[FIC] Desires of the Heart

[lilac310]

wow...another masterpiece....I just love the realism of it...It feels so real that it hurts....I'm the sort of 1xR fanatic that believes in fairytale endings...the kind of story where Heero would be the Knight that will forever protect his Princess.

However, this story just reinforced what I already know in my heart as true - that 'that' is not what would likely happen if the Gundam Wing world as we know it actually exists.

I wanna say so much more but my heart is kind of in a lull right now. You're a gifted writer. Just the way you write the story almost without any bias and just presenting the facts as they are, amazes me.

It's so strange how I actually skipped reading the middle parts and went ahead with the"Home Run" chapter being obvious that I was enticed and curious to read the "lemon" part, only to be shocked by the events that followed. Nevertheless, as I went back and read the middle chapters, it seemed clear to me after being aware of Heero's true feelings for Relena that he actually 'unknowingly', if you can say that, LED HER ON.

None of his actions or his words suggested anything further than a simple fling - a mere curiosity and experimentation of a boy deprived of intimacy and affection. I guess, you can say I already had my own bias by then. I just feel bad for Relena. She was doing just fine in terms of quelling her affections for Heero but then, he showed interest and played the part quite well and charmingly, might I add. What's a girl supposed to feel by then?

Relena tried to be as cautious as she could but Heero continued to be close and try as she might, she eventually succumbed to his ministrations and fell in love -- hard.

Anyways, just an awesome story. I've been trying to rack my brain for sequel ideas, just to simply appease myself, but I can't really think of a better ending than this.

CHEERS!

[zapenstap]

Thank you--truly--for such a long and glowing review! I was "into" this story when I wrote it, if that makes any sense and I spent a lot of time brooding and trying to "get it right" so I'm happy that some of the passion I felt in the telling made its way into the story and that you have let me know what you thought about it. In some ways, it's a coming of age story, and the end was the center of the story, the idea around which everything else was wrapped, so it really couldn't have ended any other way. I tried to be very fair to both parties because I "get" them both, but I do feel particular sympathy for Relena because I have BEEN in her place (more than once now) and even when you KNOW what the ending is going to be (and Relena didn't) it is still nearly impossible to be "cautious" enough. I really wanted to communicate that idea because I felt that it was something a lot of people experience. I could write MORE novels about this subject because I have given it so much thought, but in the meantime, I hope that I achieved with this story what I meant to achieve--which is a a bit of truth and an ending that makes sense even if it is not the wished-for ending.

As for sequels, there isn't one, but Amour kind of takes a similar idea in a different direction. With a little tweaking it could read as a sequel. It starts on a "experimental" note as well (sexually speaking--and more honest about it), and gradually gets more complicated. I had to stop working on it for awhile due to ridicuous stress in my working life, but I'd like to finish it--and the original stuff I'm working on as well. So much to do! ><

Anyway, thank you very much for your review! It is very inspirational and now I feel like writing!

[Andrea]

Just had to read this for the nth time. Superb.