*Looks around for signs of boss*
Yes, I can't believe I'm doing this at work, but eh, I need something to distract me from the bowels (bug fixes...ick!) of the programming world at the moment. Why did I decide to make this my career choice again?
The next several lines will be filled with the ramblings of an overanalytical brain which has not yet received it's usual dose of coffee this morning. So, procede at your own risk!
Ok...in view of Dorothy's recent appearance in this chapter, I really think it's going to make the story all the more interesting. Dorothy is a person who revels in conflict (whether it be physical or otherwise). Therefore, no matter what side she's on, putting some tension between the supposed couple will make the whole issue between the preventors and Cole more interesting as well as the 'emotional termoil' between Heero and Relena. Now having gotten involved and stirred the pot, she'll be able to take a front row seat and watch the play unfold before her eyes.
On the other hand, as a complete junky of this fic, I'm almost ready to melt into a puddle of goo on the floor. Why? Because a more complicated scenario means more chapters, more twists and turns, and a longer wait to find out what the heck is going to happen. NO!
*Steps off soap box*
As to Heero...hmm...well, I think this fic very well illustrates the battle between the soldier and the man, which, in my opinion, Heero seems to face in the series and in Endless Waltz. A solider's duty is to carry out orders...even to the point of death, removing any and all obstacles that may prevent 'mission fulfillment.' And as we are all aware, Heero's days as the perfect solider, or carrying out all orders, began to fail the day Relena stepped into the picture.
Heero has become personally involved in this particular mission. Whether he is in love with Relena or not, he does care at least to the extent that she not be hurt. Duo's monologue stated it plainly. Heero follows his emotions in his decision making, but not in his actions.
Logically speaking, views of right and wrong are relative. Because of that, what you think may be a result of what you've been taught to think. During the series, Heero's logic proved to be faulty and he made mistakes based on that. That made him remember the advice he was given to follow your emotions and he decided that that was what he was going to live by from that point on. I don't think he realized exactly all that that entailed at the time. After all, he, along with everyone else, was a little lost.
There's no guide book or military order that can help you to do that. No one can tell you how to feel or what you should feel. It simply is. What you do as a result of those feelings is entirely up to you.
Heero faced a dilemma in accepting this particular order...
He promised to protect and keep Relena safe. He believed in her and in her ability to help bring about peace. He made that decision because he felt it to be the right one. Therefore, it became a personal mission. And as in any mission, he was going to do everything in his power to fulfill it.
He would never act on any emotions that could conflict with that decision, because then the mission would be compromised. I think that this order hit Heero really hard, because it was so risky, not only in the aspect of Relena and her feelings, but also in terms of keeping her safe from Cole and any other person who might be a threat to her. Personal involvement even on the level of just caring for someone can cloud logical judgement. His strong reaction to Relena's fears and requests to keep her safe, shows that he knows he will comply with that request even if it means compromising the mission.
Plus, there's also the aspect of protecting her from himself. Seeing as we're completely oblivious to Heero's thoughts (Gosh, darn it!), it's hard to pin-point everything. That's a major guilt trip...she trusts him to keep her safe and yet at the same time, he knows that in this, he can't protect her from both himself and Cole.
Ugh! What angst! Anyhoo, I have to get back to work. And as you can tell from this ridiculously long review, I have no life!
) was different. Dorothy was annoyingly IC.