I'm strange, ya know. Today I took one of my classmates by the collar and roughly pushed her to the wall only because she called something I didn't like. I kept her like that for awhile and with clenched teeth I said that she must say sorry. She was struggling but I only clenched more my fist at her collar and I let go after her friend said "Let her go!". I didn't have mood to argue so I did it and girl was free. My point is: is it something wrong with me? Am I agressive? I'm too spontaneous? Heero I'm scared of myself. Everyday I wear a mask of me. I can't show my real nature. Only my best friend really knows me, but she lives very far away from me. I don't want to be machine. What should I do???
Well, it depends on the word she said. If it's really foul, its ok to get really mad. But if its not, well try and control yourself more. At least you didn't really beat her up badly, cause that's just gonna cause a heck of a lot of trouble. Just try and control yourself. Think that her criticisms are nothing. Just empty words from empty people. And if you have problems that you just wanna shout out, PM me and I'll listen well!
Shitsumon desu for Yuy-san!!!!
=> My casette player is the casette player of my whole class too, cause I'm the only one who owns one that can be brought everyday. I've got no problem with that, just that they use it when I want to. But NOOOOOO, they don't do that! They just take it whenever I want and scream at each other on what song to play.
"Let's play punk music!"
~punk music plays~
~punk player leaves for a while~
"I hate punk! I want pop music!"
~takes away CD and plays pop music~
~ punker comes back~
"What piece of crap is that? I played it first!"
"But I want pop!"
"Punk!"
"pop!"
"PUNK!!!!!"
"POP!!!!!!"
~I take off the plug~
"STOP IT OR I'LL PLAY J-POP MUSIC THAT YOU CAN'T UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"..."
"..."
"PPPPPPPPUUUUUUUNNNNNNNKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!"
"PPPPPPPPPPOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!"
"ugh!"
You see? I even went out of class one time to buy my lunch, and I took out a piece of paper and wrote ~PLEASE DON'T USE!!!!~. In BROAD RED PENTEL PEN. And when I came back, the Bitch Squad girls (what I call the girls obsessed with themselves) were playing. My friend was shaking his head and says "I told you you shouldn't use it!". And they were like giving me snobbish looks. UUUUGGGHHH!!!! It's like they're thinking "why should I respect that thin dorky-lookinbg girls opinion?" The thought of getting their blood out and watering plants with it was REALLY tempting that time. WHAT SHOULD I DO ABOUT THIS?!?!?!?!?!?!
