Well?it WOULD have been if it didn?t really freak me out.?
?What are you talking about??
?You?ve done it more than once today, man. What?s got you so shook-up? You?re usually pissy and evil. And you?ve usually threatened my life at least 3 times as much by this point in the day.?
?I?ve been preoccupied?And if you want me to catch up?? Heero pulled out his gun.
?No thanks. Hey, be ready to turn that report in by tomorrow, and we have to leave in half an hour to get ready for the New Year?s Ball?RELENA?S New Year?s Ball,? he added for emphasis.
Heero looked at the stack of papers on his desk and sighed.
Duo tilted his head and narrowed one of his eyes. He pulled a chair to Heero?s desk, sat in it backwards, and rested his head on his arms which cuddled the back of the chair.
?Spill it.?
?There?s nothing to ?spill?.?
?Fine, then. Confess,? he smiled.
?I don?t have anyth--?
?Right. I can sit here forever, you know. If you kick me out, I?ll come back in. I?ll e-mail you every five minutes. I?ll write you notes and stick them in your jacket. Every time we have a case together, I?ll say ?tell me.? I?ll hold your collectable Wing Zero figure for ransom. I?ll haunt your dreams. I?ll talk to you in the shower. I?ll--?
?ALRIGHT. Just shut up. And don?t EVER joke about going in my shower.?
?I never said I?d go in. Anyway, spill.?
?I?? he sighed. ?I lived the entire war without knowing?my entire life.?
?Knowing what??
?How weak I was.?
?You weren?t weak, Heero.?
?I thought I would be strong without her, when it was her?it was Relena keeping me alive.?
Duo nodded.
?For so long?nothing could move me. Nothing could change me. And?after 15 years of training?one look from her. One deed from such a frail person, and I was weak.?
?Love isn?t weak, Heero.?
?It wasn?t love.?
?Right. It wasn?t love. When you think about her, you can?t breathe, you can?t move, you can?t think. When you?re around her, you?re ten times worse. She?s your world. You?d give your life and anyone else?s for hers, and it?s not love.?
?I?m not--?
?You surrender to her, and you know it. That?s how she gets to you so easily. That?s how she can read you. You might not be aware of it, but you?ve let her in.?
Heero looked at his friend.
?You love her but you don?t know it.?
?No.?
?Relena, this is for your safety. You can?t afford to NOT take these precautions,? he stated.
?Heero, you?re asking me to carry an army of armed men with me to a conference that?s not been noticed by the press.?
?Yes.?
?No!? she smiled at him and lifted her eyebrows. It was an expression that meant she was about to treat him like a juvenile.
?Relena--?
?Heero. I?m not going to jeopardize the only conference that?s not been touched by the press. Do you know what goes on in that room when we know cameras are ten feet away, waiting behind closed doors for an answer that could only disappoint thousands??
He sighed.
?I didn?t think you did. Put plainly, Heero, it sucks.?
?Relena. You?re not being realistic. The press will be there with or without the Preventer escorts. And so will gunman, assassinators, kidnappers, rapists--?
?Thanks for the list,? she narrowed her eyes.
?We?ll be there when your flight leaves in the morning.?
?You?ll cost me publicity. There?s no way I can hide five bodyguards, a jealous brother, a former OZ member, and a huge private jet so I can seat you people.?
?That?s not my problem,? he said, leaving.
?No, but I am,? she stepped in front of him and crossed her arms.
?Heero, please. Please. We?ve kept this meeting a secret for months, please. Please? Heero. I promise you there will not be any press. If I?m wrong, you can take my teddies back.?
His eyes narrowed. ?You still have those??
?Mr. Snuffles, Mr. Snuggles, Bob the Builder, and Joshy-Pooh?oh, and Captain Yu?Uh?Captain Youreonfire.?
He blushed a deep humiliating shade of red that only she could have caused. She smiled upon realizing she had almost won.
?Can?t just one of you go? You go. You?re probably the best man for the job anyway?though I?d like the conversations you know?all of them have with me. They talk, you know. I had hoped you?d catch something from Duo.?
?You said ?you know? at least twice; you?re nervous.?
?You?re threatening something I worked hard on. Of course I?m nervous,? she grabbed his hand as he started to retreat.
And pulled?the puppy face.
He rolled his eyes.
She pouted. ?Heero, please. I?ve worked so hard. Please??
It was then that he felt the puppy face eat away at him. It was then that he knew his emotions by which he felt he must live, must be destroyed.
Immediately.
He sighed and bowed his head in defeat. She squealed and hugged him.
?Thank you Heero!? she kissed him lightly on the cheek. ?Oh I love you so much for doing this for me! I owe you. Anything I can do for you, I will,? she smiled and sat back down at her desk to continue her work. A curious smile. One he knew he?d seen before. He sighed.
How was it she could break him so easily? He crumbled in less then ten minutes. All she did was touch him?How was it possible that?How could she have?
She left him unable to breathe for the fourth time in his life.
But for a moment?it didn?t matter. She was happy.
He heard the comb fall on the floor; awakening him from his memories.
?What does this mean?? he closed his eyes and tried to calm his shaking body. ?I can?t keep doing this?? he sighed. ?All I can do is think of you??
There was a knock on his door. Without his consent, Duo entered.
?Ready??
?Don?t you wait for an answer??
?You wouldn?t give one anyway,? Duo smiled. ?LET?S GO!!!!?
?Miss Relena, such a pleasure to see you again.?
?The pleasure is mine, Mr. And Mrs. Troutman. I hope you?re having a wonderful time.? The couple mentioned their thirst and left to down the punch.
?Relena! How are you?? Noin walked up to her sister-in-law and gave her a hug.
?I?m fine, Noin. But I should be asking how you are. How many days, now??
?A week or two, then little Anya will be here. Zechs is so excited, even if he won?t say it in public,? Noin giggled.
?I?m sure he is,? Relena said laughing.
?So?,? Noin looked around the room. ?is he here??
Relena tried to keep her eyes off her sister-in-law, and she waved and smiled at her guests. ?Yes. He walked in with the other Preventers a few hours before the ball started.?
?Well??
?Well, what? He won?t do anything while he?s on duty.?
?So you do something.?
?I can?t. I have to mingle,? she smiled at an elderly woman with enormous purple hair.
?Relena. Bring in the new year with a bang, okay??
?Like you and my brother did??
Noin coughed. ?Well?we were married.?
?You were engaged,? Relena raised an eyebrow.
?Sex, Relena, is a good way to celebrate things.?
?I?m sure it is,? she winked. ?Senator Groban, how are you??
Noin smiled and winked back while Relena continued her obligations. She hunted her husband down and eventually casually bumped in to a very day-dreamy Heero.
?I?m sorry, Heero. We didn?t see you,? she smiled.
?What do you mean we didn?t see him? You went ?There?s Heero.? And?why are you leading?? asked Zechs.
She grabbed his bowtie and smiled at Heero before pulling him down and whispered to him through clenched teeth, ?I?m the one carrying a watermelon on my body. I?m the one who?s gonna? have this thing come out a hole the size of a peanut, and YOU need to realize that I?m not going to put up with your antics while I?m carrying part of you in me. Otherwise, we?re looking at a daddy who gets no sexual favors for a year,? she stood back up and cleared her throat. Looking at Heero, she smiled. ?Zechs, would you get me a drink, please??
For a moment, he almost looked frightened. ?Yeah. I?ll be right back. Don?t do anything?you would do.?
She shoved him away and looked at Heero.
?How are you??
?I?m too busy to have an idle chat, Noin.?
?You know, Heero, the best way to protect someone is by being VERY close to them. Very, very close. One-on-one?Two to a floor?or bed.?
He choked on the drink in his hand and blushed. This was immediately followed by him looking at her like she was a moron. Zechs chose that moment to walk up and hand her a drink.
?Let?s dance, honey. Real close. Very, very close.?
?You?re three feet bigger than you normally are. I can?t get too close or I?ll pop you.?
She smacked him and led him to the dance floor.
His attention went back to his charge, and he watched as she talked to couple after couple. She?d say the same things, of course. He smiled. Her brain was playing the same recording over and over.
Much like the same three words echoing in his head.
He shook his head and looked at her once more. He was surprised to find her staring straight at him. She wore no smile, she wore no expression of welcome. She dropped her mask and allowed her eyes to speak for her. He felt his mouth part slightly when she mouthed ?dance with me? to him. He narrowed his eyes and looked around the room.
In the next second, he had been dragged to the dance floor by strong arms and an incredibly big stomach. Noin traded her captured partner for her husband, and gave Heero to Relena. Relena?s head was bowed as she placed his hands in the proper places. She placed hers where they needed to be as well, and she looked at him with that same expression on her face that she?d had before.
He couldn?t place it, but he knew he?d seen it before. It was almost?contentment.
They moved to the slow music the orchestra was playing. When someone announced that the hour was approaching midnight, they didn?t stop. Neither one of them talked as she kept looking at him in that curious way. His eyes narrowed as he tried to assess her behavior.
A curious song played in the background, and suddenly, he was aware of only the two of them dancing. He was only aware of the message she was sharing with him threw her eyes. He was only aware of the fact that he had been looking at her the same way since?He gasped.
She laughed at him and smiled. Her head found its way to his chest as she continued dancing.
So that?s what it meant. That?s what she meant. Reading his eyes. She always knew even if he wasn?t able to see?Even if he himself didn?t know until?until just now.
?You love me??
?I do. With all my heart,? she whispered.
?When you say you love me??
She silenced him with her finger. Just then, the clock chimed the first hour of the new year. His hand captured hers, and his lips embraced hers in a kiss more gentle than the wind. He finally understood what his heart had been telling him for years. And that curious look?she was looking at him the way he had always looked at her. How he always would look at her?how he never knew until she showed him.
?Happy new year,? he whispered.
?Let?s bring it in?with a bang, Heero.?
He blinked his confusion as she laughed and led him to a secluded room?
When you say you love me, do you know?I love you, too?
SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAP!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^____^
Disclaimer: Thanks to the song "When You Say You Love Me". I don?t own the song. I used the lyrics a bit, but they're not in order, nor are they side-by side. They're scattered about. You know...like...leaves. *cough* Right. So I don't own it. Our company administers it?but we don?t own it. I might own Joshy-Pooh in the future?but for now, I just write. *snicker* Though I?m not pleased with this, I?m pleased with the song. *cackles* So go buy Josh Groban's new CD.
^___^
When You Say You Love Me
MBF
?Heero?I want to thank you.?
He ignored her comment and turned his eyes away from hers. A smile lit her face as she closed her eyes. Beyond the walls that protected them, a battle raged and Heero could only hear the sounds of death.
?I haven?t known you to make many speeches, Heero, so I?m not offended at all by your silence. Sometimes I think?I feel?I can read you by your eyes.?
He stole a glance at her without moving his head. Rose hugged her cheeks in what was...cute?Heero blinked at his thoughts and tried to remain focused on the mission at hand. Libra shook with the impending battle. Death drew so much closer.
?I know that this is where I was meant to be. It was unexpected, I think, but I know that I?m supposed to be with you, right here. Like this,? she sat next to him. ?And you know it, too. Don?t you? Maybe you just don?t want to feel it.?
She looked at him with those impeccable eyes. Aqua he could drown in. Stars he could watch all night long. He lost himself when his eyes caught hers. For a moment, the mission didn?t matter. For a moment?
?Heero,? she whispered, ?I?ve wanted to tell you for so long. I think now is the perfect time. I?love you.?
For a moment there was no one else alive.
?Relena?? he leaned in to her warmth and acted on his emotions.
?Yankee Doodle went to town, hmm hmmm hmm hmmm HMMM PONY!!!! Heero! Out of bed, sunshine! You?ll miss the best part of the day!?
Heero?s human alarm clock went off at precisely 7:03 AM. Groaning, Heero sat up and picked up his usual alarm-clock-silencer: a gun. Duo held his hands up in surrender and muttered, ?We have to leave in an hour.?
Heero rubbed his eyes. Somehow the dream hadn?t stopped. He could still feel her warmth. He could still see her shining beauty.
Duo?s grin spread immeasurably.
?You were dreaming about her!?
Heero got out of bed and slammed the bathroom door shut.
?What happened? Did you kiss her? Of course you kissed her?WHERE did you kiss her??
A bar of soap hit Duo square in the face, and the door to the bathroom slammed as quickly as it had opened.
?You?ll confess to me sometime, you know. You will.? Duo continued singing his little song on his way to the kitchen.
Heero was downstairs in thirty minutes--downing a mug of coffee and reading the paper. Relena?s ball was headline news--as it was every year. Duo smiled from behind the paper.
?Are you excited??
Heero continued to read.
?It?s technically Preventer business, so I don?t think she?ll think anything of your being there. And, hey! You can tell her about your dream!?
Heero set the paper down and grabbed his jacket. The ostentatious Preventer logo smiled at Duo.
?Are you ready?? his monotone voice asked.
Duo threw his hands in the air. ?I don?t know why I bother trying to talk to you. I swear. You?re worse than a Trowu-fie.?
Heero made no hint of annoyance, but got in the car that would take them to headquarters. Heero obtained the driver?s seat and dawned his sunglasses. On Earth, he felt somewhat unnerved. Maybe it was homesickness. Perhaps it was the fact that she lived on Earth. At any rate, he was on Earth and tried to tell himself to deal with his traitorous emotions.
He and Duo had received orders to journey to Earth for?well, for her. Someone had requested Preventer protection for Relena during her annual New Year?s Party. It was no different from any other job-- except he was usually protecting her from the colonies. And somehow being on Earth made him feel...unlike himself.
?You know, I think she?s the one that asked that the Preventers handle this party. Maybe she?s trying to tell you something??
?Relena doesn?t play games like that. If she wanted me there, she?d tell me.?
Duo blinked. ?Yeah, I guess?But that doesn?t mean you can?t act out what she wishes you were thinking?and probably what she?s thinking but won?t act upon herself.?
?Hn.?
?She loves you.?
?Yeah. I know.?
?So??
?So what??
?So how does that make you FEEL??
?Who are you, Froid??
?No. A concerned friend,? Duo looked at his partner and friend, ?You?ve been thinking about her a lot lately.?
?You can?t prove that,? his grip on the wheel tightened.
?I can see it in your eyes, man.?
?I??
?You?ve been blind. For all that you think you see, she sees so much more. It?s kind of funny how that works, don?t you think??
?What do you mean??
?Well, you?ve ignored all the love she?s tried to give to you, and yet she keeps on giving you her love. Why? Haven?t you ever wondered why??
?Every day. I wonder every day what she sees in me.?
?Heero, what are you doing out here alone??
?My job.?
?Oh,? she moved to stand beside him on the balcony. ?Can I talk to you??
?You can do what you want. This is your country.?
He looked off her balcony and onto the garden below them.
She smiled and looked at the Heavens. ?How are you, Heero? I mean?how have you been??
?Did you mean what you said? On Libra??
She blinked in astonishment at his abrupt question then smiled. ?Yes. Very much so.?
He clenched his eyes shut. ?Why??
?Heero,? her hand was on his chin, and he opened his eyes to see hers a bit dull. They still held exuberance. More than he felt he would ever have. ?I know that during the war?I was a distraction. Love?love was a distraction, and you couldn?t listen to what your heart told you.?
?My heart never talked to me, Relena.?
?You never acted on your motions??
He ignored her. ?You didn?t answer my first question,? he said watching her.
?You?d been denied it all your life.?
His mouth opened in astonishment and she smiled.
?You made me strong and gave me hope. You saved me in so many ways, Heero. My heart will always belong to you.?
?I?m not worthy of that, Relena.?
?If not you, no one,? she said and leaned in to kiss his cheek. ?One day you?ll accept that I love you. I always will, Heero Yuy. Maybe?one day you?ll realize the same,? she said, smiling. She walked away as quietly as she had entered and left him alone.
For a moment, his heart had stopped beating. For a moment, he couldn?t move.
For a moment?
?HEERO! WATCH OUT!?
Heero dodged the car about to hit them as he finished running the red light. He gasped for breath he never knew he?d been holding.
?What in the world were you doing, man? I?d like to make it through the rest of my life in one piece. Geez,? Duo grabbed his pounding heart, ?If extreme driving is your resolution for the new year, I wish you?d wait until I?m out of the car.?
?People on Earth can?t drive,? he commented.
?People from Japan, especially.?
Heero couldn?t help the turning of his lips as he listened to his friend. He drove the rest of the way to work with Relena haunting his mind.
?Heero??
He suddenly felt as if her were falling?lost in a dream.
She ran to his side, moving the hair out of his eyes. She ignored the girl who?d been shot. She ignored the faction that nearly cried at the sight of the blood flowing out of the small body. She ignored Une?s shouts as the paramedics were called. She only heard him. She only saw him.
?HEERO!? he knew her voice was the only thing keeping him alive. Her arms surrounded him, sheltering him. He had never felt like he belonged anywhere, but her arms?her embrace?they consumed him. Nurtured him. He was safe. Sheltered in her love.
?It?s over,? she whispered. A tear fell on his face as he allowed his eyes to close, and, suddenly, he was flying in the stillness of time. He glided between Heaven and Earth, free. More free than he?d ever been in his life. And for a moment, he didn?t care that he didn?t know why. It felt so right.
?I can?t lose you, Heero?I love you too much?? another tear trickled down his skin as her gentle sobs rocked him to sleep. And he wouldn?t die. He would survive.
For her. Always.
?Whatever you?re on, I want some,? Duo joked. A hand was waving in front of Heero?s face while another slapped a stack of papers on his comrade?s desk.
?What are these??
?Files on the Governor?s case. What were you thinking about??
?Nothing.?
?It didn?t look like nothing. Your eyes did that?bubbly?love thing you see in all those cartoons. It was kind of funny. Well?it WOULD have been if it didn?t really freak me out.?
?What are you talking about??
?You?ve done it more than once today, man. What?s got you so shook-up? You?re usually pissy and evil. And you?ve usually threatened my life at least 3 times as much by this point in the day.?
?I?ve been preoccupied?And if you want me to catch up?? Heero pulled out his gun.
?No thanks. Hey, be ready to turn that report in by tomorrow, and we have to leave in half an hour to get ready for the New Year?s Ball?RELENA?S New Year?s Ball,? he added for emphasis.
Heero looked at the stack of papers on his desk and sighed.
Duo tilted his head and narrowed one of his eyes. He pulled a chair to Heero?s desk, sat in it backwards, and rested his head on his arms which cuddled the back of the chair.
?Spill it.?
?There?s nothing to ?spill?.?
?Fine, then. Confess,? he smiled.
?I don?t have anyth--?
?Right. I can sit here forever, you know. If you kick me out, I?ll come back in. I?ll e-mail you every five minutes. I?ll write you notes and stick them in your jacket. Every time we have a case together, I?ll say ?tell me.? I?ll hold your collectable Wing Zero figure for ransom. I?ll haunt your dreams. I?ll talk to you in the shower. I?ll--?
?ALRIGHT. Just shut up. And don?t EVER joke about going in my shower.?
?I never said I?d go in. Anyway, spill.?
?I?? he sighed. ?I lived the entire war without knowing?my entire life.?
?Knowing what??
?How weak I was.?
?You weren?t weak, Heero.?
?I thought I would be strong without her, when it was her?it was Relena keeping me alive.?
Duo nodded.
?For so long?nothing could move me. Nothing could change me. And?after 15 years of training?one look from her. One deed from such a frail person, and I was weak.?
?Love isn?t weak, Heero.?
?It wasn?t love.?
?Right. It wasn?t love. When you think about her, you can?t breathe, you can?t move, you can?t think. When you?re around her, you?re ten times worse. She?s your world. You?d give your life and anyone else?s for hers, and it?s not love.?
?I?m not--?
?You surrender to her, and you know it. That?s how she gets to you so easily. That?s how she can read you. You might not be aware of it, but you?ve let her in.?
Heero looked at his friend.
?You love her but you don?t know it.?
?No.?
?Relena, this is for your safety. You can?t afford to NOT take these precautions,? he stated.
?Heero, you?re asking me to carry an army of armed men with me to a conference that?s not been noticed by the press.?
?Yes.?
?No!? she smiled at him and lifted her eyebrows. It was an expression that meant she was about to treat him like a juvenile.
?Relena--?
?Heero. I?m not going to jeopardize the only conference that?s not been touched by the press. Do you know what goes on in that room when we know cameras are ten feet away, waiting behind closed doors for an answer that could only disappoint thousands??
He sighed.
?I didn?t think you did. Put plainly, Heero, it sucks.?
?Relena. You?re not being realistic. The press will be there with or without the Preventer escorts. And so will gunman, assassinators, kidnappers, rapists--?
?Thanks for the list,? she narrowed her eyes.
?We?ll be there when your flight leaves in the morning.?
?You?ll cost me publicity. There?s no way I can hide five bodyguards, a jealous brother, a former OZ member, and a huge private jet so I can seat you people.?
?That?s not my problem,? he said, leaving.
?No, but I am,? she stepped in front of him and crossed her arms.
?Heero, please. Please. We?ve kept this meeting a secret for months, please. Please? Heero. I promise you there will not be any press. If I?m wrong, you can take my teddies back.?
His eyes narrowed. ?You still have those??
?Mr. Snuffles, Mr. Snuggles, Bob the Builder, and Joshy-Pooh?oh, and Captain Yu?Uh?Captain Youreonfire.?
He blushed a deep humiliating shade of red that only she could have caused. She smiled upon realizing she had almost won.
?Can?t just one of you go? You go. You?re probably the best man for the job anyway?though I?d like the conversations you know?all of them have with me. They talk, you know. I had hoped you?d catch something from Duo.?
?You said ?you know? at least twice; you?re nervous.?
?You?re threatening something I worked hard on. Of course I?m nervous,? she grabbed his hand as he started to retreat.
And pulled?the puppy face.
He rolled his eyes.
She pouted. ?Heero, please. I?ve worked so hard. Please??
It was then that he felt the puppy face eat away at him. It was then that he knew his emotions by which he felt he must live, must be destroyed.
Immediately.
He sighed and bowed his head in defeat. She squealed and hugged him.
?Thank you Heero!? she kissed him lightly on the cheek. ?Oh I love you so much for doing this for me! I owe you. Anything I can do for you, I will,? she smiled and sat back down at her desk to continue her work. A curious smile. One he knew he?d seen before. He sighed.
How was it she could break him so easily? He crumbled in less then ten minutes. All she did was touch him?How was it possible that?How could she have?
She left him unable to breathe for the fourth time in his life.
But for a moment?it didn?t matter. She was happy.
He heard the comb fall on the floor; awakening him from his memories.
?What does this mean?? he closed his eyes and tried to calm his shaking body. ?I can?t keep doing this?? he sighed. ?All I can do is think of you??
There was a knock on his door. Without his consent, Duo entered.
?Ready??
?Don?t you wait for an answer??
?You wouldn?t give one anyway,? Duo smiled. ?LET?S GO!!!!?
?Miss Relena, such a pleasure to see you again.?
?The pleasure is mine, Mr. And Mrs. Troutman. I hope you?re having a wonderful time.? The couple mentioned their thirst and left to down the punch.
?Relena! How are you?? Noin walked up to her sister-in-law and gave her a hug.
?I?m fine, Noin. But I should be asking how you are. How many days, now??
?A week or two, then little Anya will be here. Zechs is so excited, even if he won?t say it in public,? Noin giggled.
?I?m sure he is,? Relena said laughing.
?So?,? Noin looked around the room. ?is he here??
Relena tried to keep her eyes off her sister-in-law, and she waved and smiled at her guests. ?Yes. He walked in with the other Preventers a few hours before the ball started.?
?Well??
?Well, what? He won?t do anything while he?s on duty.?
?So you do something.?
?I can?t. I have to mingle,? she smiled at an elderly woman with enormous purple hair.
?Relena. Bring in the new year with a bang, okay??
?Like you and my brother did??
Noin coughed. ?Well?we were married.?
?You were engaged,? Relena raised an eyebrow.
?Sex, Relena, is a good way to celebrate things.?
?I?m sure it is,? she winked. ?Senator Groban, how are you??
Noin smiled and winked back while Relena continued her obligations. She hunted her husband down and eventually casually bumped in to a very day-dreamy Heero.
?I?m sorry, Heero. We didn?t see you,? she smiled.
?What do you mean we didn?t see him? You went ?There?s Heero.? And?why are you leading?? asked Zechs.
She grabbed his bowtie and smiled at Heero before pulling him down and whispered to him through clenched teeth, ?I?m the one carrying a watermelon on my body. I?m the one who?s gonna? have this thing come out a hole the size of a peanut, and YOU need to realize that I?m not going to put up with your antics while I?m carrying part of you in me. Otherwise, we?re looking at a daddy who gets no sexual favors for a year,? she stood back up and cleared her throat. Looking at Heero, she smiled. ?Zechs, would you get me a drink, please??
For a moment, he almost looked frightened. ?Yeah. I?ll be right back. Don?t do anything?you would do.?
She shoved him away and looked at Heero.
?How are you??
?I?m too busy to have an idle chat, Noin.?
?You know, Heero, the best way to protect someone is by being VERY close to them. Very, very close. One-on-one?Two to a floor?or bed.?
He choked on the drink in his hand and blushed. This was immediately followed by him looking at her like she was a moron. Zechs chose that moment to walk up and hand her a drink.
?Let?s dance, honey. Real close. Very, very close.?
?You?re three feet bigger than you normally are. I can?t get too close or I?ll pop you.?
She smacked him and led him to the dance floor.
His attention went back to his charge, and he watched as she talked to couple after couple. She?d say the same things, of course. He smiled. Her brain was playing the same recording over and over.
Much like the same three words echoing in his head.
He shook his head and looked at her once more. He was surprised to find her staring straight at him. She wore no smile, she wore no expression of welcome. She dropped her mask and allowed her eyes to speak for her. He felt his mouth part slightly when she mouthed ?dance with me? to him. He narrowed his eyes and looked around the room.
In the next second, he had been dragged to the dance floor by strong arms and an incredibly big stomach. Noin traded her captured partner for her husband, and gave Heero to Relena. Relena?s head was bowed as she placed his hands in the proper places. She placed hers where they needed to be as well, and she looked at him with that same expression on her face that she?d had before.
He couldn?t place it, but he knew he?d seen it before. It was almost?contentment.
They moved to the slow music the orchestra was playing. When someone announced that the hour was approaching midnight, they didn?t stop. Neither one of them talked as she kept looking at him in that curious way. His eyes narrowed as he tried to assess her behavior.
A curious song played in the background, and suddenly, he was aware of only the two of them dancing. He was only aware of the message she was sharing with him threw her eyes. He was only aware of the fact that he had been looking at her the same way since?He gasped.
She laughed at him and smiled. Her head found its way to his chest as she continued dancing.
So that?s what it meant. That?s what she meant. Reading his eyes. She always knew even if he wasn?t able to see?Even if he himself didn?t know until?until just now.
?You love me??
?I do. With all my heart,? she whispered.
?When you say you love me??
She silenced him with her finger. Just then, the clock chimed the first hour of the new year. His hand captured hers, and his lips embraced hers in a kiss more gentle than the wind. He finally understood what his heart had been telling him for years. And that curious look?she was looking at him the way he had always looked at her. How he always would look at her?how he never knew until she showed him.
?Happy new year,? he whispered.
?Let?s bring it in?with a bang, Heero.?
He blinked his confusion as she laughed and led him to a secluded room?
When you say you love me, do you know?I love you, too?
SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAP!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^____^
Disclaimer: Thanks to the song "When You Say You Love Me". I don?t own the song. I used the lyrics a bit, but they're not in order, nor are they side-by side. They're scattered about. You know...like...leaves. *cough* Right. So I don't own it. Our company administers it?but we don?t own it. I might own Joshy-Pooh in the future?but for now, I just write. *snicker* Though I?m not pleased with this, I?m pleased with the song. *cackles* So go buy Josh Groban's new CD.
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I just luv how you write. Just plain old sentences can make me laugh until my belly hurts. 
Your my idol! MUAHAHAHAHA!
It was so beautiful, I cried! Keep up the good work. Plus all your works are really beautiful! pleaze keep posting more! 
