Last Breath (2xH songfic. angst.)

[Oyuki]

Summary: Duo has a strange dream while visiting Hilde in the hospital.
Author: Oyuki
Pairing: 2xH
Rating: PG

A/N: This will probably be the last thing I post for a good long while... I go back to school on January 15 (who the hell thought a Thursday was a good day to start school?). Yeah, all my fun is over... stupid school.



Warnings: Supernatural-ish... character death... and... Uh.... tissue alert! Also, it?s really short and I didn?t feel like checking the grammar.



Disclaimer: Ok, the characters don?t belong to me. Hilde and Duo belong to Sunrise, Sotsu Agency and Bandai. The song I used for this song is called My Last Breath is owned and performed by Evanescence, who, might I add, are the best at writing and performing sad, depressing, angsty songs! This is my second songfic with one of their songs. Read the lyrics of this song carefully or listen and pay attention to the lyrics.



Last Breath


Hold on to me love

You know I can?t stay long

All I wanted to say was I love you and I?m not afraid

Can you hear me?

Can you feel me in your arms?



Duo sighed as he held Hilde?s pale, lukewarm hand in his much larger one. The tears he?d been trying to hold back starting rolling down his cheeks and his chin trembled. His sniffles made Hilde turn her eyes towards him. Her stared became tender as she gazed at him. Tears pooled in her own eyes as she took in a shallow and shaky breath, knowing it might very well be her last.



Duo?s heart broke at the sound of her breathing, knowing every single minute that passed was painful for her, but he was unwilling to let her go. He did not wish to prolong her pain any longer but knew that he would be alone forever when her pain finally ended.



With another painful breath Hilde spoke to him. ?Duo? Duo, we don?t... I don?t have much time left Duo. And the only thing I regret is leaving you like this. I?m not afraid of dying, Duo, I?m much more afraid of being without you,? she said in an almost whisper. ?But I?m not afraid, it?s just my time now. I love you, Duo, never forget that.?



His hand tightened around hers, but he didn?t say anything. All he could do was lay on the bed next to her and hold her in his arms. He knew it would probably be the last time he held her like his, the last time he would feel her warmth next to his, and knowing this made it sweet torture for him.



Holding my last breath

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight



He didn?t know when exactly he?d fallen asleep, but he knew he was asleep. And he was dreaming. There was white all over and he couldn?t see anything but the brightness of the white room, or wherever he was. Am I dead? he thought for a second. His question lingered in his mind for a second before a painful memory came crashing back. No, he wasn?t dead, but Hilde was dying. She was sick in the hospital and she was dying, slowly but surely.



His heart constricted painfully suddenly when he noticed a presence before him. He couldn?t really see it but it was coming closer. Realization suddenly hit him when the inky black hair became visible to him and the slender woman took shape.



?Hilde,? he whispered painfully. Tears started to roll down his face once again at the sight of her. It was Hilde, as she?d been a few months ago before her health had started to deteriorate. Before she?d gotten really sick.



She smiled at him, the sweetest most beautiful smiled she could have given him. ?Don?t worry about me anymore, darling. And when the time comes, Duo, I want you to come find me. But not before the time comes, love,? she said and reached out to wipe tears away from his eyes.



I?ll miss the winter

A world of fragile things

Look for me in the white forest

Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)

I know you hear me

I can taste it in your tears



Hilde leaned towards him and brushed her lips against his forehead in a feather-like kiss. ?I?m holding my breath, Duo because I want to take your scent with me where I?m going. And all the memories we made together are here,? she said motioning to her heart. ?My life ends here, our lives together end tonight, but all those memories, even the unhappy ones, will stay with us because we love each other, Duo.?



Holding my last breath

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight



Duo sobbed. ?But why you, Hilde? Why us?? he said brokenly. ?Why did this happen to us? We?re so young, we have our whole lives ahead of us! Why not somebody else??



?Shh, Duo. I don?t wish this upon anybody else, Duo. You shouldn?t either. We had a happy life together, Duo, even if it wasn?t a long one. We loved each other to the fullest and we lived our lives to the fullest together. Can you see how good God was to us by giving us that time? That short, but wonderful time? We were happy and that?s all that matters.?



Closing your eyes to disappear

You pray your dreams will leave you here

But still you wake and know the truth

No one?s there


?I don?t want you to go, Hilde! I can?t let you go!?



?It?s not up to you or me Duo. We don?t choose when we die Duo, but we do choose how we live our lives when our loved ones depart. And I want you to be happy, Duo. I don?t want you to be alone or depressed. I want to leave only with happy memories of me, not the sad memories of me being sick. Just remember how much we loved each other. You?ll be fine, Duo. But now I must go, it?s time for me to go. I love you Duo, and I?ll miss you. You?re the best thing that ever happened to me.? Hilde brushed her warm lips against his.



Say goodnight

Don?t be afraid

Calling me, calling me as you fade to black



?Hilde! Hilde please don?t go! Please! HILDE!? Duo screamed. The bright light started to fade, slowly turning into gray and eventually into black.



(Say goodnight)

Holding my last breath

(Don?t be afraid)

Safe inside myself

(Calling me, calling me)

Are all my thoughts of you

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight



Duo was startled awake by the loud beeping noise of the heart monitor that was attached to Hilde. The looked over at it, already knowing that it had flat-lined. The annoying, high pitched sound was like a sadistic requiem of Hilde?s death. He looked down at the woman in his arms and sobbed his sorrow into her now lifeless shoulder.



Holding my last breath

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you

Sweet raptured light

It ends here tonight





The End...



A/N: Short and to the point. It made me sad, this fic did. Anyway, I have to go now. I have to go to school tomorrow? yuck! A new semester? new teachers? the money spent on books!!!!! Please R&R

[Lara Winner]

OMG! *sobs* That was so friggin' sad... *sniffs* She can't die...

[Oyuki]

i'm sorry, there's nothing i can do for her now. she's gone to a better place...

thank you for reading and taking the time to reply!

[Eienvine]

Not Hilde . . . That was absolutely tragic! I really love seeing Duo portrayed as a nice guy who was really in love with Hilde, rather than a rakish womanizer (although that can be a lot of fun, too . . .) Nicely angsty story. Two thumbs up.

[Oyuki]

Eienvine,

this fic made me sad while i was writing it... and i also love seeing duo as an honest, fun-loving, down to earth guy who loves his hilde more than anything and any other woman... but like you said, it's fun when he's being a bastard!

[Darkwing]

Just to let you know...I'm still crying...and this is still a good fiction.

Love you, babe!

[Oyuki]

Darkwing,

aww. thank you eli! i know it's really short, but i wrote it in like 30 minutes. and really glad you liked it!

[Calla Lily]

Whoa. Intense there. I liked it.
As other ppl earlier, this was tragic. But why 2xH?! *sobs*
Wonderful job you did here. Evanescence really does have a way with sad/angsty songs. I love them.

[Oyuki]

Calla Lily,

thank you! why 2xH? because they're my absolute favorite couple ever! i love them! and if i love them, i have to put them in all possible situations my demented mind can come up with... but usually, when i wrote something really angsty, it was 1xR but i didn't think the song fit. i love evanescence too! they're so cool! and amy is so talented!

thanks for reading! glad you liked it!

[PeRiDoTs13]

so sad. i love it. ANGST RULES!!! 2xH, I believe, is my favorite pairing. mmmm....