Blissful Ignorance

Posted: **Sun May 04, 2003 4:36 pm**

I'm Trying to Find Myself

By: Death Rose Aiko

song is mine

Relena looked at the sky from above her balcony. The sun was peeking out from the skies and it did not sooth her at all. Relena looked down to her rose garden which she had made sure was planted everywhere, she loved roses from whatever colors she could think of her. Most of them were around the lake where she loved to play in the summers but there was one problem, actually two. One was that she could not enjoy a moment of happiness without the bodyguards watching her and the second was that she had no one to share the happiness with.

The air around her smelled like sweet roses and Relena smiled, the first pure smile she had ever placed on her lips in two years after he left.

The smile turned upside down and she shook her head. It wouldn't do her a damn good if she thought of him. " I hate him. He will never be there when I need him..." She spun around and leaned against the railing and looked once again up at the sky breathing in the rosy air.

"I'm trying to Find myself
Where the world treats me
As if I'm a tool

I'm trying to find myself
Where the world shows me no love
And you don't show me your love
But I try to see it in your eyes

But all you say is a lie
I'm trying to find myself
In the world
In my own life
And in your heart

Who am I?
What am I?

I'm trying to find myself
And I'm trying for you
I'm fighting just for you
But will I die before I tell you
That I found myself in the world

But I'm lost in your eyes
And in the world

I'm trying to find myself
In the world and in my life
I'm trying just for you
I'm fighting for you"

Relena sighed as she felt light raindrops drip down from the skies, she looked down at the ground of her balcony, her wet hair drapped over her making anyone who looked at her unable to see her face, "I'm trying to find myself
I need you in my life
And I won't die without I tell you that
I want you to know that you belong in my life
And I hope that you'll see it in my eyes
Where can I just give up?"

Relena felt a lonely tear fall down her cheek as the rain stopped and she went inside to change out of her wet cloths. She stepped in a drapped her pale soaked dress onto the floor unaware of blue eyes watching her from the shadows...

Posted: **Sun May 04, 2003 5:22 pm**

You'll never know unless you try.

Posted: **Tue May 06, 2003 6:32 pm**

Do continue

! I'd like to know where this is heading

Dark D

-Ryry-

Posted: **Sun May 11, 2003 12:44 am**

I'm a sucker for angst every once in a while.

Keep going!

Posted: **Thu Jan 22, 2004 9:49 pm**

Ya you should totally keep going this story sounds interesting.

Posted: **Thu Feb 05, 2004 5:59 pm**

OOH! Angst! *yay*
Yes, I think you should continue, I'm intrigued.

Posted: **Thu Mar 11, 2004 6:31 am**

C O N T I N U E !

Posted: **Mon May 03, 2004 6:51 pm**

DO not end!!!!!!!!! us 13 year olds have to stick together somehow!!!!! so don't stop! and also if u r a stupid airhead please talk 2 me!

*smiles weirdly thinking of how being an airhead has gaind her respect*

Posted: **Tue May 04, 2004 5:24 am**

Continue. Dot.

Posted: **Tue May 04, 2004 6:04 am**

LOL. i totally forgot that i had this topic up!

i'm not planning on contuining THIS story but i am planning on contuine writing.

that was what the poll was about. and i'm sorry if i confused anyone. but i hav no idea i had this topic up.

well i dunt know, we'll see if i do contuine this because i forgot what this story was heading but i'm sure i'll remember at one point!